The Mill on the Floss
By
George Eliot
Book I: Boy and Girl
Book II: School-Time
Book III: The Downfall
Book IV: The Valley of Humiliation
Book V: Wheat and Tares
Book VI: The Great Temptation
Book VII: The Final Rescue
Chapter I
Outside Dorlcote Mill
A wide plain, where the broadening Floss
hurries on between its green banks to the sea, and the loving tide, rushing to
meet it, checks its passage with an impetuous embrace. On this mighty tide the
black ships–laden with the fresh-scented fir-planks, with rounded sacks
of oil-bearing seed, or with the dark glitter of coal–are borne along to
the town of St. Ogg's, which shows its aged, fluted red roofs and the broad
gables of its wharves between the low wooded hill and the river-brink, tingeing
the water with a soft purple hue under the transient glance of this February
sun. Far away on each hand stretch the rich pastures, and the patches of dark
earth made ready for the seed of broad-leaved green crops, or touched already
with the tint of the tender-bladed autumn-sown corn. There is a remnant still
of last year's golden clusters of beehive-ricks rising at intervals beyond the
hedgerows; and everywhere the hedgerows are studded with trees; the distant
ships seem to be lifting their masts and stretching their red-brown sails close
among the branches of the spreading ash. Just by the red-roofed town the
tributary Ripple flows with a lively current into the Floss. How lovely the little
river is, with its dark changing wavelets! It seems to me like a living
companion while I wander along the bank, and listen to its low, placid voice,
as to the voice of one who is deaf and loving. I remember those large dipping
willows. I remember the stone bridge.
And this is Dorlcote Mill. I must stand a
minute or two here on the bridge and look at it, though the clouds are
threatening, and it is far on in the afternoon. Even in this leafless time of
departing February it is pleasant to look at,–perhaps the chill, damp
season adds a charm to the trimly kept, comfortable dwelling-house, as old as
the elms and chestnuts that shelter it from the northern blast. The stream is
brimful now, and lies high in this little withy plantation, and half drowns the
grassy fringe of the croft in front of the house. As I look at the full stream,
the vivid grass, the delicate bright-green powder softening the outline of the
great trunks and branches that gleam from under the bare purple boughs, I am in
love with moistness, and envy the white ducks that are dipping their heads far
into the water here among the withes, unmindful of the awkward appearance they
make in the drier world above.
The rush of the water and the booming of
the mill bring a dreamy deafness, which seems to heighten the peacefulness of
the scene. They are like a great curtain of sound, shutting one out from the
world beyond. And now there is the thunder of the huge covered wagon coming
home with sacks of grain. That honest wagoner is thinking of his dinner,
getting sadly dry in the oven at this late hour; but he will not touch it till
he has fed his horses,–the strong, submissive, meek-eyed beasts, who, I
fancy, are looking mild reproach at him from between their blinkers, that he
should crack his whip at them in that awful manner as if they needed that hint!
See how they stretch their shoulders up the slope toward the bridge, with all
the more energy because they are so near home. Look at their grand shaggy feet
that seem to grasp the firm earth, at the patient strength of their necks,
bowed under the heavy collar, at the mighty muscles of their struggling
haunches! I should like well to hear them neigh over their hardly earned feed
of corn, and see them, with their moist necks freed from the harness, dipping
their eager nostrils into the muddy pond. Now they are on the bridge, and down
they go again at a swifter pace, and the arch of the covered wagon disappears
at the turning behind the trees.
Now I can turn my eyes toward the mill
again, and watch the unresting wheel sending out its diamond jets of water.
That little girl is watching it too; she has been standing on just the same
spot at the edge of the water ever since I paused on the bridge. And that queer
white cur with the brown ear seems to be leaping and barking in ineffectual
remonstrance with the wheel; perhaps he is jealous because his playfellow in
the beaver bonnet is so rapt in its movement. It is time the little playfellow
went in, I think; and there is a very bright fire to tempt her: the red light
shines out under the deepening gray of the sky. It is time, too, for me to
leave off resting my arms on the cold stone of this bridge….
Ah, my arms are really benumbed. I have
been pressing my elbows on the arms of my chair, and dreaming that I was standing
on the bridge in front of Dorlcote Mill, as it looked one February afternoon
many years ago. Before I dozed off, I was going to tell you what Mr. and Mrs.
Tulliver were talking about, as they sat by the bright fire in the left-hand
parlor, on that very afternoon I have been dreaming of.
Chapter II
Mr. Tulliver, of Dorlcote Mill, Declares His Resolution
about Tom
"What I want, you know," said
Mr. Tulliver,–"what I want is to give Tom a good eddication; an
eddication as'll be a bread to him. That was what I was thinking of when I gave
notice for him to leave the academy at Lady-day. I mean to put him to a
downright good school at Midsummer. The two years at th' academy 'ud ha' done
well enough, if I'd meant to make a miller and farmer of him, for he's had a
fine sight more schoolin' nor I
ever got. All the learnin' my
father ever paid for was a bit o' birch at one end and the alphabet at th'
other. But I should like Tom to be a bit of a scholard, so as he might be up to
the tricks o' these fellows as talk fine and write with a flourish. It 'ud be a
help to me wi' these lawsuits, and arbitrations, and things. I wouldn't make a
downright lawyer o' the lad,–I should be sorry for him to be a
raskill,–but a sort o' engineer, or a surveyor, or an auctioneer and
vallyer, like Riley, or one o' them smartish businesses as are all profits and
no outlay, only for a big watch-chain and a high stool. They're pretty nigh all
one, and they're not far off being even wi' the law, I believe; for Riley looks Lawyer Wakem
i' the face as hard as one cat looks another. He's none frightened at him."
Mr. Tulliver was speaking to his wife, a
blond comely woman in a fan-shaped cap (I am afraid to think how long it is
since fan-shaped caps were worn, they must be so near coming in again. At that
time, when Mrs. Tulliver was nearly forty, they were new at St. Ogg's, and
considered sweet things).
"Well, Mr. Tulliver, you know best: I've no objections. But hadn't I better
kill a couple o' fowl, and have th' aunts and uncles to dinner next week, so as
you may hear what sister Glegg and sister Pullet have got to say about it?
There's a couple o' fowl wants
killing!"
"You may kill every fowl i' the yard
if you like, Bessy; but I shall ask neither aunt nor uncle what I'm to do wi'
my own lad," said Mr. Tulliver, defiantly.
"Dear heart!" said Mrs.
Tulliver, shocked at this sanguinary rhetoric, "how can you talk so, Mr.
Tulliver? But it's your way to speak disrespectful o' my family; and sister
Glegg throws all the blame upo'me, though I'm sure I'm as innocent as the babe
unborn. For nobody's ever heard me say as it wasn't lucky for my children to
have aunts and uncles as can live independent. Howiver, if Tom's to go to a new
school, I should like him to go where I can wash him and mend him; else he
might as well have calico as linen, for they'd be one as yallow as th' other
before they'd been washed half-a-dozen times. And then, when the box is goin'
back'ard and forrard, I could send the lad a cake, or a pork-pie, or an apple;
for he can do with an extry bit, bless him! whether they stint him at the meals
or no. My children can eat as much victuals as most, thank God!"
"Well, well, we won't send him out o'
reach o' the carrier's cart, if other things fit in," said Mr. Tulliver.
"But you mustn't put a spoke i' the wheel about the washin,' if we can't
get a school near enough. That's the fault I have to find wi' you, Bessy; if
you see a stick i' the road, you're allays thinkin' you can't step over it.
You'd want me not to hire a good wagoner, 'cause he'd got a mole on his
face."
"Dear heart!" said Mrs.
Tulliver, in mild surprise, "when did I iver make objections to a man
because he'd got a mole on his face? I'm sure I'm rether fond o' the moles; for
my brother, as is dead an' gone, had a mole on his brow. But I can't remember
your iver offering to hire a wagoner with a mole, Mr. Tulliver. There was John
Gibbs hadn't a mole on his face no more nor you have, an' I was all for having
you hire him; an' so you did
hire him, an' if he hadn't died o' th' inflammation, as we paid Dr. Turnbull
for attending him, he'd very like ha' been drivin' the wagon now. He might have
a mole somewhere out o' sight, but how was I to know that, Mr. Tulliver?"
"No, no, Bessy; I didn't mean justly
the mole; I meant it to stand for summat else; but niver mind–it's
puzzling work, talking is. What I'm thinking on, is how to find the right sort
o' school to send Tom to, for I might be ta'en in again, as I've been wi' th'
academy. I'll have nothing to do wi' a 'cademy again: whativer school I send
Tom to, it sha'n't be a 'cademy; it shall be a place where the lads spend their
time i' summat else besides blacking the family's shoes, and getting up the
potatoes. It's an uncommon puzzling thing to know what school to pick."
Mr. Tulliver paused a minute or two, and
dived with both hands into his breeches pockets as if he hoped to find some
suggestion there. Apparently he was not disappointed, for he presently said,
"I know what I'll do: I'll talk it over wi' Riley; he's coming to-morrow,
t' arbitrate about the dam."
"Well, Mr. Tulliver, I've put the
sheets out for the best bed, and Kezia's got 'em hanging at the fire. They
aren't the best sheets, but they're good enough for anybody to sleep in, be he
who he will; for as for them best Holland sheets, I should repent buying 'em,
only they'll do to lay us out in. An' if you was to die to-morrow, Mr.
Tulliver, they're mangled beautiful, an' all ready, an' smell o' lavender as it
'ud be a pleasure to lay 'em out; an' they lie at the left-hand corner o' the
big oak linen-chest at the back: not as I should trust anybody to look 'em out
but myself."
As Mrs. Tulliver uttered the last
sentence, she drew a bright bunch of keys from her pocket, and singled out one,
rubbing her thumb and finger up and down it with a placid smile while she
looked at the clear fire. If Mr. Tulliver had been a susceptible man in his
conjugal relation, he might have supposed that she drew out the key to aid her
imagination in anticipating the moment when he would be in a state to justify
the production of the best
"I think I've hit it, Bessy,"
was his first remark after a short silence. "Riley's as likely a man as
any to know o' some school; he's had schooling himself, an' goes about to all
sorts o' places, arbitratin' and vallyin' and that. And we shall have time to
talk it over to-morrow night when the business is done. I want Tom to be such a
sort o' man as Riley, you know,–as can talk pretty nigh as well as if it
was all wrote out for him, and knows a good lot o' words as don't mean much, so
as you can't lay hold of 'em i' law; and a good solid knowledge o' business
too."
"Well," said Mrs. Tulliver,
"so far as talking proper, and knowing everything, and walking with a bend
in his back, and setting his hair up, I shouldn't mind the lad being brought up
to that. But them fine-talking men from the big towns mostly wear the false
shirt-fronts; they wear a frill till it's all a mess, and then hide it with a
bib; I know Riley does. And then, if Tom's to go and live at Mudport, like Riley,
he'll have a house with a kitchen hardly big enough to turn in, an' niver get a
fresh egg for his breakfast, an' sleep up three pair o' stairs,–or four,
for what I know,–and be burnt to death before he can get down."
"No, no," said Mr. Tulliver,
"I've no thoughts of his going to Mudport: I mean him to set up his office
at St. Ogg's, close by us, an' live at home. But," continued Mr. Tulliver
after a pause, "what I'm a bit afraid on is, as Tom hasn't got the right
sort o' brains for a smart fellow. I doubt he's a bit slowish. He takes after
your family, Bessy."
"Yes, that he does," said Mrs.
Tulliver, accepting the last proposition entirely on its own merits; "he's
wonderful for liking a deal o' salt in his broth. That was my brother's way,
and my father's before him."
"It seems a bit a pity, though,"
said Mr. Tulliver, "as the lad should take after the mother's side instead
o' the little wench. That's the worst on't wi' crossing o' breeds: you can
never justly calkilate what'll come on't. The little un takes after my side,
now: she's twice as 'cute as Tom. Too 'cute for a woman, I'm afraid,"
continued Mr. Tulliver, turning his head dubiously first on one side and then
on the other. "It's no mischief much while she's a little un; but an
over-'cute woman's no better nor a long-tailed sheep,–she'll fetch none
the bigger price for that."
"Yes, it is a mischief while she's a little un, Mr. Tulliver, for
it runs to naughtiness. How to keep her in a clean pinafore two hours together
passes my cunning. An' now you put me i' mind," continued Mrs. Tulliver,
rising and going to the window, "I don't know where she is now, an' it's
pretty nigh tea-time. Ah, I thought so,–wanderin' up an' down by the
water, like a wild thing: She'll tumble in some day."
Mrs. Tulliver rapped the window sharply,
beckoned, and shook her head,–a process which she repeated more than once
before she returned to her chair.
"You talk o' 'cuteness, Mr.
Tulliver," she observed as she sat down, "but I'm sure the child's
half an idiot i' some things; for if I send her upstairs to fetch anything, she
forgets what she's gone for, an' perhaps 'ull sit down on the floor i' the
sunshine an' plait her hair an' sing to herself like a Bedlam creatur', all the
while I'm waiting for her downstairs. That niver run i' my family, thank God!
no more nor a brown skin as makes her look like a mulatter. I don't like to fly
i' the face o'
"Pooh, nonsense!" said Mr.
Tulliver; "she's a straight, black-eyed wench as anybody need wish to see.
I don't know i' what she's behind other folks's children; and she can read
almost as well as the parson."
"But her hair won't curl all I can do
with it, and she's so franzy about having it put i' paper, and I've such work
as never was to make her stand and have it pinched with th' irons."
"Cut it off–cut it off
short," said the father, rashly.
"How can you talk so, Mr. Tulliver?
She's too big a gell–gone nine, and tall of her age–to have her
hair cut short; an' there's her cousin Lucy's got a row o' curls round her
head, an' not a hair out o' place. It seems hard as my sister Deane should have
that pretty child; I'm sure Lucy takes more after me nor my own child does.
Maggie, Maggie," continued the mother, in a tone of half-coaxing
fretfulness, as this small mistake of nature entered the room, "where's
the use o' my telling you to keep away from the water? You'll tumble in and be
drownded some day, an' then you'll be sorry you didn't do as mother told you."
Maggie's hair, as she threw off her
bonnet, painfully confirmed her mother's accusation. Mrs. Tulliver, desiring
her daughter to have a curled crop, "like other folks's children,"
had had it cut too short in front to be pushed behind the ears; and as it was
usually straight an hour after it had been taken out of paper, Maggie was
incessantly tossing her head to keep the dark, heavy locks out of her gleaming
black eyes,–an action which gave her very much the air of a small
Shetland pony.
"Oh, dear, oh, dear, Maggie, what are
you thinkin'of, to throw your bonnet down there? Take it upstairs, there's a
good gell, an' let your hair be brushed, an' put your other pinafore on, an'
change your shoes, do, for shame; an' come an' go on with your patchwork, like
a little lady."
"Oh, mother," said Maggie, in a
vehemently cross tone, "I don't want
to do my patchwork."
"What! not your pretty patchwork, to
make a counterpane for your aunt Glegg?"
"It's foolish work," said
Maggie, with a toss of her mane,–"tearing things to pieces to sew
'em together again. And I don't want to do anything for my aunt Glegg. I don't
like her."
Exit Maggie, dragging her bonnet by the
string, while Mr. Tulliver laughs audibly.
"I wonder at you, as you'll laugh at
her, Mr. Tulliver," said the mother, with feeble fretfulness in her tone.
"You encourage her i' naughtiness. An' her aunts will have it as it's me
spoils her."
Mrs. Tulliver was what is called a
good-tempered person,–never cried, when she was a baby, on any slighter
ground than hunger and pins; and from the cradle upward had been healthy, fair,
plump, and dull-witted; in short, the flower of her family for beauty and
amiability. But milk and mildness are not the best things for keeping, and when
they turn only a little sour, they may disagree with young stomachs seriously.
I have often wondered whether those early Madonnas of Raphael, with the blond
faces and somewhat stupid expression, kept their placidity undisturbed when
their strong-limbed, strong-willed boys got a little too old to do without
clothing. I think they must have been given to feeble remonstrance, getting
more and more peevish as it became more and more ineffectual.
Chapter III
Mr. Riley Gives His Advice Concerning a School for Tom
The gentleman in the ample white cravat and
shirt-frill, taking his brandy-and-water so pleasantly with his good friend
Tulliver, is Mr. Riley, a gentleman with a waxen complexion and fat hands,
rather highly educated for an auctioneer and appraiser, but large-hearted
enough to show a great deal of bonhomie
toward simple country acquaintances of hospitable habits. Mr. Riley spoke of
such acquaintances kindly as "people of the old school."
The conversation had come to a pause. Mr.
Tulliver, not without a particular reason, had abstained from a seventh recital
of the cool retort by which Riley had shown himself too many for Dix, and how
Wakem had had his comb cut for once in his life, now the business of the dam
had been settled by arbitration, and how there never would have been any
dispute at all about the height of water if everybody was what they should be,
and Old Harry hadn't made the lawyers.
Mr. Tulliver was, on the whole, a man of
safe traditional opinions; but on one or two points he had trusted to his
unassisted intellect, and had arrived at several questionable conclusions;
amongst the rest, that rats, weevils, and lawyers were created by Old Harry.
Unhappily he had no one to tell him that this was rampant Manichæism, else he
might have seen his error. But to-day it was clear that the good principle was
triumphant: this affair of the water-power had been a tangled business somehow,
for all it seemed–look at it one way–as plain as water's water;
but, big a puzzle as it was, it hadn't got the better of Riley. Mr. Tulliver
took his brandy-and-water a little stronger than usual, and, for a man who
might be supposed to have a few hundreds lying idle at his banker's, was rather
incautiously open in expressing his high estimate of his friend's business
talents.
But the dam was a subject of conversation
that would keep; it could always be taken up again at the same point, and
exactly in the same condition; and there was another subject, as you know, on
which Mr. Tulliver was in pressing want of Mr. Riley's advice. This was his
particular reason for remaining silent for a short space after his last
draught, and rubbing his knees in a meditative manner. He was not a man to make
an abrupt transition. This was a puzzling world, as he often said, and if you
drive your wagon in a hurry, you may light on an awkward corner. Mr. Riley,
meanwhile, was not impatient. Why should he be? Even Hotspur, one would think,
must have been patient in his slippers on a warm hearth, taking copious snuff,
and sipping gratuitous brandy-and-water.
"There's a thing I've got i' my
head," said Mr. Tulliver at last, in rather a lower tone than usual, as he
turned his head and looked steadfastly at his companion.
"Ah!" said Mr. Riley, in a tone
of mild interest. He was a man with heavy waxen eyelids and high-arched
eyebrows, looking exactly the same under all circumstances. This immovability
of face, and the habit of taking a pinch of snuff before he gave an answer,
made him trebly oracular to Mr. Tulliver.
"It's a very particular thing,"
he went on; "it's about my boy Tom."
At the sound of this name, Maggie, who was
seated on a low stool close by the fire, with a large book open on her lap,
shook her heavy hair back and looked up eagerly. There were few sounds that
roused Maggie when she was dreaming over her book, but Tom's name served as
well as the shrillest whistle; in an instant she was on the watch, with
gleaming eyes, like a Skye terrier suspecting mischief, or at all events
determined to fly at any one who threatened it toward Tom.
"You see, I want to put him to a new
school at Midsummer," said Mr. Tulliver; "he's comin' away from the
'cademy at Lady-day, an' I shall let him run loose for a quarter; but after
that I want to send him to a downright good school, where they'll make a
scholard of him."
"Well," said Mr. Riley,
"there's no greater advantage you can give him than a good education.
Not," he added, with polite significance,–"not that a man can't
be an excellent miller and farmer, and a shrewd, sensible fellow into the
bargain, without much help from the schoolmaster."
"I believe you," said Mr.
Tulliver, winking, and turning his head on one side; "but that's where it
is. I don't mean Tom to be a
miller and farmer. I see no fun i' that. Why, if I made him a miller an'
farmer, he'd be expectin' to take to the mill an' the land, an' a-hinting at me
as it was time for me to lay by an' think o' my latter end. Nay, nay, I've seen
enough o' that wi' sons. I'll never pull my coat off before I go to bed. I
shall give Tom an eddication an' put him to a business, as he may make a nest
for himself, an' not want to push me out o' mine. Pretty well if he gets it
when I'm dead an' gone. I sha'n't be put off wi' spoon-meat afore I've lost my
teeth."
This was evidently a point on which Mr.
Tulliver felt strongly; and the impetus which had given unusual rapidity and
emphasis to his speech showed itself still unexhausted for some minutes
afterward in a defiant motion of the head from side to side, and an occasional
"Nay, nay," like a subsiding growl.
These angry symptoms were keenly observed
by Maggie, and cut her to the quick. Tom, it appeared, was supposed capable of
turning his father out of doors, and of making the future in some way tragic by
his wickedness. This was not to be borne; and Maggie jumped up from her stool,
forgetting all about her heavy book, which fell with a bang within the fender,
and going up between her father's knees, said, in a half-crying, half-indignant
voice,–
"Father, Tom wouldn't be naughty to
you ever; I know he wouldn't."
Mrs. Tulliver was out of the room
superintending a choice supper-dish, and Mr. Tulliver's heart was touched; so
Maggie was not scolded about the book. Mr. Riley quietly picked it up and
looked at it, while the father laughed, with a certain tenderness in his hard-lined
face, and patted his little girl on the back, and then held her hands and kept
her between his knees.
"What! they mustn't say any harm o'
Tom, eh?" said Mr. Tulliver, looking at Maggie with a twinkling eye. Then,
in a lower voice, turning to Mr. Riley, as though Maggie couldn't hear,
"She understands what one's talking about so as never was. And you should
hear her read,–straight off, as if she knowed it all beforehand. And
allays at her book! But it's bad–it's bad," Mr. Tulliver added
sadly, checking this blamable exultation. "A woman's no business wi' being
so clever; it'll turn to trouble, I doubt. But bless you!"–here the
exultation was clearly recovering the mastery,–"she'll read the
books and understand 'em better nor half the folks as are growed up."
Maggie's cheeks began to flush with
triumphant excitement. She thought Mr. Riley would have a respect for her now;
it had been evident that he thought nothing of her before.
Mr. Riley was turning over the leaves of
the book, and she could make nothing of his face, with its high-arched
eyebrows; but he presently looked at her, and said,–
"Come, come and tell me something
about this book; here are some pictures,–I want to know what they
mean."
Maggie, with deepening color, went without
hesitation to Mr. Riley's elbow and looked over the book, eagerly seizing one
corner, and tossing back her mane, while she said,–
"Oh, I'll tell you what that means.
It's a dreadful picture, isn't it? But I can't help looking at it. That old
woman in the water's a witch,–they've put her in to find out whether
she's a witch or no; and if she swims she's a witch, and if she's
drowned–and killed, you know–she's innocent, and not a witch, but
only a poor silly old woman. But what good would it do her then, you know, when
she was drowned? Only, I suppose, she'd go to heaven, and God would make it up
to her. And this dreadful blacksmith with his arms akimbo, laughing,–oh,
isn't he ugly?–I'll tell you what he is. He's the Devil really" (here Maggie's voice
became louder and more emphatic), "and not a right blacksmith; for the
Devil takes the shape of wicked men, and walks about and sets people doing
wicked things, and he's oftener in the shape of a bad man than any other, because,
you know, if people saw he was the Devil, and he roared at 'em, they'd run
away, and he couldn't make 'em do what he pleased."
Mr. Tulliver had listened to this
exposition of Maggie's with petrifying wonder.
"Why, what book is it the wench has
got hold on?" he burst out at last.
"The 'History of the Devil,' by
Daniel Defoe,–not quite the right book for a little girl," said Mr.
Riley. "How came it among your books, Mr. Tulliver?"
Maggie looked hurt and discouraged, while
her father said,–
"Why, it's one o' the books I bought
at Partridge's sale. They was all bound alike,–it's a good binding, you
see,–and I thought they'd be all good books. There's Jeremy
"Well," said Mr. Riley, in an
admonitory, patronizing tone as he patted Maggie on the head, "I advise
you to put by the 'History of the Devil,' and read some prettier book. Have you
no prettier books?"
"Oh, yes," said Maggie, reviving
a little in the desire to vindicate the variety of her reading. "I know
the reading in this book isn't pretty; but I like the pictures, and I make
stories to the pictures out of my own head, you know. But I've got 'Æsop's
Fables,' and a book about Kangaroos and things, and the 'Pilgrim's
Progress.'"
"Ah, a beautiful book," said Mr.
Riley; "you can't read a better."
"Well, but there's a great deal about
the Devil in that," said Maggie, triumphantly, "and I'll show you the
picture of him in his true shape, as he fought with Christian."
Maggie ran in an instant to the corner of
the room, jumped on a chair, and reached down from the small bookcase a shabby
old copy of Bunyan, which opened at once, without the least trouble of search,
at the picture she wanted.
"Here he is," she said, running
back to Mr. Riley, "and Tom colored him for me with his paints when he was
at home last holidays,–the body all black, you know, and the eyes red,
like fire, because he's all fire inside, and it shines out at his eyes."
"Go, go!" said Mr. Tulliver,
peremptorily, beginning to feel rather uncomfortable at these free remarks on
the personal appearance of a being powerful enough to create lawyers;
"shut up the book, and let's hear no more o' such talk. It is as I thought–the
child 'ull learn more mischief nor good wi' the books. Go, go and see after
your mother."
Maggie shut up the book at once, with a
sense of disgrace, but not being inclined to see after her mother, she
compromised the matter by going into a dark corner behind her father's chair,
and nursing her doll, toward which she had an occasional fit of fondness in
Tom's absence, neglecting its toilet, but lavishing so many warm kisses on it
that the waxen cheeks had a wasted, unhealthy appearance.
"Did you ever hear the like
on't?" said Mr. Tulliver, as Maggie retired. "It's a pity but what
she'd been the lad,–she'd ha' been a match for the lawyers, she would. It's the wonderful'st
thing"–here he lowered his voice–"as I picked the mother
because she wasn't o'er 'cute–bein' a good-looking woman too, an' come of
a rare family for managing; but I picked her from her sisters o' purpose,
'cause she was a bit weak like; for I wasn't agoin' to be told the rights o'
things by my own fireside. But you see when a man's got brains himself, there's
no knowing where they'll run to; an' a pleasant sort o' soft woman may go on
breeding you stupid lads and 'cute wenches, till it's like as if the world was
turned topsy-turvy. It's an uncommon puzzlin' thing."
Mr. Riley's gravity gave way, and he shook
a little under the application of his pinch of snuff before he said,–
"But your lad's not stupid, is he? I
saw him, when I was here last, busy making fishing-tackle; he seemed quite up
to it."
"Well, he isn't not to say
stupid,–he's got a notion o' things out o' door, an' a sort o' common
sense, as he'd lay hold o' things by the right handle. But he's slow with his
tongue, you see, and he reads but poorly, and can't abide the books, and spells
all wrong, they tell me, an' as shy as can be wi' strangers, an' you never hear
him say 'cute things like the little wench. Now, what I want is to send him to
a school where they'll make him a bit nimble with his tongue and his pen, and
make a smart chap of him. I want my son to be even wi' these fellows as have
got the start o' me with having better schooling. Not but what, if the world
had been left as God made it, I could ha' seen my way, and held my own wi' the
best of 'em; but things have got so twisted round and wrapped up i'
unreasonable words, as aren't a bit like 'em, as I'm clean at fault, often an'
often. Everything winds about so–the more straightforrad you are, the
more you're puzzled."
Mr. Tulliver took a draught, swallowed it
slowly, and shook his head in a melancholy manner, conscious of exemplifying
the truth that a perfectly sane intellect is hardly at home in this insane
world.
"You're quite in the right of it,
Tulliver," observed Mr. Riley. "Better spend an extra hundred or two
on your son's education, than leave it him in your will. I know I should have
tried to do so by a son of mine, if I'd had one, though, God knows, I haven't
your ready money to play with, Tulliver; and I have a houseful of daughters
into the bargain."
"I dare say, now, you know of a
school as 'ud be just the thing for Tom," said Mr. Tulliver, not diverted
from his purpose by any sympathy with Mr. Riley's deficiency of ready cash.
Mr. Riley took a pinch of snuff, and kept
Mr. Tulliver in suspense by a silence that seemed deliberative, before he
said,–
"I know of a very fine chance for any
one that's got the necessary money and that's what you have, Tulliver. The fact
is, I wouldn't recommend any friend of mine to send a boy to a regular school,
if he could afford to do better. But if any one wanted his boy to get superior
instruction and training, where he would be the companion of his master, and
that master a first rate fellow, I know his man. I wouldn't mention the chance
to everybody, because I don't think everybody would succeed in getting it, if
he were to try; but I mention it to you, Tulliver, between ourselves."
The fixed inquiring glance with which Mr.
Tulliver had been watching his friend's oracular face became quite eager.
"Ay, now, let's hear," he said,
adjusting himself in his chair with the complacency of a person who is thought
worthy of important communications.
"He's an
"What! a parson?" said Mr. Tulliver,
rather doubtfully.
"Yes, and an M.A. The bishop, I
understand, thinks very highly of him: why, it was the bishop who got him his
present curacy."
"Ah?" said Mr. Tulliver, to whom
one thing was as wonderful as another concerning these unfamiliar phenomena.
"But what can he want wi' Tom, then?"
"Why, the fact is, he's fond of
teaching, and wishes to keep up his studies, and a clergyman has but little
opportunity for that in his parochial duties. He's willing to take one or two
boys as pupils to fill up his time profitably. The boys would be quite of the
family,–the finest thing in the world for them; under Stelling's eye
continually."
"But do you think they'd give the
poor lad twice o' pudding?" said Mrs. Tulliver, who was now in her place
again. "He's such a boy for pudding as never was; an' a growing boy like
that,–it's dreadful to think o' their stintin' him."
"And what money 'ud he want?"
said Mr. Tulliver, whose instinct told him that the services of this admirable
M.A. would bear a high price.
"Why, I know of a clergyman who asks
a hundred and fifty with his youngest pupils, and he's not to be mentioned with
Stelling, the man I speak of. I know, on good authority, that one of the chief
people at
"Ah, a deal better–a deal
better," said Mr. Tulliver; "but a hundred and fifty's an uncommon
price. I never thought o' paying so much as that."
"A good education, let me tell you,
Tulliver,–a good education is cheap at the money. But Stelling is
moderate in his terms; he's not a grasping man. I've no doubt he'd take your
boy at a hundred, and that's what you wouldn't get many other clergymen to do.
I'll write to him about it, if you like."
Mr. Tulliver rubbed his knees, and looked
at the carpet in a meditative manner.
"But belike he's a bachelor,"
observed Mrs. Tulliver, in the interval; "an' I've no opinion o'
housekeepers. There was my brother, as is dead an' gone, had a housekeeper
once, an' she took half the feathers out o' the best bed, an' packed 'em up an'
sent 'em away. An' it's unknown the linen she made away with–Stott her
name was. It 'ud break my heart to send Tom where there's a housekeeper, an' I
hope you won't think of it, Mr. Tulliver."
"You may set your mind at rest on
that score, Mrs. Tulliver," said Mr. Riley, "for Stelling is married
to as nice a little woman as any man need wish for a wife. There isn't a kinder
little soul in the world; I know her family well. She has very much your
complexion,–light curly hair. She comes of a good Mudport family, and
it's not every offer that would have been acceptable in that quarter. But
Stelling's not an every-day man; rather a particular fellow as to the people he
chooses to be connected with. But I think
he would have no objection to take your son; I think he would not, on my representation."
"I don't know what he could have against the lad," said Mrs.
Tulliver, with a slight touch of motherly indignation; "a nice fresh-skinned
lad as anybody need wish to see."
"But there's one thing I'm thinking
on," said Mr. Tulliver, turning his head on one side and looking at Mr.
Riley, after a long perusal of the carpet. "Wouldn't a parson be almost
too high-learnt to bring up a lad to be a man o' business? My notion o' the
parsons was as they'd got a sort o' learning as lay mostly out o' sight. And
that isn't what I want for Tom. I want him to know figures, and write like
print, and see into things quick, and know what folks mean, and how to wrap
things up in words as aren't actionable. It's an uncommon fine thing, that
is," concluded Mr. Tulliver, shaking his head, "when you can let a
man know what you think of him without paying for it."
"Oh, my dear Tulliver," said Mr.
Riley, "you're quite under a mistake about the clergy; all the best
schoolmasters are of the clergy. The schoolmasters who are not clergymen are a
very low set of men generally."
"Ay, that Jacobs is, at the
'cademy," interposed Mr. Tulliver.
"To be sure,–men who have
failed in other trades, most likely. Now, a clergyman is a gentleman by
profession and education; and besides that, he has the knowledge that will
ground a boy, and prepare him for entering on any career with credit. There may
be some clergymen who are mere bookmen; but you may depend upon it, Stelling is
not one of them,–a man that's wide awake, let me tell you. Drop him a
hint, and that's enough. You talk of figures, now; you have only to say to
Stelling, 'I want my son to be a thorough arithmetician,' and you may leave the
rest to him."
Mr. Riley paused a moment, while Mr.
Tulliver, some-what reassured as to clerical tutorship, was inwardly rehearsing
to an imaginary Mr. Stelling the statement, "I want my son to know
'rethmetic."
"You see, my dear Tulliver," Mr.
Riley continued, "when you get a thoroughly educated man, like Stelling,
he's at no loss to take up any branch of instruction. When a workman knows the
use of his tools, he can make a door as well as a window."
"Ay, that's true," said Mr.
Tulliver, almost convinced now that the clergy must be the best of
schoolmasters.
"Well, I'll tell you what I'll do for
you," said Mr. Riley, "and I wouldn't do it for everybody. I'll see
Stelling's father-in-law, or drop him a line when I get back to Mudport, to say
that you wish to place your boy with his son-in-law, and I dare say Stelling
will write to you, and send you his terms."
"But there's no hurry, is
there?" said Mrs. Tulliver; "for I hope, Mr. Tulliver, you won't let
Tom begin at his new school before Midsummer. He began at the 'cademy at the
Lady-day quarter, and you see what good's come of it."
"Ay, ay, Bessy, never brew wi' bad
malt upo' Michael-masday, else you'll have a poor tap," said Mr. Tulliver,
winking and smiling at Mr. Riley, with the natural pride of a man who has a
buxom wife conspicuously his inferior in intellect. "But it's true there's
no hurry; you've hit it there, Bessy."
"It might be as well not to defer the
arrangement too long," said Mr. Riley, quietly, "for Stelling may have
propositions from other parties, and I know he would not take more than two or
three boarders, if so many. If I were you, I think I would enter on the subject
with Stelling at once: there's no necessity for sending the boy before
Midsummer, but I would be on the safe side, and make sure that nobody
forestalls you."
"Ay, there's summat in that,"
said Mr. Tulliver.
"Father," broke in Maggie, who
had stolen unperceived to her father's elbow again, listening with parted lips,
while she held her doll topsy-turvy, and crushed its nose against the wood of
the chair,–"father, is it a long way off where Tom is to go? Sha'n't
we ever go to see him?"
"I don't know, my wench," said
the father, tenderly. "Ask Mr. Riley; he knows."
Maggie came round promptly in front of Mr.
Riley, and said, "How far is it, please, sir?"
"Oh, a long, long way off," that
gentleman answered, being of opinion that children, when they are not naughty,
should always be spoken to jocosely. "You must borrow the seven-leagued
boots to get to him."
"That's nonsense!" said Maggie,
tossing her head haughtily, and turning away, with the tears springing in her
eyes. She began to dislike Mr. Riley; it was evident he thought her silly and
of no consequence.
"Hush, Maggie! for shame of you,
asking questions and chattering," said her mother. "Come and sit down
on your little stool, and hold your tongue, do. But," added Mrs. Tulliver,
who had her own alarm awakened, "is it so far off as I couldn't wash him
and mend him?"
"About fifteen miles; that's
all," said Mr. Riley. "You can drive there and back in a day quite
comfortably. Or–Stelling is a hospitable, pleasant man–he'd be glad
to have you stay."
"But it's too far off for the linen,
I doubt," said Mrs. Tulliver, sadly.
The entrance of supper opportunely
adjourned this difficulty, and relieved Mr. Riley from the labor of suggesting
some solution or compromise,–a labor which he would otherwise doubtless
have undertaken; for, as you perceive, he was a man of very obliging manners.
And he had really given himself the trouble of recommending Mr. Stelling to his
friend Tulliver without any positive expectation of a solid, definite advantage
resulting to himself, notwithstanding the subtle indications to the contrary
which might have misled a too-sagacious observer. For there is nothing more
widely misleading than sagacity if it happens to get on a wrong scent; and
sagacity, persuaded that men usually act and speak from distinct motives, with
a consciously proposed end in view, is certain to waste its energies on
imaginary game.
Plotting covetousness and deliberate
contrivance, in order to compass a selfish end, are nowhere abundant but in the
world of the dramatist: they demand too intense a mental action for many of our
fellow-parishioners to be guilty of them. It is easy enough to spoil the lives
of our neighbors without taking so much trouble; we can do it by lazy
acquiescence and lazy omission, by trivial falsities for which we hardly know a
reason, by small frauds neutralized by small extravagances, by maladroit
flatteries, and clumsily improvised insinuations. We live from hand to mouth,
most of us, with a small family of immediate desires; we do little else than
snatch a morsel to satisfy the hungry brood, rarely thinking of seed-corn or
the next year's crop.
Mr. Riley was a man of business, and not
cold toward his own interest, yet even he was more under the influence of small
promptings than of far-sighted designs. He had no private understanding with
the Rev. Walter Stelling; on the contrary, he knew very little of that M.A. and
his acquirements,–not quite enough, perhaps, to warrant so strong a
recommendation of him as he had given to his friend Tulliver. But he believed
Mr. Stelling to be an excellent classic, for Gadsby had said so, and Gadsby's
first cousin was an Oxford tutor; which was better ground for the belief even
than his own immediate observation would have been, for though Mr. Riley had
received a tincture of the classics at the great Mudport Free School, and had a
sense of understanding Latin generally, his comprehension of any particular
Latin was not ready. Doubtless there remained a subtle aroma from his juvenile
contact with the "De Senectute" and the fourth book of the
"Æneid," but it had ceased to be distinctly recognizable as
classical, and was only perceived in the higher finish and force of his
auctioneering style. Then, Stelling was an
If you blame Mr. Riley very severely for
giving a recommendation on such slight grounds, I must say you are rather hard
upon him. Why should an auctioneer and appraiser thirty years ago, who had as
good as forgotten his free-school Latin, be expected to manifest a delicate
scrupulosity which is not always exhibited by gentlemen of the learned
professions, even in our present advanced stage of morality?
Besides, a man with the milk of human
kindness in him can scarcely abstain from doing a good-natured action, and one
cannot be good-natured all round. Nature herself occasionally quarters an
inconvenient parasite on an animal toward whom she has otherwise no ill will.
What then? We admire her care for the parasite. If Mr. Riley had shrunk from
giving a recommendation that was not based on valid evidence, he would not have
helped Mr. Stelling to a paying pupil, and that would not have been so well for
the reverend gentleman. Consider, too, that all the pleasant little dim ideas
and complacencies–of standing well with Timpson, of dispensing advice
when he was asked for it, of impressing his friend Tulliver with additional
respect, of saying something, and saying it emphatically, with other
inappreciably minute ingredients that went along with the warm hearth and the
brandy-and-water to make up Mr. Riley's consciousness on this
occasion–would have been a mere blank.
It was a heavy disappointment to Maggie
that she was not allowed to go with her father in the gig when he went to fetch
Tom home from the academy; but the morning was too wet, Mrs. Tulliver said, for
a little girl to go out in her best bonnet. Maggie took the opposite view very
strongly, and it was a direct consequence of this difference of opinion that
when her mother was in the act of brushing out the reluctant black crop Maggie
suddenly rushed from under her hands and dipped her head in a basin of water
standing near, in the vindictive determination that there should be no more
chance of curls that day.
"Maggie, Maggie!" exclaimed Mrs.
Tulliver, sitting stout and helpless with the brushes on her lap, "what is
to become of you if you're so naughty? I'll tell your aunt Glegg and your aunt
Pullet when they come next week, and they'll never love you any more. Oh dear,
oh dear! look at your clean pinafore, wet from top to bottom. Folks 'ull think
it's a judgment on me as I've got such a child,–they'll think I've done
summat wicked."
Before this remonstrance was finished,
Maggie was already out of hearing, making her way toward the great attic that
run under the old high-pitched roof, shaking the water from her black locks as
she ran, like a Skye terrier escaped from his bath. This attic was Maggie's
favorite retreat on a wet day, when the weather was not too cold; here she
fretted out all her ill humors, and talked aloud to the worm-eaten floors and
the worm-eaten shelves, and the dark rafters festooned with cobwebs; and here
she kept a Fetish which she punished for all her misfortunes. This was the
trunk of a large wooden doll, which once stared with the roundest of eyes above
the reddest of cheeks; but was now entirely defaced by a long career of
vicarious suffering. Three nails driven into the head commemorated as many
crises in Maggie's nine years of earthly struggle; that luxury of vengeance
having been suggested to her by the picture of Jael destroying Sisera in the
old Bible. The last nail had been driven in with a fiercer stroke than usual,
for the Fetish on that occasion represented aunt Glegg. But immediately
afterward Maggie had reflected that if she drove many nails in she would not be
so well able to fancy that the head was hurt when she knocked it against the
wall, nor to comfort it, and make believe to poultice it, when her fury was
abated; for even aunt Glegg would be pitiable when she had been hurt very much,
and thoroughly humiliated, so as to beg her niece's pardon. Since then she had
driven no more nails in, but had soothed herself by alternately grinding and
beating the wooden head against the rough brick of the great chimneys that made
two square pillars supporting the roof. That was what she did this morning on
reaching the attic, sobbing all the while with a passion that expelled every
other form of consciousness,–even the memory of the grievance that had
caused it. As at last the sobs were getting quieter, and the grinding less
fierce, a sudden beam of sunshine, falling through the wire lattice across the
worm-eaten shelves, made her throw away the Fetish and run to the window. The
sun was really breaking out; the sound of the mill seemed cheerful again; the
granary doors were open; and there was
"Hegh, hegh, Miss! you'll make
yourself giddy, an' tumble down i' the dirt," said Luke, the head miller,
a tall, broad-shouldered man of forty, black-eyed and black-haired, subdued by
a general mealiness, like an auricula.
Maggie paused in her whirling and said,
staggering a little, "Oh no, it doesn't make me giddy, Luke; may I go into
the mill with you?"
Maggie loved to linger in the great spaces
of the mill, and often came out with her black hair powdered to a soft
whiteness that made her dark eyes flash out with new fire. The resolute din,
the unresting motion of the great stones, giving her a dim, delicious awe as at
the presence of an uncontrollable force; the meal forever pouring, pouring; the
fine white powder softening all surfaces, and making the very spidernets look
like a faery lace-work; the sweet, pure scent of the meal,–all helped to
make Maggie feel that the mill was a little world apart from her outside
every-day life. The spiders were especially a subject of speculation with her.
She wondered if they had any relatives outside the mill, for in that case there
must be a painful difficulty in their family intercourse,–a fat and
floury spider, accustomed to take his fly well dusted with meal, must suffer a
little at a cousin's table where the fly was au
naturel, and the lady spiders must be mutually shocked at each
other's appearance. But the part of the mill she liked best was the topmost
story,–the corn-hutch, where there were the great heaps of grain, which
she could sit on and slide down continually. She was in the habit of taking
this recreation as she conversed with Luke, to whom she was very communicative,
wishing him to think well of her understanding, as her father did.
Perhaps she felt it necessary to recover
her position with him on the present occasion for, as she sat sliding on the
heap of grain near which he was busying himself, she said, at that shrill pitch
which was requisite in mill-society,–
"I think you never read any book but
the Bible, did you, Luke?"
"Nay, Miss, an' not much o'
that," said Luke, with great frankness. "I'm no reader, I
aren't."
"But if I lent you one of my books,
Luke? I've not got any very
pretty books that would be easy for you to read; but there's 'Pug's Tour of
Europe,'–that would tell you all about the different sorts of people in
the world, and if you didn't understand the reading, the pictures would help you;
they show the looks and ways of the people, and what they do. There are the
Dutchmen, very fat, and smoking, you know, and one sitting on a barrel."
"Nay, Miss, I'n no opinion o'
Dutchmen. There ben't much good i' knowin' about them."
"But they're our fellow-creatures,
Luke; we ought to know about our fellow-creatures."
"Not much o' fellow-creaturs, I
think, Miss; all I know–my old master, as war a knowin' man, used to say,
says he, 'If e'er I sow my wheat wi'out brinin', I'm a Dutchman,' says he; an'
that war as much as to say as a Dutchman war a fool, or next door. Nay, nay, I
aren't goin' to bother mysen about Dutchmen. There's fools enoo, an' rogues
enoo, wi'out lookin' i' books for 'em."
"Oh, well," said Maggie, rather
foiled by Luke's unexpectedly decided views about Dutchmen, "perhaps you
would like 'Animated Nature' better; that's not Dutchmen, you know, but
elephants and kangaroos, and the civet-cat, and the sunfish, and a bird sitting
on its tail,–I forget its name. There are countries full of those
creatures, instead of horses and cows, you know. Shouldn't you like to know
about them, Luke?"
"Nay, Miss, I'n got to keep count o'
the flour an' corn; I can't do wi' knowin' so many things besides my work.
That's what brings folks to the gallows,–knowin' everything but what
they'n got to get their bread by. An' they're mostly lies, I think, what's
printed i' the books: them printed sheets are, anyhow, as the men cry i' the
streets."
"Why, you're like my brother Tom,
Luke," said Maggie, wishing to turn the conversation agreeably;
"Tom's not fond of reading. I love Tom so dearly, Luke,–better than
anybody else in the world. When he grows up I shall keep his house, and we
shall always live together. I can tell him everything he doesn't know. But I
think Tom's clever, for all he doesn't like books; he makes beautiful whipcord
and rabbit-pens."
"Ah," said Luke, "but he'll
be fine an' vexed, as the rabbits are all dead."
"Dead!" screamed Maggie, jumping
up from her sliding seat on the corn. "Oh dear, Luke! What! the lop-eared
one, and the spotted doe that Tom spent all his money to buy?"
"As dead as moles," said Luke,
fetching his comparison from the unmistakable corpses nailed to the stable
wall.
"Oh dear, Luke," said Maggie, in
a piteous tone, while the big tears rolled down her cheek; "Tom told me to
take care of 'em, and I forgot. What shall
I do?"
"Well, you see, Miss, they were in
that far tool-house, an' it was nobody's business to see to 'em. I reckon
Master Tom told Harry to feed 'em, but there's no countin' on Harry; he's an offal creatur as iver come
about the primises, he is. He remembers nothing but his own inside–an' I
wish it'ud gripe him."
"Oh, Luke, Tom told me to be sure and
remember the rabbits every day; but how could I, when they didn't come into my
head, you know? Oh, he will be so angry with me, I know he will, and so sorry
about his rabbits, and so am I sorry. Oh, what shall I do?"
"Don't you fret, Miss," said
Luke, soothingly; "they're nash things, them lop-eared rabbits; they'd
happen ha' died, if they'd been fed. Things out o' natur niver thrive: God
A'mighty doesn't like 'em. He made the rabbits' ears to lie back, an' it's
nothin' but contrairiness to make 'em hing down like a mastiff dog's. Master
Tom 'ull know better nor buy such things another time. Don't you fret, Miss.
Will you come along home wi' me, and see my wife? I'm a-goin' this
minute."
The invitation offered an agreeable
distraction to Maggie's grief, and her tears gradually subsided as she trotted
along by Luke's side to his pleasant cottage, which stood with its apple and
pear trees, and with the added dignity of a lean-to pigsty, at the other end of
the Mill fields. Mrs. Moggs, Luke's wife, was a decidely agreeable
acquaintance. She exhibited her hospitality in bread and treacle, and possessed
various works of art. Maggie actually forgot that she had any special cause of
sadness this morning, as she stood on a chair to look at a remarkable series of
pictures representing the Prodigal Son in the costume of Sir Charles Grandison,
except that, as might have been expected from his defective moral character, he
had not, like that accomplished hero, the taste and strength of mind to
dispense with a wig. But the indefinable weight the dead rabbits had left on
her mind caused her to feel more than usual pity for the career of this weak
young man, particularly when she looked at the picture where he leaned against
a tree with a flaccid appearance, his knee-breeches unbuttoned and his wig
awry, while the swine apparently of some foreign breed, seemed to insult him by
their good spirits over their feast of husks.
"I'm very glad his father took him
back again, aren't you, Luke?" she said. "For he was very sorry, you
know, and wouldn't do wrong again."
"Eh, Miss," said Luke,
"he'd be no great shakes, I doubt, let's feyther do what he would for
him."
That was a painful thought to Maggie, and
she wished much that the subsequent history of the young man had not been left
a blank.
Tom was to arrive early in the afternoon,
and there was another fluttering heart besides Maggie's when it was late enough
for the sound of the gig-wheels to be expected; for if Mrs. Tulliver had a
strong feeling, it was fondness for her boy. At last the sound came,–that
quick light bowling of the gig-wheels,–and in spite of the wind, which
was blowing the clouds about, and was not likely to respect Mrs. Tulliver's
curls and cap-strings, she came outside the door, and even held her hand on
Maggie's offending head, forgetting all the griefs of the morning.
"There he is, my sweet lad! But, Lord
ha' mercy! he's got never a collar on; it's been lost on the road, I'll be
bound, and spoilt the set."
Mrs. Tulliver stood with her arms open;
Maggie jumped first on one leg and then on the other; while Tom descended from
the gig, and said, with masculine reticence as to the tender emotions,
"Hallo! Yap–what! are you there?"
Nevertheless he submitted to be kissed
willingly enough, though Maggie hung on his neck in rather a strangling
fashion, while his blue-gray eyes wandered toward the croft and the lambs and
the river, where he promised himself that he would begin to fish the first
thing to-morrow morning. He was one of those lads that grow everywhere in
England, and at twelve or thirteen years of age look as much alike as
goslings,–a lad with light-brown hair, cheeks of cream and roses, full
lips, indeterminate nose and eyebrows,–a physiognomy in which it seems
impossible to discern anything but the generic character to boyhood; as
different as possible from poor Maggie's phiz, which Nature seemed to have
moulded and colored with the most decided intention. But that same Nature has
the deep cunning which hides itself under the appearance of openness, so that
simple people think they can see through her quite well, and all the while she
is secretly preparing a refutation of their confident prophecies. Under these
average boyish physiognomies that she seems to turn off by the gross, she
conceals some of her most rigid, inflexible purposes, some of her most unmodifiable
characters; and the dark-eyed, demonstrative, rebellious girl may after all
turn out to be a passive being compared with this pink-and-white bit of
masculinity with the indeterminate features.
"Maggie," said Tom,
confidentially, taking her into a corner, as soon as his mother was gone out to
examine his box and the warm parlor had taken off the chill he had felt from
the long drive, "you don't know what I've got in my pockets," nodding his head up
and down as a means of rousing her sense of mystery.
"No," said Maggie. "How
stodgy they look, Tom! Is it marls (marbles) or cobnuts?" Maggie's heart
sank a little, because Tom always said it was "no good" playing with her at those games, she played so
badly.
"Marls! no; I've swopped all my marls
with the little fellows, and cobnuts are no fun, you silly, only when the nuts
are green. But see here!" He drew something half out of his right-hand
pocket.
"What is it?" said Maggie, in a
whisper. "I can see nothing but a bit of yellow."
"Why,
it's–a–new–guess, Maggie!"
"Oh, I can't guess, Tom," said Maggie, impatiently.
"Don't be a spitfire, else I won't
tell you," said Tom, thrusting his hand back into his pocket and looking
determined.
"No, Tom," said Maggie, imploringly,
laying hold of the arm that was held stiffly in the pocket. "I'm not
cross, Tom; it was only because I can't bear guessing. Please be good to me."
Tom's arm slowly relaxed, and he said,
"Well, then, it's a new fish-line–two new uns,–one for you, Maggie,
all to yourself. I wouldn't go halves in the toffee and gingerbread on purpose
to save the money; and Gibson and Spouncer fought with me because I wouldn't.
And here's hooks; see here–I say, won't
we go and fish to-morrow down by the Round Pool? And you shall catch your own
fish, Maggie and put the worms on, and everything; won't it be fun?"
Maggie's answer was to throw her arms
round Tom's neck and hug him, and hold her cheek against his without speaking,
while he slowly unwound some of the line, saying, after a pause,–
"Wasn't I a good brother, now, to buy
you a line all to yourself? You know, I needn't have bought it, if I hadn't
liked."
"Yes, very, very good–I do love you, Tom."
Tom had put the line back in his pocket,
and was looking at the hooks one by one, before he spoke again.
"And the fellows fought me, because I
wouldn't give in about the toffee."
"Oh, dear! I wish they wouldn't fight
at your school, Tom. Didn't it hurt you?"
"Hurt me? no," said Tom, putting
up the hooks again, taking out a large pocket-knife, and slowly opening the
largest blade, which he looked at meditatively as he rubbed his finger along
it. Then he added,–
"I gave Spouncer a black eye, I know;
that's what he got by wanting to leather me;
I wasn't going to go halves because anybody leathered me."
"Oh, how brave you are, Tom! I think
you're like Samson. If there came a lion roaring at me, I think you'd fight
him, wouldn't you, Tom?"
"How can a lion come roaring at you,
you silly thing? There's no lions, only in the shows."
"No; but if we were in the lion
countries–I mean in
"Well, I should get a gun and shoot
him."
"But if you hadn't got a
gun,–we might have gone out, you know, not thinking, just as we go
fishing; and then a great lion might run toward us roaring, and we couldn't get
away from him. What should you do, Tom?"
Tom paused, and at last turned away
contemptuously, saying, "But the lion isn't
coming. What's the use of talking?"
"But I like to fancy how it would
be," said Maggie, following him. "Just think what you would do,
Tom."
"Oh, don't bother, Maggie! you're
such a silly. I shall go and see my rabbits."
Maggie's heart began to flutter with fear.
She dared not tell the sad truth at once, but she walked after Tom in trembling
silence as he went out, thinking how she could tell him the news so as to
soften at once his sorrow and his anger; for Maggie dreaded Tom's anger of all
things; it was quite a different anger from her own.
"Tom," she said, timidly, when
they were out of doors, "how much money did you give for your
rabbits?"
"Two half-crowns and a
sixpence," said Tom, promptly.
"I think I've got a great deal more
than that in my steel purse upstairs. I'll ask mother to give it you."
"What for?" said Tom. "I
don't want your money, you
silly thing. I've got a great deal more money than you, because I'm a boy. I
always have half-sovereigns and sovereigns for my Christmas boxes because I
shall be a man, and you only have five-shilling pieces, because you're only a
girl."
"Well, but, Tom–if mother would
let me give you two half-crowns and a sixpence out of my purse to put into your
pocket and spend, you know, and buy some more rabbits with it?"
"More rabbits? I don't want any
more."
"Oh, but, Tom, they're all
dead."
Tom stopped immediately in his walk and
turned round toward Maggie. "You forgot to feed 'em, then, and Harry
forgot?" he said, his color heightening for a moment, but soon subsiding. "I'll
pitch into Harry. I'll have him turned away. And I don't love you, Maggie. You
sha'n't go fishing with me to-morrow. I told you to go and see the rabbits
every day." He walked on again.
"Yes, but I forgot–and I
couldn't help it, indeed, Tom. I'm so very sorry," said Maggie, while the
tears rushed fast.
"You're a naughty girl," said
Tom, severely, "and I'm sorry I bought you the fish-line. I don't love
you."
"Oh, Tom, it's very cruel,"
sobbed Maggie. "I'd forgive you, if you
forgot anything–I wouldn't mind what you did–I'd forgive you and
love you."
"Yes, you're silly; but I never do forget things, I don't."
"Oh, please forgive me, Tom; my heart
will break," said Maggie, shaking with sobs, clinging to Tom's arm, and
laying her wet cheek on his shoulder.
Tom shook her off, and stopped again,
saying in a peremptory tone, "Now, Maggie, you just listen. Aren't I a
good brother to you?"
"Ye-ye-es," sobbed Maggie, her
chin rising and falling convulsedly.
"Didn't I think about your fish-line
all this quarter, and mean to buy it, and saved my money o' purpose, and
wouldn't go halves in the toffee, and Spouncer fought me because I
wouldn't?"
"Ye-ye-es–and
I–lo-lo-love you so, Tom."
"But you're a naughty girl. Last
holidays you licked the paint off my lozenge-box, and the holidays before that
you let the boat drag my fish-line down when I'd set you to watch it, and you
pushed your head through my kite, all for nothing."
"But I didn't mean," said
Maggie; "I couldn't help it."
"Yes, you could," said Tom,
"if you'd minded what you were doing. And you're a naughty girl, and you
sha'n't go fishing with me to-morrow."
With this terrible conclusion, Tom ran
away from Maggie toward the mill, meaning to greet Luke there, and complain to
him of Harry.
Maggie stood motionless, except from her
sobs, for a minute or two; then she turned round and ran into the house, and up
to her attic, where she sat on the floor and laid her head against the
worm-eaten shelf, with a crushing sense of misery. Tom was come home, and she
had thought how happy she should be; and now he was cruel to her. What use was
anything if Tom didn't love her? Oh, he was very cruel! Hadn't she wanted to
give him the money, and said how very sorry she was? She knew she was naughty
to her mother, but she had never been naughty to Tom–had never meant to be naughty to him.
"Oh, he is cruel!" Maggie sobbed
aloud, finding a wretched pleasure in the hollow resonance that came through
the long empty space of the attic. She never thought of beating or grinding her
Fetish; she was too miserable to be angry.
These bitter sorrows of childhood! when
sorrow is all new and strange, when hope has not yet got wings to fly beyond
the days and weeks, and the space from summer to summer seems measureless.
Maggie soon thought she had been hours in
the attic, and it must be tea-time, and they were all having their tea, and not
thinking of her. Well, then, she would stay up there and starve
herself,–hide herself behind the tub, and stay there all night,–and
then they would all be frightened, and Tom would be sorry. Thus Maggie thought
in the pride of her heart, as she crept behind the tub; but presently she began
to cry again at the idea that they didn't mind her being there. If she went
down again to Tom now–would he forgive her? Perhaps her father would be
there, and he would take her part. But then she wanted Tom to forgive her
because he loved her, not because his father told him. No, she would never go
down if Tom didn't come to fetch her. This resolution lasted in great intensity
for five dark minutes behind the tub; but then the need of being
loved–the strongest need in poor Maggie's nature–began to wrestle
with her pride, and soon threw it. She crept from behind her tub into the
twilight of the long attic, but just then she heard a quick foot-step on the
stairs.
Tom had been too much interested in his
talk with Luke, in going the round of the premises, walking in and out where he
pleased, and whittling sticks without any particular reason,–except that
he didn't whittle sticks at school,–to think of Maggie and the effect his
anger had produced on her. He meant to punish her, and that business having
been performed, he occupied himself with other matters, like a practical
person. But when he had been called in to tea, his father said, "Why,
where's the little wench?" and Mrs. Tulliver, almost at the same moment,
said, "Where's your little sister?"–both of them having
supposed that Maggie and Tom had been together all the afternoon.
"I don't know," said Tom. He
didn't want to "tell" of Maggie, though he was angry with her; for
Tom Tulliver was a lad of honor.
"What! hasn't she been playing with
you all this while?" said the father. "She'd been thinking o' nothing
but your coming home."
"I haven't seen her this two
hours," says Tom, commencing on the plumcake.
"Goodness heart; she's got
drownded!" exclaimed Mrs. Tulliver, rising from her seat and running to
the window.
"How could you let her do so?"
she added, as became a fearful woman, accusing she didn't know whom of she
didn't know what.
"Nay, nay, she's none drownded,"
said Mr. Tulliver. "You've been naughty to her, I doubt, Tom?"
"I'm sure I haven't, father,"
said Tom, indignantly. "I think she's in the house."
"Perhaps up in that attic," said
Mrs. Tulliver, "a-singing and talking to herself, and forgetting all about
meal-times."
"You go and fetch her down,
Tom," said Mr. Tulliver, rather sharply,–his perspicacity or his
fatherly fondness for Maggie making him suspect that the lad had been hard upon
"the little un," else she would never have left his side. "And
be good to her, do you hear? Else I'll let you know better."
Tom never disobeyed his father, for Mr.
Tulliver was a peremptory man, and, as he said, would never let anybody get
hold of his whip-hand; but he went out rather sullenly, carrying his piece of
plumcake, and not intending to reprieve Maggie's punishment, which was no more
than she deserved. Tom was only thirteen, and had no decided views in grammar
and arithmetic, regarding them for the most part as open questions, but he was
particularly clear and positive on one point,–namely, that he would
punish everybody who deserved it. Why, he wouldn't have minded being punished
himself if he deserved it; but, then, he never did deserve it.
It was Tom's step, then, that Maggie heard
on the stairs, when her need of love had triumphed over her pride, and she was
going down with her swollen eyes and dishevelled hair to beg for pity. At least
her father would stroke her head and say, "Never mind, my wench." It
is a wonderful subduer, this need of love,–this hunger of the
heart,–as peremptory as that other hunger by which Nature forces us to
submit to the yoke, and change the face of the world.
But she knew Tom's step, and her heart
began to beat violently with the sudden shock of hope. He only stood still at
the top of the stairs and said, "Maggie, you're to come down." But
she rushed to him and clung round his neck, sobbing, "Oh, Tom, please
forgive me–I can't bear it–I will always be good–always
remember things–do love me–please, dear Tom!"
We learn to restrain ourselves as we get
older. We keep apart when we have quarrelled, express ourselves in well-bred
phrases, and in this way preserve a dignified alienation, showing much firmness
on one side, and swallowing much grief on the other. We no longer approximate
in our behavior to the mere impulsiveness of the lower animals, but conduct
ourselves in every respect like members of a highly civilized society. Maggie
and Tom were still very much like young animals, and so she could rub her cheek
against his, and kiss his ear in a random sobbing way; and there were tender
fibres in the lad that had been used to answer to Maggie's fondling, so that he
behaved with a weakness quite inconsistent with his resolution to punish her as
much as she deserved. He actually began to kiss her in return, and say,–
"Don't cry, then, Magsie; here, eat a
bit o' cake."
Maggie's sobs began to subside, and she
put out her mouth for the cake and bit a piece; and then Tom bit a piece, just
for company, and they ate together and rubbed each other's cheeks and brows and
noses together, while they ate, with a humiliating resemblance to two friendly
ponies.
"Come along, Magsie, and have
tea," said Tom at last, when there was no more cake except what was
down-stairs.
So ended the sorrows of this day, and the
next morning Maggie was trotting with her own fishing-rod in one hand and a
handle of the basket in the other, stepping always, by a peculiar gift, in the
muddiest places, and looking darkly radiant from under her beaver-bonnet
because Tom was good to her. She had told Tom, however, that she should like
him to put the worms on the hook for her, although she accepted his word when
he assured her that worms couldn't feel (it was Tom's private opinion that it
didn't much matter if they did). He knew all about worms, and fish, and those
things; and what birds were mischievous, and how padlocks opened, and which way
the handles of the gates were to be lifted. Maggie thought this sort of
knowledge was very wonderful,–much more difficult than remembering what
was in the books; and she was rather in awe of Tom's superiority, for he was the
only person who called her knowledge "stuff," and did not feel
surprised at her cleverness. Tom, indeed, was of opinion that Maggie was a
silly little thing; all girls were silly,–they couldn't throw a stone so
as to hit anything, couldn't do anything with a pocket-knife, and were
frightened at frogs. Still, he was very fond of his sister, and meant always to
take care of her, make her his housekeeper, and punish her when she did wrong.
They were on their way to the Round
Pool,–that wonderful pool, which the floods had made a long while ago. No
one knew how deep it was; and it was mysterious, too, that it should be almost
a perfect round, framed in with willows and tall reeds, so that the water was
only to be seen when you got close to the brink. The sight of the old favorite
spot always heightened Tom's good humor, and he spoke to Maggie in the most
amicable whispers, as he opened the precious basket and prepared their tackle.
He threw her line for her, and put the rod into her hand. Maggie thought it
probable that the small fish would come to her hook, and the large ones to
Tom's. But she had forgotten all about the fish, and was looking dreamily at
the glassy water, when Tom said, in a loud whisper, "Look, look,
Maggie!" and came running to prevent her from snatching her line away.
Maggie was frightened lest she had been
doing something wrong, as usual, but presently Tom drew out her line and
brought a large tench bouncing on the grass.
Tom was excited.
"O Magsie, you little duck! Empty the
basket."
Maggie was not conscious of unusual merit,
but it was enough that Tom called her Magsie, and was pleased with her. There
was nothing to mar her delight in the whispers and the dreamy silences, when
she listened to the light dripping sounds of the rising fish, and the gentle
rustling, as if the willows and the reeds and the water had their happy
whisperings also. Maggie thought it would make a very nice heaven to sit by the
pool in that way, and never be scolded. She never knew she had a bite till Tom
told her; but she liked fishing very much.
It was one of their happy mornings. They
trotted along and sat down together, with no thought that life would ever
change much for them; they would only get bigger and not go to school, and it
would always be like the holidays; they would always live together and be fond
of each other. And the mill with its booming; the great chestnut-tree under
which they played at houses; their own little river, the Ripple, where the
banks seemed like home, and Tom was always seeing the water-rats, while Maggie
gathered the purple plumy tops of the reeds, which she forgot and dropped
afterward; above all, the great Floss, along which they wandered with a sense
of travel, to see the rushing spring-tide, the awful Eagre, come up like a
hungry monster, or to see the Great Ash which had once wailed and groaned like
a man, these things would always be just the same to them. Tom thought people
were at a disadvantage who lived on any other spot of the globe; and Maggie,
when she read about Christiana passing "the river over which there is no
bridge," always saw the Floss between the green pastures by the Great Ash.
Life did change for Tom and Maggie; and
yet they were not wrong in believing that the thoughts and loves of these first
years would always make part of their lives. We could never have loved the
earth so well if we had had no childhood in it,–if it were not the earth
where the same flowers come up again every spring that we used to gather with
our tiny fingers as we sat lisping to ourselves on the grass; the same hips and
haws on the autumn's hedgerows; the same redbreasts that we used to call
"God's birds," because they did no harm to the precious crops. What
novelty is worth that sweet monotony where everything is known, and loved because it is known?
The wood I walk in on this mild May day,
with the young yellow-brown foliage of the oaks between me and the blue sky,
the white star-flowers and the blue-eyed speedwell and the ground ivy at my
feet, what grove of tropic palms, what strange ferns or splendid broad-petalled
blossoms, could ever thrill such deep and delicate fibres within me as this
home scene? These familiar flowers, these well-remembered bird-notes, this sky,
with its fitful brightness, these furrowed and grassy fields, each with a sort
of personality given to it by the capricious hedgerows,–such things as
these are the mother-tongue of our imagination, the language that is laden with
all the subtle, inextricable associations the fleeting hours of our childhood
left behind them. Our delight in the sunshine on the deep-bladed grass to-day
might be no more than the faint perception of wearied souls, if it were not for
the sunshine and the grass in the far-off years which still live in us, and
transform our perception into love.
Chapter VI
The Aunts and Uncles Are Coming
It was Easter week, and Mrs. Tulliver's
cheesecakes were more exquisitely light than usual. "A puff o' wind 'ud
make 'em blow about like feathers," Kezia the housemaid said, feeling
proud to live under a mistress who could make such pastry; so that no season or
circumstances could have been more propitious for a family party, even if it
had not been advisable to consult sister Glegg and sister Pullet about Tom's
going to school.
"I'd as lief not invite sister Deane
this time," said Mrs. Tulliver, "for she's as jealous and having as
can be, and's allays trying to make the worst o' my poor children to their
aunts and uncles."
"Yes, yes," said Mr. Tulliver,
"ask her to come. I never hardly get a bit o' talk with Deane now; we haven't
had him this six months. What's it matter what she says? My children need be
beholding to nobody."
"That's what you allays say, Mr.
Tulliver; but I'm sure there's nobody o' your side, neither aunt nor uncle, to
leave 'em so much as a five-pound note for a leggicy. And there's sister Glegg,
and sister Pullet too, saving money unknown, for they put by all their own
interest and butter-money too; their husbands buy 'em everything." Mrs.
Tulliver was a mild woman, but even a sheep will face about a little when she
has lambs.
"Tchuh!" said Mr. Tulliver.
"It takes a big loaf when there's many to breakfast. What signifies your
sisters' bits o' money when they've got half-a-dozen nevvies and nieces to
divide it among? And your sister Deane won't get 'em to leave all to one, I
reckon, and make the country cry shame on 'em when they are dead?"
"I don't know what she won't get 'em
to do," said Mrs. Tulliver, "for my children are so awk'ard wi' their
aunts and uncles. Maggie's ten times naughtier when they come than she is other
days, and Tom doesn't like 'em, bless him!–though it's more nat'ral in a
boy than a gell. And there's Lucy Deane's such a good child,–you may set
her on a stool, and there she'llsit for an hour together, and never offer to
get off. I can't help loving the child as if she was my own; and I'm sure she's
more like my child than
sister Deane's, for she'd allays a very poor color for one of our family,
sister Deane had."
"Well, well, if you're fond o' the
child, ask her father and mother to bring her with 'em. And won't you ask their
aunt and uncle Moss too, and some o' their
children?"
"Oh, dear, Mr. Tulliver, why, there'd
be eight people besides the children, and I must put two more leaves i' the
table, besides reaching down more o' the dinner-service; and you know as well
as I do as my sisters and your sister don't suit well
together."
"Well, well, do as you like,
Bessy," said Mr. Tulliver, taking up his hat and walking out to the mill.
Few wives were more submissive than Mrs. Tulliver on all points unconnected
with her family relations; but she had been a Miss Dodson, and the Dodsons were
a very respectable family indeed,–as much looked up to as any in their
own parish, or the next to it. The Miss Dodsons had always been thought to hold
up their heads very high, and no one was surprised the two eldest had married
so well,–not at an early age, for that was not the practice of the Dodson
family. There were particular ways of doing everything in that family:
particular ways of bleaching the linen, of making the cowslip wine, curing the
hams, and keeping the bottled gooseberries; so that no daughter of that house
could be indifferent to the privilege of having been born a Dodson, rather than
a Gibson or a Watson. Funerals were always conducted with peculiar propriety in
the Dodson family: the hat-bands were never of a blue shade, the gloves never
split at the thumb, everybody was a mourner who ought to be, and there were
always scarfs for the bearers. When one of the family was in trouble or
sickness, all the rest went to visit the unfortunate member, usually at the
same time, and did not shrink from uttering the most disagreeable truths that
correct family feeling dictated; if the illness or trouble was the sufferer's
own fault, it was not in the practice of the Dodson family to shrink from
saying so. In short, there was in this family a peculiar tradition as to what
was the right thing in household management and social demeanor, and the only
bitter circumstance attending this superiority was a painful inability to
approve the condiments or the conduct of families ungoverned by the Dodson
tradition. A female Dodson, when in "strange houses," always ate dry
bread with her tea, and declined any sort of preserves, having no confidence in
the butter, and thinking that the preserves had probably begun to ferment from
want of due sugar and boiling. There were some Dodsons less like the family
than others, that was admitted; but in so far as they were "kin,"
they were of necessity better than those who were "no kin." And it is
remarkable that while no individual Dodson was satisfied with any other
individual Dodson, each was satisfied, not only with him or her self, but with
the Dodsons collectively. The feeblest member of a family–the one who has
the least character–is often the merest epitome of the family habits and
traditions; and Mrs. Tulliver was a thorough Dodson, though a mild one, as
small-beer, so long as it is anything, is only describable as very weak ale:
and though she had groaned a little in her youth under the yoke of her elder
sisters, and still shed occasional tears at their sisterly reproaches, it was
not in Mrs. Tulliver to be an innovator on the family ideas. She was thankful
to have been a Dodson, and to have one child who took after her own family, at
least in his features and complexion, in liking salt and in eating beans, which
a Tulliver never did.
In other respects the true Dodson was
partly latent in Tom, and he was as far from appreciating his "kin"
on the mother's side as Maggie herself, generally absconding for the day with a
large supply of the most portable food, when he received timely warning that
his aunts and uncles were coming,–a moral symptom from which his aunt
Glegg deduced the gloomiest views of his future. It was rather hard on Maggie
that Tom always absconded without letting her into the secret, but the weaker
sex are acknowledged to be serious impedimenta
in cases of flight.
On Wednesday, the day before the aunts and
uncles were coming, there were such various and suggestive scents, as of
plumcakes in the oven and jellies in the hot state, mingled with the aroma of
gravy, that it was impossible to feel altogether gloomy: there was hope in the
air. Tom and Maggie made several inroads into the kitchen, and, like other
marauders, were induced to keep aloof for a time only by being allowed to carry
away a sufficient load of booty.
"Tom," said Maggie, as they sat
on the boughs of the elder-tree, eating their jam-puffs, "shall you run
away to-morrow?"
"No," said Tom, slowly, when he
had finished his puff, and was eying the third, which was to be divided between
them,–"no, I sha'n't."
"Why, Tom? Because Lucy's
coming?"
"No," said Tom, opening his
pocket-knife and holding it over the puff, with his head on one side in a
dubitative manner. (It was a difficult problem to divide that very irregular
polygon into two equal parts.) "What do I
care about Lucy? She's only a girl,–she
can't play at bandy."
"Is it the tipsy-cake, then?"
said Maggie, exerting her hypothetic powers, while she leaned forward toward
Tom with her eyes fixed on the hovering knife.
"No, you silly, that'll be good the
day after. It's the pudden. I know what the pudden's to be,–apricot
roll-up–O my buttons!"
With this interjection, the knife descended
on the puff, and it was in two, but the result was not satisfactory to Tom, for
he still eyed the halves doubtfully. At last he said,–
"Shut your eyes, Maggie."
"What for?"
"You never mind what for. Shut 'em
when I tell you."
Maggie obeyed.
"Now, which'll you have,
Maggie,–right hand or left?"
"I'll have that with the jam run
out," said Maggie, keeping her eyes shut to please Tom.
"Why, you don't like that, you silly.
You may have it if it comes to you fair, but I sha'n't give it you without.
Right or left,–you choose, now. Ha-a-a!" said Tom, in a tone of
exasperation, as Maggie peeped. "You keep your eyes shut, now, else you
sha'n't have any."
Maggie's power of sacrifice did not extend
so far; indeed, I fear she cared less that Tom should enjoy the utmost possible
amount of puff, than that he should be pleased with her for giving him the best
bit. So she shut her eyes quite close, till Tom told her to "say
which," and then she said, "Left hand."
"You've got it," said Tom, in
rather a bitter tone.
"What! the bit with the jam run
out?"
"No; here, take it," said Tom,
firmly, handing, decidedly the best piece to Maggie.
"Oh, please, Tom, have it; I don't
mind–I like the other; please take this."
"No, I sha'n't," said Tom,
almost crossly, beginning on his own inferior piece.
Maggie, thinking it was no use to contend
further, began too, and ate up her half puff with considerable relish as well
as rapidity. But Tom had finished first, and had to look on while Maggie ate
her last morsel or two, feeling in himself a capacity for more. Maggie didn't
know Tom was looking at her; she was seesawing on the elder-bough, lost to
almost everything but a vague sense of jam and idleness.
"Oh, you greedy thing!" said
Tom, when she had swallowed the last morsel. He was conscious of having acted
very fairly, and thought she ought to have considered this, and made up to him
for it. He would have refused a bit of hers beforehand, but one is naturally at
a different point of view before and after one's own share of puff is swallowed.
Maggie turned quite pale. "Oh, Tom,
why didn't you ask me?"
"I wasn't going to ask you for a bit,
you greedy. You might have thought of it without, when you knew I gave you the
best bit."
"But I wanted you to have it; you
know I did," said Maggie, in an injured tone.
"Yes, but I wasn't going to do what
wasn't fair, like Spouncer. He always takes the best bit, if you don't punch
him for it; and if you choose the best with your eyes shut, he changes his
hands. But if I go halves, I'll go 'em fair; only I wouldn't be a greedy."
With this cutting innuendo, Tom jumped
down from his bough, and threw a stone with a "hoigh!" as a friendly
attention to Yap, who had also been looking on while the eatables vanished,
with an agitation of his ears and feelings which could hardly have been without
bitterness. Yet the excellent dog accepted Tom's attention with as much
alacrity as if he had been treated quite generously.
But Maggie, gifted with that superior
power of misery which distinguishes the human being, and places him at a proud
distance from the most melancholy chimpanzee, sat still on her bough, and gave
herself up to the keen sense of unmerited reproach. She would have given the
world not to have eaten all her puff, and to have saved some of it for Tom. Not
but that the puff was very nice, for Maggie's palate was not at all obtuse, but
she would have gone without it many times over, sooner than Tom should call her
greedy and be cross with her. And he had said he wouldn't have it, and she ate
it without thinking; how could she help it? The tears flowed so plentifully
that Maggie saw nothing around her for the next ten minutes; but by that time
resentment began to give way to the desire of reconciliation, and she jumped
from her bough to look for Tom. He was no longer in the paddock behind the
rickyard; where was he likely to be gone, and Yap with him? Maggie ran to the
high bank against the great holly-tree, where she could see far away toward the
Floss. There was Tom; but her heart sank again as she saw how far off he was on
his way to the great river, and that he had another companion besides
Yap,–naughty Bob Jakin, whose official, if not natural, function of
frightening the birds was just now at a standstill. Maggie felt sure that Bob
was wicked, without very distinctly knowing why; unless it was because Bob's
mother was a dreadfully large fat woman, who lived at a queer round house down
the river; and once, when Maggie and Tom had wandered thither, there rushed out
a brindled dog that wouldn't stop barking; and when Bob's mother came out after
it, and screamed above the barking to tell them not to be frightened, Maggie
thought she was scolding them fiercely, and her heart beat with terror. Maggie
thought it very likely that the round house had snakes on the floor, and bats
in the bedroom; for she had seen Bob take off his cap to show Tom a little
snake that was inside it, and another time he had a handful of young bats:
altogether, he was an irregular character, perhaps even slightly diabolical,
judging from his intimacy with snakes and bats; and to crown all, when Tom had
Bob for a companion, he didn't mind about Maggie, and would never let her go
with him.
It must be owned that Tom was fond of
Bob's company. How could it be otherwise? Bob knew, directly he saw a bird's
egg, whether it was a swallow's, or a tomtit's, or a yellow-hammer's; he found
out all the wasps' nests, and could set all sort of traps; he could climb the
trees like a squirrel, and had quite a magical power of detecting hedgehogs and
stoats; and he had courage to do things that were rather naughty, such as
making gaps in the hedgerows, throwing stones after the sheep, and killing a
cat that was wandering incognito.
Such qualities in an inferior, who could
always be treated with authority in spite of his superior knowingness, had
necessarily a fatal fascination for Tom; and every holiday-time Maggie was sure
to have days of grief because he had gone off with Bob.
Well! there was no hope for it; he was
gone now, and Maggie could think of no comfort but to sit down by the hollow,
or wander by the hedgerow, and fancy it was all different, refashioning her
little world into just what she should like it to be.
Maggie's was a troublous life, and this
was the form in which she took her opium.
Meanwhile Tom, forgetting all about Maggie
and the sting of reproach which he had left in her heart, was hurrying along
with Bob, whom he had met accidentally, to the scene of a great rat-catching in
a neighboring barn. Bob knew all about this particular affair, and spoke of the
sport with an enthusiasm which no one who is not either divested of all manly
feeling, or pitiably ignorant of rat-catching, can fail to imagine. For a
person suspected of preternatural wickedness, Bob was really not so very
villanous-looking; there was even something agreeable in his snub-nosed face,
with its close-curled border of red hair. But then his trousers were always
rolled up at the knee, for the convenience of wading on the slightest notice;
and his virtue, supposing it to exist, was undeniably "virtue in
rags," which, on the authority even of bilious philosophers, who think all
well-dressed merit overpaid, is notoriously likely to remain unrecognized (perhaps
because it is seen so seldom).
"I know the chap as owns the
ferrets," said Bob, in a hoarse treble voice, as he shuffled along,
keeping his blue eyes fixed on the river, like an amphibious animal who foresaw
occasion for darting in. "He lives up the Kennel Yard at Sut Ogg's, he
does. He's the biggest rot-catcher anywhere, he is. I'd sooner, be a
rot-catcher nor anything, I would. The moles is nothing to the rots. But Lors!
you mun ha' ferrets. Dogs is no good. Why, there's that dog, now!" Bob continued,
pointing with an air of disgust toward
"No, no," he said, "
"Hev ferrets, Measter Tom," said
Bob, eagerly,–"them white ferrets wi' pink eyes; Lors, you might
catch your own rots, an' you might put a rot in a cage wi' a ferret, an' see
'em fight, you might. That's what I'd do, I know, an' it 'ud be better fun
a'most nor seein' two chaps fight,–if it wasn't them chaps as sold cakes
an' oranges at the Fair, as the things flew out o' their baskets, an' some o'
the cakes was smashed–But they tasted just as good," added Bob, by
way of note or addendum, after a moment's pause.
"But, I say, Bob," said Tom, in
a tone of deliberation, "ferrets are nasty biting things,–they'll
bite a fellow without being set on."
"Lors! why that's the beauty on 'em.
If a chap lays hold o' your ferret, he won't be long before he hollows out a
good un, he won't."
At this moment a striking incident made
the boys pause suddenly in their walk. It was the plunging of some small body
in the water from among the neighboring bulrushes; if it was not a water-rat,
Bob intimated that he was ready to undergo the most unpleasant consequences.
"Hoigh! Yap,–hoigh! there he
is," said Tom, clapping his hands, as the little black snout made its
arrowy course to the opposite bank. "Seize him, lad! seize him!"
"Ugh! you coward!" said Tom, and
kicked him over, feeling humiliated as a sportsman to possess so poor-spirited
an animal. Bob abstained from remark and passed on, choosing, however, to walk
in the shallow edge of the overflowing river by way of change.
"He's none so full now, the Floss
isn't," said Bob, as he kicked the water up before him, with an agreeable
sense of being insolent to it. "Why, last 'ear, the meadows was all one
sheet o' water, they was."
"Ay, but," said Tom, whose mind
was prone to see an opposition between statements that were really
accordant,–"but there was a big flood once, when the Round Pool was
made. I know there was,
'cause father says so. And the sheep and cows all drowned, and the boats went
all over the fields ever such a way."
"I
don't care about a flood comin'," said Bob; "I don't mind the water,
no more nor the land. I'd swim, I
would."
"Ah, but if you got nothing to eat
for ever so long?" said Tom, his imagination becoming quite active under
the stimulus of that dread. "When I'm a man, I shall make a boat with a
wooden house on the top of it, like Noah's ark, and keep plenty to eat in
it,–rabbits and things,–all ready. And then if the flood came, you
know, Bob, I shouldn't mind. And I'd take you in, if I saw you swimming,"
he added, in the tone of a benevolent patron.
"I aren't frighted," said Bob,
to whom hunger did not appear so appalling. "But I'd get in an' knock the
rabbits on th' head when you wanted to eat 'em."
"Ah, and I should have halfpence, and
we'd play at heads-and-tails," said Tom, not contemplating the possibility
that this recreation might have fewer charms for his mature age. "I'd
divide fair to begin with, and then we'd see who'd win."
"I've got a halfpenny o' my
own," said Bob, proudly, coming out of the water and tossing his halfpenny
in the air. "Yeads or tails?"
"Tails," said Tom, instantly
fired with the desire to win.
"It's yeads," said Bob, hastily,
snatching up the halfpenny as it fell.
"It wasn't," said Tom, loudly
and peremptorily. "You give me the halfpenny; I've won it fair."
"I sha'n't," said Bob, holding
it tight in his pocket.
"Then I'll make you; see if I
don't," said Tom.
"Yes, I can."
"You can't make me do nothing, you
can't," said Bob.
"No, you can't."
"I'm master."
"I don't care for you."
"But I'll make you care, you
cheat," said Tom, collaring Bob and shaking him.
"You get out wi' you," said Bob,
giving Tom a kick.
Tom's blood was thoroughly up: he went at
Bob with a lunge and threw him down, but Bob seized hold and kept it like a
cat, and pulled Tom down after him. They struggled fiercely on the ground for a
moment or two, till Tom, pinning Bob down by the shoulders, thought he had the
mastery.
"You,
say you'll give me the halfpenny now," he said, with difficulty, while he
exerted himself to keep the command of Bob's arms.
But at this moment
"You give me the halfpenny now,"
said Tom.
"Take it," said Bob, sulkily.
"No, I sha'n't take it; you give it
me."
Bob took the halfpenny out of his pocket,
and threw it away from him on the ground.
Tom loosed his hold, and left Bob to rise.
"There the halfpenny lies," he
said. "I don't want your halfpenny; I wouldn't have kept it. But you
wanted to cheat; I hate a cheat. I sha'n't go along with you any more," he
added, turning round homeward, not without casting a regret toward the rat-catching
and other pleasures which he must relinquish along with Bob's society.
"You may let it alone, then,"
Bob called out after him. "I shall cheat if I like; there's no fun i'
playing else; and I know where there's a goldfinch's nest, but I'll take care you don't. An' you're a nasty fightin'
turkey-cock, you are––"
Tom walked on without looking around, and
"Go along wi' you, then, wi' your
drowned dog; I wouldn't own such a dog–I
wouldn't," said Bob, getting louder, in a last effort to sustain his
defiance. But Tom was not to be provoked into turning round, and Bob's voice
began to falter a little as he said,–
"An' I'n gi'en you everything, an'
showed you everything, an' niver wanted nothin' from you. An' there's your
horn-handed knife, then as you gi'en me." Here Bob flung the knife as far
as he could after Tom's retreating footsteps. But it produced no effect, except
the sense in Bob's mind that there was a terrible void in his lot, now that knife
was gone.
He stood still till Tom had passed through
the gate and disappeared behind the hedge. The knife would do not good on the
ground there; it wouldn't vex Tom; and pride or resentment was a feeble passion
in Bob's mind compared with the love of a pocket-knife. His very fingers sent
entreating thrills that he would go and clutch that familiar rough buck's-horn
handle, which they had so often grasped for mere affection, as it lay idle in
his pocket. And there were two blades, and they had just been sharpened! What
is life without a pocket-knife to him who has once tasted a higher existence?
No; to throw the handle after the hatchet is a comprehensible act of
desperation, but to throw one's pocket-knife after an implacable friend is
clearly in every sense a hyperbole, or throwing beyond the mark. So Bob
shuffled back to the spot where the beloved knife lay in the dirt, and felt
quite a new pleasure in clutching it again after the temporary separation, in
opening one blade after the other, and feeling their edge with his
well-hardened thumb. Poor Bob! he was not sensitive on the point of honor, not
a chivalrous character. That fine moral aroma would not have been thought much
of by the public opinion of Kennel Yard, which was the very focus or heart of
Bob's world, even if it could have made itself perceptible there; yet, for all
that, he was not utterly a sneak and a thief as our friend Tom had hastily
decided.
But Tom, you perceive, was rather a
Rhadamanthine personage, having more than the usual share of boy's justice in
him,–the justice that desires to hurt culprits as much as they deserve to
be hurt, and is troubled with no doubts concerning the exact amount of their
deserts. Maggie saw a cloud on his brow when he came home, which checked her
joy at his coming so much sooner than she had expected, and she dared hardly
speak to him as he stood silently throwing the small gravel-stones into the
mill-dam. It is not pleasant to give up a rat-catching when you have set your
mind on it. But if Tom had told his strongest feeling at that moment, he would
have said, "I'd do just the same again." That was his usual mode of
viewing his past actions; whereas Maggie was always wishing she had done
something different.
Chapter VII
Enter the Aunts and Uncles
The Dodsons were certainly a handsome
family, and Mrs. Glegg was not the least handsome of the sisters. As she sat in
Mrs. Tulliver's arm-chair, no impartial observer could have denied that for a
woman of fifty she had a very comely face and figure, though Tom and Maggie considered
their aunt Glegg as the type of ugliness. It is true she despised the
advantages of costume, for though, as she often observed, no woman had better
clothes, it was not her way to wear her new things out before her old ones.
Other women, if they liked, might have their best thread-lace in every wash;
but when Mrs. Glegg died, it would be found that she had better lace laid by in
the right-hand drawer of her wardrobe in the Spotted Chamber than ever Mrs.
Wooll of St. Ogg's had bought in her life, although Mrs. Wooll wore her lace
before it was paid for. So of her curled fronts: Mrs. Glegg had doubtless the
glossiest and crispest brown curls in her drawers, as well as curls in various
degrees of fuzzy laxness; but to look out on the week-day world from under a
crisp and glossy front would be to introduce a most dreamlike and unpleasant
confusion between the sacred and the secular. Occasionally, indeed, Mrs. Glegg
wore one of her third-best fronts on a week-day visit, but not at a sister's
house; especially not at Mrs. Tulliver's, who, since her marriage, had hurt her
sister's feelings greatly by wearing her own hair, though, as Mrs. Glegg
observed to Mrs. Deane, a mother of a family, like Bessy, with a husband always
going to law, might have been expected to know better. But Bessy was always
weak!
So if Mrs. Glegg's front to-day was more
fuzzy and lax than usual, she had a design under it: she intended the most
pointed and cutting allusion to Mrs. Tulliver's bunches of blond curls,
separated from each other by a due wave of smoothness on each side of the
parting. Mrs. Tulliver had shed tears several times at sister Glegg's
unkindness on the subject of these unmatronly curls, but the consciousness of
looking the handsomer for them naturally administered support. Mrs. Glegg chose
to wear her bonnet in the house to-day,–united and tilted slightly, of
course–a frequent practice of hers when she was on a visit, and happened
to be in a severe humor: she didn't know what draughts there might be in strange
houses. For the same reason she wore a small sable tippet, which reached just
to her shoulders, and was very far from meeting across her well-formed chest,
while her long neck was protected by a chevaux-de-frise
of miscellaneous frilling. One would need to be learned in the fashions of
those times to know how far in the rear of them Mrs. Glegg's slate-colored silk
gown must have been; but from certain constellations of small yellow spots upon
it, and a mouldy odor about it suggestive of a damp clothes-chest, it was
probable that it belonged to a stratum of garments just old enough to have come
recently into wear.
Mrs. Glegg held her large gold watch in
her hand with the many-doubled chain round her fingers, and observed to Mrs.
Tulliver, who had just returned from a visit to the kitchen, that whatever it
might be by other people's clocks and watches, it was gone half-past twelve by
hers.
"I don't know what ails sister
Pullet," she continued. "It used to be the way in our family for one
to be as early as another,–I'm sure it was so in my poor father's
time,–and not for one sister to sit half an hour before the others came.
But if the ways o' the family are altered, it sha'n't be my fault; I'll never be the one to come into a house when all the
rest are going away. I wonder at
sister Deane,–she used to be more like me. But if you'll take my advice,
Bessy, you'll put the dinner forrard a bit, sooner than put it back, because
folks are late as ought to ha' known better."
"Oh dear, there's no fear but what
they'll be all here in time, sister," said Mrs. Tulliver, in her
mild-peevish tone. "The dinner won't be ready till half-past one. But if
it's long for you to wait, let me fetch you a cheesecake and a glass o'
wine."
"Well, Bessy!" said Mrs. Glegg,
with a bitter smile and a scarcely perceptible toss of her head, "I should
ha' thought you'd known your own sister better. I never did eat between meals, and I'm not
going to begin. Not but what I hate that nonsense of having your dinner at
half-past one, when you might have it at one. You was never brought up in that
way, Bessy."
"Why, Jane, what can I do? Mr.
Tulliver doesn't like his dinner before two o'clock, but I put it half an hour
earlier because o' you."
"Yes, yes, I know how it is with
husbands,–they're for putting everything off; they'll put the dinner off
till after tea, if they've got wives as are weak enough to give in to such
work; but it's a pity for you, Bessy, as you haven't got more strength o' mind.
It'll be well if your children don't suffer for it. And I hope you've not gone
and got a great dinner for us,–going to expense for your sisters, as 'ud
sooner eat a crust o' dry bread nor help to ruin you with extravagance. I
wonder you don't take pattern by your sister Deane; she's far more sensible.
And here you've got two children to provide for, and your husband's spent your
fortin i' going to law, and's likely to spend his own too. A boiled joint, as
you could make broth of for the kitchen," Mrs. Glegg added, in a tone of
emphatic protest, "and a plain pudding, with a spoonful o' sugar, and no
spice, 'ud be far more becoming."
With sister Glegg in this humor, there was
a cheerful prospect for the day. Mrs. Tulliver never went the length of
quarrelling with her, any more than a water-fowl that puts out its leg in a
deprecating manner can be said to quarrel with a boy who throws stones. But
this point of the dinner was a tender one, and not at all new, so that Mrs.
Tulliver could make the same answer she had often made before.
"Mr. Tulliver says he always will have a good dinner for his friends
while he can pay for it," she said; "and he's a right to do as he
likes in his own house, sister."
"Well, Bessy, I can't leave your children enough out
o' my savings to keep 'em from ruin. And you mustn't look to having any o' Mr.
Glegg's money, for it's well if I don't go first,–he comes of a
long-lived family; and if he was to die and leave me well for my life, he'd tie
all the money up to go back to his own kin."
The sound of wheels while Mrs. Glegg was
speaking was an interruption highly welcome to Mrs. Tulliver, who hastened out
to receive sister Pullet; it must be sister Pullet, because the sound was that
of a four-wheel.
Mrs. Glegg tossed her head and looked
rather sour about the mouth at the thought of the "four-wheel." She
had a strong opinion on that subject.
Sister Pullet was in tears when the
one-horse chaise stopped before Mrs. Tulliver's door, and it was apparently
requisite that she should shed a few more before getting out; for though her
husband and Mrs. Tulliver stood ready to support her, she sat still and shook
her head sadly, as she looked through her tears at the vague distance.
"Why, whativer is the matter,
sister?" said Mrs. Tulliver. She was not an imaginative woman, but it
occurred to her that the large toilet-glass in sister Pullet's best bedroom was
possibly broken for the second time.
There was no reply but a further shake of
the head, as Mrs. Pullet slowly rose and got down from the chaise, not without
casting a glance at Mr. Pullet to see that he was guarding her handsome silk
dress from injury. Mr. Pullet was a small man, with a high nose, small
twinkling eyes, and thin lips, in a fresh-looking suit of black and a white
cravat, that seemed to have been tied very tight on some higher principle than
that of mere personal ease. He bore about the same relation to his tall,
good-looking wife, with her balloon sleeves, abundant mantle, and a large
befeathered and beribboned bonnet, as a small fishing-smack bears to a brig
with all its sails spread.
It is a pathetic sight and a striking
example of the complexity introduced into the emotions by a high state of
civilization, the sight of a fashionably dressed female in grief. From the
sorrow of a Hottentot to that of a woman in large buckram sleeves, with several
bracelets on each arm, an architectural bonnet, and delicate ribbon strings,
what a long series of gradations! In the enlightened child of civilization the
abandonment characteristic of grief is checked and varied in the subtlest
manner, so as to present an interesting problem to the analytic mind. If, with
a crushed heart and eyes half blinded by the mist of tears, she were to walk
with a too-devious step through a door-place, she might crush her buckram
sleeves too, and the deep consciousness of this possibility produces a
composition of forces by which she takes a line that just clears the door-post.
Perceiving that the tears are hurrying fast, she unpins her strings and throws
them languidly backward, a touching gesture, indicative, even in the deepest
gloom, of the hope in future dry moments when cap-strings will once more have a
charm. As the tears subside a little, and with her head leaning backward at the
angle that will not injure her bonnet, she endures that terrible moment when
grief, which has made all things else a weariness, has itself become weary; she
looks down pensively at her bracelets, and adjusts their clasps with that
pretty studied fortuity which would be gratifying to her mind if it were once
more in a calm and healthy state.
Mrs. Pullet brushed each door-post with
great nicety, about the latitude of her shoulders (at that period a woman was
truly ridiculous to an instructed eye if she did not measure a yard and a half
across the shoulders), and having done that sent the muscles of her face in
quest of fresh tears as she advanced into the parlor where Mrs. Glegg was
seated.
"Well, sister, you're late; what's
the matter?" said Mrs. Glegg, rather sharply, as they shook hands.
Mrs. Pullet sat down, lifting up her
mantle carefully behind, before she answered,–
"She's gone," unconsciously
using an impressive figure of rhetoric.
"It isn't the glass this time,
then," thought Mrs. Tulliver.
"Died the day before yesterday,"
continued Mrs. Pullet; "an' her legs was as thick as my body,"' she added,
with deep sadness, after a pause. "They'd tapped her no end o' times, and
the water–they say you might ha' swum in it, if you'd liked."
"Well, Sophy, it's a mercy she's
gone, then, whoever she may be," said Mrs. Glegg, with the promptitude and
emphasis of a mind naturally clear and decided; "but I can't think who
you're talking of, for my part."
"But I know," said Mrs. Pullet, sighing and shaking her
head; "and there isn't another such a dropsy in the parish. I know as it's old Mrs. Sutton o' the
Twentylands."
"Well, she's no kin o' yours, nor
much acquaintance as I've ever heared of," said Mrs. Glegg, who always
cried just as much as was proper when anything happened to her own
"kin," but not on other occasions.
"She's so much acquaintance as I've
seen her legs when they was like bladders. And an old lady as had doubled her
money over and over again, and kept it all in her own management to the last,
and had her pocket with her keys in under her pillow constant. There isn't many
old parish'ners like her, I
doubt."
"And they say she'd took as much
physic as 'ud fill a wagon," observed Mr. Pullet.
"Ah!" sighed Mrs. Pullet,
"she'd another complaint ever so many years before she had the dropsy, and
the doctors couldn't make out what it was. And she said to me, when I went to
see her last Christmas, she said, 'Mrs. Pullet, if ever you have the dropsy,
you'll think o' me.' She did
say so," added Mrs. Pullet, beginning to cry bitterly again; "those
were her very words. And she's to be buried o' Saturday, and Pullet's bid to
the funeral."
"Sophy," said Mrs. Glegg, unable
any longer to contain her spirit of rational remonstrance,–"Sophy, I
wonder at you, fretting and
injuring your health about people as don't belong to you. Your poor father
never did so, nor your aunt Frances neither, nor any o' the family as I ever
heard of. You couldn't fret no more than this, if we'd heared as our cousin
Abbott had died sudden without making his will."
Mrs. Pullet was silent, having to finish
her crying, and rather flattered than indignant at being upbraided for crying
too much. It was not everybody who could afford to cry so much about their
neighbors who had left them nothing; but Mrs. Pullet had married a gentleman
farmer, and had leisure and money to carry her crying and everything else to
the highest pitch of respectability.
"Mrs. Sutton didn't die without
making her will, though," said Mr. Pullet, with a confused sense that he
was saying something to sanction his wife's tears; "ours is a rich parish,
but they say there's nobody else to leave as many thousands behind 'em as Mrs.
Sutton. And she's left no leggicies to speak on,–left it all in a lump to
her husband's nevvy."
"There wasn't much good i' being so
rich, then," said Mrs. Glegg, "if she'd got none but husband's kin to
leave it to. It's poor work when that's all you've got to pinch yourself for.
Not as I'm one o' those as 'ud like to die without leaving more money out at
interest than other folks had reckoned; but it's a poor tale when it must go
out o' your own family."
"I'm sure, sister," said Mrs.
Pullet, who had recovered sufficiently to take off her veil and fold it
carefully, "it's a nice sort o' man as Mrs. Sutton has left her money to,
for he's troubled with the asthmy, and goes to bed every night at eight o'clock.
He told me about it himself–as free as could be–one Sunday when he
came to our church. He wears a hareskin on his chest, and has a trembling in
his talk,–quite a gentleman sort o' man. I told him there wasn't many
months in the year as I wasn't under the doctor's hands. And he said, 'Mrs.
Pullet, I can feel for you.' That was what he said,–the very words.
Ah!" sighed Mrs. Pullet, shaking her head at the idea that there were but
few who could enter fully into her experiences in pink mixture and white mixture,
strong stuff in small bottles, and weak stuff in large bottles, damp boluses at
a shilling, and draughts at eighteenpence. "Sister, I may as well go and
take my bonnet off now. Did you see as the cap-box was put out?" she
added, turning to her husband.
Mr. Pullet, by an unaccountable lapse of
memory, had forgotten it, and hastened out, with a stricken conscience, to
remedy the omission.
"They'll bring it upstairs,
sister," said Mrs. Tulliver, wishing to go at once, lest Mrs. Glegg should
begin to explain her feelings about Sophy's being the first Dodson who ever
ruined her constitution with doctor's stuff.
Mrs. Tulliver was fond of going upstairs
with her sister Pullet, and looking thoroughly at her cap before she put it on
her head, and discussing millinery in general. This was part of Bessy's
weakness that stirred Mrs. Glegg's sisterly compassion: Bessy went far too well
dressed, considering; and she was too proud to dress her child in the good
clothing her sister Glegg gave her from the primeval strata of her wardrobe; it
was a sin and a shame to buy anything to dress that child, if it wasn't a pair
of shoes. In this particular, however, Mrs. Glegg did her sister Bessy some
injustice, for Mrs. Tulliver had really made great efforts to induce Maggie to
wear a leghorn bonnet and a dyed silk frock made out of her aunt Glegg's, but
the results had been such that Mrs. Tulliver was obliged to bury them in her
maternal bosom; for Maggie, declaring that the frock smelt of nasty dye, had
taken an opportunity of basting it together with the roast beef the first
Sunday she wore it, and finding this scheme answer, she had subsequently pumped
on the bonnet with its green ribbons, so as to give it a general resemblance to
a sage cheese garnished with withered lettuces. I must urge in excuse for
Maggie, that Tom had laughed at her in the bonnet, and said she looked like an
old Judy. Aunt Pullet, too, made presents of clothes, but these were always
pretty enough to please Maggie as well as her mother. Of all her sisters, Mrs.
Tulliver certainly preferred her sister Pullet, not without a return of
preference; but Mrs. Pullet was sorry Bessy had those naughty, awkward
children; she would do the best she could by them, but it was a pity they
weren't as good and as pretty as sister Deane's child. Maggie and Tom, on their
part, thought their aunt Pullet tolerable, chiefly because she was not their
aunt Glegg. Tom always declined to go more than once during his holidays to see
either of them. Both his uncles tipped him that once, of course; but at his
aunt Pullet's there were a great many toads to pelt in the cellar-area, so that
he preferred the visit to her. Maggie shuddered at the toads, and dreamed of
them horribly, but she liked her uncle Pullet's musical snuff-box. Still, it
was agreed by the sisters, in Mrs. Tulliver's absence, that the Tulliver blood
did not mix well with the Dodson blood; that, in fact, poor Bessy's children
were Tullivers, and that Tom, notwithstanding he had the Dodson complexion, was
likely to be as "contrairy" as his father. As for Maggie, she was the
picture of her aunt Moss, Mr. Tulliver's sister,–a large-boned woman, who
had married as poorly as could be; had no china, and had a husband who had much
ado to pay his rent. But when Mrs. Pullet was alone with Mrs. Tulliver
upstairs, the remarks were naturally to the disadvantage of Mrs. Glegg, and
they agreed, in confidence, that there was no knowing what sort of fright
sister Jane would come out next. But their tête-à-tête
was curtailed by the appearance of Mrs. Deane with little Lucy; and Mrs.
Tulliver had to look on with a silent pang while Lucy's blond curls were
adjusted. It was quite unaccountable that Mrs. Deane, the thinnest and
sallowest of all the Miss Dodsons, should have had this child, who might have
been taken for Mrs. Tulliver's any day. And Maggie always looked twice as dark
as usual when she was by the side of Lucy.
She did to-day, when she and Tom came in
from the garden with their father and their uncle Glegg. Maggie had thrown her
bonnet off very carelessly, and coming in with her hair rough as well as out of
curl, rushed at once to Lucy, who was standing by her mother's knee. Certainly
the contrast between the cousins was conspicuous, and to superficial eyes was
very much to the disadvantage of Maggie though a connoisseur might have seen
"points" in her which had a higher promise for maturity than Lucy's
natty completeness. It was like the contrast between a rough, dark, overgrown
puppy and a white kitten. Lucy put up the neatest little rosebud mouth to be
kissed; everything about her was neat,–her little round neck, with the
row of coral beads; her little straight nose, not at all snubby; her little
clear eyebrows, rather darker than her curls, to match hazel eyes, which looked
up with shy pleasure at Maggie, taller by the head, though scarcely a year
older. Maggie always looked at Lucy with delight.
She was fond of fancying a world where the
people never got any larger than children of their own age, and she made the
queen of it just like Lucy, with a little crown on her head, and a little
sceptre in her hand–only the queen was Maggie herself in Lucy's form.
"Oh, Lucy," she burst out, after
kissing her, "you'll stay with Tom and me, won't you? Oh, kiss her,
Tom."
Tom, too, had come up to Lucy, but he was
not going to kiss her–no; he came up to her with Maggie, because it
seemed easier, on the whole, than saying, "How do you do?" to all
those aunts and uncles. He stood looking at nothing in particular, with the
blushing, awkward air and semi-smile which are common to shy boys when in
company,–very much as if they had come into the world by mistake, and found
it in a degree of undress that was quite embarrassing.
"Heyday!" said aunt Glegg, with
loud emphasis. "Do little boys and gells come into a room without taking
notice of their uncles and aunts? That wasn't the way when I was a little gell."
"Go and speak to your aunts and
uncles, my dears," said Mrs. Tulliver, looking anxious and melancholy. She
wanted to whisper to Maggie a command to go and have her hair brushed.
"Well, and how do you do? And I hope
you're good children, are you?" said Aunt Glegg, in the same loud,
emphatic way, as she took their hands, hurting them with her large rings, and
kissing their cheeks much against their desire. "Look up, Tom, look up.
Boys as go to boarding-schools should hold their heads up. Look at me
now." Tom declined that pleasure apparently, for he tried to draw his hand
away. "Put your hair behind your ears, Maggie, and keep your frock on your
shoulder."
Aunt Glegg always spoke to them in this
loud, emphatic way, as if she considered them deaf, or perhaps rather idiotic;
it was a means, she thought, of making them feel that they were accountable
creatures, and might be a salutary check on naughty tendencies. Bessy's
children were so spoiled–they'd need have somebody to make them feel
their duty.
"Well, my dears," said aunt
Pullet, in a compassionate voice, "you grow wonderful fast. I doubt
they'll outgrow their strength," she added, looking over their heads, with
a melancholy expression, at their mother. "I think the gell has too much
hair. I'd have it thinned and cut shorter, sister, if I was you; it isn't good
for her health. It's that as makes her skin so brown, I shouldn't wonder. Don't
you think so, sister Deane?"
"I can't say, I'm sure, sister,"
said Mrs. Deane, shutting her lips close again, and looking at Maggie with a
critical eye.
"No, no," said Mr. Tulliver,
"the child's healthy enough; there's nothing ails her. There's red wheat
as well as white, for that matter, and some like the dark grain best. But it
'ud be as well if Bessy 'ud have the child's hair cut, so as it 'ud lie
smooth."
A dreadful resolve was gathering in
Maggie's breast, but it was arrested by the desire to know from her aunt Deane
whether she would leave Lucy behind. Aunt Deane would hardly ever let Lucy come
to see them. After various reasons for refusal, Mrs. Deane appealed to Lucy
herself.
"You wouldn't like to stay behind
without mother, should you, Lucy?"
"Yes, please, mother," said
Lucy, timidly, blushing very pink all over her little neck.
"Well done, Lucy! Let her stay, Mrs.
Deane, let her stay," said Mr. Deane, a large but alert-looking man, with
a type of physique to be seen
in all ranks of English society,–bald crown, red whiskers, full forehead,
and general solidity without heaviness. You may see noblemen like Mr. Deane,
and you may see grocers or day-laborers like him; but the keenness of his brown
eyes was less common than his contour.
He held a silver snuff-box very tightly in
his hand, and now and then exchanged a pinch with Mr. Tulliver, whose box was
only silver-mounted, so that it was naturally a joke between them that Mr.
Tulliver wanted to exchange snuff-boxes also. Mr. Deane's box had been given
him by the superior partners in the firm to which he belonged, at the same time
that they gave him a share in the business, in acknowledgment of his valuable
services as manager. No man was thought more highly of in St. Ogg's than Mr.
Deane; and some persons were even of opinion that Miss Susan Dodson, who was
once held to have made the worst match of all the Dodson sisters, might one day
ride in a better carriage, and live in a better house, even than her sister
Pullet. There was no knowing where a man would stop, who had got his foot into
a great mill-owning, shipowning business like that of Guest & Co., with a
banking concern attached. And Mrs. Deane, as her intimate female friends
observed, was proud and "having" enough; she wouldn't let her husband stand still in the world for
want of spurring.
"Maggie," said Mrs. Tulliver,
beckoning Maggie to her, and whispering in her ear, as soon as this point of
Lucy's staying was settled, "go and get your hair brushed, do, for shame.
I told you not to come in without going to Martha first, you know I did."
"Tom come out with me,"
whispered Maggie, pulling his sleeve as she passed him; and Tom followed
willingly enough.
"Come upstairs with me, Tom,"
she whispered, when they were outside the door. "There's something I want
to do before dinner."
"There's no time to play at anything
before dinner," said Tom, whose imagination was impatient of any intermediate
prospect.
"Oh yes, there is time for this; do come, Tom."
Tom followed Maggie upstairs into her
mother's room, and saw her go at once to a drawer, from which she took out a
large pair of scissors.
"What are they for, Maggie?"
said Tom, feeling his curiosity awakened.
Maggie answered by seizing her front locks
and cutting them straight across the middle of her forehead.
"Oh, my buttons! Maggie, you'll catch
it!" exclaimed Tom; "you'd better not cut any more off."
Snip! went the great scissors again while
Tom was speaking, and he couldn't help feeling it was rather good fun; Maggie
would look so queer.
"Here, Tom, cut it behind for
me," said Maggie, excited by her own daring, and anxious to finish the
deed.
"You'll catch it, you know,"
said Tom, nodding his head in an admonitory manner, and hesitating a little as
he took the scissors.
"Never mind, make haste!" said
Maggie, giving a little stamp with her foot. Her cheeks were quite flushed.
The black locks were so thick, nothing
could be more tempting to a lad who had already tasted the forbidden pleasure
of cutting the pony's mane. I speak to those who know the satisfaction of
making a pair of scissors meet through a duly resisting mass of hair. One
delicious grinding snip, and then another and another, and the hinder-locks
fell heavily on the floor, and Maggie stood cropped in a jagged, uneven manner,
but with a sense of clearness and freedom, as if she had emerged from a wood
into the open plain.
"Oh, Maggie," said Tom, jumping
round her, and slapping his knees as he laughed, "Oh, my buttons! what a
queer thing you look! Look at yourself in the glass; you look like the idiot we
throw out nutshells to at school."
Maggie felt an unexpected pang. She had
thought beforehand chiefly at her own deliverance from her teasing hair and
teasing remarks about it, and something also of the triumph she should have
over her mother and her aunts by this very decided course of action; she didn't
want her hair to look pretty,–that was out of the question,–she
only wanted people to think her a clever little girl, and not to find fault
with her. But now, when Tom began to laugh at her, and say she was like an
idiot, the affair had quite a new aspect. She looked in the glass, and still
Tom laughed and clapped his hands, and Maggie's cheeks began to pale, and her
lips to tremble a little.
"Oh, Maggie, you'll have to go down
to dinner directly," said Tom. "Oh, my!"
"Don't laugh at me, Tom," said
Maggie, in a passionate tone, with an outburst of angry tears, stamping, and
giving him a push.
"Now, then, spitfire!" said Tom.
"What did you cut it off for, then? I shall go down: I can smell the
dinner going in."
He hurried downstairs and left poor Maggie
to that bitter sense of the irrevocable which was almost an every-day
experience of her small soul. She could see clearly enough, now the thing was
done, that it was very foolish, and that she should have to hear and think more
about her hair than ever; for Maggie rushed to her deeds with passionate
impulse, and then saw not only their consequences, but what would have happened
if they had not been done, with all the detail and exaggerated circumstance of
an active imagination. Tom never did the same sort of foolish things as Maggie,
having a wonderful instinctive discernment of what would turn to his advantage
or disadvantage; and so it happened, that though he was much more wilful and
inflexible than Maggie, his mother hardly ever called him naughty. But if Tom
did make a mistake of that sort, he espoused it, and stood by it: he
"didn't mind." If he broke the lash of his father's gigwhip by
lashing the gate, he couldn't help it,–the whip shouldn't have got caught
in the hinge. If Tom Tulliver whipped a gate, he was convinced, not that the
whipping of gates by all boys was a justifiable act, but that he, Tom Tulliver,
was justifiable in whipping that particular gate, and he wasn't going to be
sorry. But Maggie, as she stood crying before the glass, felt it impossible
that she should go down to dinner and endure the severe eyes and severe words
of her aunts, while Tom and Lucy, and Martha, who waited at table, and perhaps
her father and her uncles, would laugh at her; for if Tom had laughed at her,
of course every one else would; and if she had only let her hair alone, she
could have sat with Tom and Lucy, and had the apricot pudding and the custard!
What could she do but sob? She sat as helpless and despairing among her black
locks as
"Miss Maggie, you're to come down
this minute," said Kezia, entering the room hurriedly. "Lawks! what
have you been a-doing? I never see
such a fright!"
"Don't, Kezia," said Maggie,
angrily. "Go away!"
"But I tell you you're to come down,
Miss, this minute; your mother says so," said Kezia, going up to Maggie
and taking her by the hand to raise her from the floor.
"Get away, Kezia; I don't want any
dinner," said Maggie, resisting Kezia's arm. "I sha'n't come."
"Oh, well, I can't stay. I've got to
wait at dinner," said Kezia, going out again.
"Maggie, you little silly," said
Tom, peeping into the room ten minutes after, "why don't you come and have
your dinner? There's lots o' goodies, and mother says you're to come. What are you
crying for, you little spooney?"
Oh, it was dreadful! Tom was so hard and
unconcerned; if he had been
crying on the floor, Maggie would have cried too. And there was the dinner, so
nice; and she was so hungry.
It was very bitter.
But Tom was not altogether hard. He was
not inclined to cry, and did not feel that Maggie's grief spoiled his prospect
of the sweets; but he went and put his head near her, and said in a lower,
comforting tone,–
"Won't you come, then, Magsie? Shall
I bring you a bit o' pudding when I've had mine, and a custard and
things?"
"Ye-e-es," said Maggie,
beginning to feel life a little more tolerable.
"Very well," said Tom, going
away. But he turned again at the door and said, "But you'd better come,
you know. There's the dessert,–nuts, you know, and cowslip wine."
Maggie's tears had ceased, and she looked
reflective as Tom left her. His good nature had taken off the keenest edge of
her suffering, and nuts with cowslip wine began to assert their legitimate
influence.
Slowly she rose from amongst her scattered
locks, and slowly she made her way downstairs. Then she stood leaning with one
shoulder against the frame of the dining-parlour door, peeping in when it was
ajar. She saw Tom and Lucy with an empty chair between them, and there were the
custards on a side-table; it was too much. She slipped in and went toward the
empty chair. But she had no sooner sat down than she repented and wished
herself back again.
Mrs. Tulliver gave a little scream as she
saw her, and felt such a "turn" that she dropped the large
gravy-spoon into the dish, with the most serious results to the table-cloth.
For Kezia had not betrayed the reason of Maggie's refusal to come down, not
liking to give her mistress a shock in the moment of carving, and Mrs. Tulliver
thought there was nothing worse in question than a fit of perverseness, which
was inflicting its own punishment by depriving Maggie of half her dinner.
Mrs. Tulliver's scream made all eyes turn
towards the same point as her own, and Maggie's cheeks and ears began to burn,
while uncle Glegg, a kind-looking, white-haired old gentleman, said,–
"Heyday! what little gell's this?
Why, I don't know her. Is it some little gell you've picked up in the road,
Kezia?"
"Why, she's gone and cut her hair
herself," said Mr. Tulliver in an undertone to Mr. Deane, laughing with
much enjoyment. Did you ever know such a little hussy as it is?"
"Why, little miss, you've made
yourself look very funny," said Uncle Pullet, and perhaps he never in his
life made an observation which was felt to be so lacerating.
"Fie, for shame!" said aunt
Glegg, in her loudest, severest tone of reproof. "Little gells as cut
their own hair should be whipped and fed on bread and water,–not come and
sit down with their aunts and uncles."
"Ay, ay," said uncle Glegg,
meaning to give a playful turn to this denunciation, "she must be sent to
jail, I think, and they'll cut the rest of her hair off there, and make it all
even."
"She's more like a gypsy nor
ever," said aunt Pullet, in a pitying tone; "it's very bad luck,
sister, as the gell should be so brown; the boy's fair enough. I doubt it'll
stand in her way i' life to be so brown."
"She's a naughty child, as'll break
her mother's heart," said Mrs. Tulliver, with the tears in her eyes.
Maggie seemed to be listening to a chorus
of reproach and derision. Her first flush came from anger, which gave her a
transient power of defiance, and Tom thought she was braving it out, supported
by the recent appearance of the pudding and custard. Under this impression, he
whispered, "Oh, my! Maggie, I told you you'd catch it." He meant to
be friendly, but Maggie felt convinced that Tom was rejoicing in her ignominy.
Her feeble power of defiance left her in an instant, her heart swelled, and
getting up from her chair, she ran to her father, hid her face on his shoulder,
and burst out into loud sobbing.
"Come, come, my wench," said her
father, soothingly, putting his arm round her, "never mind; you was i' the
right to cut it off if it plagued you; give over crying; father'll take your
part."
Delicious words of tenderness! Maggie
never forgot any of these moments when her father "took her part";
she kept them in her heart, and thought of them long years after, when every
one else said that her father had done very ill by his children.
"How your husband does spoil that
child, Bessy!" said Mrs. Glegg, in a loud "aside," to Mrs.
Tulliver. "It'll be the ruin of her, if you don't take care. My father never brought his children up
so, else we should ha' been a different sort o' family to what we are."
Mrs. Tulliver's domestic sorrows seemed at
this moment to have reached the point at which insensibility begins. She took
no notice of her sister's remark, but threw back her capstrings and dispensed
the pudding, in mute resignation.
With the dessert there came entire
deliverance for Maggie, for the children were told they might have their nuts
and wine in the summer-house, since the day was so mild; and they scampered out
among the budding bushes of the garden with the alacrity of small animals
getting from under a burning glass.
Mrs. Tulliver had her special reason for
this permission: now the dinner was despatched, and every one's mind
disengaged, it was the right moment to communicate Mr. Tulliver's intention
concerning Tom, and it would be as well for Tom himself to be absent. The
children were used to hear themselves talked of as freely as if they were
birds, and could understand nothing, however they might stretch their necks and
listen; but on this occasion Mrs. Tulliver manifested an unusual discretion,
because she had recently had evidence that the going to school to a clergyman
was a sore point with Tom, who looked at it as very much on a par with going to
school to a constable. Mrs. Tulliver had a sighing sense that her husband would
do as he liked, whatever sister Glegg said, or sister Pullet either; but at least
they would not be able to say, if the thing turned out ill, that Bessy had
fallen in with her husband's folly without letting her own friends know a word
about it.
"Mr. Tulliver," she said,
interrupting her husband in his talk with Mr. Deane, "it's time now to
tell the children's aunts and uncles what you're thinking of doing with Tom,
isn't it?"
"Very well," said Mr. Tulliver,
rather sharply, "I've no objections to tell anybody what I mean to do with
him. I've settled," he added, looking toward Mr. Glegg and Mr.
Deane,–"I've settled to send him to a Mr. Stelling, a parson, down
at King's Lorton, there,–an uncommon clever fellow, I understand, as'll
put him up to most things."
There was a rustling demonstration of
surprise in the company, such as you may have observed in a country
congregation when they hear an allusion to their week-day affairs from the
pulpit. It was equally astonishing to the aunts and uncles to find a parson
introduced into Mr. Tulliver's family arrangements. As for uncle Pullet, he could
hardly have been more thoroughly obfuscated if Mr. Tulliver had said that he
was going to send Tom to the Lord Chancellor; for uncle Pullet belonged to that
extinct class of British yeoman who, dressed in good broadcloth, paid high
rates and taxes, went to church, and ate a particularly good dinner on Sunday,
without dreaming that the British constitution in Church and State had a
traceable origin any more than the solar system and the fixed stars.
It is melancholy, but true, that Mr.
Pullet had the most confused idea of a bishop as a sort of a baronet, who might
or might not be a clergyman; and as the rector of his own parish was a man of
high family and fortune, the idea that a clergyman could be a schoolmaster was
too remote from Mr. Pullet's experience to be readily conceivable. I know it is
difficult for people in these instructed times to believe in uncle Pullet's
ignorance; but let them reflect on the remarkable results of a great natural
faculty under favoring circumstances. And uncle Pullet had a great natural
faculty for ignorance. He was the first to give utterance to his astonishment.
"Why, what can you be going to send
him to a parson for?" he said, with an amazed twinkling in his eyes,
looking at Mr. Glegg and Mr. Deane, to see if they showed any signs of
comprehension.
"Why, because the parsons are the
best schoolmasters, by what I can make out," said poor Mr. Tulliver, who,
in the maze of this puzzling world, laid hold of any clue with great readiness
and tenacity. "Jacobs at th' academy's no parson, and he's done very bad
by the boy; and I made up my mind, if I send him to school again, it should be
to somebody different to Jacobs. And this Mr. Stelling, by what I can make out,
is the sort o' man I want. And I mean my boy to go to him at Midsummer,"
he concluded, in a tone of decision, tapping his snuff-box and taking a pinch.
"You'll have to pay a swinging
half-yearly bill, then, eh, Tulliver? The clergymen have highish notions, in
general," said Mr. Deane, taking snuff vigorously, as he always did when
wishing to maintain a neutral position.
"What! do you think the parson'll
teach him to know a good sample o' wheat when he sees it, neighbor
Tulliver?" said Mr. Glegg, who was fond of his jest, and having retired
from business, felt that it was not only allowable but becoming in him to take
a playful view of things.
"Why, you see, I've got a plan i' my
head about Tom," said Mr. Tulliver, pausing after that statement and
lifting up his glass.
"Well, if I may be allowed to speak,
and it's seldom as I am," said Mrs. Glegg, with a tone of bitter meaning,
"I should like to know what good is to come to the boy by bringin' him up
above his fortin."
"Why," said Mr. Tulliver, not
looking at Mrs. Glegg, but at the male part of his audience, "you see, I've
made up my mind not to bring Tom up to my own business. I've had my thoughts
about it all along, and I made up my mind by what I saw with Garnett and his son. I mean to put him to some
business as he can go into without capital, and I want to give him an
eddication as he'll be even wi' the lawyers and folks, and put me up to a
notion now an' then."
Mrs. Glegg emitted a long sort of guttural
sound with closed lips, that smiled in mingled pity and scorn.
"It 'ud be a fine deal better for
some people," she said, after that introductory note, "if they'd let
the lawyers alone."
"Is he at the head of a grammar
school, then, this clergyman, such as that at Market Bewley?" said Mr.
Deane.
"No, nothing of that," said Mr.
Tulliver. "He won't take more than two or three pupils, and so he'll have
the more time to attend to 'em, you know."
"Ah, and get his eddication done the
sooner; they can't learn much at a time when there's so many of 'em," said
uncle Pullet, feeling that he was getting quite an insight into this difficult
matter.
"But he'll want the more pay, I
doubt," said Mr. Glegg.
"Ay, ay, a cool hundred a year,
that's all," said Mr. Tulliver, with some pride at his own spirited
course. "But then, you know, it's an investment; Tom's eddication 'ull be
so much capital to him."
"Ay, there's something in that,"
said Mr. Glegg. "Well well, neighbor Tulliver, you may be right, you may
be right:
'When land is gone and money's spent,
Then learning is most excellent.'
"I remember seeing those two lines
wrote on a window at Buxton. But us that have got no learning had better keep
our money, eh, neighbor Pullet?" Mr. Glegg rubbed his knees, and looked
very pleasant.
"Mr. Glegg, I wonder at you," said his wife. "It's
very unbecoming in a man o' your age and belongings."
"What's unbecoming, Mrs. G.?"
said Mr. Glegg, winking pleasantly at the company. "My new blue coat as
I've got on?"
"I pity your weakness, Mr. Glegg. I
say it's unbecoming to be making a joke when you see your own kin going
headlongs to ruin."
"If you mean me by that," said
Mr. Tulliver, considerably nettled, "you needn't trouble yourself to fret
about me. I can manage my own affairs without troubling other folks."
"Bless me!" said Mr. Deane,
judiciously introducing a new idea, "why, now I come to think of it,
somebody said Wakem was going to send his
son–the deformed lad–to a clergyman, didn't they, Susan?"
(appealing to his wife).
"I can give no account of it, I'm
sure," said Mrs. Deane, closing her lips very tightly again. Mrs. Deane
was not a woman to take part in a scene where missiles were flying.
"Well," said Mr. Tulliver,
speaking all the more cheerfully, that Mrs. Glegg might see he didn't mind her,
"if Wakem thinks o' sending his son to a clergyman, depend on it I shall
make no mistake i' sending Tom to one. Wakem's as big a scoundrel as Old Harry
ever made, but he knows the length of every man's foot he's got to deal with.
Ay, ay, tell me who's Wakem's butcher, and I'll tell you where to get your
meat."
"But lawyer Wakem's son's got a
hump-back," said Mrs. Pullet, who felt as if the whole business had a
funereal aspect; "it's more nat'ral to send him to a clergyman."
"Yes," said Mr. Glegg,
interpreting Mrs. Pullet's observation with erroneous plausibility, "you
must consider that, neighbor Tulliver; Wakem's son isn't likely to follow any
business. Wakem 'ull make a gentleman of him, poor fellow."
"Mr. Glegg," said Mrs. G., in a
tone which implied that her indignation would fizz and ooze a little, though
she was determined to keep it corked up, "you'd far better hold your
tongue. Mr. Tulliver doesn't want to know your opinion nor mine either. There's
folks in the world as know better than everybody else."
"Why, I should think that's you, if
we're to trust your own tale," said Mr. Tulliver, beginning to boil up
again.
"Oh, I say nothing," said Mrs. Glegg, sarcastically.
"My advice has never been asked, and I don't give it."
"It'll be the first time, then,"
said Mr. Tulliver. "It's the only thing you're over-ready at giving."
"I've been over-ready at lending,
then, if I haven't been over-ready at giving," said Mrs. Glegg.
"There's folks I've lent money to, as perhaps I shall repent o' lending
money to kin."
"Come, come, come," said Mr.
Glegg, soothingly. But Mr. Tulliver was not to be hindered of his retort.
"You've got a bond for it, I
reckon," he said; "and you've had your five per cent, kin or no
kin."
"Sister," said Mrs. Tulliver,
pleadingly, "drink your wine, and let me give you some almonds and
raisins."
"Bessy, I'm sorry for you," said
Mrs. Glegg, very much with the feeling of a cur that seizes the opportunity of
diverting his bark toward the man who carries no stick. "It's poor work
talking o' almonds and raisins."
"Lors, sister Glegg, don't be so
quarrelsome," said Mrs. Pullet, beginning to cry a little. "You may
be struck with a fit, getting so red in the face after dinner, and we are but
just out o' mourning, all of us,–and all wi' gowns craped alike and just
put by; it's very bad among sisters."
"I should think it is bad," said Mrs. Glegg.
"Things are come to a fine pass when one sister invites the other to her
house o' purpose to quarrel with her and abuse her."
"Softly, softly, Jane; be reasonable,
be reasonable," said Mr. Glegg.
But while he was speaking, Mr. Tulliver,
who had by no means said enough to satisfy his anger, burst out again.
"Who wants to quarrel with you?"
he said. "It's you as can't let people alone, but must be gnawing at 'em
forever. I should never want
to quarrel with any woman if she kept her place."
"My place, indeed!" said Mrs.
Glegg, getting rather more shrill. "There's your betters, Mr. Tulliver, as
are dead and in their grave, treated me with a different sort o' respect to
what you do; though I've got
a husband as'll sit by and see me abused by them as 'ud never ha' had the
chance if there hadn't been them in our family as married worse than they might
ha' done."
"If you talk o' that," said Mr.
Tulliver, "my family's as good as yours, and better, for it hasn't got a
damned ill-tempered woman in it!"
"Well," said Mrs. Glegg, rising
from her chair, "I don't know whether you think it's a fine thing to sit
by and hear me swore at, Mr. Glegg; but I'm not going to stay a minute longer
in this house. You can stay behind, and come home with the gig, and I'll walk
home."
"Dear heart, dear heart!" said
Mr. Glegg in a melancholy tone, as he followed his wife out of the room.
"Mr. Tulliver, how could you talk
so?" said Mrs. Tulliver, with the tears in her eyes.
"Let her go," said Mr. Tulliver,
too hot to be damped by any amount of tears. "Let her go, and the sooner
the better; she won't be trying to domineer over me again in a hurry."
"Sister Pullet," said Mrs.
Tulliver, helplessly, "do you think it 'ud be any use for you to go after
her and try to pacify her?"
"Better not, better not," said
Mr. Deane. "You'll make it up another day."
"Then, sisters, shall we go and look
at the children?" said Mrs. Tulliver, drying her eyes.
No proposition could have been more
seasonable. Mr. Tulliver felt very much as if the air had been cleared of
obtrusive flies now the women were out of the room. There were few things he
liked better than a chat with Mr. Deane, whose close application to business
allowed the pleasure very rarely. Mr. Deane, he considered, was the "knowingest"
man of his acquaintance, and he had besides a ready causticity of tongue that
made an agreeable supplement to Mr. Tulliver's own tendency that way, which had
remained in rather an inarticulate condition. And now the women were gone, they
could carry on their serious talk without frivolous interruption. They could
exchange their views concerning the Duke of Wellington, whose conduct in the
Catholic Question had thrown such an entirely new light on his character; and
speak slightingly of his conduct at the battle of Waterloo, which he would
never have won if there hadn't been a great many Englishmen at his back, not to
speak of Blucher and the Prussians, who, as Mr. Tulliver had heard from a
person of particular knowledge in that matter, had come up in the very nick of
time; though here there was a slight dissidence, Mr. Deane remarking that he
was not disposed to give much credit to the Prussians,–the build of their
vessels, together with the unsatisfactory character of transactions in Dantzic
beer, inclining him to form rather a low view of Prussian pluck generally.
Rather beaten on this ground, Mr. Tulliver proceeded to express his fears that
the country could never again be what it used to be; but Mr. Deane, attached to
a firm of which the returns were on the increase, naturally took a more lively
view of the present, and had some details to give concerning the state of the
imports, especially in hides and spelter, which soothed Mr. Tulliver's
imagination by throwing into more distant perspective the period when the
country would become utterly the prey of Papists and Radicals, and there would
be no more chance for honest men.
Uncle Pullet sat by and listened with
twinkling eyes to these high matters. He didn't understand politics
himself,–thought they were a natural gift,–but by what he could
make out, this Duke of Wellington was no better than he should be.
Chapter VIII
Mr. Tulliver Shows His Weaker Side
"Suppose sister Glegg should call her
money in; it 'ud be very awkward for you to have to raise five hundred pounds
now," said Mrs. Tulliver to her husband that evening, as she took a
plaintive review of the day.
Mrs. Tulliver had lived thirteen years
with her husband, yet she retained in all the freshness of her early married
life a facility of saying things which drove him in the opposite direction to
the one she desired. Some minds are wonderful for keeping their bloom in this
way, as a patriarchal goldfish apparently retains to the last its youthful
illusion that it can swim in a straight line beyond the encircling glass. Mrs.
Tulliver was an amiable fish of this kind, and after running her head against
the same resisting medium for thirteen years would go at it again to-day with
undulled alacrity.
This observation of hers tended directly
to convince Mr. Tulliver that it would not be at all awkward for him to raise
five hundred pounds; and when Mrs. Tulliver became rather pressing to know how he would raise it without
mortgaging the mill and the house which he had said he never would mortgage, since nowadays people
were none so ready to lend money without security, Mr. Tulliver, getting warm,
declared that Mrs. Glegg might do as she liked about calling in her money, he
should pay it in whether or not. He was not going to be beholden to his wife's
sisters. When a man had married into a family where there was a whole litter of
women, he might have plenty to put up with if he chose. But Mr. Tulliver did not choose.
Mrs. Tulliver cried a little in a
trickling, quiet way as she put on her nightcap; but presently sank into a
comfortable sleep, lulled by the thought that she would talk everything over
with her sister Pullet to-morrow, when she was to take the children to Garum
Firs to tea. Not that she looked forward to any distinct issue from that talk;
but it seemed impossible that past events should be so obstinate as to remain
unmodified when they were complained against.
Her husband lay awake rather longer, for
he too was thinking of a visit he would pay on the morrow; and his ideas on the
subject were not of so vague and soothing a kind as those of his amiable
partner.
Mr. Tulliver, when under the influence of
a strong feeling, had a promptitude in action that may seem inconsistent with
that painful sense of the complicated, puzzling nature of human affairs under which
his more dispassionate deliberations were conducted; but it is really not
improbable that there was a direct relation between these apparently
contradictory phenomena, since I have observed that for getting a strong
impression that a skein is tangled there is nothing like snatching hastily at a
single thread. It was owing to this promptitude that Mr. Tulliver was on
horseback soon after dinner the next day (he was not dyspeptic) on his way to
Basset to see his sister Moss and her husband. For having made up his mind
irrevocably that he would pay Mrs. Glegg her loan of five hundred pounds, it
naturally occurred to him that he had a promissory note for three hundred
pounds lent to his brother-in-law Moss; and if the said brother-in-law could
manage to pay in the money within a given time, it would go far to lessen the
fallacious air of inconvenience which Mr. Tulliver's spirited step might have
worn in the eyes of weak people who require to know precisely how a thing is to be done before they
are strongly confident that it will be easy.
For Mr. Tulliver was in a position neither
new nor striking, but, like other every-day things, sure to have a cumulative
effect that will be felt in the long run: he was held to be a much more
substantial man than he really was. And as we are all apt to believe what the
world believes about us, it was his habit to think of failure and ruin with the
same sort of remote pity with which a spare, long-necked man hears that his
plethoric short-necked neighbor is stricken with apoplexy. He had been always
used to hear pleasant jokes about his advantages as a man who worked his own
mill, and owned a pretty bit of land; and these jokes naturally kept up his
sense that he was a man of considerable substance. They gave a pleasant flavor
to his glass on a market-day, and if it had not been for the recurrence of
half-yearly payments, Mr. Tulliver would really have forgotten that there was a
mortgage of two thousand pounds on his very desirable freehold. That was not
altogether his own fault, since one of the thousand pounds was his sister's
fortune, which he had to pay on her marriage; and a man who has neighbors that will go to law with him is not likely
to pay off his mortgages, especially if he enjoys the good opinion of
acquaintances who want to borrow a hundred pounds on security too lofty to be
represented by parchment. Our friend Mr. Tulliver had a good-natured fibre in
him, and did not like to give harsh refusals even to his sister, who had not
only come in to the world in that superfluous way characteristic of sisters,
creating a necessity for mortgages, but had quite thrown herself away in
marriage, and had crowned her mistakes by having an eighth baby. On this point
Mr. Tulliver was conscious of being a little weak; but he apologized to himself
by saying that poor Gritty had been a good-looking wench before she married
Moss; he would sometimes say this even with a slight tremulousness in his
voice. But this morning he was in a mood more becoming a man of business, and
in the course of his ride along the Basset lanes, with their deep
ruts,–lying so far away from a market-town that the labor of drawing
produce and manure was enough to take away the best part of the profits on such
poor land as that parish was made of,–he got up a due amount of
irritation against Moss as a man without capital, who, if murrain and blight
were abroad, was sure to have his share of them, and who, the more you tried to
help him out of the mud, would sink the further in. It would do him good rather
than harm, now, if he were obliged to raise this three hundred pounds; it would
make him look about him better, and not act so foolishly about his wool this
year as he did the last; in fact, Mr. Tulliver had been too easy with his
brother-in-law, and because he had let the interest run on for two years, Moss
was likely enough to think that he should never be troubled about the
principal. But Mr. Tulliver was determined not to encourage such shuffling
people any longer; and a ride along the Basset lanes was not likely to enervate
a man's resolution by softening his temper. The deep-trodden hoof-marks, made
in the muddiest days of winter, gave him a shake now and then which suggested a
rash but stimulating snarl at the father of lawyers, who, whether by means of
his hoof or otherwise, had doubtless something to do with this state of the
roads; and the abundance of foul land and neglected fences that met his eye,
though they made no part of his brother Moss's farm, strongly contributed to
his dissatisfaction with that unlucky agriculturist. If this wasn't Moss's
fallow, it might have been; Basset was all alike; it was a beggarly parish, in
Mr. Tulliver's opinion, and his opinion was certainly not groundless. Basset
had a poor soil, poor roads, a poor non-resident landlord, a poor non-resident
vicar, and rather less than half a curate, also poor. If any one strongly
impressed with the power of the human mind to triumph over circumstances will
contend that the parishioners of Basset might nevertheless have been a very
superior class of people, I have nothing to urge against that abstract
proposition; I only know that, in point of fact, the Basset mind was in strict
keeping with its circumstances. The muddy lanes, green or clayey, that seemed
to the unaccustomed eye to lead nowhere but into each other, did really lead,
with patience, to a distant high-road; but there were many feet in Basset which
they led more frequently to a centre of dissipation, spoken of formerly as the
"Markis o' Granby," but among intimates as "Dickison's." A
large low room with a sanded floor; a cold scent of tobacco, modified by
undetected beer-dregs; Mr. Dickison leaning against the door-post with a
melancholy pimpled face, looking as irrelevant to the daylight as a last
night's guttered candle,–all this may not seem a very seductive form of
temptation; but the majority of men in Basset found it fatally alluring when
encountered on their road toward four o'clock on a wintry afternoon; and if any
wife in Basset wished to indicate that her husband was not a pleasure-seeking
man, she could hardly do it more emphatically than by saying that he didn't
spend a shilling at Dickison's from one Whitsuntide to another. Mrs. Moss had
said so of her husband more
than once, when her brother was in a mood to find fault with him, as he
certainly was to-day. And nothing could be less pacifying to Mr. Tulliver than
the behavior of the farmyard gate, which he no sooner attempted to push open
with his riding-stick than it acted as gates without the upper hinge are known
to do, to the peril of shins, whether equine or human. He was about to get down
and lead his horse through the damp dirt of the hollow farmyard, shadowed
drearily by the large half-timbered buildings, up to the long line of
tumble-down dwelling-houses standing on a raised causeway; but the timely
appearance of a cowboy saved him that frustration of a plan he had determined
on,–namely, not to get down from his horse during this visit. If a man
means to be hard, let him keep in his saddle and speak from that height, above
the level of pleading eyes, and with the command of a distant horizon. Mrs.
Moss heard the sound of the horse's feet, and, when her brother rode up, was
already outside the kitchen door, with a half-weary smile on her face, and a
black-eyed baby in her arms. Mrs. Moss's face bore a faded resemblance to her
brother's; baby's little fat hand, pressed against her cheek, seemed to show
more strikingly that the cheek was faded.
"Brother, I'm glad to see you,"
she said, in an affectionate tone. "I didn't look for you to-day. How do
you do?"
"Oh, pretty well, Mrs. Moss, pretty
well," answered the brother, with cool deliberation, as if it were rather
too forward of her to ask that question. She knew at once that her brother was
not in a good humor; he never called her Mrs. Moss except when he was angry,
and when they were in company. But she thought it was in the order of nature
that people who were poorly off should be snubbed. Mrs. Moss did not take her
stand on the equality of the human race; she was a patient, prolific,
loving-hearted woman.
"Your husband isn't in the house, I
suppose?" added Mr. Tulliver after a grave pause, during which four
children had run out, like chickens whose mother has been suddenly in eclipse
behind the hen-coop.
"No," said Mrs. Moss, "but
he's only in the potato-field yonders. Georgy, run to the Far Close in a
minute, and tell father your uncle's come. You'll get down, brother, won't you,
and take something?"
"No, no; I can't get down. I must be
going home again directly," said Mr. Tulliver, looking at the distance.
"And how's Mrs. Tulliver and the
children?" said Mrs. Moss, humbly, not daring to press her invitation.
"Oh, pretty well. Tom's going to a
new school at Midsummer,–a deal of expense to me. It's bad work for me,
lying out o' my money."
"I wish you'd be so good as let the
children come and see their cousins some day. My little uns want to see their
cousin Maggie so as never was. And me her godmother, and so fond of her;
there's nobody 'ud make a bigger fuss with her, according to what they've got.
And I know she likes to come, for she's a loving child, and how quick and
clever she is, to be sure!"
If Mrs. Moss had been one of the most
astute women in the world, instead of being one of the simplest, she could have
thought of nothing more likely to propitiate her brother than this praise of
Maggie. He seldom found any one volunteering praise of "the little
wench"; it was usually left entirely to himself to insist on her merits.
But Maggie always appeared in the most amiable light at her aunt Moss's; it was
her Alsatia, where she was out of the reach of law,–if she upset
anything, dirtied her shoes, or tore her frock, these things were matters of
course at her aunt Moss's. In spite of himself, Mr. Tulliver's eyes got milder,
and he did not look away from his sister as he said,–
"Ay; she's fonder o' you than o' the
other aunts, I think. She takes after our family: not a bit of her mother's in
her."
"Moss says she's just like what I
used to be," said Mrs. Moss, "though I was never so quick and fond o'
the books. But I think my Lizzy's like her; she's
sharp. Come here, Lizzy, my dear, and let your uncle see you; he hardly knows
you, you grow so fast."
Lizzy, a black-eyed child of seven, looked
very shy when her mother drew her forward, for the small Mosses were much in
awe of their uncle from Dorlcote Mill. She was inferior enough to Maggie in
fire and strength of expression to make the resemblance between the two
entirely flattering to Mr. Tulliver's fatherly love.
"Ay, they're a bit alike," he
said, looking kindly at the little figure in the soiled pinafore. "They
both take after our mother. You've got enough o' gells, Gritty," he added,
in a tone half compassionate, half reproachful.
"Four of 'em, bless 'em!" said
Mrs. Moss, with a sigh, stroking Lizzy's hair on each side of her forehead;
"as many as there's boys. They've got a brother apiece."
"Ah, but they must turn out and fend
for themselves," said Mr. Tulliver, feeling that his severity was relaxing
and trying to brace it by throwing out a wholesome hint "They mustn't look
to hanging on their brothers."
"No; but I hope their brothers 'ull
love the poor things, and remember they came o' one father and mother; the lads
'ull never be the poorer for that," said Mrs. Moss, flashing out with
hurried timidity, like a half-smothered fire.
Mr. Tulliver gave his horse a little
stroke on the flank, then checked it, and said angrily, "Stand still with
you!" much to the astonishment of that innocent animal.
"And the more there is of 'em, the
more they must love one another," Mrs. Moss went on, looking at her
children with a didactic purpose. But she turned toward her brother again to
say, "Not but what I hope your boy 'ull allays be good to his sister,
though there's but two of 'em, like you and me, brother."
The arrow went straight to Mr. Tulliver's
heart. He had not a rapid imagination, but the thought of Maggie was very near
to him, and he was not long in seeing his relation to his own sister side by
side with Tom's relation to Maggie. Would the little wench ever be poorly off,
and Tom rather hard upon her?
"Ay, ay, Gritty," said the
miller, with a new softness in his tone; "but I've allays done what I
could for you," he added, as if vindicating himself from a reproach.
"I'm not denying that, brother, and
I'm noways ungrateful," said poor Mrs. Moss, too fagged by toil and
children to have strength left for any pride. "But here's the father. What
a while you've been, Moss!"
"While, do you call it?" said
Mr. Moss, feeling out of breath and injured. "I've been running all the
way. Won't you 'light, Mr. Tulliver?"
"Well, I'll just get down and have a
bit o' talk with you in the garden," said Mr. Tulliver, thinking that he
should be more likely to show a due spirit of resolve if his sister were not
present.
He got down, and passed with Mr. Moss into
the garden, toward an old yew-tree arbor, while his sister stood tapping her
baby on the back and looking wistfully after them.
Their entrance into the yew-tree arbor surprised
several fowls that were recreating themselves by scratching deep holes in the
dusty ground, and at once took flight with much pother and cackling. Mr.
Tulliver sat down on the bench, and tapping the ground curiously here and there
with his stick, as if he suspected some hollowness, opened the conversation by
observing, with something like a snarl in his tone,–
"Why, you've got wheat again in that
Corner Close, I see; and never a bit o' dressing on it. You'll do no good with
it this year."
Mr. Moss, who, when he married Miss
Tulliver, had been regarded as the buck of Basset, now wore a beard nearly a
week old, and had the depressed, unexpectant air of a machine-horse. He
answered in a patient-grumbling tone, "Why, poor farmers like me must do as
they can; they must leave it to them as have got money to play with, to put
half as much into the ground as they mean to get out of it."
"I don't know who should have money
to play with, if it isn't them as can borrow money without paying
interest," said Mr. Tulliver, who wished to get into a slight quarrel; it
was the most natural and easy introduction to calling in money.
"I know I'm behind with the
interest," said Mr. Moss, "but I was so unlucky wi' the wool last
year; and what with the Missis being laid up so, things have gone awk'arder nor
usual."
"Ay," snarled Mr. Tulliver,
"there's folks as things 'ull allays go awk'ard with; empty sacks 'ull
never stand upright."
"Well, I don't know what fault you've
got to find wi' me, Mr. Tulliver," said Mr. Moss, deprecatingly; "I
know there isn't a day-laborer works harder."
"What's the use o' that," said
Mr. Tulliver, sharply, "when a man marries, and's got no capital to work
his farm but his wife's bit o' fortin? I was against it from the first; but
you'd neither of you listen to me. And I can't lie out o' my money any longer,
for I've got to pay five hundred o' Mrs. Glegg's, and there'll be Tom an
expense to me. I should find myself short, even saying I'd got back all as is
my own. You must look about and see how you can pay me the three hundred
pound."
"Well, if that's what you mean,"
said Mr. Moss, looking blankly before him, "we'd better be sold up, and
ha' done with it; I must part wi' every head o' stock I've got, to pay you and
the landlord too."
Poor relations are undeniably
irritating,–their existence is so entirely uncalled for on our part, and
they are almost always very faulty people. Mr. Tulliver had succeeded in
getting quite as much irritated with Mr. Moss as he had desired, and he was
able to say angrily, rising from his seat,–
"Well, you must do as you can. I can't find money for everybody else
as well as myself. I must look to my own business and my own family. I can't
lie out o' my money any longer. You must raise it as quick as you can."
Mr. Tulliver walked abruptly out of the
arbor as he uttered the last sentence, and, without looking round at Mr. Moss,
went on to the kitchen door, where the eldest boy was holding his horse, and
his sister was waiting in a state of wondering alarm, which was not without its
alleviations, for baby was making pleasant gurgling sounds, and performing a
great deal of finger practice on the faded face. Mrs. Moss had eight children,
but could never overcome her regret that the twins had not lived. Mr. Moss
thought their removal was not without its consolations. "Won't you come
in, brother?" she said, looking anxiously at her husband, who was walking
slowly up, while Mr. Tulliver had his foot already in the stirrup.
"No, no; good-by," said he,
turning his horse's head, and riding away.
No man could feel more resolute till he
got outside the yard gate, and a little way along the deep-rutted lane; but
before he reached the next turning, which would take him out of sight of the
dilapidated farm-buildings, he appeared to be smitten by some sudden thought.
He checked his horse, and made it stand still in the same spot for two or three
minutes, during which he turned his head from side to side in a melancholy way,
as if he were looking at some painful object on more sides than one. Evidently,
after his fit of promptitude, Mr. Tulliver was relapsing into the sense that
this is a puzzling world. He turned his horse, and rode slowly back, giving
vent to the climax of feeling which had determined this movement by saying
aloud, as he struck his horse, "Poor little wench! she'll have nobody but
Tom, belike, when I'm gone."
Mr. Tulliver's return into the yard was
descried by several young Mosses, who immediately ran in with the exciting news
to their mother, so that Mrs. Moss was again on the door-step when her brother
rode up. She had been crying, but was rocking baby to sleep in her arms now,
and made no ostentatious show of sorrow as her brother looked at her, but
merely said:
"The father's gone to the field,
again, if you want him, brother."
"No, Gritty, no," said Mr.
Tulliver, in a gentle tone. "Don't you fret,–that's all,–I'll
make a shift without the money a bit, only you must be as clever and contriving
as you can."
Mrs. Moss's tears came again at this
unexpected kindness, and she could say nothing.
"Come, come!–the little wench
shall come and see you. I'll bring her and Tom some day before he goes to
school. You mustn't fret. I'll allays be a good brother to you."
"Thank you for that word,
brother," said Mrs. Moss, drying her tears; then turning to Lizzy, she
said, "Run now, and fetch the colored egg for cousin Maggie." Lizzy
ran in, and quickly reappeared with a small paper parcel.
"It's boiled hard, brother, and
colored with thrums, very pretty; it was done o' purpose for Maggie. Will you
please to carry it in your pocket?"
"Ay, ay," said Mr. Tulliver,
putting it carefully in his side pocket. "Good-by."
And so the respectable miller returned
along the Basset lanes rather more puzzled than before as to ways and means,
but still with the sense of a danger escaped. It had come across his mind that
if he were hard upon his sister, it might somehow tend to make Tom hard upon
Maggie at some distant day, when her father was no longer there to take her
part; for simple people, like our friend Mr. Tulliver, are apt to clothe
unimpeachable feelings in erroneous ideas, and this was his confused way of
explaining to himself that his love and anxiety for "the little
wench" had given him a new sensibility toward his sister.
While the possible troubles of Maggie's
future were occupying her father's mind, she herself was tasting only the
bitterness of the present. Childhood has no forebodings; but then, it is
soothed by no memories of outlived sorrow.
The fact was, the day had begun ill with
Maggie. The pleasure of having Lucy to look at, and the prospect of the
afternoon visit to Garum Firs, where she would hear uncle Pullet's musical box,
had been marred as early as eleven o'clock by the advent of the hair-dresser
from St. Ogg's, who had spoken in the severest terms of the condition in which
he had found her hair, holding up one jagged lock after another and saying,
"See here! tut, tut, tut!" in a tone of mingled disgust and pity,
which to Maggie's imagination was equivalent to the strongest expression of
public opinion. Mr. Rappit, the hair-dresser, with his well-anointed coronal
locks tending wavily upward, like the simulated pyramid of flame on a
monumental urn, seemed to her at that moment the most formidable of her
contemporaries, into whose street at St. Ogg's she would carefully refrain from
entering through the rest of her life.
Moreover, the preparation for a visit
being always a serious affair in the Dodson family, Martha was enjoined to have
Mrs. Tulliver's room ready an hour earlier than usual, that the laying out of
the best clothes might not be deferred till the last moment, as was sometimes
the case in families of lax views, where the ribbon-strings were never rolled
up, where there was little or no wrapping in silver paper, and where the sense
that the Sunday clothes could be got at quite easily produced no shock to the
mind. Already, at twelve o'clock, Mrs. Tulliver had on her visiting costume,
with a protective apparatus of brown holland, as if she had been a piece of
satin furniture in danger of flies; Maggie was frowning and twisting her
shoulders, that she might if possible shrink away from the prickliest of
tuckers, while her mother was remonstrating, "Don't, Maggie, my dear;
don't make yourself so ugly!" and Tom's cheeks were looking particularly
brilliant as a relief to his best blue suit, which he wore with becoming calmness,
having, after a little wrangling, effected what was always the one point of
interest to him in his toilet: he had transferred all the contents of his
every-day pockets to those actually in wear.
As for Lucy, she was just as pretty and
neat as she had been yesterday; no accidents ever happened to her clothes, and
she was never uncomfortable in them, so that she looked with wondering pity at
Maggie, pouting and writhing under the exasperating tucker. Maggie would
certainly have torn it off, if she had not been checked by the remembrance of
her recent humiliation about her hair; as it was, she confined herself to
fretting and twisting, and behaving peevishly about the card-houses which they
were allowed to build till dinner, as a suitable amusement for boys and girls
in their best clothes. Tom could build perfect pyramids of houses; but Maggie's
would never bear the laying on the roof. It was always so with the things that
Maggie made; and Tom had deduced the conclusion that no girls could ever make
anything. But it happened that Lucy proved wonderfully clever at building; she
handled the cards so lightly, and moved so gently, that Tom condescended to
admire her houses as well as his own, the more readily because she had asked
him to teach her. Maggie, too, would have admired Lucy's houses, and would have
given up her own unsuccessful building to contemplate them, without ill temper,
if her tucker had not made her peevish, and if Tom had not inconsiderately
laughed when her houses fell, and told her she was "a stupid."
"Don't laugh at me, Tom!" she
burst out angrily; "I'm not a stupid. I know a great many things you
don't."
"Oh, I dare say, Miss Spitfire! I'd
never be such a cross thing as you, making faces like that. Lucy doesn't do so.
I like Lucy better than you; I
wish Lucy was my
sister."
"Then it's very wicked and cruel of
you to wish so," said Maggie, starting up hurriedly from her place on the
floor, and upsetting Tom's wonderful pagoda. She really did not mean it, but
the circumstantial evidence was against her, and Tom turned white with anger,
but said nothing; he would have struck her, only he knew it was cowardly to
strike a girl, and Tom Tulliver was quite determined he would never do anything
cowardly.
Maggie stood in dismay and terror, while
Tom got up from the floor and walked away, pale, from the scattered ruins of
his pagoda, and Lucy looked on mutely, like a kitten pausing from its lapping.
"Oh, Tom," said Maggie, at last,
going half-way toward him, "I didn't mean to knock it down, indeed, indeed
I didn't."
Tom took no notice of her, but took,
instead, two or three hard peas out of his pocket, and shot them with his
thumbnail against the window, vaguely at first, but presently with the distinct
aim of hitting a superannuated blue-bottle which was exposing its imbecility in
the spring sunshine, clearly against the views of Nature, who had provided Tom
and the peas for the speedy destruction of this weak individual.
Thus the morning had been made heavy to
Maggie, and Tom's persistent coldness to her all through their walk spoiled the
fresh air and sunshine for her. He called Lucy to look at the half-built bird's
nest without caring to show it Maggie, and peeled a willow switch for Lucy and
himself, without offering one to Maggie. Lucy had said, "Maggie, shouldn't
you like one?" but Tom
was deaf.
Still, the sight of the peacock
opportunely spreading his tail on the stackyard wall, just as they reached
Garum Firs, was enough to divert the mind temporarily from personal grievances.
And this was only the beginning of beautiful sights at Garum Firs. All the
farmyard life was wonderful there,–bantams, speckled and top-knotted;
Friesland hens, with their feathers all turned the wrong way; Guinea-fowls that
flew and screamed and dropped their pretty spotted feathers; pouter-pigeons and
a tame magpie; nay, a goat, and a wonderful brindled dog, half mastiff, half
bull-dog, as large as a lion. Then there were white railings and white gates
all about, and glittering weathercocks of various design, and garden-walks
paved with pebbles in beautiful patterns,–nothing was quite common at
Garum Firs; and Tom thought that the unusual size of the toads there was simply
due to the general unusualness which characterized uncle Pullet's possessions
as a gentleman farmer. Toads who paid rent were naturally leaner. As for the
house, it was not less remarkable; it had a receding centre, and two wings with
battlemented turrets, and was covered with glittering white stucco.
Uncle Pullet had seen the expected party
approaching from the window, and made haste to unbar and unchain the front
door, kept always in this fortified condition from fear of tramps, who might be
supposed to know of the glass case of stuffed birds in the hall, and to
contemplate rushing in and carrying it away on their heads. Aunt Pullet, too,
appeared at the doorway, and as soon as her sister was within hearing said,
"Stop the children, for God's sake! Bessy; don't let 'em come up the
door-steps; Sally's bringing the old mat and the duster, to rub their shoes."
Mrs. Pullet's front-door mats were by no
means intended to wipe shoes on; the very scraper had a deputy to do its dirty
work. Tom rebelled particularly against this shoewiping, which he always
considered in the light of an indignity to his sex. He felt it as the beginning
of the disagreeables incident to a visit at aunt Pullet's, where he had once
been compelled to sit with towels wrapped round his boots; a fact which may
serve to correct the too-hasty conclusion that a visit to Garum Firs must have
been a great treat to a young gentleman fond of animals,–fond, that is,
of throwing stones at them.
The next disagreeable was confined to his
feminine companions; it was the mounting of the polished oak stairs, which had
very handsome carpets rolled up and laid by in a spare bedroom, so that the
ascent of these glossy steps might have served, in barbarous times, as a trial
by ordeal from which none but the most spotless virtue could have come off with
unbroken limbs. Sophy's weakness about these polished stairs was always a
subject of bitter remonstrance on Mrs. Glegg's part; but Mrs. Tulliver ventured
on no comment, only thinking to herself it was a mercy when she and the
children were safe on the landing.
"Mrs. Gray has sent home my new
bonnet, Bessy," said Mrs. Pullet, in a pathetic tone, as Mrs. Tulliver
adjusted her cap.
"Has she, sister?" said Mrs.
Tulliver, with an air of much interest. "And how do you like it?"
"It's apt to make a mess with
clothes, taking 'em out and putting 'em in again," said Mrs. Pullet,
drawing a bunch of keys from her pocket and looking at them earnestly,
"but it 'ud be a pity for you to go away without seeing it. There's no
knowing what may happen."
Mrs. Pullet shook her head slowly at this
last serious consideration, which determined her to single out a particular
key.
"I'm afraid it'll be troublesome to
you getting it out, sister," said Mrs. Tulliver; "but I should like to see what sort of a crown
she's made you."
Mrs. Pullet rose with a melancholy air and
unlocked one wing of a very bright wardrobe, where you may have hastily
supposed she would find a new bonnet. Not at all. Such a supposition could only
have arisen from a too-superficial acquaintance with the habits of the Dodson
family. In this wardrobe Mrs. Pullet was seeking something small enough to be
hidden among layers of linen,–it was a door-key.
"You must come with me into the best
room," said Mrs. Pullet.
"May the children come too,
sister?" inquired Mrs. Tulliver, who saw that Maggie and Lucy were looking
rather eager.
"Well," said aunt Pullet,
reflectively, "it'll perhaps be safer for 'em to come; they'll be touching
something if we leave 'em behind."
So they went in procession along the
bright and slippery corridor, dimly lighted by the semi-lunar top of the window
which rose above the closed shutter; it was really quite solemn. Aunt Pullet
paused and unlocked a door which opened on something still more solemn than the
passage,–a darkened room, in which the outer light, entering feebly,
showed what looked like the corpses of furniture in white shrouds. Everything
that was not shrouded stood with its legs upward. Lucy laid hold of Maggie's
frock, and Maggie's heart beat rapidly.
Aunt Pullet half-opened the shutter and
then unlocked the wardrobe, with a melancholy deliberateness which was quite in
keeping with the funereal solemnity of the scene. The delicious scent of
rose-leaves that issued from the wardrobe made the process of taking out sheet
after sheet of silver paper quite pleasant to assist at, though the sight of
the bonnet at last was an anticlimax to Maggie, who would have preferred
something more strikingly preternatural. But few things could have been more
impressive to Mrs. Tulliver. She looked all round it in silence for some
moments, and then said emphatically, "Well, sister, I'll never speak
against the full crowns again!"
It was a great concession, and Mrs. Pullet
felt it; she felt something was due to it.
"You'd like to see it on,
sister?" she said sadly. "I'll open the shutter a bit further."
"Well, if you don't mind taking off
your cap, sister," said Mrs. Tulliver.
Mrs. Pullet took off her cap, displaying
the brown silk scalp with a jutting promontory of curls which was common to the
more mature and judicious women of those times, and placing the bonnet on her
head, turned slowly round, like a draper's lay-figure, that Mrs. Tulliver might
miss no point of view.
"I've sometimes thought there's a
loop too much o' ribbon on this left side, sister; what do you think?"
said Mrs. Pullet.
Mrs. Tulliver looked earnestly at the
point indicated, and turned her head on one side. "Well, I think it's best
as it is; if you meddled with it, sister, you might repent."
"That's true," said aunt Pullet,
taking off the bonnet and looking at it contemplatively.
"How much might she charge you for
that bonnet, sister?" said Mrs. Tulliver, whose mind was actively engaged
on the possibility of getting a humble imitation of this chef-d'œuvre made from a piece of
silk she had at home.
Mrs. Pullet screwed up her mouth and shook
her head, and then whispered, "Pullet pays for it; he said I was to have
the best bonnet at Garum Church, let the next best be whose it would."
She began slowly to adjust the trimmings,
in preparation for returning it to its place in the wardrobe, and her thoughts
seemed to have taken a melancholy turn, for she shook her head.
"Ah," she said at last, "I
may never wear it twice, sister; who knows?"
"Don't talk o' that sister,"
answered Mrs. Tulliver. "I hope you'll have your health this summer."
"Ah! but there may come a death in
the family, as there did soon after I had my green satin bonnet. Cousin Abbott
may go, and we can't think o' wearing crape less nor half a year for him."
"That would be unlucky," said Mrs. Tulliver, entering
thoroughly into the possibility of an inopportune decease. "There's never
so much pleasure i' wearing a bonnet the second year, especially when the
crowns are so chancy,–never two summers alike."
"Ah, it's the way i' this
world," said Mrs. Pullet, returning the bonnet to the wardrobe and locking
it up. She maintained a silence characterized by head-shaking, until they had
all issued from the solemn chamber and were in her own room again. Then,
beginning to cry, she said, "Sister, if you should never see that bonnet
again till I'm dead and gone, you'll remember I showed it you this day."
Mrs. Tulliver felt that she ought to be
affected, but she was a woman of sparse tears, stout and healthy; she couldn't
cry so much as her sister Pullet did, and had often felt her deficiency at funerals.
Her effort to bring tears into her eyes issued in an odd contraction of her
face. Maggie, looking on attentively, felt that there was some painful mystery
about her aunt's bonnet which she was considered too young to understand;
indignantly conscious, all the while, that she could have understood that, as
well as everything else, if she had been taken into confidence.
When they went down, uncle Pullet
observed, with some acumen, that he reckoned the missis had been showing her
bonnet,–that was what had made them so long upstairs. With Tom the
interval had seemed still longer, for he had been seated in irksome constraint
on the edge of a sofa directly opposite his uncle Pullet, who regarded him with
twinkling gray eyes, and occasionally addressed him as "Young sir."
"Well, young sir, what do you learn
at school?" was a standing question with uncle Pullet; whereupon Tom
always looked sheepish, rubbed his hands across his face, and answered, "I
don't know." It was altogether so embarrassing to be seated tête-à-tête with uncle Pullet, that Tom
could not even look at the prints on the walls, or the flycages, or the
wonderful flower-pots; he saw nothing but his uncle's gaiters. Not that Tom was
in awe of his uncle's mental superiority; indeed, he had made up his mind that
he didn't want to be a gentleman farmer, because he shouldn't like to be such a
thin-legged, silly fellow as his uncle Pullet,–a molly-coddle, in fact. A
boy's sheepishness is by no means a sign of overmastering reverence; and while
you are making encouraging advances to him under the idea that he is
overwhelmed by a sense of your age and wisdom, ten to one he is thinking you
extremely queer. The only consolation I can suggest to you is, that the Greek
boys probably thought the same of Aristotle. It is only when you have mastered
a restive horse, or thrashed a drayman, or have got a gun in your hand, that
these shy juniors feel you to be a truly admirable and enviable character. At
least, I am quite sure of Tom Tulliver's sentiments on these points. In very
tender years, when he still wore a lace border under his outdoor cap, he was
often observed peeping through the bars of a gate and making minatory gestures
with his small forefinger while he scolded the sheep with an inarticulate burr,
intended to strike terror into their astonished minds; indicating thus early
that desire for mastery over the inferior animals, wild and domestic, including
cockchafers, neighbors' dogs, and small sisters, which in all ages has been an
attribute of so much promise for the fortunes of our race. Now, Mr. Pullet
never rode anything taller than a low pony, and was the least predatory of men,
considering firearms dangerous, as apt to go off of themselves by nobody's
particular desire. So that Tom was not without strong reasons when, in
confidential talk with a chum, he had described uncle Pullet as a nincompoop,
taking care at the same time to observe that he was a very "rich
fellow."
The only alleviating circumstance in a tête-à-tête with uncle Pullet was that
he kept a variety of lozenges and peppermint-drops about his person, and when
at a loss for conversation, he filled up the void by proposing a mutual solace
of this kind.
"Do you like peppermints, young
sir?" required only a tacit answer when it was accompanied by a
presentation of the article in question.
The appearance of the little girls
suggested to uncle Pullet the further solace of small sweet-cakes, of which he
also kept a stock under lock and key for his own private eating on wet days;
but the three children had no sooner got the tempting delicacy between their
fingers, than aunt Pullet desired them to abstain from eating it till the tray
and the plates came, since with those crisp cakes they would make the floor
"all over" crumbs. Lucy didn't mind that much, for the cake was so
pretty, she thought it was rather a pity to eat it; but Tom, watching his
opportunity while the elders were talking, hastily stowed it in his mouth at
two bites, and chewed it furtively. As for Maggie, becoming fascinated, as usual,
by a print of Ulysses and Nausicaa, which uncle Pullet had bought as a
"pretty Scripture thing," she presently let fall her cake, and in an
unlucky movement crushed it beneath her foot,–a source of so much
agitation to aunt Pullet and conscious disgrace to Maggie, that she began to
despair of hearing the musical snuff-box to-day, till, after some reflection,
it occurred to her that Lucy was in high favor enough to venture on asking for
a tune. So she whispered to Lucy; and Lucy, who always did what she was desired
to do, went up quietly to her uncle's knee, and blush-all over her neck while
she fingered her necklace, said, "Will you please play us a tune,
uncle?"
Lucy thought it was by reason of some
exceptional talent in uncle Pullet that the snuff-box played such beautiful
tunes, and indeed the thing was viewed in that light by the majority of his
neighbors in Garum. Mr. Pullet had bought
the box, to begin with, and he understood winding it up, and knew which tune it
was going to play beforehand; altogether the possession of this unique
"piece of music" was a proof that Mr. Pullet's character was not of
that entire nullity which might otherwise have been attributed to it. But uncle
Pullet, when entreated to exhibit his accomplishment, never depreciated it by a
too-ready consent. "We'll see about it," was the answer he always
gave, carefully abstaining from any sign of compliance till a suitable number
of minutes had passed. Uncle Pullet had a programme for all great social
occasions, and in this way fenced himself in from much painful confusion and
perplexing freedom of will.
Perhaps the suspense did heighten Maggie's
enjoyment when the fairy tune began; for the first time she quite forgot that
she had a load on her mind, that Tom was angry with her; and by the time
"Hush, ye pretty warbling choir," had been played, her face wore that
bright look of happiness, while she sat immovable with her hands clasped, which
sometimes comforted her mother with the sense that Maggie could look pretty now
and then, in spite of her brown skin. But when the magic music ceased, she
jumped up, and running toward Tom, put her arm round his neck and said,
"Oh, Tom, isn't it pretty?"
Lest you should think it showed a
revolting insensibility in Tom that he felt any new anger toward Maggie for
this uncalled-for and, to him, inexplicable caress, I must tell you that he had
his glass of cowslip wine in his hand, and that she jerked him so as to make
him spill half of it. He must have been an extreme milksop not to say angrily, "Look
there, now!" especially when his resentment was sanctioned, as it was, by
general disapprobation of Maggie's behavior.
"Why don't you sit still,
Maggie?" her mother said peevishly.
"Little gells mustn't come to see me
if they behave in that way," said aunt Pullet.
"Why, you're too rough, little
miss," said uncle Pullet.
Poor Maggie sat down again, with the music
all chased out of her soul, and the seven small demons all in again.
Mrs. Tulliver, foreseeing nothing but
misbehavior while the children remained indoors, took an early opportunity of
suggesting that, now they were rested after their walk, they might go and play
out of doors; and aunt Pullet gave permission, only enjoining them not to go
off the paved walks in the garden, and if they wanted to see the poultry fed,
to view them from a distance on the horse-block; a restriction which had been
imposed ever since Tom had been found guilty of running after the peacock, with
an illusory idea that fright would make one of its feathers drop off.
Mrs. Tulliver's thoughts had been
temporarily diverted from the quarrel with Mrs. Glegg by millinery and maternal
cares, but now the great theme of the bonnet was thrown into perspective, and
the children were out of the way, yesterday's anxieties recurred.
"It weighs on my mind so as never
was," she said, by way of opening the subject, "sister Glegg's
leaving the house in that way. I'm sure I'd no wish t' offend a sister."
"Ah," said aunt Pullet,
"there's no accounting for what Jane 'ull do. I wouldn't speak of it out
o' the family, if it wasn't to Dr. Turnbull; but it's my belief Jane lives too
low. I've said so to Pullet often and often, and he knows it."
"Why, you said so last Monday was a
week, when we came away from drinking tea with 'em," said Mr. Pullet,
beginning to nurse his knee and shelter it with his pocket-hand-kerchief, as
was his way when the conversation took an interesting turn.
"Very like I did," said Mrs.
Pullet, "for you remember when I said things, better than I can remember
myself. He's got a wonderful memory, Pullet has," she continued, looking
pathetically at her sister. "I should be poorly off if he was to have a
stroke, for he always remembers when I've got to take my doctor's stuff; and
I'm taking three sorts now."
"There's the 'pills as before' every
other night, and the new drops at eleven and four, and the 'fervescing mixture
'when agreeable,'" rehearsed Mr. Pullet, with a punctuation determined by
a lozenge on his tongue.
"Ah, perhaps it 'ud be better for
sister Glegg if she'd go to
the doctor sometimes, instead o' chewing Turkey rhubard whenever there's
anything the matter with her," said Mrs. Tulliver, who naturally saw the
wide subject of medicine chiefly in relation to Mrs. Glegg.
"It's dreadful to think on,"
said aunt Pullet, raising her hands and letting them fall again, "people
playing with their own insides in that way! And it's flying i' the face o'
"Well, we've no call to be ashamed," said Mr. Pullet,
"for Doctor Turnbull hasn't got such another patient as you i' this
parish, now old Mrs. Sutton's gone."
"Pullet keeps all my physic-bottles,
did you know, Bessy?" said Mrs. Pullet. "He won't have one sold. He
says it's nothing but right folks should see 'em when I'm gone. They fill two
o' the long store-room shelves a'ready; but," she added, beginning to cry
a little, "it's well if they ever fill three. I may go before I've made up
the dozen o' these last sizes. The pill-boxes are in the closet in my
room,–you'll remember that, sister,–but there's nothing to show for
the boluses, if it isn't the bills."
"Don't talk o' your going,
sister," said Mrs. Tulliver; "I should have nobody to stand between
me and sister Glegg if you was gone. And there's nobody but you can get her to
make it up with Mr. Tulliver, for sister Deane's never o' my side, and if she was,
it's not to be looked for as she can speak like them as have got an independent
fortin."
"Well, your husband is awk'ard, you know, Bessy," said
Mrs. Pullet, good-naturedly ready to use her deep depression on her sister's
account as well as her own. "He's never behaved quite so pretty to our
family as he should do, and the children take after him,–the boy's very
mischievous, and runs away from his aunts and uncles, and the gell's rude and
brown. It's your bad luck, and I'm sorry for you, Bessy; for you was allays my
favorite sister, and we allays liked the same patterns."
"I know Tulliver's hasty, and says
odd things," said Mrs. Tulliver, wiping away one small tear from the
corner of her eye; "but I'm sure he's never been the man, since he married
me, to object to my making the friends o' my side o' the family welcome to the
house."
"I
don't want to make the worst of you, Bessy," said Mrs. Pullet,
compassionately, "for I doubt you'll have trouble enough without that; and
your husband's got that poor sister and her children hanging on him,–and
so given to lawing, they say. I doubt he'll leave you poorly off when he dies.
Not as I'd have it said out o' the family."
This view of her position was naturally
far from cheering to Mrs. Tulliver. Her imagination was not easily acted on,
but she could not help thinking that her case was a hard one, since it appeared
that other people thought it hard.
"I'm sure, sister, I can't help
myself," she said, urged by the fear lest her anticipated misfortunes
might be held retributive, to take comprehensive review of her past conduct.
"There's no woman strives more for her children; and I'm sure at
scouring-time this Lady-day as I've had all the bedhangings taken down I did as
much as the two gells put together; and there's the last elder-flower wine I've
made–beautiful! I allays offer it along with the sherry, though sister
Glegg will have it I'm so extravagant; and as for liking to have my clothes
tidy, and not go a fright about the house, there's nobody in the parish can say
anything against me in respect o' backbiting and making mischief, for I don't
wish anybody any harm; and nobody loses by sending me a porkpie, for my pies
are fit to show with the best o' my neighbors'; and the linen's so in order as
if I was to die to-morrow I shouldn't be ashamed. A woman can do no more nor
she can."
"But it's all o' no use, you know,
Bessy," said Mrs. Pullet, holding her head on one side, and fixing her
eyes pathetically on her sister, "if your husband makes away with his
money. Not but what if you was sold up, and other folks bought your furniture,
it's a comfort to think as you've kept it well rubbed. And there's the linen,
with your maiden mark on, might go all over the country. It 'ud be a sad pity
for our family." Mrs. Pullet shook her head slowly.
"But what can I do, sister?"
said Mrs. Tulliver. "Mr. Tulliver's not a man to be dictated to,–not
if I was to go to the parson and get by heart what I should tell my husband for
the best. And I'm sure I don't pretend to know anything about putting out money
and all that. I could never see into men's business as sister Glegg does."
"Well, you're like me in that,
Bessy," said Mrs. Pullet; "and I think it 'ud be a deal more becoming
o' Jane if she'd have that pier-glass rubbed oftener,–there was ever so
many spots on it last week,–instead o' dictating to folks as have more
comings in than she ever had, and telling 'em what they're to do with their
money. But Jane and me were allays contrairy; she would have striped things, and I like spots. You like a
spot too, Bessy; we allays hung together i' that."
"Yes, Sophy," said Mrs.
Tulliver, "I remember our having a blue ground with a white spot both
alike,–I've got a bit in a bed-quilt now; and if you would but go and see
sister Glegg, and persuade her to make it up with Tulliver, I should take it
very kind of you. You was allays a good sister to me."
"But the right thing 'ud be for
Tulliver to go and make it up with her himself, and say he was sorry for
speaking so rash. If he's borrowed money of her, he shouldn't be above
that," said Mrs. Pullet, whose partiality did not blind her to principles;
she did not forget what was due to people of independent fortune.
"It's no use talking o' that,"
said poor Mrs. Tulliver, almost peevishly. "If I was to go down on my bare
knees on the gravel to Tulliver, he'd never humble himself."
"Well, you can't expect me to
persuade Jane to beg
pardon," said Mrs. Pullet. "Her temper's beyond everything; it's well
if it doesn't carry her off her mind, though there never was any of our family went to a
madhouse."
"I'm not thinking of her begging
pardon," said Mrs. Tulliver. "But if she'd just take no notice, and
not call her money in; as it's not so much for one sister to ask of another;
time 'ud mend things, and Tulliver 'ud forget all about it, and they'd be
friends again."
Mrs. Tulliver, you perceive, was not aware
of her husband's irrevocable determination to pay in the five hundred pounds;
at least such a determination exceeded her powers of belief.
"Well, Bessy," said Mrs. Pullet,
mournfully, "I don't
want to help you on to ruin. I won't be behindhand i' doing you a good turn, if
it is to be done. And I don't like it said among acquaintance as we've got
quarrels in the family. I shall tell Jane that; and I don't mind driving to
Jane's tomorrow, if Pullet doesn't mind. What do you say, Mr. Pullet?"
"I've no objections," said Mr.
Pullet, who was perfectly contented with any course the quarrel might take, so
that Mr. Tulliver did not apply to him
for money. Mr. Pullet was nervous about his investments, and did not see how a
man could have any security for his money unless he turned it into land.
After a little further discussion as to
whether it would not be better for Mrs. Tulliver to accompany them on a visit
to sister Glegg, Mrs. Pullet, observing that it was tea-time, turned to reach
from a drawer a delicate damask napkin, which she pinned before her in the
fashion of an apron. The door did, in fact, soon open, but instead of the
tea-tray, Sally introduced an object so startling that both Mrs. Pullet and
Mrs. Tulliver gave a scream, causing uncle Pullet to swallow his
lozenge–for the fifth time in his life, as he afterward noted.
Chapter X
Maggie Behaves Worse Than She Expected
The startling object which thus made an
epoch for uncle Pullet was no other than little Lucy, with one side of her
person, from her small foot to her bonnet-crown, wet and discolored with mud,
holding out two tiny blackened hands, and making a very piteous face. To
account for this unprecedented apparition in aunt Pullet's parlor, we must
return to the moment when the three children went to play out of doors, and the
small demons who had taken possession of Maggie's soul at an early period of
the day had returned in all the greater force after a temporary absence. All
the disagreeable recollections of the morning were thick upon her, when Tom,
whose displeasure toward her had been considerably refreshed by her foolish
trick of causing him to upset his cowslip wine, said, "Here, Lucy, you
come along with me," and walked off to the area where the toads were, as
if there were no Maggie in existence. Seeing this, Maggie lingered at a
distance, looking like a small Medusa with her snakes cropped. Lucy was
naturally pleased that cousin Tom was so good to her, and it was very amusing
to see him tickling a fat toad with a piece of string when the toad was safe
down the area, with an iron grating over him. Still Lucy wished Maggie to enjoy
the spectacle also, especially as she would doubtless find a name for the toad,
and say what had been his past history; for Lucy had a delighted semibelief in
Maggie's stories about the live things they came upon by accident,–how
Mrs. Earwig had a wash at home, and one of her children had fallen into the hot
copper, for which reason she was running so fast to fetch the doctor. Tom had a
profound contempt for this nonsense of Maggie's, smashing the earwig at once as
a superfluous yet easy means of proving the entire unreality of such a story;
but Lucy, for the life of her, could not help fancying there was something in
it, and at all events thought it was very pretty make-believe. So now the
desire to know the history of a very portly toad, added to her habitual
affectionateness, made her run back to Maggie and say, "Oh, there is such
a big, funny toad, Maggie! Do come and see!"
Maggie said nothing, but turned away from
her with a deeper frown. As long as Tom seemed to prefer Lucy to her, Lucy made
part of his unkindness. Maggie would have thought a little while ago that she
could never be cross with pretty little Lucy, any more than she could be cruel
to a little white mouse; but then, Tom had always been quite indifferent to
Lucy before, and it had been left to Maggie to pet and make much of her. As it
was, she was actually beginning to think that she should like to make Lucy cry
by slapping or pinching her, especially as it might vex Tom, whom it was of no
use to slap, even if she dared, because he didn't mind it. And if Lucy hadn't
been there, Maggie was sure he would have got friends with her sooner.
Tickling a fat toad who is not highly
sensitive is an amusement that it is possible to exhaust, and Tom by and by
began to look round for some other mode of passing the time. But in so prim a
garden, where they were not to go off the paved walks, there was not a great
choice of sport. The only great pleasure such a restriction suggested was the
pleasure of breaking it, and Tom began to meditate an insurrectionary visit to
the pond, about a field's length beyond the garden.
"I say, Lucy," he began, nodding
his head up and down with great significance, as he coiled up his string again,
"what do you think I mean to do?"
"What, Tom?" said Lucy, with
curiosity.
"I mean to go to the pond and look at
the pike. You may go with me if you like," said the young sultan.
"Oh, Tom, dare you?" said Lucy. "Aunt said we mustn't go
out of the garden."
"Oh, I shall go out at the other end
of the garden," said Tom. "Nobody 'ull see us. Besides, I don't care
if they do,–I'll run off home."
"But I couldn't run," said Lucy, who had never before been
exposed to such severe temptation.
"Oh, never mind; they won't be cross
with you," said Tom.
"You say I took you."
Tom walked along, and Lucy trotted by his
side, timidly enjoying the rare treat of doing something naughty,–excited
also by the mention of that celebrity, the pike, about which she was quite
uncertain whether it was a fish or a fowl.
Maggie saw them leaving the garden, and
could not resist the impulse to follow. Anger and jealousy can no more bear to
lose sight of their objects than love, and that Tom and Lucy should do or see
anything of which she was ignorant would have been an intolerable idea to
Maggie. So she kept a few yards behind them, unobserved by Tom, who was
presently absorbed in watching for the pike,–a highly interesting
monster; he was said to be so very old, so very large, and to have such a
remarkable appetite. The pike, like other celebrities, did not show when he was
watched for, but Tom caught sight of something in rapid movement in the water,
which attracted him to another spot on the brink of the pond.
"Here, Lucy!" he said in a loud
whisper, "come here! take care! keep on the grass!–don't step where
the cows have been!" he added, pointing to a peninsula of dry grass, with
trodden mud on each side of it; for Tom's contemptuous conception of a girl
included the attribute of being unfit to walk in dirty places.
Lucy came carefully as she was bidden, and
bent down to look at what seemed a golden arrow-head darting through the water.
It was a water-snake, Tom told her; and Lucy at last could see the serpentine
wave of its body, very much wondering that a snake could swim. Maggie had drawn
nearer and nearer; she must
see it too, though it was bitter to her, like everything else, since Tom did
not care about her seeing it. At last she was close by Lucy; and Tom, who had
been aware of her approach, but would not notice it till he was obliged, turned
round and said,–
"Now, get away, Maggie; there's no
room for you on the grass here. Nobody asked you
to come."
There were passions at war in Maggie at
that moment to have made a tragedy, if tragedies were made by passion only; but
the essential τι μεγεθως which was
present in the passion was wanting to the action; the utmost Maggie could do,
with a fierce thrust of her small brown arm, was to push poor little
pink-and-white Lucy into the cow-trodden mud.
Then Tom could not restrain himself, and
gave Maggie two smart slaps on the arm as he ran to pick up Lucy, who lay
crying helplessly. Maggie retreated to the roots of a tree a few yards off, and
looked on impenitently. Usually her repentance came quickly after one rash
deed, but now Tom and Lucy had made her so miserable, she was glad to spoil
their happiness,–glad to make everybody uncomfortable. Why should she be
sorry? Tom was very slow to forgive her,
however sorry she might have been.
"I shall tell mother, you know, Miss
Mag," said Tom, loudly and emphatically, as soon as Lucy was up and ready
to walk away. It was not Tom's practice to "tell," but here justice
clearly demanded that Maggie should be visited with the utmost punishment; not
that Tom had learned to put his views in that abstract form; he never mentioned
"justice," and had no idea that his desire to punish might be called
by that fine name. Lucy was too entirely absorbed by the evil that had befallen
her,–the spoiling of her pretty best clothes, and the discomfort of being
wet and dirty,–to think much of the cause, which was entirely mysterious
to her. She could never have guessed what she had done to make Maggie angry
with her; but she felt that Maggie was very unkind and disagreeable, and made
no magnanimous entreaties to Tom that he would not "tell," only
running along by his side and crying piteously, while Maggie sat on the roots
of the tree and looked after them with her small Medusa face.
"Sally," said Tom, when they
reached the kitchen door, and Sally looked at them in speechless amaze, with a
piece of bread-and-butter in her mouth and a toasting-fork in her
hand,–"Sally, tell mother it was Maggie pushed Lucy into the
mud."
"But Lors ha' massy, how did you get
near such mud as that?" said Sally, making a wry face, as she stooped down
and examined the corpus delicti.
Tom's imagination had not been rapid and
capacious enough to include this question among the foreseen consequences, but
it was no sooner put than he foresaw whither it tended, and that Maggie would
not be considered the only culprit in the case. He walked quietly away from the
kitchen door, leaving Sally to that pleasure of guessing which active minds
notoriously prefer to ready-made knowledge.
Sally, as you are aware, lost no time in
presenting Lucy at the parlor door, for to have so dirty an object introduced
into the house at Garum Firs was too great a weight to be sustained by a single
mind.
"Goodness gracious!" aunt Pullet
exclaimed, after preluding by an inarticulate scream; "keep her at the
door, Sally! Don't bring her off the oil-cloth, whatever you do."
"Why, she's tumbled into some nasty
mud," said Mrs. Tulliver, going up to Lucy to examine into the amount of
damage to clothes for which she felt herself responsible to her sister Deane.
"If you please, 'um, it was Miss
Maggie as pushed her in," said Sally; "Master Tom's been and said so,
and they must ha' been to the pond, for it's only there they could ha' got into
such dirt."
"There it is, Bessy; it's what I've
been telling you," said Mrs. Pullet, in a tone of prophetic sadness;
"it's your children,–there's no knowing what they'll come to."
Mrs. Tulliver was mute, feeling herself a
truly wretched mother. As usual, the thought pressed upon her that people would
think she had done something wicked to deserve her maternal troubles, while
Mrs. Pullet began to give elaborate directions to Sally how to guard the
premises from serious injury in the course of removing the dirt. Meantime tea
was to be brought in by the cook, and the two naughty children were to have
theirs in an ignominious manner in the kitchen. Mrs. Tulliver went out to speak
to these naughty children, supposing them to be close at hand; but it was not
until after some search that she found Tom leaning with rather a hardened,
careless air against the white paling of the poultry-yard, and lowering his
piece of string on the other side as a means of exasperating the turkey-cock.
"Tom, you naughty boy, where's your
sister?" said Mrs. Tulliver, in a distressed voice.
"I don't know," said Tom; his
eagerness for justice on Maggie had diminished since he had seen clearly that
it could hardly be brought about without the injustice of some blame on his own
conduct.
"Why, where did you leave her?"
said the mother, looking round.
"Sitting under the tree, against the
pond," said Tom, apparently indifferent to everything but the string and
the turkey-cock.
"Then go and fetch her in this
minute, you naughty boy. And how could you think o' going to the pond, and
taking your sister where there was dirt? You know she'll do mischief if there's
mischief to be done."
It was Mrs. Tulliver's way, if she blamed
Tom, to refer his misdemeanor, somehow or other, to Maggie.
The idea of Maggie sitting alone by the
pond roused an habitual fear in Mrs. Tulliver's mind, and she mounted the
horse-block to satisfy herself by a sight of that fatal child, while Tom
walked–not very quickly–on his way toward her.
"They're such children for the water,
mine are," she said aloud, without reflecting that there was no one to
hear her; "they'll be brought in dead and drownded some day. I wish that
river was far enough."
But when she not only failed to discern
Maggie, but presently saw Tom returning from the pool alone, this hovering fear
entered and took complete possession of her, and she hurried to meet him.
"Maggie's nowhere about the pond,
mother," said Tom; "she's gone away."
You may conceive the terrified search for
Maggie, and the difficulty of convincing her mother that she was not in the
pond. Mrs. Pullet observed that the child might come to a worse end if she
lived, there was no knowing; and Mr. Pullet, confused and overwhelmed by this
revolutionary aspect of things,–the tea deferred and the poultry alarmed
by the unusual running to and fro,–took up his spud as an instrument of
search, and reached down a key to unlock the goose-pen, as a likely place for
Maggie to lie concealed in.
Tom, after a while, started the idea that
Maggie was gone home (without thinking it necessary to state that it was what
he should have done himself under the circumstances), and the suggestion was
seized as a comfort by his mother.
"Sister, for goodness' sake let 'em
put the horse in the carriage and take me home; we shall perhaps find her on
the road. Lucy can't walk in her dirty clothes," she said, looking at that
innocent victim, who was wrapped up in a shawl, and sitting with naked feet on
the sofa.
Aunt Pullet was quite willing to take the
shortest means of restoring her premises to order and quiet, and it was not
long before Mrs. Tulliver was in the chaise, looking anxiously at the most
distant point before her. What the father would say if Maggie was lost, was a
question that predominated over every other.
Chapter XI
Maggie Tries to Run away from Her Shadow
Maggie'S intentions, as usual, were on a
larger scale than Tom imagined. The resolution that gathered in her mind, after
Tom and Lucy had walked away, was not so simple as that of going home. No! she
would run away and go to the gypsies, and Tom should never see her any more.
That was by no means a new idea to Maggie; she had been so often told she was
like a gypsy, and "half wild," that when she was miserable it seemed
to her the only way of escaping opprobrium, and being entirely in harmony with
circumstances, would be to live in a little brown tent on the commons; the
gypsies, she considered, would gladly receive her and pay her much respect on
account of her superior knowledge. She had once mentioned her views on this
point to Tom and suggested that he should stain his face brown, and they should
run away together; but Tom rejected the scheme with contempt, observing that
gypsies were thieves, and hardly got anything to eat and had nothing to drive
but a donkey. To-day however, Maggie thought her misery had reached a pitch at
which gypsydom was her refuge, and she rose from her seat on the roots of the
tree with the sense that this was a great crisis in her life; she would run
straight away till she came to Dunlow Common, where there would certainly be
gypsies; and cruel Tom, and the rest of her relations who found fault with her,
should never see her any more. She thought of her father as she ran along, but
she reconciled herself to the idea of parting with him, by determining that she
would secretly send him a letter by a small gypsy, who would run away without
telling where she was, and just let him know that she was well and happy, and
always loved him very much.
Maggie soon got out of breath with
running, but by the time Tom got to the pond again she was at the distance of
three long fields, and was on the edge of the lane leading to the highroad. She
stopped to pant a little, reflecting that running away was not a pleasant thing
until one had got quite to the common where the gypsies were, but her
resolution had not abated; she presently passed through the gate into the lane,
not knowing where it would lead her, for it was not this way that they came
from Dorlcote Mill to Garum Firs, and she felt all the safer for that, because
there was no chance of her being overtaken. But she was soon aware, not without
trembling, that there were two men coming along the lane in front of her; she
had not thought of meeting strangers, she had been too much occupied with the
idea of her friends coming after her. The formidable strangers were two
shabby-looking men with flushed faces, one of them carrying a bundle on a stick
over his shoulder; but to her surprise, while she was dreading their
disapprobation as a runaway, the man with the bundle stopped, and in a
half-whining, half-coaxing tone asked her if she had a copper to give a poor
man. Maggie had a sixpence in her pocket,–her uncle Glegg's
present,–which she immediately drew out and gave this poor man with a
polite smile, hoping he would feel very kindly toward her as a generous person.
"That's the only money I've got," she said apologetically.
"Thank you, little miss," said the man, in a less respectful and
grateful tone than Maggie anticipated, and she even observed that he smiled and
winked at his companion. She walked on hurriedly, but was aware that the two
men were standing still, probably to look after her, and she presently heard
them laughing loudly. Suddenly it occurred to her that they might think she was
an idiot; Tom had said that her cropped hair made her look like an idiot, and
it was too painful an idea to be readily forgotten. Besides, she had no sleeves
on,–only a cape and bonnet. It was clear that she was not likely to make
a favorable impression on passengers, and she thought she would turn into the
fields again, but not on the same side of the lane as before, lest they should
still be uncle Pullet's fields. She turned through the first gate that was not
locked, and felt a delightful sense of privacy in creeping along by the
hedgerows, after her recent humiliating encounter. She was used to wandering
about the fields by herself, and was less timid there than on the highroad.
Sometimes she had to climb over high gates, but that was a small evil; she was
getting out of reach very fast, and she should probably soon come within sight
of Dunlow Common, or at least of some other common, for she had heard her
father say that you couldn't go very far without coming to a common. She hoped
so, for she was getting rather tired and hungry, and until she reached the
gypsies there was no definite prospect of bread and butter. It was still broad
daylight, for aunt Pullet, retaining the early habits of the Dodson family,
took tea at half-past four by the sun, and at five by the kitchen clock; so,
though it was nearly an hour since Maggie started, there was no gathering gloom
on the fields to remind her that the night would come. Still, it seemed to her
that she had been walking a very great distance indeed, and it was really
surprising that the common did not come within sight. Hitherto she had been in
the rich parish of Garum, where was a great deal of pasture-land, and she had
only seen one laborer at a distance. That was fortunate in some respects, as
laborers might be too ignorant to understand the propriety of her wanting to go
to Dunlow Common; yet it would have been better if she could have met some one
who would tell her the way without wanting to know anything about her private business.
At last, however, the green fields came to an end, and Maggie found herself
looking through the bars of a gate into a lane with a wide margin of grass on
each side of it. She had never seen such a wide lane before, and, without her
knowing why, it gave her the impression that the common could not be far off;
perhaps it was because she saw a donkey with a log to his foot feeding on the
grassy margin, for she had seen a donkey with that pitiable encumbrance on
Dunlow Common when she had been across it in her father's gig. She crept
through the bars of the gate and walked on with new spirit, though not without
haunting images of Apollyon, and a highwayman with a pistol, and a blinking
dwarf in yellow with a mouth from ear to ear, and other miscellaneous dangers.
For poor little Maggie had at once the timidity of an active imagination and
the daring that comes from overmastering impulse. She had rushed into the
adventure of seeking her unknown kindred, the gypsies; and now she was in this
strange lane, she hardly dared look on one side of her, lest she should see the
diabolical blacksmith in his leathern apron grinning at her with arms akimbo.
It was not without a leaping of the heart that she caught sight of a small pair
of bare legs sticking up, feet uppermost, by the side of a hillock; they seemed
something hideously preternatural,–a diabolical kind of fungus; for she
was too much agitated at the first glance to see the ragged clothes and the
dark shaggy head attached to them. It was a boy asleep, and Maggie trotted
along faster and more lightly, lest she should wake him; it did not occur to
her that he was one of her friends the gypsies, who in all probability would
have very genial manners. But the fact was so, for at the next bend in the lane
Maggie actually saw the little semicircular black tent with the blue smoke
rising before it, which was to be her refuge from all the blighting obloquy
that had pursued her in civilized life. She even saw a tall female figure by
the column of smoke, doubtless the gypsy-mother, who provided the tea and other
groceries; it was astonishing to herself that she did not feel more delighted.
But it was startling to find the gypsies in a lane, after all, and not on a
common; indeed, it was rather disappointing; for a mysterious illimitable
common, where there were sand-pits to hide in, and one was out of everybody's
reach, had always made part of Maggie's picture of gypsy life. She went on,
however, and thought with some comfort that gypsies most likely knew nothing
about idiots, so there was no danger of their falling into the mistake of
setting her down at the first glance as an idiot. It was plain she had
attracted attention; for the tall figure, who proved to be a young woman with a
baby on her arm, walked slowly to meet her. Maggie looked up in the new face
rather tremblingly as it approached, and was reassured by the thought that her
aunt Pullet and the rest were right when they called her a gypsy; for this
face, with the bright dark eyes and the long hair, was really something like
what she used to see in the glass before she cut her hair off.
"My little lady, where are you going
to?" the gypsy said, in a tone of coaxing deference.
It was delightful, and just what Maggie
expected; the gypsies saw at once that she was a little lady, and were prepared
to treat her accordingly.
"Not any farther," said Maggie,
feeling as if she were saying what she had rehearsed in a dream. "I'm come
to stay with you,
please."
"That's pretty; come, then. Why, what
a nice little lady you are, to be sure!" said the gypsy, taking her by the
hand. Maggie thought her very agreeable, but wished she had not been so dirty.
There was quite a group round the fire
when she reached it. An old gypsy woman was seated on the ground nursing her
knees, and occasionally poking a skewer into the round kettle that sent forth
an odorous steam; two small shock-headed children were lying prone and resting
on their elbows something like small sphinxes; and a placid donkey was bending
his head over a tall girl, who, lying on her back, was scratching his nose and
indulging him with a bite of excellent stolen hay. The slanting sunlight fell
kindly upon them, and the scene was really very pretty and comfortable, Maggie
thought, only she hoped they would soon set out the tea-cups. Everything would
be quite charming when she had taught the gypsies to use a washing-basin, and
to feel an interest in books. It was a little confusing, though, that the young
woman began to speak to the old one in a language which Maggie did not understand,
while the tall girl, who was feeding the donkey, sat up and stared at her
without offering any salutation. At last the old woman said,–
"What! my pretty lady, are you come
to stay with us? Sit ye down and tell us where you come from."
It was just like a story; Maggie liked to
be called pretty lady and treated in this way. She sat down and said,–
"I'm come from home because I'm
unhappy, and I mean to be a gypsy. I'll live with you if you like, and I can
teach you a great many things."
"Such a clever little lady,"
said the woman with the baby sitting down by Maggie, and allowing baby to
crawl; "and such a pretty bonnet and frock," she added, taking off
Maggie's bonnet and looking at it while she made an observation to the old
woman, in the unknown language. The tall girl snatched the bonnet and put it on
her own head hind-foremost with a grin; but Maggie was determined not to show
any weakness on this subject, as if she were susceptible about her bonnet.
"I don't want to wear a bonnet,"
she said; "I'd rather wear a red handkerchief, like yours" (looking
at her friend by her side). "My hair was quite long till yesterday, when I
cut it off; but I dare say it will grow again very soon," she added
apologetically, thinking it probable the gypsies had a strong prejudice in
favor of long hair. And Maggie had forgotten even her hunger at that moment in
the desire to conciliate gypsy opinion.
"Oh, what a nice little
lady!–and rich, I'm sure," said the old woman. "Didn't you live
in a beautiful house at home?"
"Yes, my home is pretty, and I'm very
fond of the river, where we go fishing, but I'm often very unhappy. I should
have liked to bring my books with me, but I came away in a hurry, you know. But
I can tell you almost everything there is in my books, I've read them so many
times, and that will amuse you. And I can tell you something about Geography
too,–that's about the world we live in,–very useful and
interesting. Did you ever hear about
Maggie's eyes had begun to sparkle and her
cheeks to flush,–she was really beginning to instruct the gypsies, and
gaining great influence over them. The gypsies themselves were not without
amazement at this talk, though their attention was divided by the contents of
Maggie's pocket, which the friend at her right hand had by this time emptied
without attracting her notice.
"Is that where you live, my little
lady?" said the old woman, at the mention of
"Oh, no!" said Maggie, with some
pity; "Columbus was a very wonderful man, who found out half the world,
and they put chains on him and treated him very badly, you know; it's in my
Catechism of Geography, but perhaps it's rather too long to tell before
tea–I want my tea so."
The last words burst from Maggie, in spite
of herself, with a sudden drop from patronizing instruction to simple
peevishness.
"Why, she's hungry, poor little
lady," said the younger woman. "Give her some o' the cold victual.
You've been walking a good way, I'll be bound, my dear. Where's your
home?"
"It's Dorlcote Mill, a good way
off," said Maggie. "My father is Mr. Tulliver, but we mustn't let him
know where I am, else he'll fetch me home again. Where does the queen of the
gypsies live?"
"What! do you want to go to her, my
little lady?" said the younger woman. The tall girl meanwhile was
constantly staring at Maggie and grinning. Her manners were certainly not
agreeable.
"No," said Maggie, "I'm
only thinking that if she isn't a very good queen you might be glad when she
died, and you could choose another. If I was a queen, I'd be a very good queen,
and kind to everybody."
"Here's a bit o' nice victual,
then," said the old woman, handing to Maggie a lump of dry bread, which
she had taken from a bag of scraps, and a piece of cold bacon.
"Thank you,' said Maggie, looking at
the food without taking it; "but will you give me some bread-and-butter
and tea instead? I don't like bacon."
"We've got no tea nor butter,"
said the old woman, with something like a scowl, as if she were getting tired
of coaxing.
"Oh, a little bread and treacle would
do," said Maggie.
"We han't got no treacle," said
the old woman, crossly, whereupon there followed a sharp dialogue between the
two women in their unknown tongue, and one of the small sphinxes snatched at
the bread-and-bacon, and began to eat it. At this moment the tall girl, who had
gone a few yards off, came back, and said something which produced a strong
effect. The old woman, seeming to forget Maggie's hunger, poked the skewer into
the pot with new vigor, and the younger crept under the tent and reached out
some platters and spoons. Maggie trembled a little, and was afraid the tears
would come into her eyes. Meanwhile the tall girl gave a shrill cry, and
presently came running up the boy whom Maggie had passed as he was
sleeping,–a rough urchin about the age of Tom. He stared at Maggie, and
there ensued much incomprehensible chattering. She felt very lonely, and was
quite sure she should begin to cry before long; the gypsies didn't seem to mind
her at all, and she felt quite weak among them. But the springing tears were
checked by new terror, when two men came up, whose approach had been the cause
of the sudden excitement. The elder of the two carried a bag, which he flung down,
addressing the women in a loud and scolding tone, which they answered by a
shower of treble sauciness; while a black cur ran barking up to Maggie, and
threw her into a tremor that only found a new cause in the curses with which
the younger man called the dog off, and gave him a rap with a great stick he
held in his hand.
Maggie felt that it was impossible she
should ever be queen of these people, or ever communicate to them amusing and
useful knowledge.
Both the men now seemed to be inquiring
about Maggie, for they looked at her, and the tone of the conversation became
of that pacific kind which implies curiosity on one side and the power of
satisfying it on the other. At last the younger woman said in her previous
deferential, coaxing tone,–
"This nice little lady's come to live
with us; aren't you glad?"
"Ay, very glad," said the
younger man, who was looking at Maggie's silver thimble and other small matters
that had been taken from her pocket. He returned them all except the thimble to
the younger woman, with some observation, and she immediately restored them to
Maggie's pocket, while the men seated themselves, and began to attack the
contents of the kettle,–a stew of meat and potatoes,–which had been
taken off the fire and turned out into a yellow platter.
Maggie began to think that Tom must be
right about the gypsies; they must certainly be thieves, unless the man meant
to return her thimble by and by. She would willingly have given it to him, for
she was not at all attached to her thimble; but the idea that she was among
thieves prevented her from feeling any comfort in the revival of deference and
attention toward her; all thieves, except Robin Hood, were wicked people. The
women saw she was frightened.
"We've got nothing nice for a lady to
eat," said the old woman, in her coaxing tone. "And she's so hungry,
sweet little lady."
"Here, my dear, try if you can eat a
bit o' this," said the younger woman, handing some of the stew on a brown
dish with an iron spoon to Maggie, who, remembering that the old woman had
seemed angry with her for not liking the bread-and-bacon, dared not refuse the
stew, though fear had chased away her appetite. If her father would but come by
in the gig and take her up! Or even if Jack the Giantkiller, or Mr. Greatheart,
or St. George who slew the dragon on the half-pennies, would happen to pass
that way! But Maggie thought with a sinking heart that these heroes were never
seen in the neighborhood of St. Ogg's; nothing very wonderful ever came there.
Maggie Tulliver, you perceive, was by no
means that well trained, well-informed young person that a small female of
eight or nine necessarily is in these days; she had only been to school a year
at St. Ogg's, and had so few books that she sometimes read the dictionary; so
that in travelling over her small mind you would have found the most unexpected
ignorance as well as unexpected knowledge. She could have informed you that
there was such a word as "polygamy," and being also acquainted with
"polysyllable," she had deduced the conclusion that "poly"
mean "many"; but she had had no idea that gypsies were not well
supplied with groceries, and her thoughts generally were the oddest mixture of
clear-eyed acumen and blind dreams.
Her ideas about the gypsies had undergone
a rapid modification in the last five minutes. From having considered them very
respectful companions, amenable to instruction, she had begun to think that
they meant perhaps to kill her as soon as it was dark, and cut up her body for
gradual cooking; the suspicion crossed her that the fierce-eyed old man was in
fact the Devil, who might drop that transparent disguise at any moment, and
turn either into the grinning blacksmith, or else a fiery-eyed monster with
dragon's wings. It was no use trying to eat the stew, and yet the thing she
most dreaded was to offend the gypsies, by betraying her extremely unfavorable
opinion of them; and she wondered, with a keenness of interest that no
theologian could have exceeded, whether, if the Devil were really present, he
would know her thoughts.
"What! you don't like the smell of
it, my dear," said the young woman, observing that Maggie did not even
take a spoonful of the stew. "Try a bit, come."
"No, thank you," said Maggie,
summoning all her force for a desperate effort, and trying to smile in a
friendly way. "I haven't time, I think; it seems getting darker. I think I
must go home now, and come again another day, and then I can bring you a basket
with some jam-tarts and things."
Maggie rose from her seat as she threw out
this illusory prospect, devoutly hoping that Apollyon was gullible; but her
hope sank when the old gypsy-woman said, "Stop a bit, stop a bit, little
lady; we'll take you home, all safe, when we've done supper; you shall ride
home, like a lady."
Maggie sat down again, with little faith
in this promise, though she presently saw the tall girl putting a bridle on the
donkey, and throwing a couple of bags on his back.
"Now, then, little missis," said
the younger man, rising, and leading the donkey forward, "tell us where
you live; what's the name o' the place?"
"Dorlcote Mill is my home," said
Maggie, eagerly. "My father is Mr. Tulliver; he lives there."
"What! a big mill a little way this
side o' St. Ogg's?"
"Yes," said Maggie. "Is it
far off? I think I should like to walk there, if you please."
"No, no, it'll be getting dark, we
must make haste. And the donkey'll carry you as nice as can be; you'll
see."
He lifted Maggie as he spoke, and set her
on the donkey. She felt relieved that it was not the old man who seemed to be
going with her, but she had only a trembling hope that she was really going
home.
"Here's your pretty bonnet,"
said the younger woman, putting that recently despised but now welcome article
of costume on Maggie's head; "and you'll say we've been very good to you,
won't you? and what a nice little lady we said you was."
"Oh yes, thank you," said
Maggie, "I'm very much obliged to you. But I wish you'd go with me
too." She thought anything was better than going with one of the dreadful
men alone; it would be more cheerful to be murdered by a larger party.
"Ah, you're fondest o' me, aren't you?" said the woman.
"But I can't go; you'll go too fast for me."
It now appeared that the man also was to
be seated on the donkey, holding Maggie before him, and she was as incapable of
remonstrating against this arrangement as the donkey himself, though no
nightmare had ever seemed to her more horrible. When the woman had patted her
on the back, and said "Good-by," the donkey, at a strong hint from
the man's stick, set off at a rapid walk along the lane toward the point Maggie
had come from an hour ago, while the tall girl and the rough urchin, also
furnished with sticks, obligingly escorted them for the first hundred yards,
with much screaming and thwacking.
Not Leonore, in that preternatural
midnight excursion with her phantom lover, was more terrified than poor Maggie
in this entirely natural ride on a short-paced donkey, with a gypsy behind her,
who considered that he was earning half a crown. The red light of the setting
sun seemed to have a portentous meaning, with which the alarming bray of the
second donkey with the log on its foot must surely have some connection. Two
low thatched cottages–the only houses they passed in this
lane–seemed to add to its dreariness; they had no windows to speak of,
and the doors were closed; it was probable that they were inhabitated by
witches, and it was a relief to find that the donkey did not stop there.
At last–oh, sight of joy!–this
lane, the longest in the world, was coming to an end, was opening on a broad
highroad, where there was actually a coach passing! And there was a finger-post
at the corner,–she had surely seen that finger-post
before,–"To St. Ogg's, 2 miles." The gypsy really meant to take
her home, then; he was probably a good man, after all, and might have been
rather hurt at the thought that she didn't like coming with him alone. This
idea became stronger as she felt more and more certain that she knew the road
quite well, and she was considering how she might open a conversation with the
injured gypsy, and not only gratify his feelings but efface the impression of
her cowardice, when, as they reached a cross-road. Maggie caught sight of some
one coming on a white-faced horse.
"Oh, stop, stop!" she cried out.
"There's my father! Oh, father, father!"
The sudden joy was almost painful, and
before her father reached her, she was sobbing. Great was Mr. Tulliver's
wonder, for he had made a round from Basset, and had not yet been home.
"Why, what's the meaning o'
this?" he said, checking his horse, while Maggie slipped from the donkey
and ran to her father's stirrup.
"The little miss lost herself, I
reckon," said the gypsy. "She'd come to our tent at the far end o'
Dunlow Lane, and I was bringing her where she said her home was. It's a good
way to come after being on the tramp all day."
"Oh yes, father, he's been very good
to bring me home," said Maggie,–"a very kind, good man!"
"Here, then, my man," said Mr.
Tulliver, taking out five shillings. "It's the best day's work you ever did. I couldn't afford to lose
the little wench; here, lift her up before me."
"Why, Maggie, how's this, how's
this?" he said, as they rode along, while she laid her head against her
father and sobbed. "How came you to be rambling about and lose
yourself?"
"Oh, father," sobbed Maggie,
"I ran away because I was so unhappy; Tom was so angry with me. I couldn't
bear it."
"Pooh, pooh," said Mr. Tulliver,
soothingly, "you mustn't think o' running away from father. What 'ud
father do without his little wench?"
"Oh no, I never will again,
father–never."
Mr. Tulliver spoke his mind very strongly
when he reached home that evening; and the effect was seen in the remarkable
fact that Maggie never heard one reproach from her mother, or one taunt from
Tom, about this foolish business of her running away to the gypsies. Maggie was
rather awe-stricken by this unusual treatment, and sometimes thought that her
conduct had been too wicked to be alluded to.
Chapter XII
Mr. and Mrs. Glegg at Home
In order to see Mr. and Mrs. Glegg at
home, we must enter the town of St. Ogg's,–that venerable town with the
red fluted roofs and the broad warehouse gables, where the black ships unlade
themselves of their burthens from the far north, and carry away, in exchange,
the precious inland products, the well-crushed cheese and the soft fleeces
which my refined readers have doubtless become acquainted with through the
medium of the best classic pastorals.
It is one of those old, old towns which
impress one as a continuation and outgrowth of nature, as much as the nests of
the bower-birds or the winding galleries of the white ants; a town which
carries the traces of its long growth and history like a millennial tree, and
has sprung up and developed in the same spot between the river and the low hill
from the time when the Roman legions turned their backs on it from the camp on
the hillside, and the long-haired sea-kings came up the river and looked with
fierce, eager eyes at the fatness of the land. It is a town "familiar with
forgotten years." The shadow of the Saxon hero-king still walks there
fitfully, reviewing the scenes of his youth and love-time, and is met by the
gloomier shadow of the dreadful heathen Dane, who was stabbed in the midst of
his warriors by the sword of an invisible avenger, and who rises on autumn
evenings like a white mist from his tumulus on the hill, and hovers in the
court of the old hall by the river-side, the spot where he was thus
miraculously slain in the days before the old hall was built. It was the
Normans who began to build that fine old hall, which is, like the town, telling
of the thoughts and hands of widely sundered generations; but it is all so old
that we look with loving pardon at its inconsistencies, and are well content
that they who built the stone oriel, and they who built the Gothic façade and
towers of finest small brickwork with the trefoil ornament, and the windows and
battlements defined with stone, did not sacreligiously pull down the ancient
half-timbered body with its oak-roofed banqueting-hall.
But older even than this old hall is
perhaps the bit of wall now built into the belfry of the parish church, and
said to be a remnant of the original chapel dedicated to St. Ogg, the patron
saint of this ancient town, of whose history I possess several manuscript
versions. I incline to the briefest, since, if it should not be wholly true, it
is at least likely to contain the least falsehood. "Ogg the son of
Beorl," says my private hagiographer, "was a boatman who gained a
scanty living by ferrying passengers across the river Floss. And it came to
pass, one evening when the winds were high, that there sat moaning by the brink
of the river a woman with a child in her arms; and she was clad in rags, and
had a worn and withered look, and she craved to be rowed across the river. And
the men thereabout questioned her, and said, 'Wherefore dost thou desire to
cross the river? Tarry till the morning, and take shelter here for the night;
so shalt thou be wise and not foolish.' Still she went on to mourn and crave.
But Ogg the son of Beorl came up and said, 'I will ferry thee across; it is
enough that thy heart needs it.' And he ferried her across. And it came to
pass, when she stepped ashore, that her rags were turned into robes of flowing
white, and her face became bright with exceeding beauty, and there was a glory
around it, so that she shed a light on the water like the moon in its
brightness. And she said, 'Ogg, the son of Beorl, thou art blessed in that thou
didst not question and wrangle with the heart's need, but wast smitten with
pity, and didst straightway relieve the same. And from henceforth whoso steps
into thy boat shall be in no peril from the storm; and whenever it puts forth
to the rescue, it shall save the lives both of men and beasts.' And when the
floods came, many were saved by reason of that blessing on the boat. But when
Ogg the son of Beorl died, behold, in the parting of his soul, the boat loosed
itself from its moorings, and was floated with the ebbing tide in great
swiftness to the ocean, and was seen no more. Yet it was witnessed in the
floods of aftertime, that at the coming on of eventide, Ogg the son of Beorl
was always seen with his boat upon the wide-spreading waters, and the Blessed
Virgin sat in the prow, shedding a light around as of the moon in its
brightness, so that the rowers in the gathering darkness took heart and pulled
anew."
This legend, one sees, reflects from a
far-off time the visitation of the floods, which, even when they left human
life untouched, were widely fatal to the helpless cattle, and swept as sudden
death over all smaller living things. But the town knew worse troubles even
than the floods,–troubles of the civil wars, when it was a continual
fighting-place, where first Puritans thanked God for the blood of the
Loyalists, and then Loyalists thanked God for the blood of the Puritans. Many
honest citizens lost all their possessions for conscience' sake in those times,
and went forth beggared from their native town. Doubtless there are many houses
standing now on which those honest citizens turned their backs in
sorrow,–quaint-gabled houses looking on the river, jammed between newer
warehouses, and penetrated by surprising passages, which turn and turn at sharp
angles till they lead you out on a muddy strand overflowed continually by the
rushing tide. Everywhere the brick houses have a mellow look, and in Mrs.
Glegg's day there was no incongruous new-fashioned smartness, no plate-glass in
shop-windows, no fresh stucco-facing or other fallacious attempt to make fine
old red St. Ogg's wear the air of a town that sprang up yesterday. The
shop-windows were small and unpretending; for the farmers' wives and daughters
who came to do their shopping on market-days were not to be withdrawn from
their regular well-known shops; and the tradesmen had no wares intended for
customers who would go on their way and be seen no more. Ah! even Mrs. Glegg's
day seems far back in the past now, separated from us by changes that widen the
years. War and the rumor of war had then died out from the minds of men, and if
they were ever thought of by the farmers in drab greatcoats, who shook the
grain out of their sample-bags and buzzed over it in the full market-place, it
was as a state of things that belonged to a past golden age when prices were
high. Surely the time was gone forever when the broad river could bring up
unwelcome ships; Russia was only the place where the linseed came
from,–the more the better,–making grist for the great vertical
millstones with their scythe-like arms, roaring and grinding and carefully
sweeping as if an informing soul were in them. The Catholics, bad harvests, and
the mysterious fluctuations of trade were the three evils mankind had to fear;
even the floods had not been great of late years. The mind of St. Ogg's did not
look extensively before or after. It inherited a long past without thinking of
it, and had no eyes for the spirits that walk the streets. Since the centuries
when St. Ogg with his boat and the Virgin Mother at the prow had been seen on
the wide water, so many memories had been left behind, and had gradually
vanished like the receding hilltops! And the present time was like the level
plain where men lose their belief in volcanoes and earthquakes, thinking
to-morrow will be as yesterday, and the giant forces that used to shake the
earth are forever laid to sleep. The days were gone when people could be
greatly wrought upon by their faith, still less change it; the Catholics were
formidable because they would lay hold of government and property, and burn men
alive; not because any sane and honest parishioner of St. Ogg's could be
brought to believe in the Pope. One aged person remembered how a rude multitude
had been swayed when John Wesley preached in the cattle-market; but for a long
while it had not been expected of preachers that they should shake the souls of
men. An occasional burst of fervor in Dissenting pulpits on the subject of
infant baptism was the only symptom of a zeal unsuited to sober times when men
had done with change. Protestantism sat at ease, unmindful of schisms, careless
of proselytism: Dissent was an inheritance along with a superior pew and a
business connection; and Churchmanship only wondered contemptuously at Dissent
as a foolish habit that clung greatly to families in the grocery and
chandlering lines, though not incompatible with prosperous wholesale dealing.
But with the Catholic Question had come a slight wind of controversy to break
the calm: the elderly rector had become occasionally historical and
argumentative; and Mr. Spray, the Independent minister, had begun to preach
political sermons, in which he distinguished with much subtlety between his
fervent belief in the right of the Catholics to the franchise and his fervent
belief in their eternal perdition. Most of Mr. Spray's hearers, however, were
incapable of following his subtleties, and many old-fashioned Dissenters were
much pained by his "siding with the Catholics"; while others thought
he had better let politics alone. Public spirit was not held in high esteem at
St. Ogg's, and men who busied themselves with political questions were regarded
with some suspicion, as dangerous characters; they were usually persons who had
little or no business of their own to manage, or, if they had, were likely
enough to become insolvent.
This was the general aspect of things at
St. Ogg's in Mrs. Glegg's day, and at that particular period in her family
history when she had had her quarrel with Mr. Tulliver. It was a time when
ignorance was much more comfortable than at present, and was received with all
the honors in very good society, without being obliged to dress itself in an
elaborate costume of knowledge; a time when cheap periodicals were not, and
when country surgeons never thought of asking their female patients if they
were fond of reading, but simply took it for granted that they preferred
gossip; a time when ladies in rich silk gowns wore large pockets, in which they
carried a mutton-bone to secure them against cramp. Mrs. Glegg carried such a
bone, which she had inherited from her grandmother with a brocaded gown that
would stand up empty, like a suit of armor, and a silver-headed walking-stick;
for the Dodson family had been respectable for many generations.
Mrs. Glegg had both a front and a back
parlor in her excellent house at St. Ogg's, so that she had two points of view
from which she could observe the weakness of her fellow-beings, and reinforce
her thankfulness for her own exceptional strength of mind. From her front
window she could look down the Tofton Road, leading out of St. Ogg's, and note
the growing tendency to "gadding about" in the wives of men not retired
from business, together with a practice of wearing woven cotton stockings,
which opened a dreary prospect for the coming generation; and from her back
windows she could look down the pleasant garden and orchard which stretched to
the river, and observe the folly of Mr. Glegg in spending his time among
"them flowers and vegetables." For Mr. Glegg, having retired from
active business as a wool-stapler for the purpose of enjoying himself through
the rest of his life, had found this last occupation so much more severe than
his business, that he had been driven into amateur hard labor as a dissipation,
and habitually relaxed by doing the work of two ordinary gardeners. The
economizing of a gardener's wages might perhaps have induced Mrs. Glegg to wink
at this folly, if it were possible for a healthy female mind even to simulate
respect for a husband's hobby. But it is well known that this conjugal
complacency belongs only to the weaker portion of the sex, who are scarcely
alive to the responsibilities of a wife as a constituted check on her husband's
pleasures, which are hardly ever of a rational or commendable kind.
Mr. Glegg on his side, too, had a double
source of mental occupation, which gave every promise of being inexhaustible.
On the one hand, he surprised himself by his discoveries in natural history,
finding that his piece of garden-ground contained wonderful caterpillars,
slugs, and insects, which, so far as he had heard, had never before attracted
human observation; and he noticed remarkable coincidences between these
zoological phenomena and the great events of that time,–as, for example,
that before the burning of York Minster there had been mysterious serpentine
marks on the leaves of the rose-trees, together with an unusual prevalence of slugs,
which he had been puzzled to know the meaning of, until it flashed upon him
with this melancholy conflagration. (Mr. Glegg had an unusual amount of mental
activity, which, when disengaged from the wool business, naturally made itself
a pathway in other directions.) And his second subject of meditation was the
"contrairiness" of the female mind, as typically exhibited in Mrs.
Glegg. That a creature made–in a genealogical sense–out of a man's
rib, and in this particular case maintained in the highest respectability
without any trouble of her own, should be normally in a state of contradiction
to the blandest propositions and even to the most accommodating concessions,
was a mystery in the scheme of things to which he had often in vain sought a
clew in the early chapters of Genesis. Mr. Glegg had chosen the eldest Miss
Dodson as a handsome embodiment of female prudence and thrift, and being
himself of a money-getting, money-keeping turn, had calculated on much conjugal
harmony. But in that curious compound, the feminine character, it may easily
happen that the flavor is unpleasant in spite of excellent ingredients; and a
fine systematic stinginess may be accompanied with a seasoning that quite
spoils its relish. Now, good Mr. Glegg himself was stingy in the most amiable
manner; his neighbors called him "near," which always means that the
person in question is a lovable skinflint. If you expressed a preference for
cheese-parings, Mr. Glegg would remember to save them for you, with a
good-natured delight in gratifying your palate, and he was given to pet all
animals which required no appreciable keep. There was no humbug or hypocrisy
about Mr. Glegg; his eyes would have watered with true feeling over the sale of
a widow's furniture, which a five-pound note from his side pocket would have
prevented; but a donation of five pounds to a person "in a small way of
life" would have seemed to him a mad kind of lavishness rather than
"charity," which had always presented itself to him as a contribution
of small aids, not a neutralizing of misfortune. And Mr. Glegg was just as fond
of saving other people's money as his own; he would have ridden as far round to
avoid a turnpike when his expenses were to be paid for him, as when they were
to come out of his own pocket, and was quite zealous in trying to induce
indifferent acquaintances to adopt a cheap substitute for blacking. This
inalienable habit of saving, as an end in itself, belonged to the industrious
men of business of a former generation, who made their fortunes slowly, almost
as the tracking of the fox belongs to the harrier,–it constituted them a
"race," which is nearly lost in these days of rapid money-getting,
when lavishness comes close on the back of want. In old-fashioned times an
"independence" was hardly ever made without a little miserliness as a
condition, and you would have found that quality in every provincial district,
combined with characters as various as the fruits from which we can extract
acid. The true Harpagons were always marked and exceptional characters; not so
the worthy tax-payers, who, having once pinched from real necessity, retained
even in the midst of their comfortable retirement, with their wallfruit and
wine-bins, the habit of regarding life as an ingenious process of nibbling out
one's livelihood without leaving any perceptible deficit, and who would have
been as immediately prompted to give up a newly taxed luxury when they had had
their clear five hundred a year, as when they had only five hundred pounds of
capital. Mr. Glegg was one of these men, found so impracticable by chancellors
of the exchequer; and knowing this, you will be the better able to understand
why he had not swerved from the conviction that he had made an eligible
marriage, in spite of the too-pungent seasoning that nature had given to the
eldest Miss Dodson's virtues. A man with an affectionate disposition, who finds
a wife to concur with his fundamental idea of life, easily comes to persuade
himself that no other woman would have suited him so well, and does a little
daily snapping and quarrelling without any sense of alienation. Mr. Glegg,
being of a reflective turn, and no longer occupied with wool, had much
wondering meditation on the peculiar constitution of the female mind as
unfolded to him in his domestic life; and yet he thought Mrs. Glegg's household
ways a model for her sex. It struck him as a pitiable irregularity in other
women if they did not roll up their table-napkins with the same tightness and
emphasis as Mrs. Glegg did, if their pastry had a less leathery consistence,
and their damson cheese a less venerable hardness than hers; nay, even the
peculiar combination of grocery and druglike odors in Mrs. Glegg's private
cupboard impressed him as the only right thing in the way of cupboard smells. I
am not sure that he would not have longed for the quarrelling again, if it had
ceased for an entire week; and it is certain that an acquiescent, mild wife
would have left his meditations comparatively jejune and barren of mystery.
Mr. Glegg's unmistakable kind-heartedness
was shown in this, that it pained him more to see his wife at variance with
others,–even with Dolly, the servant,–than to be in a state of
cavil with her himself; and the quarrel between her and Mr. Tulliver vexed him
so much that it quite nullified the pleasure he would otherwise have had in the
state of his early cabbages, as he walked in his garden before breakfast the
next morning. Still, he went in to breakfast with some slight hope that, now
Mrs. Glegg had "slept upon it," her anger might be subdued enough to
give way to her usually strong sense of family decorum. She had been used to
boast that there had never been any of those deadly quarrels among the Dodsons
which had disgraced other families; that no Dodson had ever been "cut off
with a shilling," and no cousin of the Dodsons disowned; as, indeed, why
should they be? For they had no cousins who had not money out at use, or some
houses of their own, at the very least.
There was one evening-cloud which had
always disappeared from Mrs. Glegg's brow when she sat at the breakfast-table.
It was her fuzzy front of curls; for as she occupied herself in household
matters in the morning it would have been a mere extravagance to put on
anything so superfluous to the making of leathery pastry as a fuzzy curled
front. By half-past ten decorum demanded the front; until then Mrs. Glegg could
economize it, and society would never be any the wiser. But the absence of that
cloud only left it more apparent that the cloud of severity remained; and Mr.
Glegg, perceiving this, as he sat down to his milkporridge, which it was his
old frugal habit to stem his morning hunger with, prudently resolved to leave
the first remark to Mrs. Glegg, lest, to so delicate an article as a lady's
temper, the slightest touch should do mischief. People who seem to enjoy their
ill temper have a way of keeping it in fine condition by inflicting privations
on themselves. That was Mrs. Glegg's way. She made her tea weaker than usual
this morning, and declined butter. It was a hard case that a vigorous mood for
quarrelling, so highly capable of using an opportunity, should not meet with a
single remark from Mr. Glegg on which to exercise itself. But by and by it
appeared that his silence would answer the purpose, for he heard himself
apostrophized at last in that tone peculiar to the wife of one's bosom.
"Well, Mr. Glegg! it's a poor return
I get for making you the wife I've made you all these years. If this is the way
I'm to be treated, I'd better ha' known it before my poor father died, and
then, when I'd wanted a home, I should ha' gone elsewhere, as the choice was
offered me."
Mr. Glegg paused from his porridge and
looked up, not with any new amazement, but simply with that quiet, habitual
wonder with which we regard constant mysteries.
"Why, Mrs. G., what have I done
now?"
"Done now, Mr. Glegg? done now?–I'm sorry for
you."
Not seeing his way to any pertinent
answer, Mr. Glegg reverted to his porridge.
"There's husbands in the world,"
continued Mrs. Glegg, after a pause, "as 'ud have known how to do
something different to siding with everybody else against their own wives.
Perhaps I'm wrong and you can teach me better. But I've allays heard as it's
the husband's place to stand by the wife, instead o' rejoicing and triumphing
when folks insult her."
"Now, what call have you to say
that?" said Mr. Glegg, rather warmly, for though a kind man, he was not as
meek as Moses. "When did I rejoice or triumph over you?"
"There's ways o' doing things worse
than speaking out plain, Mr. Glegg. I'd sooner you'd tell me to my face as you
make light of me, than try to make out as everybody's in the right but me, and
come to your breakfast in the morning, as I've hardly slept an hour this night,
and sulk at me as if I was the dirt under your feet."
"Sulk at you?" said Mr. Glegg,
in a tone of angry facetiousness. "You're like a tipsy man as thinks
everybody's had too much but himself."
"Don't lower yourself with using
coarse language to me, Mr.
Glegg! It makes you look very small, though you can't see yourself," said
Mrs. Glegg, in a tone of energetic compassion. "A man in your place should
set an example, and talk more sensible."
"Yes; but will you listen to
sense?" retorted Mr. Glegg, sharply. "The best sense I can talk to
you is what I said last night,–as you're i' the wrong to think o' calling
in your money, when it's safe enough if you'd let it alone, all because of a
bit of a tiff, and I was in hopes you'd ha' altered your mind this morning. But
if you'd like to call it in, don't do it in a hurry now, and breed more enmity
in the family, but wait till there's a pretty mortgage to be had without any
trouble. You'd have to set the lawyer to work now to find an investment, and
make no end o' expense."
Mrs. Glegg felt there was really something
in this, but she tossed her head and emitted a guttural interjection to
indicate that her silence was only an armistice, not a peace. And, in fact
hostilities soon broke out again.
"I'll thank you for my cup o' tea,
now, Mrs. G.," said Mr. Glegg, seeing that she did not proceed to give it
him as usual, when he had finished his porridge. She lifted the teapot with a
slight toss of the head, and said,–
"I'm glad to hear you'll thank me, Mr. Glegg. It's little thanks
I get for what I do for folks
i' this world. Though there's never a woman o' your side o' the family, Mr. Glegg, as is fit to stand up
with me, and I'd say it if I was on my dying bed. Not but what I've allays
conducted myself civil to your kin, and there isn't one of 'em can say the
contrary, though my equils they aren't, and nobody shall make me say it."
"You'd better leave finding fault wi'
my kin till you've left off quarrelling with you own, Mrs. G.," said Mr.
Glegg, with angry sarcasm. "I'll trouble you for the milk-jug."
"That's as false a word as ever you spoke,
Mr. Glegg," said the lady, pouring out the milk with unusual profuseness,
as much as to say, if he wanted milk he should have it with a vengeance.
"And you know it's false. I'm not the woman to quarrel with my own kin; you may, for I've known you to do
it."
"Why, what did you call it yesterday,
then, leaving your sister's house in a tantrum?"
"I'd no quarrel wi' my sister, Mr.
Glegg, and it's false to say it. Mr. Tulliver's none o' my blood, and it was
him quarrelled with me, and drove me out o' the house. But perhaps you'd have
had me stay and be swore at, Mr. Glegg; perhaps you was vexed not to hear more
abuse and foul language poured out upo' your own wife. But, let me tell you,
it's your disgrace."
"Did ever anybody hear the like i'
this parish?" said Mr. Glegg, getting hot. "A woman, with everything
provided for her, and allowed to keep her own money the same as if it was
settled on her, and with a gig new stuffed and lined at no end o' expense, and
provided for when I die beyond anything she could expect–to go on i' this
way, biting and snapping like a mad dog! It's beyond everything, as God A
'mighty should ha' made women so."
(These last words were uttered in a tone of sorrowful agitation. Mr. Glegg
pushed his tea from him, and tapped the table with both his hands.)
"Well, Mr. Glegg, if those are your
feelings, it's best they should be known," said Mrs. Glegg, taking off her
napkin, and folding it in an excited manner. "But if you talk o' my being
provided for beyond what I could expect, I beg leave to tell you as I'd a right
to expect a many things as I don't find. And as to my being like a mad dog,
it's well if you're not cried shame on by the county for your treatment of me,
for it's what I can't bear, and I won't bear––"
Here Mrs. Glegg's voice intimated that she
was going to cry, and breaking off from speech, she rang the bell violently.
"Sally," she said, rising from
her chair, and speaking in rather a choked voice, "light a fire up-stairs,
and put the blinds down. Mr. Glegg, you'll please to order what you'd like for
dinner. I shall have gruel."
Mrs. Glegg walked across the room to the
small book-case, and took down Baxter's "Saints' Everlasting Rest,"
which she carried with her up-stairs. It was the book she was accustomed to lay
open before her on special occasions,–on wet Sunday mornings, or when she
heard of a death in the family, or when, as in this case, her quarrel with Mr.
Glegg had been set an octave higher than usual.
But Mrs. Glegg carried something else up-stairs
with her, which, together with the "Saints' Rest" and the gruel, may
have had some influence in gradually calming her feelings, and making it
possible for her to endure existence on the ground-floor, shortly before
tea-time. This was, partly, Mr. Glegg's suggestion that she would do well to
let her five hundred lie still until a good investment turned up; and, further,
his parenthetic hint at his handsome provision for her in case of his death.
Mr. Glegg, like all men of his stamp, was extremely reticent about his will;
and Mrs. Glegg, in her gloomier moments, had forebodings that, like other
husbands of whom she had heard, he might cherish the mean project of
heightening her grief at his death by leaving her poorly off, in which case she
was firmly resolved that she would have scarcely any weeper on her bonnet, and
would cry no more than if he had been a second husband. But if he had really
shown her any testamentary tenderness, it would be affecting to think of him,
poor man, when he was gone; and even his foolish fuss about the flowers and
garden-stuff, and his insistence on the subject of snails, would be touching
when it was once fairly at an end. To survive Mr. Glegg, and talk
eulogistically of him as a man who might have his weaknesses, but who had done
the right thing by her, not-withstanding his numerous poor relations; to have
sums of interest coming in more frequently, and secrete it in various corners,
baffling to the most ingenious of thieves (for, to Mrs. Glegg's mind, banks and
strong-boxes would have nullified the pleasure of property; she might as well
have taken her food in capsules); finally, to be looked up to by her own family
and the neighborhood, so as no woman can ever hope to be who has not the
præterite and present dignity comprised in being a "widow well
left,"–all this made a flattering and conciliatory view of the
future. So that when good Mr. Glegg, restored to good humor by much hoeing, and
moved by the sight of his wife's empty chair, with her knitting rolled up in
the corner, went up-stairs to her, and observed that the bell had been tolling
for poor Mr. Morton, Mrs. Glegg answered magnanimously, quite as if she had
been an uninjured woman: "Ah! then, there'll be a good business for
somebody to take to."
Baxter had been open at least eight hours
by this time, for it was nearly five o'clock; and if people are to quarrel
often, it follows as a corollary that their quarrels cannot be protracted
beyond certain limits.
Mr. and Mrs. Glegg talked quite amicably
about the Tullivers that evening. Mr. Glegg went the length of admitting that
Tulliver was a sad man for getting into hot water, and was like enough to run
through his property; and Mrs. Glegg, meeting this acknowledgment half-way,
declared that it was beneath her to take notice of such a man's conduct, and
that, for her sister's sake, she would let him keep the five hundred a while
longer, for when she put it out on a mortgage she should only get four per
cent.
Chapter XIII
Mr. Tulliver Further Entangles the Skein of Life
Owing to this new adjustment of Mrs.
Glegg's thoughts, Mrs. Pullet found her task of mediation the next day
surprisingly easy. Mrs. Glegg, indeed checked her rather sharply for thinking
it would be necessary to tell her elder sister what was the right mode of
behavior in family matters. Mrs. Pullet's argument, that it would look ill in
the neighborhood if people should have it in their power to say that there was
a quarrel in the family, was particularly offensive. If the family name never
suffered except through Mrs. Glegg, Mrs. Pullet might lay her head on her
pillow in perfect confidence.
"It's not to be expected, I
suppose," observed Mrs. Glegg, by way of winding up the subject, "as
I shall go to the mill again before Bessy comes to see me, or as I shall go and
fall down o' my knees to Mr. Tulliver, and ask his pardon for showing him
favors; but I shall bear no malice, and when Mr. Tulliver speaks civil to me,
I'll speak civil to him. Nobody has any call to tell me what's becoming."
Finding it unnecessary to plead for the
Tullivers, it was natural that aunt Pullet should relax a little in her anxiety
for them, and recur to the annoyance she had suffered yesterday from the
offspring of that apparently ill-fated house. Mrs. Glegg heard a circumstantial
narrative, to which Mr. Pullet's remarkable memory furnished some items; and
while aunt Pullet pitied poor Bessy's bad luck with her children, and expressed
a half-formed project of paying for Maggie's being sent to a distant
boarding-school, which would not prevent her being so brown, but might tend to
subdue some other vices in her, aunt Glegg blamed Bessy for her weakness, and
appealed to all witnesses who should be living when the Tulliver children had
turned out ill, that she, Mrs. Glegg, had always said how it would be from the
very first, observing that it was wonderful to herself how all her words came
true.
"Then I may call and tell Bessy
you'll bear no malice, and everything be as it was before?" Mrs. Pullet
said, just before parting.
"Yes, you may, Sophy," said Mrs.
Glegg; "you may tell Mr. Tulliver, and Bessy too, as I'm not going to
behave ill because folks behave ill to me; I know it's my place, as the eldest,
to set an example in every respect, and I do it. Nobody can say different of
me, if they'll keep to the truth."
Mrs. Glegg being in this state of
satisfaction in her own lofty magnanimity, I leave you to judge what effect was
produced on her by the reception of a short letter from Mr. Tulliver that very
evening, after Mrs. Pullet's departure, informing her that she needn't trouble
her mind about her five hundred pounds, for it should be paid back to her in
the course of the next month at farthest, together with the interest due
thereon until the time of payment. And furthermore, that Mr. Tulliver had no
wish to behave uncivilly to Mrs. Glegg, and she was welcome to his house
whenever she liked to come, but he desired no favors from her, either for
himself or his children.
It was poor Mrs. Tulliver who had hastened
this catastrophe, entirely through that irrepressible hopefulness of hers which
led her to expect that similar causes may at any time produce different
results. It had very often occurred in her experience that Mr. Tulliver had
done something because other people had said he was not able to do it, or had
pitied him for his supposed inability, or in any other way piqued his pride;
still, she thought to-day, if she told him when he came in to tea that sister
Pullet was gone to try and make everything up with sister Glegg, so that he
needn't think about paying in the money, it would give a cheerful effect to the
meal. Mr. Tulliver had never slackened in his resolve to raise the money, but
now he at once determined to write a letter to Mrs. Glegg, which should cut off
all possibility of mistake. Mrs. Pullet gone to beg and pray for him indeed! Mr. Tulliver did not
willingly write a letter, and found the relation between spoken and written
language, briefly known as spelling, one of the most puzzling things in this
puzzling world. Nevertheless, like all fervid writing, the task was done in
less time than usual, and if the spelling differed from Mrs.
Glegg's,–why, she belonged, like himself, to a generation with whom
spelling was a matter of private judgment.
Mrs. Glegg did not alter her will in
consequence of this letter, and cut off the Tulliver children from their sixth
and seventh share in her thousand pounds; for she had her principles. No one
must be able to say of her when she was dead that she had not divided her money
with perfect fairness among her own kin. In the matter of wills, personal
qualities were subordinate to the great fundamental fact of blood; and to be
determined in the distribution of your property by caprice, and not make your
legacies bear a direct ratio to degrees of kinship, was a prospective disgrace
that would have embittered her life. This had always been a principle in the
Dodson family; it was one form of that sense of honor and rectitude which was a
proud tradition in such families,–a tradition which has been the salt of
our provincial society.
But though the letter could not shake Mrs.
Glegg's principles, it made the family breach much more difficult to mend; and
as to the effect it produced on Mrs. Glegg's opinion of Mr. Tulliver, she
begged to be understood from that time forth that she had nothing whatever to
say about him; his state of mind, apparently, was too corrupt for her to
contemplate it for a moment. It was not until the evening before Tom went to
school, at the beginning of August, that Mrs. Glegg paid a visit to her sister
Tulliver, sitting in her gig all the while, and showing her displeasure by
markedly abstaining from all advice and criticism; for, as she observed to her
sister Deane, "Bessy must bear the consequence o' having such a husband,
though I'm sorry for her," and Mrs. Deane agreed that Bessy was pitiable.
That evening Tom observed to Maggie:
"Oh my! Maggie, aunt Glegg's beginning to come again; I'm glad I'm going
to school. You'll catch it
all now!"
Maggie was already so full of sorrow at
the thought of Tom's going away from her, that this playful exultation of his
seemed very unkind, and she cried herself to sleep that night.
Mr. Tulliver's prompt procedure entailed
on him further promptitude in finding the convenient person who was desirous of
lending five hundred pounds on bond. "It must be no client of
Wakem's," he said to himself; and yet at the end of a fortnight it turned
out to the contrary; not because Mr. Tulliver's will was feeble, but because
external fact was stronger. Wakem's client was the only convenient person to be
found. Mr. Tulliver had a destiny as well as Œdipus, and in this case he
might plead, like Œdipus, that his deed was inflicted on him rather than
committed by him.
Tom Tulliver'S sufferings during the first
quarter he was at King's Lorton, under the distinguished care of the Rev.
Walter Stelling, were rather severe. At Mr. Jacob's academy life had not
presented itself to him as a difficult problem; there were plenty of fellows to
play with, and Tom being good at all active games,–fighting
especially,–had that precedence among them which appeared to him
inseparable from the personality of Tom Tulliver. Mr. Jacobs himself,
familiarly known as Old Goggles, from his habit of wearing spectacles, imposed
no painful awe; and if it was the property of snuffy old hypocrites like him to
write like copperplate and surround their signatures with arabesques, to spell
without forethought, and to spout "my name is Norval" without
bungling, Tom, for his part, was glad he was not in danger of those mean
accomplishments. He was not going to be a snuffy schoolmaster, he, but a
substantial man, like his father, who used to go hunting when he was younger,
and rode a capital black mare,–as pretty a bit of horse-flesh as ever you
saw; Tom had heard what her points were a hundred times. He meant to go hunting too, and to be
generally respected. When people were grown up, he considered, nobody inquired
about their writing and spelling; when he was a man, he should be master of
everything, and do just as he liked. It had been very difficult for him to
reconcile himself to the idea that his school-time was to be prolonged and that
he was not to be brought up to his father's business, which he had always
thought extremely pleasant; for it was nothing but riding about, giving orders,
and going to market; and he thought that a clergyman would give him a great
many Scripture lessons, and probably make him learn the Gospel and Epistle on a
Sunday, as well as the Collect. But in the absence of specific information, it
was impossible for him to imagine that school and a schoolmaster would be
something entirely different from the academy of Mr. Jacobs. So, not to be at a
deficiency, in case of his finding genial companions, he had taken care to
carry with him a small box of percussion-caps; not that there was anything
particular to be done with them, but they would serve to impress strange boys
with a sense of his familiarity with guns. Thus poor Tom, though he saw very
clearly through Maggie's illusions, was not without illusions of his own, which
were to be cruelly dissipated by his enlarged experience at King's Lorton.
He had not been there a fortnight before
it was evident to him that life, complicated not only with the Latin grammar
but with a new standard of English pronunciation, was a very difficult
business, made all the more obscure by a thick mist of bash fulness. Tom, as
you have observed, was never an exception among boys for ease of address; but
the difficulty of enunciating a monosyllable in reply to Mr. or Mrs. Stelling
was so great, that he even dreaded to be asked at table whether he would have
more pudding. As to the percussion-caps, he had almost resolved, in the
bitterness of his heart, that he would throw them into a neighboring pond; for
not only was he the solitary pupil, but he began even to have a certain
scepticism about guns, and a general sense that his theory of life was
undermined. For Mr. Stelling thought nothing of guns, or horses either,
apparently; and yet it was impossible for Tom to despise Mr. Stelling as he had
despised Old Goggles. If there were anything that was not thoroughly genuine
about Mr. Stelling, it lay quite beyond Tom's power to detect it; it is only by
a wide comparison of facts that the wisest full-grown man can distinguish
well-rolled barrels from mere supernal thunder.
Mr. Stelling was a well-sized,
broad-chested man, not yet thirty, with flaxen hair standing erect, and large
lightish-gray eyes, which were always very wide open; he had a sonorous bass
voice, and an air of defiant self-confidence inclining to brazenness. He had
entered on his career with great vigor, and intended to make a considerable
impression on his fellowmen. The Rev. Walter Stelling was not a man who would
remain among the "inferior clergy" all his life. He had a true
British determination to push his way in the world,–as a schoolmaster, in
the first place, for there were capital masterships of grammar-schools to be
had, and Mr. Stelling meant to have one of them; but as a preacher also, for he
meant always to preach in a striking manner, so as to have his congregation
swelled by admirers from neighboring parishes, and to produce a great sensation
whenever he took occasional duty for a brother clergyman of minor gifts. The
style of preaching he had chosen was the extemporaneous, which was held little
short of the miraculous in rural parishes like King's Lorton. Some passages of
Massillon and Bourdaloue, which he knew by heart, were really very effective
when rolled out in Mr. Stelling's deepest tones; but as comparatively feeble
appeals of his own were delivered in the same loud and impressive manner, they
were often thought quite as striking by his hearers. Mr. Stelling's doctrine
was of no particular school; if anything, it had a tinge of evangelicalism, for
that was "the telling thing" just then in the diocese to which King's
Lorton belonged. In short, Mr. Stelling was a man who meant to rise in his
profession, and to rise by merit, clearly, since he had no interest beyond what
might be promised by a problematic relationship to a great lawyer who had not
yet become Lord Chancellor. A clergyman who has such vigorous intentions
naturally gets a little into debt at starting; it is not to be expected that he
will live in the meagre style of a man who means to be a poor curate all his
life; and if the few hundreds Mr. Timpson advanced toward his daughter's
fortune did not suffice for the purchase of handsome furniture, together with a
stock of wine, a grand piano, and the laying out of a superior flower-garden,
it followed in the most rigorous manner, either that these things must be
procured by some other means, or else that the Rev. Mr. Stelling must go
without them, which last alternative would be an absurd procrastination of the
fruits of success, where success was certain. Mr. Stelling was so broad-chested
and resolute that he felt equal to anything; he would become celebrated by
shaking the consciences of his hearers, and he would by and by edit a Greek
play, and invent several new readings. He had not yet selected the play, for
having been married little more than two years, his leisure time had been much
occupied with attentions to Mrs. Stelling; but he had told that fine woman what
he meant to do some day, and she felt great confidence in her husband, as a man
who understood everything of that sort.
But the immediate step to future success
was to bring on Tom Tulliver during this first half-year; for, by a singular
coincidence, there had been some negotiation concerning another pupil from the
same neighborhood and it might further a decision in Mr. Stelling's favor, if
it were understood that young Tulliver, who, Mr. Stelling observed in conjugal
privacy, was rather a rough cub, had made prodigious progress in a short time.
It was on this ground that he was severe with Tom about his lessons; he was
clearly a boy whose powers would never be developed through the medium of the
Latin grammar, without the application of some sternness. Not that Mr. Stelling
was a harsh-tempered or unkind man; quite the contrary. He was jocose with Tom
at table, and corrected his provincialisms and his deportment in the most
playful manner; but poor Tom was only the more cowed and confused by this
double novelty, for he had never been used to jokes at all like Mr. Stelling's;
and for the first time in his life he had a painful sense that he was all wrong
somehow. When Mr. Stelling said, as the roast-beef was being uncovered,
"Now, Tulliver! which would you rather decline, roast-beef or the Latin
for it?" Tom, to whom in his coolest moments a pun would have been a hard
nut, was thrown into a state of embarrassed alarm that made everything dim to
him except the feeling that he would rather not have anything to do with Latin;
of course he answered, "Roast-beef," whereupon there followed much
laughter and some practical joking with the plates, from which Tom gathered
that he had in some mysterious way refused beef, and, in fact, made himself
appear "a silly." If he could have seen a fellow-pupil undergo these
painful operations and survive them in good spirits, he might sooner have taken
them as a matter of course. But there are two expensive forms of education,
either of which a parent may procure for his son by sending him as solitary
pupil to a clergyman: one is the enjoyment of the reverend gentleman's
undivided neglect; the other is the endurance of the reverend gentleman's
undivided attention. It was the latter privilege for which Mr. Tulliver paid a
high price in Tom's initiatory months at King's Lorton.
That respectable miller and maltster had
left Tom behind, and driven homeward in a state of great mental satisfaction.
He considered that it was a happy moment for him when he had thought of asking
Riley's advice about a tutor for Tom. Mr. Stelling's eyes were so wide open,
and he talked in such an off-hand, matter-of-fact way, answering every
difficult, slow remark of Mr. Tulliver's with, "I see, my good sir, I
see"; "To be sure, to be sure"; "You want your son to be a
man who will make his way in the world,"–that Mr. Tulliver was
delighted to find in him a clergyman whose knowledge was so applicable to the
every-day affairs of this life. Except Counsellor Wylde, whom he had heard at
the last sessions, Mr. Tulliver thought the Rev. Mr Stelling was the shrewdest
fellow he had ever met with,–not unlike Wylde, in fact; he had the same
way of sticking his thumbs in the armholes of his waistcoat. Mr. Tulliver was
not by any means an exception in mistaking brazenness for shrewdness; most
laymen thought Stelling shrewd, and a man of remarkable powers generally; it
was chiefly by his clerical brethren that he was considered rather a dull
fellow. But he told Mr. Tulliver several stories about "Swing" and
incendiarism, and asked his advice about feeding pigs in so thoroughly secular
and judicious a manner, with so much polished glibness of tongue, that the
miller thought, here was the very thing he wanted for Tom. He had no doubt this
first-rate man was acquainted with every branch of information, and knew
exactly what Tom must learn in order to become a match for the lawyers, which
poor Mr. Tulliver himself did not
know, and so was necessarily thrown for self-direction on this wide kind of
inference. It is hardly fair to laugh at him, for I have known much more highly
instructed persons than he make inferences quite as wide, and not at all wiser.
As for Mrs. Tulliver, finding that Mrs.
Stelling's views as to the airing of linen and the frequent recurrence of
hunger in a growing boy entirely coincided with her own; moreover, that Mrs.
Stelling, though so young a woman, and only anticipating her second
confinement, had gone through very nearly the same experience as herself with
regard to the behavior and fundamental character of the monthly
nurse,–she expressed great contentment to her husband, when they drove
away, at leaving Tom with a woman who, in spite of her youth, seemed quite
sensible and motherly, and asked advice as prettily as could be.
"They must be very well off, though,"
said Mrs. Tulliver, "for everything's as nice as can be all over the
house, and that watered silk she had on cost a pretty penny. Sister Pullet has
got one like it."
"Ah," said Mr. Tulliver,
"he's got some income besides the curacy, I reckon. Perhaps her father
allows 'em something. There's Tom 'ull be another hundred to him, and not much
trouble either, by his own account; he says teaching comes natural to him.
That's wonderful, now," added Mr. Tulliver, turning his head on one side,
and giving his horse a meditative tickling on the flank.
Perhaps it was because teaching came
naturally to Mr. Stelling, that he set about it with that uniformity of method
and independence of circumstances which distinguish the actions of animals
understood to be under the immediate teaching of nature. Mr. Broderip's amiable
beaver, as that charming naturalist tells us, busied himself as earnestly in
constructing a dam, in a room up three pair of stairs in London, as if he had
been laying his foundation in a stream or lake in Upper Canada. It was
"Binny's" function to build; the absence of water or of possible
progeny was an accident for which he was not accountable. With the same
unerring instinct Mr. Stelling set to work at his natural method of instilling
the Eton Grammar and Euclid into the mind of Tom Tulliver. This, he considered,
was the only basis of solid instruction; all other means of education were mere
charlatanism, and could produce nothing better than smatterers. Fixed on this
firm basis, a man might observe the display of various or special knowledge
made by irregularly educated people with a pitying smile; all that sort of
thing was very well, but it was impossible these people could form sound
opinions. In holding this conviction Mr. Stelling was not biassed, as some
tutors have been, by the excessive accuracy or extent of his own scholarship;
and as to his views about Euclid, no opinion could have been freer from
personal partiality. Mr. Stelling was very far from being led astray by
enthusiasm, either religious or intellectual; on the other hand, he had no
secret belief that everything was humbug. He thought religion was a very
excellent thing, and Aristotle a great authority, and deaneries and prebends
useful institutions, and Great Britain the providential bulwark of
Protestantism, and faith in the unseen a great support to afflicted minds; he
believed in all these things, as a Swiss hotel-keeper believes in the beauty of
the scenery around him, and in the pleasure it gives to artistic visitors. And
in the same way Mr. Stelling believed in his method of education; he had no
doubt that he was doing the very best thing for Mr. Tulliver's boy. Of course,
when the miller talked of "mapping" and "summing" in a
vague and diffident manner, Mr Stelling had set his mind at rest by an
assurance that he understood what was wanted; for how was it possible the good
man could form any reasonable judgment about the matter? Mr Stelling's duty was
to teach the lad in the only right way,–indeed he knew no other; he had
not wasted his time in the acquirement of anything abnormal.
He very soon set down poor Tom as a
thoroughly stupid lad; for though by hard labor he could get particular
declensions into his brain, anything so abstract as the relation between cases
and terminations could by no means get such a lodgment there as to enable him
to recognize a chance genitive or dative. This struck Mr. Stelling as something
more than natural stupidity; he suspected obstinacy, or at any rate
indifference, and lectured Tom severely on his want of thorough application.
"You feel no interest in what you're doing, sir," Mr. Stelling would
say, and the reproach was painfully true. Tom had never found any difficulty in
discerning a pointer from a setter, when once he had been told the distinction,
and his perceptive powers were not at all deficient. I fancy they were quite as
strong as those of the Rev. Mr. Stelling; for Tom could predict with accuracy
what number of horses were cantering behind him, he could throw a stone right
into the centre of a given ripple, he could guess to a fraction how many
lengths of his stick it would take to reach across the playground, and could
draw almost perfect squares on his slate without any measurement. But Mr.
Stelling took no note of these things; he only observed that Tom's faculties
failed him before the abstractions hideously symbolized to him in the pages of
the Eton Grammar, and that he was in a state bordering on idiocy with regard to
the demonstration that two given triangles must be equal, though he could
discern with great promptitude and certainty the fact that they were equal. Whence Mr. Stelling
concluded that Tom's brain, being peculiarly impervious to etymology and
demonstrations, was peculiarly in need of being ploughed and harrowed by these
patent implements; it was his favorite metaphor, that the classics and geometry
constituted that culture of the mind which prepared it for the reception of any
subsequent crop. I say nothing against Mr. Stelling's theory; if we are to have
one regimen for all minds, his seems to me as good as any other. I only know it
turned out as uncomfortably for Tom Tulliver as if he had been plied with
cheese in order to remedy a gastric weakness which prevented him from digesting
it. It is astonishing what a different result one gets by changing the
metaphor! Once call the brain an intellectual stomach, and one's ingenious
conception of the classics and geometry as ploughs and harrows seems to settle
nothing. But then it is open to some one else to follow great authorities, and
call the mind a sheet of white paper or a mirror, in which case one's knowledge
of the digestive process becomes quite irrelevant. It was doubtless an
ingenious idea to call the camel the ship of the desert, but it would hardly
lead one far in training that useful beast. O Aristotle! if you had had the
advantage of being "the freshest modern" instead of the greatest
ancient, would you not have mingled your praise of metaphorical speech, as a
sign of high intelligence, with a lamentation that intelligence so rarely shows
itself in speech without metaphor,–that we can so seldom declare what a
thing is, except by saying it is something else?
Tom Tulliver, being abundant in no form of
speech, did not use any metaphor to declare his views as to the nature of
Latin; he never called it an instrument of torture; and it was not until he had
got on some way in the next half-year, and in the Delectus, that he was
advanced enough to call it a "bore" and "beastly stuff." At
present, in relation to this demand that he should learn Latin declensions and
conjugations, Tom was in a state of as blank unimaginativeness concerning the
cause and tendency of his sufferings, as if he had been an innocent shrewmouse
imprisoned in the split trunk of an ash-tree in order to cure lameness in
cattle. It is doubtless almost incredible to instructed minds of the present
day that a boy of twelve, not belonging strictly to "the masses," who
are now understood to have the monopoly of mental darkness, should have had no
distinct idea how there came to be such a thing as Latin on this earth; yet so
it was with Tom. It would have taken a long while to make conceivable to him
that there ever existed a people who bought and sold sheep and oxen, and
transacted the every-day affairs of life, through the medium of this language;
and still longer to make him understand why he should be called upon to learn
it, when its connection with those affairs had become entirely latent. So far
as Tom had gained any acquaintance with the Romans at Mr. Jacob's academy, his
knowledge was strictly correct, but it went no farther than the fact that they
were "in the New Testament"; and Mr. Stelling was not the man to
enfeeble and emasculate his pupil's mind by simplifying and explaining, or to
reduce the tonic effect of etymology by mixing it with smattering, extraneous
information, such as is given to girls.
Yet, strange to say, under this vigorous
treatment Tom became more like a girl than he had ever been in his life before.
He had a large share of pride, which had hitherto found itself very comfortable
in the world, despising Old Goggles, and reposing in the sense of unquestioned
rights; but now this same pride met with nothing but bruises and crushings. Tom
was too clear-sighted not to be aware that Mr. Stelling's standard of things
was quite different, was certainly something higher in the eyes of the world
than that of the people he had been living amongst, and that, brought in
contact with it, he, Tom Tulliver, appeared uncouth and stupid; he was by no means
indifferent to this, and his pride got into an uneasy condition which quite
nullified his boyish self-satisfaction, and gave him something of the girl's
susceptibility. He was a very firm, not to say obstinate, disposition, but
there was no brute-like rebellion and recklessness in his nature; the human
sensibilities predominated, and if it had occurred to him that he could enable
himself to show some quickness at his lessons, and so acquire Mr. Stelling's
approbation, by standing on one leg for an inconvenient length of time, or
rapping his head moderately against the wall, or any voluntary action of that
sort, he would certainly have tried it. But no; Tom had never heard that these
measures would brighten the understanding, or strengthen the verbal memory; and
he was not given to hypothesis and experiment. It did occur to him that he
could perhaps get some help by praying for it; but as the prayers he said every
evening were forms learned by heart, he rather shrank from the novelty and
irregularity of introducing an extempore passage on a topic of petition for
which he was not aware of any precedent. But one day, when he had broken down,
for the fifth time, in the supines of the third conjugation, and Mr. Stelling,
convinced that this must be carelessness, since it transcended the bounds of
possible stupidity, had lectured him very seriously, pointing out that if he
failed to seize the present golden opportunity of learning supines, he would
have to regret it when he became a man,–Tom, more miserable than usual,
determined to try his sole resource; and that evening, after his usual form of
prayer for his parents and "little sister" (he had begun to pray for
Maggie when she was a baby), and that he might be able always to keep God's
commandments, he added, in the same low whisper, "and please to make me
always remember my Latin." He paused a little to consider how he should
pray about Euclid–whether he should ask to see what it meant, or whether
there was any other mental state which would be more applicable to the case.
But at last he added: "And make Mr. Stelling say I sha'n't do Euclid any
more. Amen."
The fact that he got through his supines
without mistake the next day, encouraged him to persevere in this appendix to
his prayers, and neutralized any scepticism that might have arisen from Mr.
Stelling's continued demand for Euclid. But his faith broke down under the
apparent absence of all help when he got into the irregular verbs. It seemed
clear that Tom's despair under the caprices of the present tense did not
constitute a nodus worthy of
interference, and since this was the climax of his difficulties, where was the
use of praying for help any longer? He made up his mind to this conclusion in
one of his dull, lonely evenings, which he spent in the study, preparing his
lessons for the morrow. His eyes were apt to get dim over the page, though he
hated crying, and was ashamed of it; he couldn't help thinking with some
affection even of Spouncer, whom he used to fight and quarrel with; he would
have felt at home with Spouncer, and in a condition of superiority. And then
the mill, and the river, and Yap pricking up his ears, ready to obey the least
sign when Tom said, "Hoigh!" would all come before him in a sort of
calenture, when his fingers played absently in his pocket with his great knife
and his coil of whipcord, and other relics of the past.
Tom, as I said, had never been so much
like a girl in his life before, and at that epoch of irregular verbs his spirit
was further depressed by a new means of mental development which had been
thought of for him out of school hours. Mrs. Stelling had lately had her second
baby, and as nothing could be more salutary for a boy than to feel himself
useful, Mrs. Stelling considered she was doing Tom a service by setting him to
watch the little cherub Laura while the nurse was occupied with the sickly
baby. It was quite a pretty employment for Tom to take little Laura out in the
sunniest hour of the autumn day; it would help to make him feel that Lorton
Parsonage was a home for him, and that he was one of the family. The little
cherub Laura, not being an accomplished walker at present, had a ribbon
fastened round her waist, by which Tom held her as if she had been a little dog
during the minutes in which she chose to walk; but as these were rare, he was
for the most part carrying this fine child round and round the garden, within
sight of Mrs. Stelling's window, according to orders. If any one considers this
unfair and even oppressive toward Tom, I beg him to consider that there are
feminine virtues which are with difficulty combined, even if they are not
incompatible. When the wife of a poor curate contrives, under all her
disadvantages, to dress extremely well, and to have a style of coiffure which
requires that her nurse shall occasionally officiate as lady's-maid; when,
moreover, her dinner-parties and her drawing-room show that effort at elegance
and completeness of appointment to which ordinary women might imagine a large
income necessary, it would be unreasonable to expect of her that she should
employ a second nurse, or even act as a nurse herself. Mr. Stelling knew
better; he saw that his wife did wonders already, and was proud of her. It was
certainly not the best thing in the world for young Tulliver's gait to carry a
heavy child, but he had plenty of exercise in long walks with himself, and next
half-year Mr. Stelling would see about having a drilling-master. Among the many
means whereby Mr. Stelling intended to be more fortunate than the bulk of his
fellow-men, he had entirely given up that of having his own way in his own
house. What then? He had married "as kind a little soul as ever
breathed," according to Mr. Riley, who had been acquainted with Mrs.
Stelling's blond ringlets and smiling demeanor throughout her maiden life, and
on the strength of that knowledge would have been ready any day to pronounce
that whatever domestic differences might arise in her married life must be
entirely Mr. Stelling's fault.
If Tom had had a worse disposition, he
would certainly have hated the little cherub Laura, but he was too kind-hearted
a lad for that; there was too much in him of the fibre that turns to true
manliness, and to protecting pity for the weak. I am afraid he hated Mrs.
Stelling, and contracted a lasting dislike to pale blond ringlets and broad
plaits, as directly associated with haughtiness of manner, and a frequent
reference to other people's "duty." But he couldn't help playing with
little Laura, and liking to amuse her; he even sacrificed his percussion-caps
for her sake, in despair of their ever serving a greater
purpose,–thinking the small flash and bang would delight her, and thereby
drawing down on himself a rebuke from Mrs. Stelling for teaching her child to
play with fire. Laura was a sort of playfellow–and oh, how Tom longed for
playfellows! In his secret heart he yearned to have Maggie with him, and was
almost ready to dote on her exasperating acts of forgetfulness; though, when he
was at home, he always represented it as a great favor on his part to let Maggie
trot by his side on his pleasure excursions.
And before this dreary half-year was
ended, Maggie actually came. Mrs. Stelling had given a general invitation for
the little girl to come and stay with her brother; so when Mr. Tulliver drove
over to King's Lorton late in October, Maggie came too, with the sense that she
was taking a great journey, and beginning to see the world. It was Mr.
Tulliver's first visit to see Tom, for the lad must learn not to think too much
about home.
"Well, my lad," he said to Tom,
when Mr. Stelling had left the room to announce the arrival to his wife, and
Maggie had begun to kiss Tom freely, "you look rarely! School agrees with
you."
Tom wished he had looked rather ill.
"I don't think I am well, father," said Tom;
"I wish you'd ask Mr. Stelling not to let me do Euclid; it brings on the
toothache, I think."
(The toothache was the only malady to
which Tom had ever been subject.)
"Euclid, my lad,–why, what's
that?" said Mr. Tulliver.
"Oh, I don't know; it's definitions,
and axioms, and triangles, and things. It's a book I've got to learn
in–there's no sense in it."
"Go, go!" said Mr. Tulliver,
reprovingly; "you mustn't say so. You must learn what your master tells
you. He knows what it's right for you to learn."
"I'll
help you now, Tom," said Maggie, with a little air of patronizing
consolation. "I'm come to stay ever so long, if Mrs. Stelling asks me.
I've brought my box and my pinafores, haven't I, father?"
"You
help me, you silly little thing!" said Tom, in such high spirits at this
announcement that he quite enjoyed the idea of confounding Maggie by showing
her a page of Euclid. "I should like to see you doing one of my lessons! Why, I learn Latin too!
Girls never learn such things. They're too silly."
"I know what Latin is very
well," said Maggie, confidently, "Latin's a language. There are Latin
words in the Dictionary. There's bonus, a gift."
"Now, you're just wrong there, Miss
Maggie!" said Tom, secretly astonished. "You think you're very wise!
But 'bonus' means 'good,' as it happens,–bonus, bona, bonum."
"Well, that's no reason why it
shouldn't mean 'gift,'" said Maggie, stoutly. "It may mean several
things; almost every word does. There's 'lawn,'–it means the grass-plot,
as well as the stuff pocket-handkerchiefs are made of."
"Well done, little 'un," said
Mr. Tulliver, laughing, while Tom felt rather disgusted with Maggie's
knowingness, though beyond measure cheerful at the thought that she was going
to stay with him. Her conceit would soon be overawed by the actual inspection
of his books.
Mrs. Stelling, in her pressing invitation,
did not mention a longer time than a week for Maggie's stay; but Mr. Stelling,
who took her between his knees, and asked her where she stole her dark eyes
from, insisted that she must stay a fortnight. Maggie thought Mr. Stelling was
a charming man, and Mr. Tulliver was quite proud to leave his little wench
where she would have an opportunity of showing her cleverness to appreciating
strangers. So it was agreed that she should not be fetched home till the end of
the fortnight.
"Now, then, come with me into the
study, Maggie," said Tom, as their father drove away. "What do you
shake and toss your head now for, you silly?" he continued; for though her
hair was now under a new dispensation, and was brushed smoothly behind her
ears, she seemed still in imagination to be tossing it out of her eyes.
"It makes you look as if you were crazy."
"Oh, I can't help it," said
Maggie, impatiently. "Don't tease me, Tom. Oh, what books!" she
exclaimed, as she saw the bookcases in the study. "How I should like to
have as many books as that!"
"Why, you couldn't read one of
'em," said Tom, triumphantly. "They're all Latin."
"No, they aren't," said Maggie.
"I can read the back of this,–'History of the Decline and Fall of
the Roman Empire.'"
"Well, what does that mean? You don't know," said Tom, wagging
his head.
"But I could soon find out,"
said Maggie, scornfully.
"Why, how?"
"I should look inside, and see what
it was about."
"You'd better not, Miss Maggie,"
said Tom, seeing her hand on the volume. "Mr. Stelling lets nobody touch
his books without leave, and I
shall catch it, if you take it out."
"Oh, very well. Let me see all your books, then," said Maggie,
turning to throw her arms round Tom's neck, and rub his cheek with her small
round nose.
Tom, in the gladness of his heart at
having dear old Maggie to dispute with and crow over again, seized her round
the waist, and began to jump with her round the large library table. Away they
jumped with more and more vigor, till Maggie's hair flew from behind her ears,
and twirled about like an animated mop. But the revolutions round the table
became more and more irregular in their sweep, till at last reaching Mr.
Stelling's reading stand, they sent it thundering down with its heavy lexicons
to the floor. Happily it was the ground-floor, and the study was a one-storied
wing to the house, so that the downfall made no alarming resonance, though Tom
stood dizzy and aghast for a few minutes, dreading the appearance of Mr. or
Mrs. Stelling.
"Oh, I say, Maggie," said Tom at
last, lifting up the stand, "we must keep quiet here, you know. If we
break anything Mrs. Stelling'll make us cry peccavi."
"What's that?" said Maggie.
"Oh, it's the Latin for a good
scolding," said Tom, not without some pride in his knowledge.
"Is she a cross woman?" said
Maggie.
"I believe you!" said Tom, with
an emphatic nod.
"I think all women are crosser than
men," said Maggie. "Aunt Glegg's a great deal crosser than uncle
Glegg, and mother scolds me more than father does."
"Well, you'll be a woman some day," said Tom, "so you needn't talk."
"But I shall be a clever woman," said Maggie, with a
toss.
"Oh, I dare say, and a nasty
conceited thing. Everybody'll hate you."
"But you oughtn't to hate me, Tom;
it'll be very wicked of you, for I shall be your sister."
"Yes, but if you're a nasty
disagreeable thing I shall
hate you."
"Oh, but, Tom, you won't! I sha'n't
be disagreeable. I shall be very good to you, and I shall be good to everybody.
You won't hate me really, will you, Tom?"
"Oh, bother! never mind! Come, it's
time for me to learn my lessons. See here! what I've got to do," said Tom,
drawing Maggie toward him and showing her his theorem, while she pushed her
hair behind her ears, and prepared herself to prove her capability of helping
him in Euclid. She began to read with full confidence in her own powers, but
presently, becoming quite bewildered, her face flushed with irritation. It was
unavoidable; she must confess her incompetency, and she was not fond of
humiliation.
"It's nonsense!" she said,
"and very ugly stuff; nobody need want to make it out."
"Ah, there, now, Miss Maggie!"
said Tom, drawing the book away, and wagging his head at her, "You see
you're not so clever as you thought you were."
"Oh," said Maggie, pouting,
"I dare say I could make it out, if I'd learned what goes before, as you
have."
"But that's what you just couldn't,
Miss Wisdom," said Tom. "For it's all the harder when you know what
goes before; for then you've got to say what definition 3 is, and what axiom V.
is. But get along with you now; I must go on with this. Here's the Latin
Grammar. See what you can make of that."
Maggie found the Latin Grammar quite
soothing after her mathematical mortification; for she delighted in new words,
and quickly found that there was an English Key at the end, which would make
her very wise about Latin, at slight expense. She presently made up her mind to
skip the rules in the Syntax, the examples became so absorbing. These
mysterious sentences, snatched from an unknown context,–like strange
horns of beasts, and leaves of unknown plants, brought from some far-off
region,–gave boundless scope to her imagination, and were all the more
fascinating because they were in a peculiar tongue of their own, which she
could learn to interpret. It was really very interesting, the Latin Grammar
that Tom had said no girls could learn; and she was proud because she found it
interesting. The most fragmentary examples were her favourites. Mors omnibus est communis would have
been jejune, only she liked to know the Latin; but the fortunate gentleman whom
every one congratulated because he had a son "endowed with such a disposition" afforded her a
great deal of pleasant conjecture, and she was quite lost in the "thick
grove penetrable by no star," when Tom called out,–
"Now, then, Magsie, give us the
Grammar!"
"Oh, Tom, it's such a pretty
book!" she said, as she jumped out of the large arm-chair to give it him;
"it's much prettier than the Dictionary. I could learn Latin very soon. I
don't think it's at all hard."
"Oh, I know what you've been
doing," said Tom; "you've been reading the English at the end. Any
donkey can do that."
Tom seized the book and opened it with a
determined and business-like air, as much as to say that he had a lesson to
learn which no donkeys would find themselves equal to. Maggie, rather piqued,
turned to the bookcases to amuse herself with puzzling out the titles.
Presently Tom called to her: "Here,
Magsie, come and hear if I can say this. Stand at that end of the table, where
Mr. Stelling sits when he hears me."
Maggie obeyed, and took the open book.
"Where do you begin, Tom?"
"Oh, I begin at 'Appellativa arborum,' because I say
all over again what I've been learning this week."
Tom sailed along pretty well for three
lines; and Maggie was beginning to forget her office of prompter in speculating
as to what mas could mean,
which came twice over, when he stuck fast at Sunt
etiam volucrum.
"Don't tell me, Maggie; Sunt etiam volucrum–Sunt etiam volucrum–ut ostrea, cetus––"
"No," said Maggie, opening her
mouth and shaking her head.
"Sunt
etiam volucrum," said Tom, very slowly, as if the next words
might be expected to come sooner when he gave them this strong hint that they
were waited for.
"C, e, u," said Maggie, getting
impatient.
"Oh, I know–hold your
tongue," said Tom. "Ceu passer,
hirundo; Ferarum–ferarum––"
Tom took his pencil and made several hard dots with it on his
book-cover–"ferarum––"
"Oh dear, oh dear, Tom," said
Maggie, "what a time you are! Ut––"
"Ut
ostrea––"
"No, no," said Maggie, "ut tigris––"
"Oh yes, now I can do," said
Tom; "it was tigris, vulpes,
I'd forgotten: ut tigris, volupes; et
Piscium."
With some further stammering and
repetition, Tom got through the next few lines.
"Now, then," he said, "the
next is what I've just learned for to-morrow. Give me hold of the book a
minute."
After some whispered gabbling, assisted by
the beating of his fist on the table, Tom returned the book.
"Mascula
nomina in a," he began.
"No, Tom," said Maggie,
"that doesn't come next. It's Nomen
non creskens genittivo––"
"Creskens
genittivo!" exclaimed Tom, with a derisive laugh, for Tom had
learned this omitted passage for his yesterday's lesson, and a young gentleman
does not require an intimate or extensive acquaintance with Latin before he can
feel the pitiable absurdity of a false quantity. "Creskens genittivo! What a little silly
you are, Maggie!"
"Well, you needn't laugh, Tom, for
you didn't remember it at all. I'm sure it's spelt so; how was I to know?"
"Phee-e-e-h! I told you girls
couldn't learn Latin. It's Nomen non
crescens genitivo."
"Very well, then," said Maggie,
pouting. I can say that as well as you can. And you don't mind your stops. For
you ought to stop twice as long at a semicolon as you do at a comma, and you
make the longest stops where there ought to be no stop at all."
"Oh, well, don't chatter. Let me go
on."
They were presently fetched to spend the
rest of the evening in the drawing-room, and Maggie became so animated with Mr.
Stelling, who, she felt sure, admired her cleverness, that Tom was rather
amazed and alarmed at her audacity. But she was suddenly subdued by Mr.
Stelling's alluding to a little girl of whom he had heard that she once ran
away to the gypsies.
"What a very odd little girl that
must be!" said Mrs. Stelling, meaning to be playful; but a playfulness that
turned on her supposed oddity was not at all to Maggie's taste. She feared that
Mr. Stelling, after all, did not think much of her, and went to bed in rather
low spirits. Mrs. Stelling, she felt, looked at her as if she thought her hair
was very ugly because it hung down straight behind.
Nevertheless it was a very happy fortnight
to Maggie, this visit to Tom. She was allowed to be in the study while he had
his lessons, and in her various readings got very deep into the examples in the
Latin Grammar. The astronomer who hated women generally caused her so much
puzzling speculation that she one day asked Mr. Stelling if all astronomers
hated women, or whether it was only this particular astronomer. But
forestalling his answer, she said,–
"I suppose it's all astronomers;
because, you know, they live up in high towers, and if the women came there
they might talk and hinder them from looking at the stars."
Mr. Stelling liked her prattle immensely,
and they were on the best terms. She told Tom she should like to go to school
to Mr. Stelling, as he did, and learn just the same things. She knew she could
do Euclid, for she had looked into it again, and she saw what A B C meant; they
were the names of the lines.
"I'm sure you couldn't do it,
now," said Tom; "and I'll just ask Mr. Stelling if you could."
"I don't mind," said the little
conceited minx, "I'll ask him myself."
"Mr. Stelling," she said, that
same evening when they were in the drawing-room, "couldn't I do Euclid,
and all Tom's lessons, if you were to teach me instead of him?"
"No, you couldn't," said Tom,
indignantly. "Girls can't do Euclid; can they, sir?"
"They can pick up a little of
everything, I dare say," said Mr. Stelling. "They've a great deal of
superficial cleverness; but they couldn't go far into anything. They're quick
and shallow."
Tom, delighted with this verdict,
telegraphed his triumph by wagging his head at Maggie, behind Mr. Stelling's
chair. As for Maggie, she had hardly ever been so mortified. She had been so
proud to be called "quick" all her little life, and now it appeared
that this quickness was the brand of inferiority. It would have been better to
be slow, like Tom.
"Ha, ha! Miss Maggie!" said Tom,
when they were alone; "you see it's not such a fine thing to be quick.
You'll never go far into anything, you know."
And Maggie was so oppressed by this
dreadful destiny that she had no spirit for a retort.
But when this small apparatus of shallow
quickness was fetched away in the gig by Luke, and the study was once more
quite lonely for Tom, he missed her grievously. He had really been brighter,
and had got through his lessons better, since she had been there; and she had
asked Mr. Stelling so many questions about the Roman Empire, and whether there
really ever was a man who said, in Latin, "I would not buy it for a
farthing or a rotten nut," or whether that had only been turned into
Latin, that Tom had actually come to a dim understanding of the fact that there
had once been people upon the earth who were so fortunate as to know Latin
without learning it through the medium of the Eton Grammar. This luminous idea
was a great addition to his historical acquirements during this half-year,
which were otherwise confined to an epitomized history of the Jews.
But the dreary half-year did come to an end. How glad Tom was to
see the last yellow leaves fluttering before the cold wind! The dark afternoons
and the first December snow seemed to him far livelier than the August
sunshine; and that he might make himself the surer about the flight of the days
that were carrying him homeward, he stuck twenty-one sticks deep in a corner of
the garden, when he was three weeks from the holidays, and pulled one up every
day with a great wrench, throwing it to a distance with a vigor of will which
would have carried it to limbo, if it had been in the nature of sticks to
travel so far.
But it was worth purchasing, even at the
heavy price of the Latin Grammar, the happiness of seeing the bright light in
the parlor at home, as the gig passed noiselessly over the snow-covered bridge;
the happiness of passing from the cold air to the warmth and the kisses and the
smiles of that familiar hearth, where the pattern of the rug and the grate and
the fire-irons were "first ideas" that it was no more possible to
criticise than the solidity and extension of matter. There is no sense of ease
like the ease we felt in those scenes where we were born, where objects became
dear to us before we had known the labor of choice, and where the outer world
seemed only an extension of our own personality; we accepted and loved it as we
accepted our own sense of existence and our own limbs. Very commonplace, even
ugly, that furniture of our early home might look if it were put up to auction;
an improved taste in upholstery scorns it; and is not the striving after
something better and better in our surroundings the grand characteristic that
distinguishes man from the brute, or, to satisfy a scrupulous accuracy of
definition, that distinguishes the British man from the foreign brute? But
heaven knows where that striving might lead us, if our affections had not a
trick of twining round those old inferior things; if the loves and sanctities
of our life had no deep immovable roots in memory. One's delight in an
elderberry bush overhanging the confused leafage of a hedgerow bank, as a more
gladdening sight than the finest cistus or fuchsia spreading itself on the
softest undulating turf, is an entirely unjustifiable preference to a
nursery-gardener, or to any of those regulated minds who are free from the weakness
of any attachment that does not rest on a demonstrable superiority of
qualities. And there is no better reason for preferring this elderberry bush
than that it stirs an early memory; that it is no novelty in my life, speaking
to me merely through my present sensibilities to form and color, but the long
companion of my existence, that wove itself into my joys when joys were vivid.
Chapter II
The Christmas Holidays
Fine old Christmas, with the snowy hair
and ruddy face, had done his duty that year in the noblest fashion, and had set
off his rich gifts of warmth and color with all the heightening contrast of
frost and snow.
Snow lay on the croft and river-bank in
undulations softer than the limbs of infancy; it lay with the neatliest
finished border on every sloping roof, making the dark-red gables stand out
with a new depth of color; it weighed heavily on the laurels and fir-trees,
till it fell from them with a shuddering sound; it clothed the rough
turnip-field with whiteness, and made the sheep look like dark blotches; the
gates were all blocked up with the sloping drifts, and here and there a
disregarded four-footed beast stood as if petrified "in unrecumbent
sadness"; there was no gleam, no shadow, for the heavens, too, were one
still, pale cloud; no sound or motion in anything but the dark river that
flowed and moaned like an unresting sorrow. But old Christmas smiled as he laid
this cruel-seeming spell on the outdoor world, for he meant to light up home
with new brightness, to deepen all the richness of indoor color, and give a
keener edge of delight to the warm fragrance of food; he meant to prepare a
sweet imprisonment that would strengthen the primitive fellowship of kindred,
and make the sunshine of familiar human faces as welcome as the hidden day-star.
His kindness fell but hardly on the homeless,–fell but hardly on the
homes where the hearth was not very warm, and where the food had little
fragrance; where the human faces had had no sunshine in them, but rather the
leaden, blank-eyed gaze of unexpectant want. But the fine old season meant
well; and if he has not learned the secret how to bless men impartially, it is
because his father Time, with ever-unrelenting unrelenting purpose, still hides
that secret in his own mighty, slow-beating heart.
And yet this Christmas day, in spite of
Tom's fresh delight in home, was not, he thought, somehow or other, quite so
happy as it had always been before. The red berries were just as abundant on
the holly, and he and Maggie had dressed all the windows and mantlepieces and
picture-frames on Christmas eve with as much taste as ever, wedding the
thick-set scarlet clusters with branches of the black-berried ivy. There had
been singing under the windows after midnight,–supernatural singing,
Maggie always felt, in spite of Tom's contemptuous insistence that the singers
were old Patch, the parish clerk, and the rest of the church choir; she
trembled with awe when their carolling broke in upon her dreams, and the image
of men in fustian clothes was always thrust away by the vision of angels
resting on the parted cloud. The midnight chant had helped as usual to lift the
morning above the level of common days; and then there were the smell of hot
toast and ale from the kitchen, at the breakfast hour; the favorite anthem, the
green boughs, and the short sermon gave the appropriate festal character to the
church-going; and aunt and uncle Moss, with all their seven children, were
looking like so many reflectors of the bright parlor-fire, when the
church-goers came back, stamping the snow from their feet. The plum-pudding was
of the same handsome roundness as ever, and came in with the symbolic blue
flames around it, as if it had been heroically snatched from the nether fires,
into which it had been thrown by dyspeptic Puritans; the dessert was as
splendid as ever, with its golden oranges, brown nuts, and the crystalline
light and dark of apple-jelly and damson cheese; in all these things Christmas
was as it had always been since Tom could remember; it was only distinguished, it
by anything, by superior sliding and snowballs.
Christmas was cheery, but not so Mr.
Tulliver. He was irate and defiant; and Tom, though he espoused his father's
quarrels and shared his father's sense of injury, was not without some of the
feeling that oppressed Maggie when Mr. Tulliver got louder and more angry in
narration and assertion with the increased leisure of dessert. The attention
that Tom might have concentrated on his nuts and wine was distracted by a sense
that there were rascally enemies in the world, and that the business of
grown-up life could hardly be conducted without a good deal of quarrelling.
Now, Tom was not fond of quarrelling, unless it could soon be put an end to by
a fair stand-up fight with an adversary whom he had every chance of thrashing;
and his father's irritable talk made him uncomfortable, though he never
accounted to himself for the feeling, or conceived the notion that his father
was faulty in this respect.
The particular embodiment of the evil
principle now exciting Mr. Tulliver's determined resistance was Mr. Pivart,
who, having lands higher up the Ripple, was taking measures for their
irrigation, which either were, or would be, or were bound to be (on the
principle that water was water), an infringement on Mr. Tulliver's legitimate
share of water-power. Dix, who had a mill on the stream, was a feeble auxiliary
of Old Harry compared with Pivart. Dix had been brought to his senses by
arbitration, and Wakem's advice had not carried him far. No; Dix, Mr. Tulliver considered, had been as
good as nowhere in point of law; and in the intensity of his indignation
against Pivart, his contempt for a baffled adversary like Dix began to wear the
air of a friendly attachment. He had no male audience to-day except Mr. Moss,
who knew nothing, as he said, of the "natur' o' mills," and could
only assent to Mr. Tulliver's arguments on the a priori ground of family relationship and monetary
obligation; but Mr. Tulliver did not talk with the futile intention of
convincing his audience, he talked to relieve himself; while good Mr. Moss made
strong efforts to keep his eyes wide open, in spite of the sleepiness which an
unusually good dinner produced in his hard-worked frame. Mrs. Moss, more alive
to the subject, and interested in everything that affected her brother,
listened and put in a word as often as maternal preoccupations allowed.
"Why, Pivart's a new name hereabout,
brother, isn't it?" she said; "he didn't own the land in father's
time, nor yours either, before I was married."
"New name? Yes, I should think it is a new name," said Mr. Tulliver,
with angry emphasis. "Dorlcote Mill's been in our family a hundred year
and better, and nobody ever heard of a Pivart meddling with the river, till
this fellow came and bought Bincome's farm out of hand, before anybody else
could so much as say 'snap.' But I'll Pivart
him!" added Mr. Tulliver, lifting his glass with a sense that he had
defined his resolution in an unmistakable manner.
"You won't be forced to go to law
with him, I hope, brother?" said Mrs. Moss, with some anxiety.
"I don't know what I shall be forced
to; but I know what I shall force him
to, with his dikes and erigations, if there's any law to be brought to bear o'
the right side. I know well enough who's at the bottom of it; he's got Wakem to
back him and egg him on. I know Wakem tells him the law can't touch him for it,
but there's folks can handle the law besides Wakem. It takes a big raskil to
beat him; but there's bigger to be found, as know more o' th' ins and outs o'
the law, else how came Wakem to lose Brumley's suit for him?"
Mr. Tulliver was a strictly honest man,
and proud of being honest, but he considered that in law the ends of justice
could only be achieved by employing a stronger knave to frustrate a weaker. Law
was a sort of cock-fight, in which it was the business of injured honesty to
get a game bird with the best pluck and the strongest spurs.
"Gore's no fool; you needn't tell me
that," he observed presently, in a pugnacious tone, as if poor Gritty had
been urging that lawyer's capabilities; "but, you see, he isn't up to the
law as Wakem is. And water's a very particular thing; you can't pick it up with
a pitchfork. That's why it's been nuts to Old Harry and the lawyers. It's plain
enough what's the rights and the wrongs of water, if you look at it
straight-forrard; for a river's a river, and if you've got a mill, you must
have water to turn it; and it's no use telling me Pivart's erigation and
nonsense won't stop my wheel; I know what belongs to water better than that.
Talk to me o' what th' engineers say! I say it's common sense, as Pivart's
dikes must do me an injury. But if that's their engineering, I'll put Tom to it
by-and-by, and he shall see if he can't find a bit more sense in th'
engineering business than what that
comes to."
Tom, looking round with some anxiety at
this announcement of his prospects, unthinkingly withdrew a small rattle he was
amusing baby Moss with, whereupon she, being a baby that knew her own mind with
remarkable clearness, instantaneously expressed her sentiments in a piercing
yell, and was not to be appeased even by the restoration of the rattle, feeling
apparently that the original wrong of having it taken from her remained in all
its force. Mrs. Moss hurried away with her into another room, and expressed to
Mrs. Tulliver, who accompanied her, the conviction that the dear child had good
reasons for crying; implying that if it was supposed to be the rattle that baby
clamored for, she was a misunderstood baby. The thoroughly justifiable yell being
quieted, Mrs. Moss looked at her sister-in-law and said,–
"I'm sorry to see brother so put out
about this water work."
"It's your brother's way, Mrs. Moss;
I'd never anything o' that sort before I was married," said Mrs. Tulliver,
with a half-implied reproach. She always spoke of her husband as "your
brother" to Mrs. Moss in any case when his line of conduct was not matter
of pure admiration. Amiable Mrs. Tulliver, who was never angry in her life, had
yet her mild share of that spirit without which she could hardly have been at
once a Dodson and a woman. Being always on the defensive toward her own
sisters, it was natural that she should be keenly conscious of her superiority,
even as the weakest Dodson, over a husband's sister, who, besides being poorly
off, and inclined to "hang on" her brother, had the good-natured
submissiveness of a large, easy-tempered, untidy, prolific woman, with
affection enough in her not only for her own husband and abundant children, but
for any number of collateral relations.
"I hope and pray he won't go to
law," said Mrs. Moss, "for there's never any knowing where that'll
end. And the right doesn't allays win. This Mr. Pivart's a rich man, by what I
can make out, and the rich mostly get things their own way."
"As to that," said Mrs.
Tulliver, stroking her dress down, "I've seen what riches are in my own
family; for my sisters have got husbands as can afford to do pretty much what
they like. But I think sometimes I shall be drove off my head with the talk
about this law and erigation; and my sisters lay all the fault to me, for they
don't know what it is to marry a man like your brother; how should they? Sister
Pullet has her own way from morning till night."
"Well," said Mrs. Moss, "I
don't think I should like my husband if he hadn't got any wits of his own, and
I had to find head-piece for him. It's a deal easier to do what pleases one's
husband, than to be puzzling what else one should do."
"If people come to talk o' doing what
pleases their husbands," said Mrs. Tulliver, with a faint imitation of her
sister Glegg, "I'm sure your brother might have waited a long while before
he'd have found a wife that 'ud have let him have his say in everything, as I
do. It's nothing but law and erigation now, from when we first get up in the
morning till we go to bed at night; and I never contradict him; I only say,
'Well, Mr. Tulliver, do as you like; but whativer you do, don't go to
law."
Mrs. Tulliver, as we have seen, was not
without influence over her husband. No woman is; she can always incline him to
do either what she wishes, or the reverse; and on the composite impulses that
were threatening to hurry Mr. Tulliver into "law," Mrs. Tulliver's
monotonous pleading had doubtless its share of force; it might even be
comparable to that proverbial feather which has the credit or discredit of
breaking the camel's back; though, on a strictly impartial view, the blame
ought rather to lie with the previous weight of feathers which had already
placed the back in such imminent peril that an otherwise innocent feather could
not settle on it without mischief. Not that Mrs. Tulliver's feeble beseeching
could have had this feather's weight in virtue of her single personality; but
whenever she departed from entire assent to her husband, he saw in her the representative
of the Dodson family; and it was a guiding principle with Mr. Tulliver to let
the Dodsons know that they were not to domineer over him, or–more
specifically–that a male Tulliver was far more than equal to four female
Dodsons, even though one of them was Mrs. Glegg.
But not even a direct argument from that
typical Dodson female herself against his going to law could have heightened
his disposition toward it so much as the mere thought of Wakem, continually
freshened by the sight of the too able attorney on market-days. Wakem, to his
certain knowledge, was (metaphorically speaking) at the bottom of Pivart's
irrigation; Wakem had tried to make Dix stand out, and go to law about the dam;
it was unquestionably Wakem who had caused Mr. Tulliver to lose the suit about
the right of road and the bridge that made a thoroughfare of his land for every
vagabond who preferred an opportunity of damaging private property to walking
like an honest man along the highroad; all lawyers were more or less rascals, but
Wakem's rascality was of that peculiarly aggravated kind which placed itself in
opposition to that form of right embodied in Mr. Tulliver's interests and
opinions. And as an extra touch of bitterness, the injured miller had recently,
in borrowing the five hundred pounds, been obliged to carry a little business
to Wakem's office on his own account. A hook-nosed glib fellow! as cool as a
cucumber,–always looking so sure of his game! And it was vexatious that
Lawyer Gore was not more like him, but was a bald, round-featured man, with
bland manners and fat hands; a game-cock that you would be rash to bet upon
against Wakem. Gore was a sly fellow. His weakness did not lie on the side of
scrupulosity; but the largest amount of winking, however significant, is not
equivalent to seeing through a stone wall; and confident as Mr. Tulliver was in
his principle that water was water, and in the direct inference that Pivart had
not a leg to stand on in this affair of irrigation, he had an uncomfortable
suspicion that Wakem had more law to show against this (rationally)
irrefragable inference than Gore could show for it. But then, if they went to
law, there was a chance for Mr. Tulliver to employ Counsellor Wylde on his
side, instead of having that admirable bully against him; and the prospect of
seeing a witness of Wakem's made to perspire and become confounded, as Mr.
Tulliver's witness had once been, was alluring to the love of retributive
justice.
Much rumination had Mr. Tulliver on these
puzzling subjects during his rides on the gray horse; much turning of the head
from side to side, as the scales dipped alternately; but the probable result
was still out of sight, only to be reached through much hot argument and
iteration in domestic and social life. That initial stage of the dispute which
consisted in the narration of the case and the enforcement of Mr. Tulliver's
views concerning it throughout the entire circle of his connections would
necessarily take time; and at the beginning of February, when Tom was going to
school again, there were scarcely any new items to be detected in his father's
statement of the case against Pivart, or any more specific indication of the
measures he was bent on taking against that rash contravener of the principle
that water was water. Iteration, like friction, is likely to generate heat
instead of progress, and Mr. Tulliver's heat was certainly more and more
palpable. If there had been no new evidence on any other point, there had been
new evidence that Pivart was as "thick as mud" with Wakem.
"Father," said Tom, one evening
near the end of the holidays, "uncle Glegg says Lawyer Wakem is going to send his son to Mr.
Stelling. It isn't true, what they said about his going to be sent to France.
You won't like me to go to school with Wakem's son, shall you?"
"It's no matter for that, my
boy," said Mr. Tulliver; "don't you learn anything bad of him, that's
all. The lad's a poor deformed creatur, and takes after his mother in the face;
I think there isn't much of his father in him. It's a sign Wakem thinks high o'
Mr. Sterling, as he sends his son to him, and Wakem knows meal from bran."
Mr. Tulliver in his heart was rather proud
of the fact that his son was to have the same advantages as Wakem's; but Tom
was not at all easy on the point. It would have been much clearer if the
lawyer's son had not been deformed, for then Tom would have had the prospect of
pitching into him with all that freedom which is derived from a high moral
sanction.
Chapter III
The New Schoolfellow
It was a cold, wet January day on which
Tom went back to school; a day quite in keeping with this severe phase of his
destiny. If he had not carried in his pocket a parcel of sugar-candy and a
small Dutch doll for little Laura, there would have been no ray of expected
pleasure to enliven the general gloom. But he liked to think how Laura would
put out her lips and her tiny hands for the bits of sugarcandy; and to give the
greater keenness to these pleasures of imagination, he took out the parcel,
made a small hole in the paper, and bit off a crystal or two, which had so
solacing an effect under the confined prospect and damp odors of the
gig-umbrella, that he repeated the process more than once on his way.
"Well, Tulliver, we're glad to see
you again," said Mr. Stelling, heartily. "Take off your wrappings and
come into the study till dinner. You'll find a bright fire there, and a new
companion."
Tom felt in an uncomfortable flutter as he
took off his woollen comforter and other wrappings. He had seen Philip Wakem at
St. Ogg's, but had always turned his eyes away from him as quickly as possible.
He would have disliked having a deformed boy for his companion, even if Philip
had not been the son of a bad man. And Tom did not see how a bad man's son
could be very good. His own father was a good man, and he would readily have
fought any one who said the contrary. He was in a state of mingled
embarrassment and defiance as he followed Mr. Stelling to the study.
"Here is a new companion for you to
shake hands with, Tulliver," said that gentleman on entering the
study,–"Master Philip Wakem. I shall leave you to make acquaintance
by yourselves. You already know something of each other, I imagine; for you are
neighbors at home."
Tom looked confused and awkward, while
Philip rose and glanced at him timidly. Tom did not like to go up and put out
his hand, and he was not prepared to say, "How do you do?" on so
short a notice.
Mr. Stelling wisely turned away, and
closed the door behind him; boys' shyness only wears off in the absence of
their elders.
Philip was at once too proud and too timid
to walk toward Tom. He thought, or rather felt, that Tom had an aversion to
looking at him; every one, almost, disliked looking at him; and his deformity
was more conspicuous when he walked. So they remained without shaking hands or
even speaking, while Tom went to the fire and warmed himself, every now and
then casting furtive glances at Philip, who seemed to be drawing absently first
one object and then another on a piece of paper he had before him. He had seated
himself again, and as he drew, was thinking what he could say to Tom, and
trying to overcome his own repugnance to making the first advances.
Tom began to look oftener and longer at
Philip's face, for he could see it without noticing the hump, and it was really
not a disagreeable face,–very old-looking, Tom thought. He wondered how
much older Philip was than himself. An anatomist–even a mere
physiognomist–would have seen that the deformity of Philip's spine was
not a congenital hump, but the result of an accident in infancy; but you do not
expect from Tom any acquaintance with such distinctions; to him, Philip was
simply a humpback. He had a vague notion that the deformity of Wakem's son had
some relation to the lawyer's rascality, of which he had so often heard his
father talk with hot emphasis; and he felt, too, a half-admitted fear of him as
probably a spiteful fellow, who, not being able to fight you, had cunning ways
of doing you a mischief by the sly. There was a humpbacked tailor in the
neighborhood of Mr. Jacobs's academy, who was considered a very unamiable
character, and was much hooted after by public-spirited boys solely on the
ground of his unsatisfactory moral qualities; so that Tom was not without a
basis of fact to go upon. Still, no face could be more unlike that ugly
tailor's than this melancholy boy's face,–the brown hair round it waved
and curled at the ends like a girl's; Tom thought that truly pitiable. This
Wakem was a pale, puny fellow, and it was quite clear he would not be able to
play at anything worth speaking of; but he handled his pencil in an enviable
manner, and was apparently making one thing after another without any trouble.
What was he drawing? Tom was quite warm now, and wanted something new to be
going forward. It was certainly more agreeable to have an ill-natured humpback
as a companion than to stand looking out of the study window at the rain, and
kicking his foot against the washboard in solitude; something would happen
every day,–"a quarrel or something"; and Tom thought he should
rather like to show Philip that he had better not try his spiteful tricks on him. He suddenly walked across the
hearth and looked over Philip's paper.
"Why, that's a donkey with panniers,
and a spaniel, and partridges in the corn!" he exclaimed, his tongue being
completely loosed by surprise and admiration. "Oh my buttons! I wish I
could draw like that. I'm to learn drawing this half; I wonder if I shall learn
to make dogs and donkeys!"
"Oh, you can do them without
learning," said Philip; "I never learned drawing."
"Never learned?" said Tom, in
amazement. "Why, when I make dogs and horses, and those things, the heads
and the legs won't come right; though I can see how they ought to be very well.
I can make houses, and all sorts of chimneys,–chimneys going all down the
wall,–and windows in the roof, and all that. But I dare say I could do
dogs and horses if I was to try more," he added, reflecting that Philip
might falsely suppose that he was going to "knock under," if he were
too frank about the imperfection of his accomplishments.
"Oh, yes," said Philip,
"it's very easy. You've only to look well at things, and draw them over
and over again. What you do wrong once, you can alter the next time."
"But haven't you been taught anything?" said Tom, beginning to
have a puzzled suspicion that Philip's crooked back might be the source of
remarkable faculties. "I thought you'd been to school a long while."
"Yes," said Philip, smiling;
"I've been taught Latin and Greek and mathematics, and writing and such things."
"Oh, but I say, you don't like Latin,
though, do you?" said Tom, lowering his voice confidentially.
"Pretty well; I don't care much about
it," said Philip.
"Ah, but perhaps you haven't got into
the Propria quæ maribus,"
said Tom, nodding his head sideways, as much as to say, "that was the
test; it was easy talking till you came to that."
Philip felt some bitter complacency in the
promising stupidity of this well-made, active-looking boy; but made polite by
his own extreme sensitiveness, as well as by his desire to conciliate, he
checked his inclination to laugh, and said quietly,–
"I've done with the grammar; I don't
learn that any more."
"Then you won't have the same lessons
as I shall?" said Tom, with a sense of disappointment.
"No; but I dare say I can help you. I
shall be very glad to help you if I can."
Tom did not say "Thank you," for
he was quite absorbed in the thought that Wakem's son did not seem so spiteful
a fellow as might have been expected.
"I say," he said presently,
"do you love your father?"
"Yes," said Philip, coloring
deeply; "don't you love yours?"
"Oh yes–I only wanted to
know," said Tom, rather ashamed of himself, now he saw Philip coloring and
looking uncomfortable. He found much difficulty in adjusting his attitude of
mind toward the son of Lawyer Wakem, and it had occurred to him that if Philip
disliked his father, that fact might go some way toward clearing up his
perplexity.
"Shall you learn drawing now?"
he said, by way of changing the subject.
"No," said Philip. "My
father wishes me to give all my time to other things now."
"What! Latin and Euclid, and those
things?" said Tom.
"Yes," said Philip, who had left
off using his pencil, and was resting his head on one hand, while Tom was
learning forward on both elbows, and looking with increasing admiration at the
dog and the donkey.
"And you don't mind that?" said
Tom, with strong curiosity.
"No; I like to know what everybody
else knows. I can study what I like by-and-by."
"I can't think why anybody should
learn Latin," said Tom. "It's no good."
"It's part of the education of a
gentleman," said Philip. "All gentlemen learn the same things."
"What! do you think Sir John Crake,
the master of the harriers, knows Latin?" said Tom, who had often thought
he should like to resemble Sir John Crake.
"He learned it when he was a boy, of
course," said Philip. "But I dare say he's forgotten it."
"Oh, well, I can do that, then,"
said Tom, not with any epigrammatic intention, but with serious satisfaction at
the idea that, as far as Latin was concerned, there was no hindrance to his
resembling Sir John Crake. "Only you're obliged to remember it while
you're at school, else you've got to learn ever so many lines of 'Speaker.' Mr.
Stelling's very particular–did you know? He'll have you up ten times if
you say 'nam' for 'jam,'–he won't let you go a letter wrong, I can tell you."
"Oh, I don't mind," said Philip,
unable to choke a laugh; "I can remember things easily. And there are some
lessons I'm very fond of. I'm very fond of Greek history, and everything about
the Greeks. I should like to have been a Greek and fought the Persians, and
then have come home and have written tragedies, or else have been listened to
by everybody for my wisdom, like Socrates, and have died a grand death."
(Philip, you perceive, was not without a wish to impress the well-made
barbarian with a sense of his mental superiority.)
"Why, were the Greeks great
fighters?" said Tom, who saw a vista in this direction. "Is there
anything like David and Goliath and Samson in the Greek history? Those are the
only bits I like in the history of the Jews."
"Oh, there are very fine stories of that
sort about the Greeks,–about the heroes of early times who killed the
wild beasts, as Samson did. And in the Odyssey–that's a beautiful
poem–there's a more wonderful giant than Goliath,–Polypheme, who
had only one eye in the middle of his forehead; and Ulysses, a little fellow,
but very wise and cunning, got a red-hot pine-tree and stuck it into this one
eye, and made him roar like a thousand bulls."
"Oh, what fun!" said Tom,
jumping away from the table, and stamping first with one leg and then the other.
"I say, can you tell me all about those stories? Because I sha'n't learn
Greek, you know. Shall I?" he added, pausing in his stamping with a sudden
alarm, lest the contrary might be possible. "Does every gentleman learn
Greek? Will Mr. Stelling make me begin with it, do you think?"
"No, I should think not, very likely
not," said Philip. "But you may read those stories without knowing
Greek. I've got them in English."
"Oh, but I don't like reading; I'd
sooner have you tell them me. But only the fighting ones, you know. My sister
Maggie is always wanting to tell me stories, but they're stupid things. Girls'
stories always are. Can you tell a good many fighting stories?"
"Oh yes," said Philip;
"lots of them, besides the Greek stories. I can tell you about Richard
Cœur-de-Lion and Saladin, and about William Wallace and Robert Bruce and
James Douglas,–I know no end."
"You're older than I am, aren't
you?" said Tom.
"Why, how old are you? I'm fifteen."
"I'm only going in fourteen,"
said Tom. "But I thrashed all the fellows at Jacob's–that's where I
was before I came here. And I beat 'em all at bandy and climbing. And I wish
Mr. Stelling would let us go fishing. I
could show you how to fish. You could
fish, couldn't you? It's only standing, and sitting still, you know."
Tom, in his turn, wished to make the
balance dip in his favor. This hunchback must not suppose that his acquaintance
with fighting stories put him on a par with an actual fighting hero, like Tom
Tulliver. Philip winced under this allusion to his unfitness for active sports,
and he answered almost peevishly,–
"I can't bear fishing. I think people
look like fools sitting watching a line hour after hour, or else throwing and
throwing, and catching nothing."
"Ah, but you wouldn't say they looked
like fools when they landed a big pike, I can tell you," said Tom, who had
never caught anything that was "big" in his life, but whose
imagination was on the stretch with indignant zeal for the honor of sport.
Wakem's son, it was plain, had his disagreeable points, and must be kept in due
check. Happily for the harmony of this first interview, they were now called to
dinner, and Philip was not allowed to develop farther his unsound views on the
subject of fishing. But Tom said to himself, that was just what he should have
expected from a hunchback.
The alterations of feeling in that first
dialogue between Tom and Philip continued to make their intercourse even after
many weeks of schoolboy intimacy. Tom never quite lost the feeling that Philip,
being the son of a "rascal," was his natural enemy; never thoroughly
overcame his repulsion to Philip's deformity. He was a boy who adhered
tenaciously to impressions once received; as with all minds in which mere
perception predominates over thought and emotion, the external remained to him
rigidly what it was in the first instance. But then it was impossible not to
like Philip's company when he was in a good humor; he could help one so well in
one's Latin exercises, which Tom regarded as a kind of puzzle that could only
be found out by a lucky chance; and he could tell such wonderful fighting
stories about Hal of the Wynd, for example, and other heroes who were especial
favorites with Tom, because they laid about them with heavy strokes. He had small
opinion of Saladin, whose cimeter could cut a cushion in two in an instant; who
wanted to cut cushions? That was a stupid story, and he didn't care to hear it
again. But when Robert Bruce, on the black pony, rose in his stirrups, and
lifting his good battle-axe, cracked at once the helmet and the skull of the
too hasty knight at Bannockburn, then Tom felt all the exaltation of sympathy,
and if he had had a cocoanut at hand, he would have cracked it at once with the
poker. Philip in his happier moods indulged Tom to the top of his bent,
heightening the crash and bang and fury of every fight with all the artillery
of epithets and similes at his command. But he was not always in a good humor
or happy mood. The slight spurt of peevish susceptibility which had escaped him
in their first interview was a symptom of a perpetually recurring mental
ailment, half of it nervous irritability, half of it the heart-bitterness
produced by the sense of his deformity. In these fits of susceptibility every
glance seemed to him to be charged either with offensive pity or with
ill-repressed disgust; at the very least it was an indifferent glance, and
Philip felt indifference as a child of the south feels the chill air of a
northern spring. Poor Tom's blundering patronage when they were out of doors
together would sometimes make him turn upon the well-meaning lad quite
savagely; and his eyes, usually sad and quiet, would flash with anything but
playful lightning. No wonder Tom retained his suspicions of the humpback.
But Philip's self-taught skill in drawing
was another link between them; for Tom found, to his disgust, that his new
drawing-master gave him no dogs and donkeys to draw, but brooks and rustic
bridges and ruins, all with a general softness of black-lead surface, indicating
that nature, if anything, was rather satiny; and as Tom's feeling for the
picturesque in landscape was at present quite latent, it is not surprising that
Mr. Goodrich's productions seemed to him an uninteresting form of art. Mr.
Tulliver, having a vague intention that Tom should be put to some business
which included the drawing out of plans and maps, had complained to Mr. Riley,
when he saw him at Mudport, that Tom seemed to be learning nothing of that
sort; whereupon that obliging adviser had suggested that Tom should have
drawing-lessons. Mr. Tulliver must not mind paying extra for drawing; let Tom
be made a good draughtsman, and he would be able to turn his pencil to any
purpose. So it was ordered that Tom should have drawing-lessons; and whom should
Mr. Stelling have selected as a master if not Mr. Goodrich, who was considered
quite at the head of his profession within a circuit of twelve miles round
King's Lorton? By which means Tom learned to make an extremely fine point to
his pencil, and to represent landscape with a "broad generality,"
which, doubtless from a narrow tendency in his mind to details, he thought
extremely dull.
All this, you remember, happened in those
dark ages when there were no schools of design; before schoolmasters were
invariably men of scrupulous integrity, and before the clergy were all men of
enlarged minds and varied culture. In those less favored days, it is no fable
that there were other clergymen besides Mr. Stelling who had narrow intellects
and large wants, and whose income, by a logical confusion to which Fortune,
being a female as well as blindfold, is peculiarly liable, was proportioned not
to their wants but to their intellect, with which income has clearly no
inherent relation. The problem these gentlemen had to solve was to readjust the
proportion between their wants and their income; and since wants are not easily
starved to death, the simpler method appeared to be to raise their income.
There was but one way of doing this; any of those low callings in which men are
obliged to do good work at a low price were forbidden to clergymen; was it
their fault if their only resource was to turn out very poor work at a high
price? Besides, how should Mr. Stelling be expected to know that education was
a delicate and difficult business, any more than an animal endowed with a power
of boring a hole through a rock should be expected to have wide views of
excavation? Mr. Stelling's faculties had been early trained to boring in a
straight line, and he had no faculty to spare. But among Tom's contemporaries,
whose fathers cast their sons on clerical instruction to find them ignorant
after many days, there were many far less lucky than Tom Tulliver. Education
was almost entirely a matter of luck–usually of ill-luck–in those
distant days. The state of mind in which you take a billiard-cue or a dice-box
in your hand is one of sober certainty compared with that of old-fashioned
fathers, like Mr. Tulliver, when they selected a school or a tutor for their
sons. Excellent men, who had been forced all their lives to spell on an
impromptu-phonetic system, and having carried on a successful business in spite
of this disadvantage, had acquired money enough to give their sons a better
start in life than they had had themselves, must necessarily take their chance
as to the conscience and the competence of the schoolmaster whose circular fell
in their way, and appeared to promise so much more than they would ever have
thought of asking for, including the return of linen, fork, and spoon. It was
happy for them if some ambitious draper of their acquaintance had not brought
up his son to the Church, and if that young gentleman, at the age of
four-and-twenty, had not closed his college dissipations by an imprudent
marriage; otherwise, these innocent fathers, desirous of doing the best for
their offspring, could only escape the draper's son by happening to be on the
foundation of a grammar-school as yet unvisited by commissioners, where two or
three boys could have, all to themselves, the advantages of a large and lofty
building, together with a head-master, toothless, dim-eyed and deaf, whose
erudite indistinctness and inattention were engrossed by them at the rate of
three hundred pounds a-head,–a ripe scholar, doubtless, when first
appointed; but all ripeness beneath the sun has a further stage less esteemed
in the market.
Tom Tulliver, then, compared with many
other British youths of his time who have since had to scramble through life
with some fragments of more or less relevant knowledge, and a great deal of
strictly relevant ignorance, was not so very unlucky. Mr. Stelling was a
broad-chested, healthy man, with the bearing of a gentleman, a conviction that
a growing boy required a sufficiency of beef, and a certain hearty kindness in
him that made him like to see Tom looking well and enjoying his dinner; not a
man of refined conscience, or with any deep sense of the infinite issues
belonging to every-day duties, not quite competent to his high offices; but
incompetent gentlemen must live, and without private fortune it is difficult to
see how they could all live genteelly if they had nothing to do with education
or government. Besides, it was the fault of Tom's mental constitution that his
faculties could not be nourished on the sort of knowledge Mr. Stelling had to
communicate. A boy born with a deficient power of apprehending signs and
abstractions must suffer the penalty of his congenital deficiency, just as if
he had been born with one leg shorter than the other. A method of education
sanctioned by the long practice of our venerable ancestors was not to give way
before the exceptional dulness of a boy who was merely living at the time then
present. And Mr. Stelling was convinced that a boy so stupid at signs and
abstractions must be stupid at everything else, even if that reverend gentleman
could have taught him everything else. It was the practice of our venerable
ancestors to apply that ingenious instrument the thumb-screw, and to tighten
and tighten it in order to elicit non-existent facts; they had a fixed opinion
to begin with, that the facts were existent, and what had they to do but to
tighten the thumb-screw? In like manner, Mr. Stelling had a fixed opinion that
all boys with any capacity could learn what it was the only regular thing to
teach; if they were slow, the thumb-screw must be tightened,–the
exercises must be insisted on with increased severity, and a page of Virgil be
awarded as a penalty, to encourage and stimulate a too languid inclination to
Latin verse.
The thumb-screw was a little relaxed,
however, during this second half-year. Philip was so advanced in his studies,
and so apt, that Mr. Stelling could obtain credit by his facility, which
required little help, much more easily than by the troublesome process of
overcoming Tom's dulness. Gentlemen with broad chests and ambitious intentions
do sometimes disappoint their friends by failing to carry the world before
them. Perhaps it is that high achievements demand some other unusual
qualification besides an unusual desire for high prizes; perhaps it is that
these stalwart gentlemen are rather indolent, their divinæ particulum auræ being obstructed from soaring by a
too hearty appetite. Some reason or other there was why Mr. Stelling deferred
the execution of many spirited projects,–why he did not begin the editing
of his Greek play, or any other work of scholarship, in his leisure hours, but,
after turning the key of his private study with much resolution, sat down to
one of Theodore Hook's novels. Tom was gradually allowed to shuffle through his
lessons with less rigor, and having Philip to help him, he was able to make
some show of having applied his mind in a confused and blundering way, without
being cross-examined into a betrayal that his mind had been entirely neutral in
the matter. He thought school much more bearable under this modification of
circumstances; and he went on contentedly enough, picking up a promiscuous
education chiefly from things that were not intended as education at all. What
was understood to be his education was simply the practice of reading, writing,
and spelling, carried on by an elaborate appliance of unintelligible ideas, and
by much failure in the effort to learn by rote.
Nevertheless, there was a visible
improvement in Tom under this training; perhaps because he was not a boy in the
abstract, existing solely to illustrate the evils of a mistaken education, but
a boy made of flesh and blood, with dispositions not entirely at the mercy of
circumstances.
There was a great improvement in his
bearing, for example; and some credit on this score was due to Mr. Poulter, the
village schoolmaster, who, being an old Peninsular soldier, was employed to
drill Tom,–a source of high mutual pleasure. Mr. Poulter, who was
understood by the company at the Black Swan to have once struck terror into the
hearts of the French, was no longer personally formidable. He had rather a
shrunken appearance, and was tremulous in the mornings, not from age, but from
the extreme perversity of the King's Lorton boys, which nothing but gin could
enable him to sustain with any firmness. Still, he carried himself with martial
erectness, had his clothes scrupulously brushed, and his trousers tightly
strapped; and on the Wednesday and Saturday afternoons, when he came to Tom, he
was always inspired with gin and old memories, which gave him an exceptionally
spirited air, as of a superannuated charger who hears the drum. The
drilling-lessons were always protracted by episodes of warlike narrative, much
more interesting to Tom than Philip's stories out of the Iliad; for there were
no cannon in the Iliad, and besides, Tom had felt some disgust on learning that
Hector and Achilles might possibly never have existed. But the Duke of
Wellington was really alive, and Bony had not been long dead; therefore Mr. Poulter's
reminiscences of the Peninsular War were removed from all suspicion of being
mythical. Mr. Poulter, it appeared, had been a conspicuous figure at Talavera,
and had contributed not a little to the peculiar terror with which his regiment
of infantry was regarded by the enemy. On afternoons when his memory was more
stimulated than usual, he remembered that the Duke of Wellington had (in strict
privacy, lest jealousies should be awakened) expressed his esteem for that fine
fellow Poulter. The very surgeon who attended him in the hospital after he had
received his gunshot-wound had been profoundly impressed with the superiority
of Mr. Poulter's flesh,–no other flesh would have healed in anything like
the same time. On less personal matters connected with the important warfare in
which he had been engaged, Mr. Poulter was more reticent, only taking care not
to give the weight of his authority to any loose notions concerning military
history. Any one who pretended to a knowledge of what occurred at the siege of
Badajos was especially an object of silent pity to Mr. Poulter; he wished that
prating person had been run down, and had the breath trampled out of him at the
first go-off, as he himself had,–he might talk about the siege of Badajos
then! Tom did not escape irritating his drilling-master occasionally, by his
curiosity concerning other military matters than Mr. Poulter's personal
experience.
"And General Wolfe, Mr.
Poulter,–wasn't he a wonderful fighter?" said Tom, who held the
notion that all the martial heroes commemorated on the public-house signs were
engaged in the war with Bony.
"Not at all!" said Mr. Poulter,
contemptuously. "Nothing o' the sort! Heads up!" he added, in a tone
of stern command, which delighted Tom, and made him feel as if he were a
regiment in his own person.
"No, no!" Mr. Poulter would
continue, on coming to a pause in his discipline; "they'd better not talk
to me about General Wolfe. He did nothing but die of his wound; that's a poor
haction, I consider. Any other man 'ud have died o' the wounds I've had. One of
my sword-cuts 'ud ha' killed a fellow like General Wolfe."
"Mr. Poulter," Tom would say, at
any allusion to the sword, "I wish you'd bring your sword and do the
sword-exercise!"
For a long while Mr. Poulter only shook
his head in a significant manner at this request, and smiled patronizingly, as
Jupiter may have done when Semele urged her too ambitious request. But one
afternoon, when a sudden shower of heavy rain had detained Mr. Poulter twenty
minutes longer than usual at the Black Swan, the sword was brought,–just
for Tom to look at.
"And this is the real sword you
fought with in all the battles, Mr. Poulter?" said Tom, handling the hilt.
"Has it ever cut a Frenchman's head off?"
"Head off? Ah! and would, if he'd had
three heads."
"But you had a gun and bayonet
besides?" said Tom. "I
should like the gun and bayonet best, because you could shoot 'em first and
spear 'em after. Bang! Ps-s-s-s!" Tom gave the requisite pantomime to
indicate the double enjoyment of pulling the trigger and thrusting the spear.
"Ah, but the sword's the thing when
you come to close fighting," said Mr. Poulter, involuntarily falling in
with Tom's enthusiasm, and drawing the sword so suddenly that Tom leaped back
with much agility.
"Oh, but, Mr. Poulter, if you're
going to do the exercise," said Tom, a little conscious that he had not
stood his ground as became an Englishman, "let me go and call Philip.
He'll like to see you, you know."
"What! the humpbacked lad?" said
Mr. Poulter, contemptuously; "what's the use of his looking on?"
"Oh, but he knows a great deal about
fighting," said Tom, "and how they used to fight with bows and
arrows, and battle-axes."
"Let him come, then. I'll show him
something different from his bows and arrows," said Mr. Poulter, coughing
and drawing himself up, while he gave a little preliminary play to his wrist.
Tom ran in to Philip, who was enjoying his
afternoon's holiday at the piano, in the drawing-room, picking out tunes for
himself and singing them. He was supremely happy, perched like an amorphous
bundle on the high stool, with his head thrown back, his eyes fixed on the
opposite cornice, and his lips wide open, sending forth, with all his might,
impromptu syllables to a tune of Arne's which had hit his fancy.
"Come, Philip," said Tom,
bursting in; "don't stay roaring 'la la' there; come and see old Poulter
do his sword-exercise in the carriage-house!"
The jar of this interruption, the discord
of Tom's tones coming across the notes to which Philip was vibrating in soul
and body, would have been enough to unhinge his temper, even if there had been
no question of Poulter the drilling-master; and Tom, in the hurry of seizing
something to say to prevent Mr. Poulter from thinking he was afraid of the
sword when he sprang away from it, had alighted on this proposition to fetch
Philip, though he knew well enough that Philip hated to hear him mention his
drilling-lessons. Tom would never have done so inconsiderate a thing except
under the severe stress of his personal pride.
Philip shuddered visibly as he paused from
his music. Then turning red, he said, with violent passion,–
"Get away, you lumbering idiot! Don't
come bellowing at me; you're not fit to speak to anything but a
cart-horse!"
It was not the first time Philip had been
made angry by him, but Tom had never before been assailed with verbal missiles
that he understood so well.
"I'm fit to speak to something better
than you, you poor-spirited imp!" said Tom, lighting up immediately at
Philip's fire. "You know I won't hit you, because you're no better than a
girl. But I'm an honest man's son, and your
father's a rogue; everybody says so!"
Tom flung out of the room, and slammed the
door after him, made strangely heedless by his anger; for to slam doors within
the hearing of Mrs. Stelling, who was probably not far off, was an offence only
to be wiped out by twenty lines of Virgil. In fact, that lady did presently
descend from her room, in double wonder at the noise and the subsequent
cessation of Philip's music. She found him sitting in a heap on the hassock,
and crying bitterly.
"What's the matter, Wakem? what was
that noise about? Who slammed the door?"
Philip looked up, and hastily dried his
eyes. "It was Tulliver who came in–to ask me to go out with
him."
"And what are you in trouble
about?" said Mrs. Stelling.
Philip was not her favorite of the two
pupils; he was less obliging than Tom, who was made useful in many ways. Still,
his father paid more than Mr. Tulliver did, and she meant him to feel that she
behaved exceedingly well to him. Philip, however, met her advances toward a
good understanding very much as a caressed mollusk meets an invitation to show
himself out of his shell. Mrs. Stelling was not a loving, tender-hearted woman;
she was a woman whose skirt sat well, who adjusted her waist and patted her
curls with a preoccupied air when she inquired after your welfare. These
things, doubtless, represent a great social power, but it is not the power of
love; and no other power could win Philip from his personal reserve.
He said, in answer to her question,
"My toothache came on, and made me hysterical again."
This had been the fact once, and Philip
was glad of the recollection; it was like an inspiration to enable him to
excuse his crying. He had to accept eau-de-Cologne and to refuse creosote in
consequence; but that was easy.
Meanwhile Tom, who had for the first time
sent a poisoned arrow into Philip's heart, had returned to the carriage-house,
where he found Mr. Poulter, with a fixed and earnest eye, wasting the
perfections of his sword-exercise on probably observant but inappreciative rats.
But Mr. Poulter was a host in himself; that is to say, he admired himself more
than a whole army of spectators could have admired him. He took no notice of
Tom's return, being too entirely absorbed in the cut and thrust,–the
solemn one, two, three, four; and Tom, not without a slight feeling of alarm at
Mr. Poulter's fixed eye and hungry-looking sword, which seemed impatient for
something else to cut besides the air, admired the performance from as great a
distance as possible. It was not until Mr. Poulter paused and wiped the
perspiration from his forehead, that Tom felt the full charm of the
sword-exercise, and wished it to be repeated.
"Mr. Poulter," said Tom, when
the sword was being finally sheathed, "I wish you'd lend me your sword a
little while to keep."
"No no, young gentleman," said
Mr. Poulter, shaking his head decidedly; "you might do yourself some
mischief with it."
"No, I'm sure I wouldn't; I'm sure
I'd take care and not hurt myself. I shouldn't take it out of the sheath much,
but I could ground arms with it, and all that."
"No, no, it won't do, I tell you; it
won't do," said Mr. Poulter, preparing to depart. "What 'ud Mr.
Stelling say to me?"
"Oh, I say, do, Mr. Poulter! I'd give
you my five-shilling piece if you'd let me keep the sword a week. Look
here!" said Tom, reaching out the attractively large round of silver. The
young dog calculated the effect as well as if he had been a philosopher.
"Well," said Mr. Poulter, with
still deeper gravity, "you must keep it out of sight, you know."
"Oh yes, I'll keep it under the
bed," said Tom, eagerly, "or else at the bottom of my large
box."
"And let me see, now, whether you can
draw it out of the sheath without hurting yourself." That process having
been gone through more than once, Mr. Poulter felt that he had acted with
scrupulous conscientiousness, and said, "Well, now, Master Tulliver, if I
take the crown-piece, it is to make sure as you'll do no mischief with the
sword."
"Oh no, indeed, Mr. Poulter,"
said Tom, delightedly handing him the crown-piece, and grasping the sword,
which, he thought, might have been lighter with advantage.
"But if Mr. Stelling catches you
carrying it in?" said Mr. Poulter, pocketing the crown-piece provisionally
while he raised this new doubt.
"Oh, he always keeps in his upstairs
study on Saturday afternoon," said Tom, who disliked anything sneaking,
but was not disinclined to a little stratagem in a worthy cause. So he carried
off the sword in triumph mixed with dread–dread that he might encounter
Mr. or Mrs. Stelling–to his bedroom, where, after some consideration, he
hid it in the closet behind some hanging clothes. That night he fell asleep in
the thought that he would astonish Maggie with it when she came,–tie it
round his waist with his red comforter, and make her believe that the sword was
his own, and that he was going to be a soldier. There was nobody but Maggie who
would be silly enough to believe him, or whom he dared allow to know he had a
sword; and Maggie was really coming next week to see Tom, before she went to a
boarding-school with Lucy.
If you think a lad of thirteen would have
been so childish, you must be an exceptionally wise man, who, although you are
devoted to a civil calling, requiring you to look bland rather than formidable,
yet never, since you had a beard, threw yourself into a martial attitude, and
frowned before the looking-glass. It is doubtful whether our soldiers would be
maintained if there were not pacific people at home who like to fancy
themselves soldiers. War, like other dramatic spectacles, might possibly cease
for want of a "public."
Chapter V
Maggie's Second Visit
This last breach between the two lads was
not readily mended, and for some time they spoke to each other no more than was
necessary. Their natural antipathy of temperament made resentment an easy
passage to hatred, and in Philip the transition seemed to have begun; there was
no malignity in his disposition, but there was a susceptibility that made him
peculiarly liable to a strong sense of repulsion. The ox–we may venture
to assert it on the authority of a great classic–is not given to use his
teeth as an instrument of attack, and Tom was an excellent bovine lad, who ran
at questionable objects in a truly ingenious bovine manner; but he had
blundered on Philip's tenderest point, and had caused him as much acute pain as
if he had studied the means with the nicest precision and the most envenomed
spite. Tom saw no reason why they should not make up this quarrel as they had
done many others, by behaving as if nothing had happened; for though he had
never before said to Philip that his father was a rogue, this idea had so
habitually made part of his feeling as to the relation between himself and his
dubious schoolfellow, who he could neither like nor dislike, that the mere
utterance did not make such an epoch to him as it did to Philip. And he had a
right to say so when Philip hectored over him,
and called him names. But perceiving that his first advances toward amity were
not met, he relapsed into his least favorable disposition toward Philip, and
resolved never to appeal to him either about drawing or exercise again. They
were only so far civil to each other as was necessary to prevent their state of
feud from being observed by Mr. Stelling, who would have "put down"
such nonsense with great vigor.
When Maggie came, however, she could not
help looking with growing interest at the new schoolfellow, although he was the
son of that wicked Lawyer Wakem, who made her father so angry. She had arrived
in the middle of school-hours, and had sat by while Philip went through his
lessons with Mr. Stelling. Tom, some weeks ago, had sent her word that Philip
knew no end of stories,–not stupid stories like hers; and she was
convinced now from her own observation that he must be very clever; she hoped
he would think her rather
clever too, when she came to talk to him. Maggie, moreover, had rather a
tenderness for deformed things; she preferred the wry-necked lambs, because it
seemed to her that the lambs which were quite strong and well made wouldn't
mind so much about being petted; and she was especially fond of petting objects
that would think it very delightful to be petted by her. She loved Tom very
dearly, but she often wished that he cared
more about her loving him.
"I think Philip Wakem seems a nice
boy, Tom," she said, when they went out of the study together into the
garden, to pass the interval before dinner. "He couldn't choose his
father, you know; and I've read of very bad men who had good sons, as well as
good parents who had bad children. And if Philip is good, I think we ought to
be the more sorry for him because his father is not a good man. You like him, don't you?"
"Oh, he's a queer fellow," said
Tom, curtly, "and he's as sulky as can be with me, because I told him his
father was a rogue. And I'd a right to tell him so, for it was true; and he began it, with calling me names. But
you stop here by yourself a bit, Maggie, will you? I've got something I want to
do upstairs."
"Can't I go too?" said Maggie,
who in this first day of meeting again loved Tom's shadow.
"No, it's something I'll tell you
about by-and-by, not yet," said Tom, skipping away.
In the afternoon the boys were at their
books in the study, preparing the morrow's lesson's that they might have a
holiday in the evening in honor of Maggie's arrival. Tom was hanging over his
Latin grammar, moving his lips inaudibly like a strict but impatient Catholic
repeating his tale of paternosters; and Philip, at the other end of the room,
was busy with two volumes, with a look of contented diligence that excited
Maggie's curiosity; he did not look at all as if he were learning a lesson. She
sat on a low stool at nearly a right angle with the two boys, watching first
one and then the other; and Philip, looking off his book once toward the
fire-place, caught the pair of questioning dark eyes fixed upon him. He thought
this sister of Tulliver's seemed a nice little thing, quite unlike her brother;
he wished he had a little
sister. What was it, he wondered, that made Maggie's dark eyes remind him of
the stories about princesses being turned into animals? I think it was that her
eyes were full of unsatisfied intelligence, and unsatisfied beseeching
affection.
"I say, Magsie," said Tom at
last, shutting his books and putting them away with the energy and decision of
a perfect master in the art of leaving off, "I've done my lessons now.
Come upstairs with me."
"What is it?" said Maggie, when
they were outside the door, a slight suspicion crossing her mind as she
remembered Tom's preliminary visit upstairs. "It isn't a trick you're
going to play me, now?"
"No, no, Maggie," said Tom, in
his most coaxing tone; "It's something you'll like ever so."
He put his arm round her neck, and she put
hers round his waist, and twined together in this way, they went upstairs.
"I say, Magsie, you must not tell
anybody, you know," said Tom, "else I shall get fifty lines."
"Is it alive?" said Maggie,
whose imagination had settled for the moment on the idea that Tom kept a ferret
clandestinely.
"Oh, I sha'n't tell you," said
he. "Now you go into that corner and hide your face, while I reach it
out," he added, as he locked the bedroom door behind them. I'll tell you
when to turn round. You mustn't squeal out, you know."
"Oh, but if you frighten me, I
shall," said Maggie, beginning to look rather serious.
"You won't be frightened, you silly
thing," said Tom. "Go and hide your face, and mind you don't
peep."
"Of course I sha'n't peep," said
Maggie, disdainfully; and she buried her face in the pillow like a person of
strict honor.
But Tom looked round warily as he walked
to the closet; then he stepped into the narrow space, and almost closed the
door. Maggie kept her face buried without the aid of principle, for in that
dream-suggestive attitude she had soon forgotten where she was, and her
thoughts were busy with the poor deformed boy, who was so clever, when Tom
called out, "Now then, Magsie!"
Nothing but long meditation and
preconcerted arrangement of effects could have enabled Tom to present so
striking a figure as he did to Maggie when she looked up. Dissatisfied with the
pacific aspect of a face which had no more than the faintest hint of flaxen
eyebrow, together with a pair of amiable blue-gray eyes and round pink cheeks
that refused to look formidable, let him frown as he would before the
looking-glass (Philip had once told him of a man who had a horseshoe frown, and
Tom had tried with all his frowning might to make a horseshoe on his forehead),
he had had recourse to that unfailing source of the terrible, burnt cork, and
had made himself a pair of black eyebrows that met in a satisfactory manner
over his nose, and were matched by a less carefully adjusted blackness about
the chin. He had wound a red handkerchief round his cloth cap to give it the
air of a turban, and his red comforter across his breast as a scarf,–an
amount of red which, with the tremendous frown on his brow, and the decision
with which he grasped the sword, as he held it with its point resting on the
ground, would suffice to convey an approximate idea of his fierce and
bloodthirsty disposition.
Maggie looked bewildered for a moment, and
Tom enjoyed that moment keenly; but in the next she laughed, clapped her hands
together, and said, "Oh, Tom, you've made yourself like Bluebeard at the
show."
It was clear she had not been struck with
the presence of the sword,–it was not unsheathed. Her frivolous mind
required a more direct appeal to its sense of the terrible, and Tom prepared
for his master-stroke. Frowning with a double amount of intention, if not of
corrugation, he (carefully) drew the sword from its sheath, and pointed it at
Maggie.
"Oh, Tom, please don't!"
exclaimed Maggie, in a tone of suppressed dread, shrinking away from him into
the opposite corner. "I shall
scream–I'm sure I shall! Oh, don't I wish I'd never come upstairs!"
The corners of Tom's mouth showed an
inclination to a smile of complacency that was immediately checked as
inconsistent with the severity of a great warrior. Slowly he let down the
scabbard on the floor, lest it should make too much noise, and then said
sternly,–
"I'm the Duke of Wellington!
March!" stamping forward with the right leg a little bent, and the sword
still pointing toward Maggie, who, trembling, and with tear-filled eyes, got
upon the bed, as the only means of widening the space between them.
Tom, happy in this spectator of his
military performances, even though the spectator was only Maggie, proceeded,
with the utmost exertion of his force, to such an exhibition of the cut and
thrust as would necessarily be expected of the Duke of Wellington.
"Tom, I will not bear it, I will
scream," said Maggie, at the first movement of the sword. "You'll
hurt yourself; you'll cut your head off!"
"One–two," said Tom,
resolutely, though at "two" his wrist trembled a little.
"Three" came more slowly, and with it the sword swung downward, and
Maggie gave a loud shriek. The sword had fallen, with its edge on Tom's foot,
and in a moment after he had fallen too. Maggie leaped from the bed, still
shrieking, and immediately there was a rush of footsteps toward the room. Mr.
Stelling, from his upstairs study, was the first to enter. He found both the
children on the floor. Tom had fainted, and Maggie was shaking him by the
collar of his jacket, screaming, with wild eyes. She thought he was dead, poor
child! and yet she shook him, as if that would bring him back to life. In
another minute she was sobbing with joy because Tom opened his eyes. She
couldn't sorrow yet that he had hurt his foot; it seemed as if all happiness
lay in his being alive.
Poor Tom bore his severe pain heroically,
and was resolute in not "telling" of Mr. Poulter more than was
unavoidable; the five-shilling piece remained a secret even to Maggie. But
there was a terrible dread weighing on his mind, so terrible that he dared not
even ask the question which might bring the fatal "yes"; he dared not
ask the surgeon or Mr. Stelling, "Shall I be lame, Sir?" He mastered
himself so as not to cry out at the pain; but when his foot had been dressed,
and he was left alone with Maggie seated by his bedside, the children sobbed
together, with their heads laid on the same pillow. Tom was thinking of himself
walking about on crutches, like the wheelwright's son; and Maggie, who did not
guess what was in his mind, sobbed for company. It had not occurred to the
surgeon or to Mr. Stelling to anticipate this dread in Tom's mind, and to
reassure him by hopeful words. But Philip watched the surgeon out of the house,
and waylaid Mr. Stelling to ask the very question that Tom had not dared to ask
for himself.
"I beg your pardon, sir,–but
does Mr. Askern say Tulliver will be lame?"
"Oh, no; oh, no," said Mr.
Stelling, "not permanently; only for a little while."
"Did he tell Tulliver so, sir, do you
think?"
"No; nothing was said to him on the
subject."
"Then may I go and tell him,
sir?"
"Yes, to be sure; now you mention it,
I dare say he may be troubling about that. Go to his bedroom, but be very quiet
at present."
It had been Philip's first thought when he
heard of the accident,–"Will Tulliver be lame? It will be very hard
for him if he is"; and Tom's hitherto unforgiven offences were washed out
by that pity. Philip felt that they were no longer in a state of repulsion, but
were being drawn into a common current of suffering and sad privation. His imagination
did not dwell on the outward calamity and its future effect on Tom's life, but
it made vividly present to him the probable state of Tom's feeling. Philip had
only lived fourteen years, but those years had, most of them, been steeped in
the sense of a lot irremediably hard.
"Mr. Askern says you'll soon be all
right again, Tulliver, did you know?" he said rather timidly, as he
stepped gently up to Tom's bed. "I've just been to ask Mr. Stelling, and
he says you'll walk as well as ever again by-and-day."
Tom looked up with that momentary stopping
of the breath which comes with a sudden joy; then he gave a long sigh, and
turned his blue-gray eyes straight on Philip's face, as he had not done for a
fortnight or more. As for Maggie, this intimation of a possibility she had not
thought of before affected her as a new trouble; the bare idea of Tom's being
always lame overpowered the assurance that such a misfortune was not likely to
befall him, and she clung to him and cried afresh.
"Don't be a little silly, Magsie,"
said Tom, tenderly, feeling very brave now. "I shall soon get well."
"Good-by, Tulliver," said
Philip, putting out his small, delicate hand, which Tom clasped immediately
with his more substantial fingers.
"I say," said Tom, "ask Mr.
Stelling to let you come and sit with me sometimes, till I get up again, Wakem;
and tell me about Robert Bruce, you know."
After that, Philip spent all his time out
of school-hours with Tom and Maggie. Tom liked to hear fighting stories as much
as ever, but he insisted strongly on the fact that those great fighters who did
so many wonderful things and came off unhurt, wore excellent armor from head to
foot, which made fighting easy work, he considered. He should not have hurt his
foot if he had had an iron shoe on. He listened with great interest to a new
story of Philip's about a man who had a very bad wound in his foot, and cried
out so dreadfully with the pain that his friends could bear with him no longer,
but put him ashore on a desert island, with nothing but some wonderful poisoned
arrows to kill animals with for food.
"I didn't roar out a bit, you
know," Tom said, "and I dare say my foot was as bad as his. It's
cowardly to roar."
But Maggie would have it that when
anything hurt you very much, it was quite permissible to cry out, and it was
cruel of people not to bear it. She wanted to know if Philoctetes had a sister,
and why she didn't go with
him on the desert island and take care of him.
One day, soon after Philip had told this
story, he and Maggie were in the study alone together while Tom's foot was
being dressed. Philip was at his books, and Maggie, after sauntering idly round
the room, not caring to do anything in particular, because she would soon go to
Tom again, went and leaned on the table near Philip to see what he was doing,
for they were quite old friends now, and perfectly at home with each other.
"What are you reading about in
Greek?" she said. "It's poetry, I can see that, because the lines are
so short."
"It's about Philoctetes, the lame man
I was telling you of yesterday," he answered, resting his head on his
hand, and looking at her as if he were not at all sorry to be interrupted.
Maggie, in her absent way, continued to lean forward, resting on her arms and
moving her feet about, while her dark eyes got more and more fixed and vacant,
as if she had quite forgotten Philip and his book.
"Maggie," said Philip, after a
minute or two, still leaning on his elbow and looking at her, "if you had
had a brother like me, do you think you should have loved him as well as
Tom?"
Maggie started a little on being roused
from her reverie, and said, "What?" Philip repeated his question.
"Oh, yes, better," she answered
immediately. "No, not better; because I don't think I could love you better than Tom. But I
should be so sorry,–so sorry
for you."
Philip colored; he had meant to imply,
would she love him as well in spite of his deformity, and yet when she alluded
to it so plainly, he winced under her pity. Maggie, young as she was, felt her
mistake. Hitherto she had instinctively behaved as if she were quite
unconscious of Philip's deformity; her own keen sensitiveness and experience
under family criticism sufficed to teach her this as well as if she had been
directed by the most finished breeding.
"But you are so very clever, Philip,
and you can play and sing," she added quickly. "I wish you were my brother. I'm very fond of you.
And you would stay at home with me when Tom went out, and you would teach me
everything; wouldn't you,–Greek and everything?"
"But you'll go away soon, and go to
school, Maggie," said Philip, "and then you'll forget all about me,
and not care for me any more. And then I shall see you when you're grown up,
and you'll hardly take any notice of me."
"Oh, no, I sha'n't forget you, I'm
sure," said Maggie, shaking her head very seriously. "I never forget
anything, and I think about everybody when I'm away from them. I think about
poor Yap; he's got a lump in his throat, and Luke says he'll die. Only don't
you tell Tom. because it will vex him so. You never saw Yap; he's a queer
little dog,–nobody cares about him but Tom and me."
"Do you care as much about me as you
do about Yap, Maggie?" said Philip, smiling rather sadly.
"Oh, yes, I should think so,"
said Maggie, laughing.
"I'm very fond of you, Maggie; I shall never forget you," said Philip, "and when
I'm very unhappy, I shall always think of you, and wish I had a sister with
dark eyes, just like yours."
"Why do you like my eyes?" said
Maggie, well pleased. She had never heard any one but her father speak of her
eyes as if they had merit.
"I don't know," said Philip.
"They're not like any other eyes. They seem trying to speak,–trying
to speak kindly. I don't like other people to look at me much, but I like you
to look at me, Maggie."
"Why, I think you're fonder of me
than Tom is," said Maggie, rather sorrowfully. Then, wondering how she
could convince Philip that she could like him just as well, although he was
crooked, she said:
"Should you like me to kiss you, as I
do Tom? I will, if you like."
"Yes, very much; nobody kisses
me."
Maggie put her arm round his neck and
kissed him quite earnestly.
"There now," she said, "I
shall always remember you, and kiss you when I see you again, if it's ever so
long. But I'll go now, because I think Mr. Askern's done with Tom's foot."
When their father came the second time,
Maggie said to him, "Oh, father, Philip Wakem is so very good to Tom; he
is such a clever boy, and I do
love him. And you love him too, Tom, don't you? Say you love him," she added entreatingly.
Tom colored a little as he looked at his
father, and said: "I sha'n't be friends with him when I leave school,
father; but we've made it up now, since my foot has been bad, and he's taught
me to play at draughts, and I can beat him."
"Well, well," said Mr. Tulliver,
"if he's good to you, try and make him amends, and be good to him. He's a poor crooked creature, and
takes after his dead mother. But don't you be getting too thick with him; he's
got his father's blood in him too. Ay, ay, the gray colt may chance to kick
like his black sire."
The jarring natures of the two boys
effected what Mr. Tulliver's admonition alone might have failed to effect; in
spite of Philip's new kindness, and Tom's answering regard in this time of his
trouble, they never became close friends. When Maggie was gone, and when Tom
by-and-by began to walk about as usual, the friendly warmth that had been
kindled by pity and gratitude died out by degrees, and left them in their old
relation to each other. Philip was often peevish and contemptuous; and Tom's
more specific and kindly impressions gradually melted into the old background
of suspicion and dislike toward him as a queer fellow, a humpback, and the son
of a rogue. If boys and men are to be welded together in the glow of transient
feeling, they must be made of metal that will mix, else they inevitably fall
asunder when the heat dies out.
Chapter VII
The Golden Gates Are Passed
So Tom went on even to the fifth
half-year–till he was turned sixteen–at King's Lorton, while Maggie
was growing with a rapidity which her aunts considered highly reprehensible, at
Miss Firniss's boarding-school in the ancient town of Laceham on the Floss,
with cousin Lucy for her companion. In her early letters to Tom she had always
sent her love to Philip, and asked many questions about him, which were
answered by brief sentences about Tom's toothache, and a turf-house which he
was helping to build in the garden, with other items of that kind. She was
pained to hear Tom say in the holidays that Philip was as queer as ever again,
and often cross. They were no longer very good friends, she perceived; and when
she reminded Tom that he ought always to love Philip for being so good to him
when his foot was bad, he answered: "Well, it isn't my fault; I don't do anything to him." She
hardly ever saw Philip during the remainder of their school-life; in the
Midsummer holidays he was always away at the seaside, and at Christmas she
could only meet him at long intervals in the street of St. Ogg's. When they did
meet, she remembered her promise to kiss him, but, as a young lady who had been
at a boarding-school, she knew now that such a greeting was out of the
question, and Philip would not expect it. The promise was void, like so many
other sweet, illusory promises of our childhood; void as promises made in Eden
before the seasons were divided, and when the starry blossoms grew side by side
with the ripening peach,–impossible to be fulfilled when the golden gates
had been passed.
But when their father was actually engaged
in the long-threatened lawsuit, and Wakem, as the agent at once of Pivart and
Old Harry, was acting against him, even Maggie felt, with some sadness, that
they were not likely ever to have any intimacy with Philip again; the very name
of Wakem made her father angry, and she had once heard him say that if that
crook-backed son lived to inherit his father's ill-gotten gains, there would be
a curse upon him. "Have as little to do with him at school as you can, my
lad," he said to Tom; and the command was obeyed the more easily because
Mr. Sterling by this time had two additional pupils; for though this
gentleman's rise in the world was not of that meteor-like rapidity which the
admirers of his extemporaneous eloquence had expected for a preacher whose
voice demanded so wide a sphere, he had yet enough of growing prosperity to
enable him to increase his expenditure in continued disproportion to his
income.
As for Tom's school course, it went on
with mill-like monotony, his mind continuing to move with a slow, half-stifled
pulse in a medium uninteresting or unintelligible ideas. But each vacation he
brought home larger and larger drawings with the satiny rendering of landscape,
and water-colors in vivid greens, together with manuscript books full of
exercises and problems, in which the handwriting was all the finer because he
gave his whole mind to it. Each vacation he brought home a new book or two,
indicating his progress through different stages of history, Christian doctrine,
and Latin literature; and that passage was not entirely without results,
besides the possession of the books. Tom's ear and tongue had become accustomed
to a great many words and phrases which are understood to be signs of an
educated condition; and though he had never really applied his mind to any one
of his lessons, the lessons had left a deposit of vague, fragmentary,
ineffectual notions. Mr. Tulliver, seeing signs of acquirement beyond the reach
of his own criticism, thought it was probably all right with Tom's education;
he observed, indeed, that there were no maps, and not enough
"summing"; but he made no formal complaint to Mr. Stelling. It was a
puzzling business, this schooling; and if he took Tom away, where could he send
him with better effect?
By the time Tom had reached his last
quarter at King's Lorton, the years had made striking changes in him since the
day we saw him returning from Mr. Jacobs's academy. He was a tall youth now,
carrying himself without the least awkwardness, and speaking without more
shyness than was a becoming symptom of blended diffidence and pride; he wore
his tail-coat and his stand-up collars, and watched the down on his lip with
eager impatience, looking every day at his virgin razor, with which he had
provided himself in the last holidays. Philip had already left,–at the
autumn quarter,–that he might go to the south for the winter, for the
sake of his health; and this change helped to give Tom the unsettled, exultant
feeling that usually belongs to the last months before leaving school. This
quarter, too, there was some hope of his father's lawsuit being decided; that made the prospect of home more
entirely pleasurable. For Tom, who had gathered his view of the case from his
father's conversation, had no doubt that Pivart would be beaten.
Tom had not heard anything from home for
some weeks,–a fact which did not surprise him, for his father and mother
were not apt to manifest their affection in unnecessary letters,–when, to
his great surprise, on the morning of a dark, cold day near the end of
November, he was told, soon after entering the study at nine o'clock, that his
sister was in the drawing-room. It was Mrs. Stelling who had come into the
study to tell him, and she left him to enter the drawing-room alone.
Maggie, too, was tall now, with braided
and coiled hair; she was almost as tall as Tom, though she was only thirteen;
and she really looked older than he did at that moment. She had thrown off her
bonnet, her heavy braids were pushed back from her forehead, as if it would not
bear that extra load, and her young face had a strangely worn look, as her eyes
turned anxiously toward the door. When Tom entered she did not speak, but only
went up to him, put her arms round his neck, and kissed him earnestly. He was used
to various moods of hers, and felt no alarm at the unusual seriousness of her
greeting.
"Why, how is it you're come so early
this cold morning, Maggie? Did you come in the gig?" said Tom, as she
backed toward the sofa, and drew him to her side.
"No, I came by the coach. I've walked
from the turnpike."
"But how is it you're not at school?
The holidays have not begun yet?"
"Father wanted me at home," said
Maggie, with a slight trembling of the lip. "I came home three or four
days ago."
"Isn't my father well?" said
Tom, rather anxiously.
"Not quite," said Maggie.
"He's very unhappy, Tom. The lawsuit is ended, and I came to tell you
because I thought it would be better for you to know it before you came home,
and I didn't like only to send you a letter."
"My father hasn't lost?" said
Tom, hastily, springing from the sofa, and standing before Maggie with his
hands suddenly thrust into his pockets.
"Yes, dear Tom," said Maggie,
looking up at him with trembling.
Tom was silent a minute or two, with his
eyes fixed on the floor. Then he said:
"My father will have to pay a good
deal of money, then?"
"Yes," said Maggie, rather
faintly.
"Well, it can't be helped," said
Tom, bravely, not translating the loss of a large sum of money into any
tangible results. "But my father's very much vexed, I dare say?" he
added, looking at Maggie, and thinking that her agitated face was only part of
her girlish way of taking things.
"Yes," said Maggie, again
faintly. Then, urged to fuller speech by Tom's freedom from apprehension, she
said loudly and rapidly, as if the words would
burst from her: "Oh, Tom, he will lose the mill and the land and
everything; he will have nothing left."
Tom's eyes flashed out one look of
surprise at her, before he turned pale, and trembled visibly. He said nothing,
but sat down on the sofa again, looking vaguely out of the opposite window.
Anxiety about the future had never entered
Tom's mind. His father had always ridden a good horse, kept a good house, and
had the cheerful, confident air of a man who has plenty of property to fall
back upon. Tom had never dreamed that his father would "fail"; that was a form of misfortune which he
had always heard spoken of as a deep disgrace, and disgrace was an idea that he
could not associate with any of his relations, least of all with his father. A
proud sense of family respectability was part of the very air Tom had been born
and brought up in. He knew there were people in St. Ogg's who made a show
without money to support it, and he had always heard such people spoken of by
his own friends with contempt and reprobation. He had a strong belief, which
was a lifelong habit, and required no definite evidence to rest on, that his
father could spend a great deal of money if he chose; and since his education
at Mr. Stelling's had given him a more expensive view of life, he had often
thought that when he got older he would make a figure in the world, with his
horse and dogs and saddle, and other accoutrements of a fine young man, and
show himself equal to any of his contemporaries at St. Ogg's, who might
consider themselves a grade above him in society because their fathers were
professional men, or had large oil-mills. As to the prognostics and headshaking
of his aunts and uncles, they had never produced the least effect on him,
except to make him think that aunts and uncles were disagreeable society; he
had heard them find fault in much the same way as long as he could remember.
His father knew better than they did.
The down had come on Tom's lip, yet his
thoughts and expectations had been hitherto only the reproduction, in changed
forms, of the boyish dreams in which he had lived three years ago. He was
awakened now with a violent shock.
Maggie was frightened at Tom's pale, trembling
silence. There was something else to tell him,–something worse. She threw
her arms round him at last, and said, with a half sob:
"Oh, Tom–dear, dear Tom, don't
fret too much; try and bear it well."
Tom turned his cheek passively to meet her
entreating kisses, and there gathered a moisture in his eyes, which he just
rubbed away with his hand. The action seemed to rouse him, for he shook himself
and said: "I shall go home, with you, Maggie. Didn't my father say I was
to go?"
"No, Tom, father didn't wish
it," said Maggie, her anxiety about his
feeling helping her to master her agitation. What would he do when she told him all? "But mother wants
you to come,–poor mother!–she cries so. Oh, Tom, it's very dreadful
at home."
Maggie's lips grew whiter, and she began
to tremble almost as Tom had done. The two poor things clung closer to each
other, both trembling,–the one at an unshapen fear, the other at the
image of a terrible certainty. When Maggie spoke, it was hardly above a
whisper.
"And–and–poor
father––"
Maggie could not utter it. But the
suspense was intolerable to Tom. A vague idea of going to prison, as a
consequence of debt, was the shape his fears had begun to take.
"Where's my father?" he said
impatiently. "Tell me,
Maggie."
"He's at home," said Maggie,
finding it easier to reply to that question. "But," she added, after
a pause, "not himself–he fell off his horse. He has known nobody but
me ever since–he seems to have lost his senses. O father,
father––"
With these last words, Maggie's sobs burst
forth with the more violence for the previous struggle against them. Tom felt
that pressure of the heart which forbids tears; he had no distinct vision of
their troubles as Maggie had, who had been at home; he only felt the crushing
weight of what seemed unmitigated misfortune. He tightened his arm almost
convulsively round Maggie as she sobbed, but his face looked rigid and
tearless, his eyes blank,–as if a black curtain of cloud had suddenly
fallen on his path.
But Maggie soon checked herself abruptly;
a single thought had acted on her like a startling sound.
"We must set out, Tom, we must not
stay. Father will miss me; we must be at the turnpike at ten to meet the
coach." She said this with hasty decision, rubbing her eyes, and rising to
seize her bonnet.
Tom at once felt the same impulse, and
rose too. "Wait a minute, Maggie," he said. "I must speak to Mr.
Stelling, and then we'll go."
He thought he must go to the study where
the pupils were; but on his way he met Mr. Stelling, who had heard from his
wife that Maggie appeared to be in trouble when she asked for her brother, and
now that he thought the brother and sister had been alone long enough, was
coming to inquire and offer his sympathy.
"Please, sir, I must go home,"
Tom said abruptly, as he met Mr. Stelling in the passage. "I must go back
with my sister directly. My father's lost his lawsuit–he's lost all his
property–and he's very ill."
Mr. Stelling felt like a kind-hearted man;
he foresaw a probable money loss for himself, but this had no appreciable share
in his feeling, while he looked with grave pity at the brother and sister for
whom youth and sorrow had begun together. When he knew how Maggie had come, and
how eager she was to get home again, he hurried their departure, only
whispering something to Mrs. Stelling, who had followed him, and who
immediately left the room.
Tom and Maggie were standing on the
door-step, ready to set out, when Mrs. Stelling came with a little basket,
which she hung on Maggie's arm, saying: "Do remember to eat something on
the way, dear." Maggie's heart went out toward this woman whom she had
never liked, and she kissed her silently. It was the first sign within the poor
child of that new sense which is the gift of sorrow,–that susceptibility
to the bare offices of humanity which raises them into a bond of loving
fellowship, as to haggard men among the ice-bergs the mere presence of an
ordinary comrade stirs the deep fountains of affection.
Mr. Stelling put his hand on Tom's
shoulder and said: "God bless you, my boy; let me know how you get
on." Then he pressed Maggie's hand; but there were no audible good-byes.
Tom had so often thought how joyful he should be the day he left school
"for good"! And now his school years seemed like a holiday that had
come to an end.
The two slight youthful figures soon grew
indistinct on the distant road,–were soon lost behind the projecting
hedgerow.
They had gone forth together into their
life of sorrow, and they would never more see the sunshine undimmed by
remembered cares. They had entered the thorny wilderness, and the golden gates
of their childhood had forever closed behind them.
Chapter I
What Had Happened at Home
When Mr. Tulliver first knew the fact that
the law-suit was decided against him, and that Pivart and Wakem were
triumphant, every one who happened to observe him at the time thought that, for
so confident and hot-tempered a man, he bore the blow remarkably well. He
thought so himself; he thought he was going to show that if Wakem or anybody
else considered him crushed, they would find themselves mistaken. He could not
refuse to see that the costs of this protracted suit would take more than he
possessed to pay them; but he appeared to himself to be full of expedients by
which he could ward off any results but such as were tolerable, and could avoid
the appearance of breaking down in the world. All the obstinacy and defiance of
his nature, driven out of their old channel, found a vent for themselves in the
immediate formation of plans by which he would meet his difficulties, and
remain Mr. Tulliver of Dorlcote Mill in spite of them. There was such a rush of
projects in his brain, that it was no wonder his face was flushed when he came
away from his talk with his attorney, Mr. Gore, and mounted his horse to ride
home from Lindum. There was Furley, who held the mortgage on the land,–a
reasonable fellow, who would see his own interest, Mr. Tulliver was convinced, and
who would be glad not only to purchase the whole estate, including the mill and
homestead, but would accept Mr. Tulliver as tenant, and be willing to advance
money to be repaid with high interest out of the profits of the business, which
would be made over to him, Mr. Tulliver only taking enough barely to maintain
himself and his family. Who would neglect such a profitable investment?
Certainly not Furley, for Mr. Tulliver had determined that Furley should meet
his plans with the utmost alacrity; and there are men whoses brains have not
yet been dangerously heated by the loss of a lawsuit, who are apt to see in
their own interest or desires a motive for other men's actions. There was no
doubt (in the miller's mind) that Furley would do just what was desirable; and
if he did–why, things would not be so very much worse. Mr. Tulliver and
his family must live more meagrely and humbly, but it would only be till the
profits of the business had paid off Furley's advances, and that might be while
Mr. Tulliver had still a good many years of life before him. It was clear that
the costs of the suit could be paid without his being obliged to turn out of
his old place, and look like a ruined man. It was certainly an awkward moment
in his affairs. There was that suretyship for poor Riley, who had died suddenly
last April, and left his friend saddled with a debt of two hundred and fifty
pounds,–a fact which had helped to make Mr. Tulliver's banking book less
pleasant reading than a man might desire toward Christmas. Well! he had never
been one of those poor-spirited sneaks who would refuse to give a helping hand
to a fellow-traveller in this puzzling world. The really vexatious business was
the fact that some months ago the creditor who had lent him the five hundred
pounds to repay Mrs. Glegg had become uneasy about his money (set on by Wakem,
of course), and Mr. Tulliver, still confident that he should gain his suit, and
finding it eminently inconvenient to raise the said sum until that desirable
issue had taken place, had rashly acceded to the demand that he should give a
bill of sale on his household furniture and some other effects, as security in
lieu of the bond. It was all one, he had said to himself; he should soon pay
off the money, and there was no harm in giving that security any more than
another. But now the consequences of this bill of sale occurred to him in a new
light, and he remembered that the time was close at hand when it would be
enforced unless the money were repaid. Two months ago he would have declared
stoutly that he would never be beholden to his wife's friends; but now he told
himself as stoutly that it was nothing but right and natural that Bessy should
go to the Pullets and explain the thing to them; they would hardly let Bessy's
furniture be sold, and it might be security to Pullet if he advanced the
money,–there would, after all, be no gift or favor in the matter. Mr.
Tulliver would never have asked for anything from so poor-spirited a fellow for
himself, but Bessy might do so if she liked.
It is precisely the proudest and most
obstinate men who are the most liable to shift their position and contradict
themselves in this sudden manner; everything is easier to them than to face the
simple fact that they have been thoroughly defeated, and must begin life anew.
And Mr. Tulliver, you perceive, though nothing more than a superior miller and
maltster, was as proud and obstinate as if he had been a very lofty personage,
in whom such dispositions might be a source of that conspicuous, far-echoing
tragedy, which sweeps the stage in regal robes, and makes the dullest
chronicler sublime. The pride and obstinacy of millers and other insignificant
people, whom you pass unnoticingly on the road every day, have their tragedy
too; but it is of that unwept, hidden sort that goes on from generation to
generation, and leaves no record,–such tragedy, perhaps, as lies in the
conflicts of young souls, hungry for joy, under a lot made suddenly hard to
them, under the dreariness of a home where the morning brings no promise with
it, and where the unexpectant discontent of worn and disappointed parents
weighs on the children like a damp, thick air, in which all the functions of
life are depressed; or such tragedy as lies in the slow or sudden death that
follows on a bruised passion, though it may be a death that finds only a parish
funeral. There are certain animals to which tenacity of position is a law of
life,–they can never flourish again, after a single wrench: and there are
certain human beings to whom predominance is a law of life,–they can only
sustain humiliation so long as they can refuse to believe in it, and, in their
own conception, predominate still.
Mr. Tulliver was still predominating, in
his own imagination, as he approached St. Ogg's, through which he had to pass
on his way homeward. But what was it that suggested to him, as he saw the
Laceham coach entering the town, to follow it to the coach-office, and get the
clerk there to write a letter, requiring Maggie to come home the very next day?
Mr. Tulliver's own hand shook too much under his excitement for him to write
himself, and he wanted the letter to be given to the coachman to deliver at
Miss Firniss's school in the morning. There was a craving which he would not
account for to himself, to have Maggie near him, without delay,–she must
come back by the coach to-morrow.
To Mrs. Tulliver, when he got home, he
would admit no difficulties, and scolded down her burst of grief on hearing
that the lawsuit was lost, by angry assertions that there was nothing to grieve
about. He said nothing to her that night about the bill of sale and the
application to Mrs. Pullet, for he had kept her in ignorance of the nature of
that transaction, and had explained the necessity for taking an inventory of
the goods as a matter connected with his will. The possession of a wife
conspicuously one's inferior in intellect is, like other high privileges,
attended with a few inconveniences, and, among the rest, with the occasional
necessity for using a little deception.
The next day Mr. Tulliver was again on
horseback in the afternoon, on his way to Mr. Gore's office at St. Ogg's. Gore
was to have seen Furley in the morning, and to have sounded him in relation to
Mr. Tulliver's affairs. But he had not gone half-way when he met a clerk from Mr.
Gore's office, who was bringing a letter to Mr. Tulliver. Mr. Gore had been
prevented by a sudden call of business from waiting at his office to see Mr.
Tulliver, according to appointment, but would be at his office at eleven
to-morrow morning, and meanwhile had sent some important information by letter.
"Oh!" said Mr. Tulliver, taking
the letter, but not opening it. "Then tell Gore I'll see him to-morrow at
eleven"; and he turned his horse.
The clerk, struck with Mr. Tulliver's
glistening, excited glance, looked after him for a few moments, and then rode
away. The reading of a letter was not the affair of an instant to Mr. Tulliver;
he took in the sense of a statement very slowly through the medium of written
or even printed characters; so he had put the letter in his pocket, thinking he
would open it in his armchair at home. But by-and-by it occurred to him that
there might be something in the letter Mrs. Tulliver must not know about, and
if so, it would be better to keep it out of her sight altogether. He stopped
his horse, took out the letter, and read it. It was only a short letter; the
substance was, that Mr. Gore had ascertained, on secret, but sure authority,
that Furley had been lately much straitened for money, and had parted with his
securities,–among the rest, the mortgage on Mr. Tulliver's property,
which he had transferred to––Wakem.
In half an hour after this Mr. Tulliver's
own wagoner found him lying by the roadside insensible, with an open letter
near him, and his gray horse snuffing uneasily about him.
When Maggie reached home that evening, in
obedience to her father's call, he was no longer insensible. About an hour
before he had become conscious, and after vague, vacant looks around him, had
muttered something about "a letter," which he presently repeated
impatiently. At the instance of Mr. Turnbull, the medical man, Gore's letter
was brought and laid on the bed, and the previous impatience seemed to be
allayed. The stricken man lay for some time with his eyes fixed on the letter,
as if he were trying to knit up his thoughts by its help. But presently a new
wave of memory seemed to have come and swept the other away; he turned his eyes
from the letter to the door, and after looking uneasily, as if striving to see
something his eyes were too dim for, he said, "The little wench."
He repeated the words impatiently from
time to time, appearing entirely unconscious of everything except this one
importunate want, and giving no sign of knowing his wife or any one else; and
poor Mrs. Tulliver, her feeble faculties almost paralyzed by this sudden
accumulation of troubles, went backward and forward to the gate to see if the
Laceham coach were coming, though it was not yet time.
But it came at last, and set down the poor
anxious girl, no longer the "little wench," except to her father's
fond memory.
"Oh, mother, what is the
matter?" Maggie said, with pale lips, as her mother came toward her
crying. She didn't think her father was ill, because the letter had come at his
dictation from the office at St. Ogg's.
But Mr. Turnbull came now to meet her; a
medical man is the good angel of the troubled house, and Maggie ran toward the
kind old friend, whom she remembered as long as she could remember anything,
with a trembling, questioning look.
"Don't alarm yourself too much, my
dear," he said, taking her hand. "Your father has had a sudden
attack, and has not quite recovered his memory. But he has been asking for you,
and it will do him good to see you. Keep as quiet as you can; take off your
things, and come upstairs with me."
Maggie obeyed, with that terrible beating
of the heart which makes existence seem simply a painful pulsation. The very
quietness with which Mr. Turnbull spoke had frightened her susceptible
imagination. Her father's eyes were still turned uneasily toward the door when
she entered and met the strange, yearning, helpless look that had been seeking
her in vain. With a sudden flash and movement, he raised himself in the bed;
she rushed toward him, and clasped him with agonized kisses.
Poor child! it was very early for her to
know one of those supreme moments in life when all we have hoped or delighted
in, all we can dread or endure, falls away from our regard as insignificant; is
lost, like a trivial memory, in that simple, primitive love which knits us to
the beings who have been nearest to us, in their times of helplessness or of
anguish.
But that flash of recognition had been too
great a strain on the father's bruised, enfeebled powers. He sank back again in
renewed insensibility and rigidity, which lasted for many hours, and was only
broken by a flickering return of consciousness, in which he took passively
everything that was given to him, and seemed to have a sort of infantine
satisfaction in Maggie's near presence,–such satisfaction as a baby has
when it is returned to the nurse's lap.
Mrs. Tulliver sent for her sisters, and
there was much wailing and lifting up of hands below stairs. Both uncles and
aunts saw that the ruin of Bessy and her family was as complete as they had
ever foreboded it, and there was a general family sense that a judgment had
fallen on Mr. Tulliver, which it would be an impiety to counteract by too much
kindness. But Maggie heard little of this, scarcely ever leaving her father's
bedside, where she sat opposite him with her hand on his. Mrs. Tulliver wanted
to have Tom fetched home, and seemed to be thinking more of her boy even than
of her husband; but the aunts and uncles opposed this. Tom was better at
school, since Mr. Turnbull said there was no immediate danger, he believed. But
at the end of the second day, when Maggie had become more accustomed to her
father's fits of insensibility, and to the expectation that he would revive
from them, the thought of Tom had become urgent with her too; and when her mother sate crying
at night and saying, "My poor lad–it's nothing but right he should
come home," Maggie said, "Let me go for him, and tell him, mother;
I'll go to-morrow morning if father doesn't know me and want me. It would be so
hard for Tom to come home and not know anything about it beforehand."
And the next morning Maggie went, as we
have seen. Sitting on the coach on their way home, the brother and sister
talked to each other in sad, interrupted whispers.
"They say Mr. Wakem has got a
mortgage or something on the land, Tom," said Maggie. "It was the
letter with that news in it that made father ill, they think."
"I believe that scoundrel's been
planning all along to ruin my father," said Tom, leaping from the vaguest
impressions to a definite conclusion. "I'll make him feel for it when I'm
a man. Mind you never speak to Philip again."
"Oh, Tom!" said Maggie, in a
tone of sad remonstrance; but she had no spirit to dispute anything then, still
less to vex Tom by opposing him.
Chapter II
Mrs. Tulliver's Teraphim, or Household Gods
When the coach set down Tom and Maggie, it
was five hours since she had started from home, and she was thinking with some
trembling that her father had perhaps missed her, and asked for "the
little wench" in vain. She thought of no other change that might have
happened.
She hurried along the gravel-walk and
entered the house before Tom; but in the entrance she was startled by a strong
smell of tobacco. The parlor door was ajar; that was where the smell came from.
It was very strange; could any visitor be smoking at a time like this? Was her
mother there? If so, she must be told that Tom was come. Maggie, after this
pause of surprise, was only in the act of opening the door when Tom came up,
and they both looked into the parlor together.
There was a coarse, dingy man, of whose
face Tom had some vague recollection, sitting in his father's chair, smoking,
with a jug and glass beside him.
The truth flashed on Tom's mind in an
instant. To "have the bailiff in the house," and "to be sold
up," were phrases which he had been used to, even as a little boy; they
were part of the disgrace and misery of "failing," of losing all
one's money, and being ruined,–sinking into the condition of poor working
people. It seemed only natural this should happen, since his father had lost
all his property, and he thought of no more special cause for this particular
form of misfortune than the loss of the lawsuit. But the immediate presence of
this disgrace was so much keener an experience to Tom than the worst form of
apprehension, that he felt at this moment as if his real trouble had only just
begin; it was a touch on the irritated nerve compared with its spontaneous dull
aching.
"How do you do, sir?" said the
man, taking the pipe out of his mouth, with rough, embarrassed civility. The
two young startled faces made him a little uncomfortable.
But Tom turned away hastily without
speaking; the sight was too hateful. Maggie had not understood the appearance
of this stranger, as Tom had. She followed him, whispering: "Who can it
be, Tom? What is the matter?" Then, with a sudden undefined dread lest
this stranger might have something to do with a change in her father, she rushed
upstairs, checking herself at the bedroom door to throw off her bonnet, and
enter on tiptoe. All was silent there; her father was lying, heedless of
everything around him, with his eyes closed as when she had left him. A servant
was there, but not her mother.
"Where's my mother?" she
whispered. The servant did not know.
Maggie hastened out, and said to Tom;
"Father is lying quiet; let us go and look for my mother. I wonder where
she is."
Mrs. Tulliver was not downstairs, not in
any of the bedrooms. There was but one room below the attic which Maggie had
left unsearched; it was the storeroom, where her mother kept all her linen and
all the precious "best things" that were only unwrapped and brought
out on special occasions.
Tom, preceding Maggie, as they returned
along the passage, opened the door of this room, and immediately said,
"Mother!"
Mrs. Tulliver was seated there with all
her laid-up treasures. One of the linen chests was open; the silver teapot was
unwrapped from its many folds of paper, and the best china was laid out on the
top of the closed linen-chest; spoons and skewers and ladles were spread in
rows on the shelves; and the poor woman was shaking her head and weeping, with
a bitter tension of the mouth, over the mark, "Elizabeth Dodson," on the
corner of some tablecloths she held in her lap.
She dropped them, and started up as Tom
spoke.
"Oh, my boy, my boy!" she said,
clasping him round the neck. "To think as I should live to see this day!
We're ruined–everything's going to be sold up–to think as your father
should ha' married me to bring me to this! We've got nothing–we shall be
beggars–we must go to the workhouse––"
She kissed him, then seated herself again,
and took another tablecloth on her lap, unfolding it a little way to look at
the pattern, while the children stood by in mute wretchedness, their minds
quite filled for the moment with the words "beggars" and
"workhouse."
"To think o' these cloths as I spun
myself," she went on, lifting things out and turning them over with an
excitement all the more strange and piteous because the stout blond woman was
usually so passive,–if she had been ruffled before, it was at the surface
merely,–"and Job Haxey wove 'em, and brought the piece home on his
back, as I remember standing at the door and seeing him come, before I ever
thought o' marrying your father! And the pattern as I chose myself, and
bleached so beautiful, and I marked 'em so as nobody ever saw such
marking,–they must cut the cloth to get it out, for it's a particular
stitch. And they're all to be sold, and go into strange people's houses, and
perhaps be cut with the knives, and wore out before I'm dead. You'll never have
one of 'em, my boy," she said, looking up at Tom with her eyes full of
tears, "and I meant 'em for you. I wanted you to have all o' this pattern.
Maggie could have had the large check–it never shows so well when the
dishes are on it."
Tom was touched to the quick, but there
was an angry reaction immediately. His face flushed as he said:
"But will my aunts let them be sold,
mother? Do they know about it? They'll never let your linen go, will they?
Haven't you sent to them?"
"Yes, I sent Luke directly they'd put
the bailies in, and your aunt Pullet's been–and, oh dear, oh dear, she
cries so and says your father's disgraced my family and made it the talk o' the
country; and she'll buy the spotted cloths for herself, because she's never had
so many as she wanted o' that pattern, and they sha'n't go to strangers, but
she's got more checks a'ready nor she can do with." (Here Mrs. Tulliver began
to lay back the tablecloths in the chest, folding and stroking them
automatically.) "And your uncle Glegg's been too, and he says things must
be bought in for us to lie down on, but he must talk to your aunt; and they're
all coming to consult. But I know they'll none of 'em take my chany," she
added, turning toward the cups and saucers, "for they all found fault with
'em when I bought 'em, 'cause o' the small gold sprig all over 'em, between the
flowers. But there's none of 'em got better chany, not even your aunt Pullet
herself; and I bought it wi' my own money as I'd saved ever since I was turned
fifteen; and the silver teapot, too,–your father never paid for 'em. And
to think as he should ha' married me, and brought me to this."
Mrs. Tulliver burst out crying afresh, and
she sobbed with her handkerchief at her eyes a few moments, but then removing
it, she said in a deprecating way, still half sobbing, as if she were called
upon to speak before she could command her voice,–
"And I did say to him times and times, 'Whativer you do, don't go
to law,' and what more could I do? I've had to sit by while my own fortin's
been spent, and what should ha' been my children's, too. You'll have niver a
penny, my boy–but it isn't your poor mother's fault."
She put out one arm toward Tom, looking up
at him piteously with her helpless, childish blue eyes. The poor lad went to
her and kissed her, and she clung to him. For the first time Tom thought of his
father with some reproach. His natural inclination to blame, hitherto kept
entirely in abeyance toward his father by the predisposition to think him
always right, simply on the ground that he was Tom Tulliver's father, was
turned into this new channel by his mother's plaints; and with his indignation
against Wakem there began to mingle some indignation of another sort. Perhaps
his father might have helped bringing them all down in the world, and making
people talk of them with contempt, but no one should talk long of Tom Tulliver
with contempt.
The natural strength and firmness of his
nature was beginning to assert itself, urged by the double stimulus of
resentment against his aunts, and the sense that he must behave like a man and
take care of his mother.
"Don't fret, mother," he said
tenderly. "I shall soon be able to get money; I'll get a situation of some
sort."
"Bless you, my boy!" said Mrs.
Tulliver, a little soothed. Then, looking round sadly, "But I shouldn't
ha' minded so much if we could ha' kept the things wi' my name on 'em."
Maggie had witnessed this scene with gathering
anger. The implied reproaches against her father–her father, who was
lying there in a sort of living death–neutralized all her pity for griefs
about tablecloths and china; and her anger on her father's account was
heightened by some egoistic resentment at Tom's silent concurrence with her
mother in shutting her out from the common calamity. She had become almost
indifferent to her mother's habitual depreciation of her, but she was keenly
alive to any sanction of it, however passive, that she might suspect in Tom.
Poor Maggie was by no means made up of unalloyed devotedness, but put forth
large claims for herself where she loved strongly. She burst out at last in an
agitated, almost violent tone: "Mother, how can you talk so; as if you
cared only for things with your
name on, and not for what has my father's name too; and to care about anything
but dear father himself!–when he's lying there, and may never speak to us
again. Tom, you ought to say so too; you ought not to let any one find fault
with my father."
Maggie, almost choked with mingled grief
and anger, left the room, and took her old place on her father's bed. Her heart
went out to him with a stronger movement than ever, at the thought that people
would blame him. Maggie hated blame; she had been blamed all her life, and
nothing had come of it but evil tempers.
Her father had always defended and excused
her, and her loving remembrance of his tenderness was a force within her that
would enable her to do or bear anything for his sake.
Tom was a little shocked at Maggie's
outburst,–telling him
as well as his mother what it was right to do! She ought to have learned better
than have those hectoring, assuming manners, by this time. But he presently
went into his father's room, and the sight there touched him in a way that
effaced the slighter impressions of the previous hour. When Maggie saw how he
was moved, she went to him and put her arm round his neck as he sat by the bed,
and the two children forgot everything else in the sense that they had one father
and one sorrow.
Chapter III
The Family Council
It was at eleven o'clock the next morning
that the aunts and uncles came to hold their consultation. The fire was lighted
in the large parlor, and poor Mrs. Tulliver, with a confused impression that it
was a great occasion, like a funeral, unbagged the bell-rope tassels, and
unpinned the curtains, adjusting them in proper folds, looking round and
shaking her head sadly at the polished tops and legs of the tables, which
sister Pullet herself could not accuse of insufficient brightness.
Mr. Deane was not coming, he was away on
business; but Mrs. Deane appeared punctually in that handsome new gig with the
head to it, and the livery-servant driving it, which had thrown so clear a
light on several traits in her character to some of her female friends in St.
Ogg's. Mr. Deane had been advancing in the world as rapidly as Mr. Tulliver had
been going down in it; and in Mrs. Deane's house the Dodson linen and plate
were beginning to hold quite a subordinate position, as a mere supplement to
the handsomer articles of the same kind, purchased in recent years,–a
change which had caused an occasional coolness in the sisterly intercourse
between her and Mrs. Glegg, who felt that Susan was getting "like the rest,"
and there would soon be little of the true Dodson spirit surviving except in
herself, and, it might be hoped, in those nephews who supported the Dodson name
on the family land, far away in the Wolds.
People who live at a distance are
naturally less faulty than those immediately under our own eyes; and it seems
superfluous, when we consider the remote geographical position of the
Ethiopians, and how very little the Greeks had to do with them, to inquire
further why Homer calls them "blameless."
Mrs. Deane was the first to arrive; and
when she had taken her seat in the large parlor, Mrs. Tulliver came down to her
with her comely face a little distorted, nearly as it would have been if she
had been crying. She was not a woman who could shed abundant tears, except in moments
when the prospect of losing her furniture became unusually vivid, but she felt
how unfitting it was to be quite calm under present circumstances.
"Oh, sister, what a world this
is!" she exclaimed as she entered; "what trouble, oh dear!"
Mrs. Deane was a thin-lipped woman, who
made small well-considered speeches on peculiar occasions, repeating them
afterward to her husband, and asking him if she had not spoken very properly.
"Yes, sister," she said
deliberately, "this is a changing world, and we don't know to-day what may
happen tomorrow. But it's right to be prepared for all things, and if trouble's
sent, to remember as it isn't sent without a cause. I'm very sorry for you as a
sister, and if the doctor orders jelly for Mr. Tulliver, I hope you'll let me
know. I'll send it willingly; for it is but right he should have proper
attendance while he's ill."
"Thank you, Susan," said Mrs.
Tulliver, rather faintly, withdrawing her fat hand from her sister's thin one.
"But there's been no talk o' jelly yet." Then after a moment's pause
she added, "There's a dozen o' cut jelly-glasses upstairs–I shall
never put jelly into 'em no more."
Her voice was rather agitated as she
uttered the last words, but the sound of wheels diverted her thoughts. Mr. and Mrs.
Glegg were come, and were almost immediately followed by Mr. and Mrs. Pullet.
Mrs. Pullet entered crying, as a
compendious mode, at all times, of expressing what were her views of life in
general, and what, in brief, were the opinions she held concerning the
particular case before her.
Mrs. Glegg had on her fuzziest front, and
garments which appeared to have had a recent resurrection from rather a creasy
form of burial; a costume selected with the high moral purpose of instilling
perfect humility into Bessy and her children.
"Mrs. G., won't you come nearer the
fire?" said her husband, unwilling to take the more comfortable seat
without offering it to her.
"You see I've seated myself here, Mr.
Glegg," returned this superior woman; "you can roast yourself, if you like."
"Well," said Mr. Glegg, seating
himself good-humoredly, "and how's the poor man upstairs?"
"Dr. Turnbull thought him a deal
better this morning," said Mrs. Tulliver; "he took more notice, and
spoke to me; but he's never known Tom yet,–looks at the poor lad as if he
was a stranger, though he said something once about Tom and the pony. The
doctor says his memory's gone a long way back, and he doesn't know Tom because
he's thinking of him when he was little. Eh dear, eh dear!"
"I doubt it's the water got on his
brain," said aunt Pullet, turning round from adjusting her cap in a
melancholy way at the pier-glass. "It's much if he ever gets up again; and
if he does, he'll most like be childish, as Mr. Carr was, poor man! They fed
him with a spoon as if he'd been a babby for three year. He'd quite lost the
use of his limbs; but then he'd got a Bath chair, and somebody to draw him; and
that's what you won't have, I doubt, Bessy."
"Sister Pullet," said Mrs.
Glegg, severely, "if I understand right, we've come together this morning
to advise and consult about what's to be done in this disgrace as has fallen
upon the family, and not to talk o' people as don't belong to us. Mr. Carr was
none of our blood, nor noways connected with us, as I've ever heared."
"Sister Glegg," said Mrs.
Pullet, in a pleading tone, drawing on her gloves again, and stroking the
fingers in an agitated manner, "if you've got anything disrespectful to
say o' Mr. Carr, I do beg of you as you won't say it to me. I know what he was," she added,
with a sigh; "his breath was short to that degree as you could hear him
two rooms off."
"Sophy!" said Mrs. Glegg, with
indignant disgust, "you do
talk o' people's complaints till it's quite undecent. But I say again, as I
said before, I didn't come away from home to talk about acquaintances, whether
they'd short breath or long. If we aren't come together for one to hear what
the other 'ull do to save a sister and her children from the parish, I shall go back. One can't act without the other, I
suppose; it isn't to be expected as I
should do everything."
"Well, Jane," said Mrs. Pullet,
"I don't see as you've been so very forrard at doing. So far as I know,
this is the first time as here you've been, since it's been known as the
bailiff's in the house; and I was here yesterday, and looked at all Bessy's
linen and things, and I told her I'd buy in the spotted tablecloths. I couldn't
speak fairer; for as for the teapot as she doesn't want to go out o' the
family, it stands to sense I can't do with two silver teapots, not if it hadn't a straight spout, but the
spotted damask I was allays fond on."
"I wish it could be managed so as my
teapot and chany and the best castors needn't be put up for sale," said
poor Mrs. Tulliver, beseechingly, "and the sugar-tongs the first things
ever I bought."
"But that can't be helped, you
know," said Mr. Glegg. "If one o' the family chooses to buy 'em in,
they can, but one thing must be bid for as well as another."
"And it isn't to be looked for,"
said uncle Pullet, with unwonted independence of idea, "as your own family
should pay more for things nor they'll fetch. They may go for an old song by
auction."
"Oh dear, oh dear," said Mrs.
Tulliver, "to think o' my chany being sold i' that way, and I bought it
when I was married, just as you did yours, Jane and Sophy; and I know you
didn't like mine, because o' the sprig, but I was fond of it; and there's never
been a bit broke, for I've washed it myself; and there's the tulips on the
cups, and the roses, as anybody might go and look at 'em for pleasure. You
wouldn't like your chany to
go for an old song and be broke to pieces, though yours has got no color in it,
Jane,–it's all white and fluted, and didn't cost so much as mine. And
there's the castors, sister Deane, I can't think but you'd like to have the
castors, for I've heard you say they're pretty."
"Well, I've no objection to buy some
of the best things," said Mrs. Deane, rather loftily; "we can do with
extra things in our house."
"Best things!" exclaimed Mrs.
Glegg, with severity, which had gathered intensity from her long silence.
"It drives me past patience to hear you all talking o' best things, and
buying in this, that, and the other, such as silver and chany. You must bring
your mind to your circumstances, Bessy, and not be thinking o' silver and
chany; but whether you shall get so much as a flock-bed to lie on, and a
blanket to cover you, and a stool to sit on. You must remember, if you get 'em,
it'll be because your friends have bought 'em for you, for you're dependent upon
them for everything; for your
husband lies there helpless, and hasn't got a penny i' the world to call his
own. And it's for your own good I say this, for it's right you should feel what
your state is, and what disgrace your husband's brought on your own family, as
you've got to look to for everything, and be humble in your mind."
Mrs. Glegg paused, for speaking with much
energy for the good of others is naturally exhausting.
Mrs. Tulliver, always borne down by the
family predominance of sister Jane, who had made her wear the yoke of a younger
sister in very tender years, said pleadingly:
"I'm sure, sister, I've never asked
anybody to do anything, only buy things as it 'ud be a pleasure to 'em to have,
so as they mightn't go and be spoiled i' strange houses. I never asked anybody
to buy the things in for me and my children; though there's the linen I spun,
and I thought when Tom was born,–I thought one o' the first things when
he was lying i' the cradle, as all the things I'd bought wi' my own money, and been
so careful of, 'ud go to him. But I've said nothing as I wanted my sisters to
pay their money for me. What my husband has done for his sister's unknown, and we should ha'
been better off this day if it hadn't been as he's lent money and never asked
for it again."
"Come, come," said Mr. Glegg,
kindly, "don't let us make things too dark. What's done can't be undone.
We shall make a shift among us to buy what's sufficient for you; though, as
Mrs. G. says, they must be useful, plain things. We mustn't be thinking o'
what's unnecessary. A table, and a chair or two, and kitchen things, and a good
bed, and such-like. Why, I've seen the day when I shouldn't ha' known myself if
I'd lain on sacking i'stead o' the floor. We get a deal o' useless things about
us, only because we've got the money to spend."
"Mr. Glegg," said Mrs. G.,
"if you'll be kind enough to let me speak, i'stead o' taking the words out
o' my mouth,–I was going to say, Bessy, as it's fine talking for you to
say as you've never asked us to buy anything for you; let me tell you, you ought to have asked us. Pray, how are
you to be purvided for, if your own family don't help you? You must go to the
parish, if they didn't. And you ought to know that, and keep it in mind, and
ask us humble to do what we can for you, i'stead o' saying, and making a boast,
as you've never asked us for anything."
"You talked o' the Mosses, and what
Mr. Tulliver's done for 'em," said uncle Pullet, who became unusually
suggestive where advances of money were concerned. "Haven't they been anear you? They ought to do something
as well as other folks; and if he's lent 'em money, they ought to be made to
pay it back."
"Yes, to be sure," said Mrs.
Deane; "I've been thinking so. How is it Mr. and Mrs. Moss aren't here to
meet us? It is but right they should do their share."
"Oh, dear!" said Mrs. Tulliver,
"I never sent 'em word about Mr. Tulliver, and they live so back'ard among
the lanes at Basset, they niver hear anything only when Mr. Moss comes to
market. But I niver gave 'em a thought. I wonder Maggie didn't, though, for she
was allays so fond of her aunt Moss."
"Why don't your children come in,
Bessy?" said Mrs. Pullet, at the mention of Maggie. "They should hear
what their aunts and uncles have got to say; and Maggie,–when it's me as
have paid for half her schooling, she ought to think more of her aunt Pullet
than of aunt Moss. I may go off sudden when I get home to-day; there's no
telling."
"If I'd had my way," said Mrs. Glegg,
"the children 'ud ha' been in the room from the first. It's time they knew
who they've to look to, and it's right as somebody
should talk to 'em, and let 'em know their condition i' life, and what they're
come down to, and make 'em feel as they've got to suffer for their father's
faults."
"Well, I'll go and fetch 'em,
sister," said Mrs. Tulliver, resignedly. She was quite crushed now, and
thought of the treasures in the storeroom with no other feeling than blank
despair.
She went upstairs to fetch Tom and Maggie,
who were both in their father's room, and was on her way down again, when the
sight of the storeroom door suggested a new thought to her. She went toward it,
and left the children to go down by themselves.
The aunts and uncles appeared to have been
in warm discussion when the brother and sister entered,–both with
shrinking reluctance; for though Tom, with a practical sagacity which had been
roused into activity by the strong stimulus of the new emotions he had
undergone since yesterday, had been turning over in his mind a plan which he
meant to propose to one of his aunts or uncles, he felt by no means amicably
toward them, and dreaded meeting them all at once as he would have dreaded a
large dose of concentrated physic, which was but just endurable in small
draughts. As for Maggie, she was peculiarly depressed this morning; she had
been called up, after brief rest, at three o'clock, and had that strange dreamy
weariness which comes from watching in a sick-room through the chill hours of
early twilight and breaking day,–in which the outside day-light life
seems to have no importance, and to be a mere margin to the hours in the
darkened chamber. Their entrance interrupted the conversation. The shaking of
hands was a melancholy and silent ceremony, till uncle Pullet observed, as Tom
approached him:
"Well, young sir, we've been talking
as we should want your pen and ink; you can write rarely now, after all your
schooling, I should think."
"Ay, ay," said uncle Glegg, with
admonition which he meant to be kind, "we must look to see the good of all
this schooling, as your father's sunk so much money in, now,–
'When land is gone and money's spent,
Then learning is most excellent.'
Now's the time, Tom, to let us see the
good o' your learning. Let us see whether you can do better than I can, as have
made my fortin without it. But I began wi' doing with little, you see; I could
live on a basin o' porridge and a crust o' bread-and-cheese. But I doubt high
living and high learning 'ull make it harder for you, young man, nor it was for
me."
"But he must do it," interposed
aunt Glegg, energetically, "whether it's hard or no. He hasn't got to
consider what's hard; he must consider as he isn't to trusten to his friends to
keep him in idleness and luxury; he's got to bear the fruits of his father's
misconduct, and bring his mind to fare hard and to work hard. And he must be
humble and grateful to his aunts and uncles for what they're doing for his
mother and father, as must be turned out into the streets and go to the
workhouse if they didn't help 'em. And his sister, too," continued Mrs.
Glegg, looking severely at Maggie, who had sat down on the sofa by her aunt
Deane, drawn to her by the sense that she was Lucy's mother, "she must
make up her mind to be humble and work; for there'll be no servants to wait on
her any more,–she must remember that. She must do the work o' the house,
and she must respect and love her aunts as have done so much for her, and saved
their money to leave to their nepheys and nieces."
Tom was still standing before the table in
the centre of the group. There was a heightened color in his face, and he was
very far from looking humbled, but he was preparing to say, in a respectful
tone, something he had previously meditated, when the door opened and his
mother re-entered.
Poor Mrs. Tulliver had in her hands a
small tray, on which she had placed her silver teapot, a specimen teacup and
saucer, the castors, and sugar-tongs.
"See here, sister," she said,
looking at Mrs. Deane, as she set the tray on the table, "I thought,
perhaps, if you looked at the teapot again,–it's a good while since you
saw it,–you might like the pattern better; it makes beautiful tea, and
there's a stand and everything; you might use it for every day, or else lay it
by for Lucy when she goes to housekeeping. I should be so loath for 'em to buy
it at the Golden Lion," said the poor woman, her heart swelling, and the
tears coming,–"my teapot as I bought when I was married, and to
think of its being scratched, and set before the travellers and folks, and my
letters on it,–see here, E. D.,–and everybody to see 'em."
"Ah, dear, dear!" said aunt
Pullet, shaking her head with deep sadness, "it's very bad,–to think
o' the family initials going about everywhere–it niver was so before;
you're a very unlucky sister, Bessy. But what's the use o' buying the teapot,
when there's the linen and spoons and everything to go, and some of 'em with
your full name,–and when it's got that straight spout, too."
"As to disgrace o' the family,"
said Mrs. Glegg, "that can't be helped wi' buying teapots. The disgrace
is, for one o' the family to ha' married a man as has brought her to beggary.
The disgrace is, as they're to be sold up. We can't hinder the country from
knowing that."
Maggie had started up from the sofa at the
allusion to her father, but Tom saw her action and flushed face in time to
prevent her from speaking. "Be quiet, Maggie," he said
authoritatively, pushing her aside. It was a remarkable manifestation of
self-command and practical judgment in a lad of fifteen, that when his aunt
Glegg ceased, he began to speak in a quiet and respectful manner, though with a
good deal of trembling in his voice; for his mother's words had cut him to the
quick.
"Then, aunt," he said, looking
straight at Mrs. Glegg, "if you think it's a disgrace to the family that
we should be sold up, wouldn't it be better to prevent it altogether? And if
you and aunt Pullet," he continued, looking at the latter, "think of
leaving any money to me and Maggie, wouldn't it be better to give it now, and
pay the debt we're going to be sold up for, and save my mother from parting
with her furniture?"
There was silence for a few moments, for
every one, including Maggie, was astonished at Tom's sudden manliness of tone.
Uncle Glegg was the first to speak.
"Ay, ay, young man, come now! You
show some notion o' things. But there's the interest, you must remember; your
aunts get five per cent on their money, and they'd lose that if they advanced
it; you haven't thought o' that."
"I could work and pay that every
year," said Tom, promptly. "I'd do anything to save my mother from
parting with her things."
"Well done!" said uncle Glegg,
admiringly. He had been drawing Tom out, rather than reflecting on the
practicability of his proposal. But he had produced the unfortunate result of
irritating his wife."
"Yes, Mr. Glegg!" said that
lady, with angry sarcasm. "It's pleasant work for you to be giving my
money away, as you've pretended to leave at my own disposal. And my money, as
was my own father's gift, and not yours, Mr. Glegg; and I've saved it, and
added to it myself, and had more to put out almost every year, and it's to go
and be sunk in other folks' furniture, and encourage 'em in luxury and
extravagance as they've no means of supporting; and I'm to alter my will, or
have a codicil made, and leave two or three hundred less behind me when I die,–me
as have allays done right and been careful, and the eldest o' the family; and
my money's to go and be squandered on them as have had the same chance as me,
only they've been wicked and wasteful. Sister Pullet, you may do as you like, and you may let
your husband rob you back again o' the money he's given you, but that isn't my sperrit."
"La, Jane, how fiery you are!"
said Mrs. Pullet. "I'm sure you'll have the blood in your head, and have
to be cupped. I'm sorry for Bessy and her children,–I'm sure I think of
'em o' nights dreadful, for I sleep very bad wi' this new medicine,–but
it's no use for me to think o' doing anything, if you won't meet me
half-way."
"Why, there's this to be
considered," said Mr. Glegg. "It's no use to pay off this debt and
save the furniture, when there's all the law debts behind, as 'ud take every
shilling, and more than could be made out o' land and stock, for I've made that
out from Lawyer Gore. We'd need save our money to keep the poor man with,
instead o' spending it on furniture as he can neither eat nor drink. You will be so hasty, Jane, as if I didn't
know what was reasonable."
"Then speak accordingly, Mr.
Glegg!" said his wife, with slow, loud emphasis, bending her head toward
him significantly.
Tom's countenance had fallen during this
conversation, and his lip quivered; but he was determined not to give way. He
would behave like a man. Maggie, on the contrary, after her momentary delight
in Tom's speech, had relapsed into her state of trembling indignation. Her
mother had been standing close by Tom's side, and had been clinging to his arm
ever since he had last spoken; Maggie suddenly started up and stood in front of
them, her eyes flashing like the eyes of a young lioness.
"Why do you come, then," she
burst out, "talking and interfering with us and scolding us, if you don't
mean to do anything to help my poor mother–your own sister,–if
you've no feeling for her when she's in trouble, and won't part with anything,
though you would never miss it, to save her from pain? Keep away from us then,
and don't come to find fault with my father,–he was better than any of
you; he was kind,–he would have helped you,
if you had been in trouble. Tom and I don't ever want to have any of your
money, if you won't help my mother. We'd rather not have it! We'll do without
you."
Maggie, having hurled her defiance at
aunts and uncles in this way, stood still, with her large dark eyes glaring at
them, as if she were ready to await all consequences.
Mrs. Tulliver was frightened; there was
something portentous in this mad outbreak; she did not see how life could go on
after it. Tom was vexed; it was no use
to talk so. The aunts were silent with surprise for some moments. At length, in
a case of aberration such as this, comment presented itself as more expedient
than any answer.
"You haven't seen the end o' your
trouble wi' that child, Bessy," said Mrs. Pullet; "she's beyond
everything for boldness and unthankfulness. It's dreadful. I might ha' let
alone paying for her schooling, for she's worse nor ever."
"It's no more than what I've allays
said," followed Mrs. Glegg. "Other folks may be surprised, but I'm
not. I've said over and over again,–years ago I've said,–'Mark my
words; that child 'ull come to no good; there isn't a bit of our family in
her.' And as for her having so much schooling, I never thought well o' that.
I'd my reasons when I said I
wouldn't pay anything toward it."
"Come, come," said Mr. Glegg,
"let's waste no more time in talking,–let's go to business. Tom,
now, get the pen and ink––"
While Mr. Glegg was speaking, a tall dark
figure was seen hurrying past the window.
"Why, there's Mrs. Moss," said
Mrs. Tulliver. "The bad news must ha' reached her, then"; and she
went out to open the door, Maggie eagerly following her.
"That's fortunate," said Mrs.
Glegg. "She can agree to the list o' things to be bought in. It's but
right she should do her share when it's her own brother."
Mrs. Moss was in too much agitation to
resist Mrs. Tulliver's movement, as she drew her into the parlor automatically,
without reflecting that it was hardly kind to take her among so many persons in
the first painful moment of arrival. The tall, worn, dark-haired woman was a
strong contrast to the Dodson sisters as she entered in her shabby dress, with
her shawl and bonnet looking as if they had been hastily huddled on, and with
that entire absence of self-consciousness which belongs to keenly felt trouble.
Maggie was clinging to her arm; and Mrs. Moss seemed to notice no one else
except Tom, whom she went straight up to and took by the hand.
"Oh, my dear children," she
burst out, "you've no call to think well o' me; I'm a poor aunt to you,
for I'm one o' them as take all and give nothing. How's my poor brother?"
"Mr. Turnbull thinks he'll get
better," said Maggie. "Sit down, aunt Gritty. Don't fret."
"Oh, my sweet child, I feel torn i'
two," said Mrs. Moss, allowing Maggie to lead her to the sofa, but still
not seeming to notice the presence of the rest. "We've three hundred
pounds o' my brother's money, and now he wants it, and you all want it, poor
things!–and yet we must be sold up to pay it, and there's my poor
children,–eight of 'em, and the little un of all can't speak plain. And I
feel as if I was a robber. But I'm sure I'd no thought as my
brother––"
The poor woman was interrupted by a rising
sob.
"Three hundred pounds! oh dear,
dear," said Mrs. Tulliver, who, when she had said that her husband had
done "unknown" things for his sister, had not had any particular sum
in her mind, and felt a wife's irritation at having been kept in the dark.
"What madness, to be sure!" said
Mrs. Glegg. "A man with a family! He'd no right to lend his money i' that
way; and without security, I'll be bound, if the truth was known."
Mrs. Glegg's voice had arrested Mrs.
Moss's attention, and looking up, she said:
"Yes, there was security; my husband gave a note
for it. We're not that sort o' people, neither of us, as 'ud rob my brother's
children; and we looked to paying back the money, when the times got a bit
better."
"Well, but now," said Mr. Glegg,
gently, "hasn't your husband no way o' raising this money? Because it 'ud
be a little fortin, like, for these folks, if we can do without Tulliver's
being made a bankrupt. Your husband's got stock; it is but right he should
raise the money, as it seems to me,–not but what I'm sorry for you, Mrs.
Moss."
"Oh, sir, you don't know what bad
luck my husband's had with his stock. The farm's suffering so as never was for
want o' stock; and we've sold all the wheat, and we're behind with our
rent,–not but what we'd like to do what's right, and I'd sit up and work
half the night, if it 'ud be any good; but there's them poor
children,–four of 'em such little uns––"
"Don't cry so, aunt; don't
fret," whispered Maggie, who had kept hold of Mrs. Moss's hand.
"Did Mr. Tulliver let you have the
money all at once?" said Mrs. Tulliver, still lost in the conception of
things which had been "going on" without her knowledge.
"No; at twice," said Mrs. Moss,
rubbing her eyes and making an effort to restrain her tears. "The last was
after my bad illness four years ago, as everything went wrong, and there was a
new note made then. What with illness and bad luck, I've been nothing but
cumber all my life."
"Yes, Mrs. Moss," said Mrs.
Glegg, with decision, "yours is a very unlucky family; the more's the pity
for my sister."
"I set off in the cart as soon as
ever I heard o' what had happened," said Mrs. Moss, looking at Mrs.
Tulliver. "I should never ha' stayed away all this while, if you'd thought
well to let me know. And it isn't as I'm thinking all about ourselves, and
nothing about my brother, only the money was so on my mind, I couldn't help
speaking about it. And my husband and me desire to do the right thing,
sir," she added, looking at Mr. Glegg, "and we'll make shift and pay
the money, come what will, if that's all my brother's got to trust to. We've
been used to trouble, and don't look for much else. It's only the thought o' my
poor children pulls me i' two."
"Why, there's this to be thought on,
Mrs. Moss," said Mr. Glegg, "and it's right to warn you,–if
Tulliver's made a bankrupt, and he's got a note-of-hand of your husband's for
three hundred pounds, you'll be obliged to pay it; th' assignees 'ull come on
you for it."
"Oh dear, oh dear!" said Mrs.
Tulliver, thinking of the bankruptcy, and not of Mrs. Moss's concern in it.
Poor Mrs. Moss herself listened in trembling submission, while Maggie looked
with bewildered distress at Tom to see if he
showed any signs of understanding this trouble, and caring about poor aunt
Moss. Tom was only looking thoughtful, with his eyes on the tablecloth.
"And if he isn't made bankrupt,"
continued Mr. Glegg, "as I said before, three hundred pounds 'ud be a
little fortin for him, poor man. We don't know but what he may be partly
helpless, if he ever gets up again. I'm very sorry if it goes hard with you,
Mrs. Moss, but my opinion is, looking at it one way, it'll be right for you to
raise the money; and looking at it th' other way, you'll be obliged to pay it.
You won't think ill o' me for speaking the truth."
"Uncle," said Tom, looking up
suddenly from his meditative view of the tablecloth, "I don't think it
would be right for my aunt Moss to pay the money if it would be against my
father's will for her to pay it; would it?"
Mr. Glegg looked surprised for a moment or
two before he said: "Why, no, perhaps not, Tom; but then he'd ha'
destroyed the note, you know. We must look for the note. What makes you think
it 'ud be against his will?"
"Why," said Tom, coloring, but
trying to speak firmly, in spite of a boyish tremor, "I remember quite
well, before I went to school to Mr. Stelling, my father said to me one night,
when we were sitting by the fire together, and no one else was in the
room––"
Tom hesitated a little, and then went on.
"He said something to me about
Maggie, and then he said: 'I've always been good to my sister, though she
married against my will, and I've lent Moss money; but I shall never think of
distressing him to pay it; I'd rather lose it. My children must not mind being
the poorer for that.' And now my father's ill, and not able to speak for
himself, I shouldn't like anything to be done contrary to what he said to
me."
"Well, but then, my boy," said
Uncle Glegg, whose good feeling led him to enter into Tom's wish, but who could
not at once shake off his habitual abhorrence of such recklessness as
destroying securities, or alienating anything important enough to make an
appreciable difference in a man's property, "we should have to make away
wi' the note, you know, if we're to guard against what may happen, supposing
your father's made bankrupt––"
"Mr. Glegg," interrupted his
wife, severely, "mind what you're saying. You're putting yourself very
forrard in other folks's business. If you speak rash, don't say it was my
fault."
"That's such a thing as I never
heared of before," said uncle Pullet, who had been making haste with his
lozenge in order to express his amazement,–"making away with a note!
I should think anybody could set the constable on you for it."
"Well, but," said Mrs. Tulliver,
"if the note's worth all that money, why can't we pay it away, and save my
things from going away? We've no call to meddle with your uncle and aunt Moss,
Tom, if you think your father 'ud be angry when he gets well."
Mrs. Tulliver had not studied the question
of exchange, and was straining her mind after original ideas on the subject.
"Pooh, pooh, pooh! you women don't
understand these things," said uncle Glegg. "There's no way o' making
it safe for Mr. and Mrs. Moss but destroying the note."
"Then I hope you'll help me do it,
uncle," said Tom, earnestly. "If my father shouldn't get well, I
should be very unhappy to think anything had been done against his will that I
could hinder. And I'm sure he meant me to remember what he said that evening. I
ought to obey my father's wish about his property."
Even Mrs. Glegg could not withhold her
approval from Tom's words; she felt that the Dodson blood was certainly
speaking in him, though, if his father had been a Dodson, there would never
have been this wicked alienation of money. Maggie would hardly have restrained
herself from leaping on Tom's neck, if her aunt Moss had not prevented her by
herself rising and taking Tom's hand, while she said, with rather a choked
voice:
"You'll never be the poorer for this,
my dear boy, if there's a God above; and if the money's wanted for your father,
Moss and me 'ull pay it, the same as if there was ever such security. We'll do
as we'd be done by; for if my children have got no other luck, they've got an
honest father and mother."
"Well," said Mr. Glegg, who had
been meditating after Tom's words, "we shouldn't be doing any wrong by the
creditors, supposing your father was
bankrupt. I've been thinking o' that, for I've been a creditor myself, and seen
no end o' cheating. If he meant to give your aunt the money before ever he got
into this sad work o' lawing, it's the same as if he'd made away with the note
himself; for he'd made up his mind to be that much poorer. But there's a deal
o' things to be considered, young man," Mr. Glegg added, looking
admonishingly at Tom, "when you come to money business, and you may be
taking one man's dinner away to make another man's breakfast. You don't
understand that, I doubt?"
"Yes, I do," said Tom,
decidedly. "I know if I owe money to one man, I've no right to give it to
another. But if my father had made up his mind to give my aunt the money before
he was in debt, he had a right to do it."
"Well done, young man! I didn't think
you'd been so sharp," said uncle Glegg, with much candor. "But
perhaps your father did make
away with the note. Let us go and see if we can find it in the chest."
"It's in my father's room. Let us go
too, aunt Gritty," whispered Maggie.
Mr. Tulliver, even between the fits of
spasmodic rigidity which had recurred at intervals ever since he had been found
fallen from his horse, was usually in so apathetic a condition that the exits
and entrances into his room were not felt to be of great importance. He had
lain so still, with his eyes closed, all this morning, that Maggie told her
aunt Moss she must not expect her father to take any notice of them.
They entered very quietly, and Mrs. Moss
took her seat near the head of the bed, while Maggie sat in her old place on
the bed, and put her hand on her father's without causing any change in his
face.
Mr. Glegg and Tom had also entered,
treading softly, and were busy selecting the key of the old oak chest from the
bunch which Tom had brought from his father's bureau. They succeeded in opening
the chest,–which stood opposite the foot of Mr. Tulliver's bed,–and
propping the lid with the iron holder, without much noise.
"There's a tin box," whispered
Mr. Glegg; "he'd most like put a small thing like a note in there. Lift it
out, Tom; but I'll just lift up these deeds,–they're the deeds o' the
house and mill, I suppose,–and see what there is under 'em."
Mr. Glegg had lifted out the parchments,
and had fortunately drawn back a little, when the iron holder gave way, and the
heavy lid fell with a loud bang that resounded over the house.
Perhaps there was something in that sound
more than the mere fact of the strong vibration that produced the instantaneous
effect on the frame of the prostrate man, and for the time completely shook off
the obstruction of paralysis. The chest had belonged to his father and his
father's father, and it had always been rather a solemn business to visit it.
All long-known objects, even a mere window fastening or a particular door-latch,
have sounds which are a sort of recognized voice to us,–a voice that will
thrill and awaken, when it has been used to touch deep-lying fibres. In the
same moment, when all the eyes in the room were turned upon him, he started up
and looked at the chest, the parchments in Mr. Glegg's hand, and Tom holding
the tin box, with a glance of perfect consciousness and recognition.
"What are you going to do with those
deeds?" he said, in his ordinary tone of sharp questioning whenever he was
irritated. "Come here, Tom. What do you do, going to my chest?"
Tom obeyed, with some trembling; it was
the first time his father had recognized him. But instead of saying anything
more to him, his father continued to look with a growing distinctness of
suspicion at Mr. Glegg and the deeds.
"What's been happening, then?"
he said sharply. "What are you meddling with my deeds for? Is Wakem laying
hold of everything? Why don't you tell me what you've been a-doing?" he
added impatiently, as Mr. Glegg advanced to the foot of the bed before
speaking.
"No, no, friend Tulliver," said
Mr. Glegg, in a soothing tone. "Nobody's getting hold of anything as yet.
We only came to look and see what was in the chest. You've been ill, you know,
and we've had to look after things a bit. But let's hope you'll soon be well
enough to attend to everything yourself."
Mr. Tulliver looked around him
meditatively, at Tom, at Mr. Glegg, and at Maggie; then suddenly appearing
aware that some one was seated by his side at the head of the bed he turned sharply
round and saw his sister.
"Eh, Gritty!" he said, in the
half-sad, affectionate tone in which he had been wont to speak to her.
"What! you're there, are you? How could you manage to leave the
children?"
"Oh, brother!" said good Mrs.
Moss, too impulsive to be prudent, "I'm thankful I'm come now to see you
yourself again; I thought you'd never know us any more."
"What! have I had a stroke?"
said Mr. Tulliver, anxiously, looking at Mr. Glegg.
"A fall from your horse–shook
you a bit,–that's all, I think," said Mr. Glegg. "But you'll
soon get over it, let's hope."
Mr. Tulliver fixed his eyes on the
bed-clothes, and remained silent for two or three minutes. A new shadow came
over his face. He looked up at Maggie first, and said in a lower tone,
"You got the letter, then, my wench?"
"Yes, father," she said, kissing
him with a full heart. She felt as if her father were come back to her from the
dead, and her yearning to show him how she had always loved him could be
fulfilled.
"Where's your mother?" he said,
so preoccupied that he received the kiss as passively as some quiet animal
might have received it.
"She's downstairs with my aunts,
father. Shall I fetch her?"
"Ay, ay; poor Bessy!" and his
eyes turned toward Tom as Maggie left the room.
"You'll have to take care of 'em both
if I die, you know, Tom. You'll be badly off, I doubt. But you must see and pay
everybody. And mind,–there's fifty pound o' Luke's as I put into the
business,–he gave me a bit at a time, and he's got nothing to show for
it. You must pay him first thing."
Uncle Glegg involuntarily shook his head,
and looked more concerned than ever, but Tom said firmly:
"Yes, father. And haven't you a note
from my uncle Moss for three hundred pounds? We came to look for that. What do
you wish to be done about it, father?"
"Ah! I'm glad you thought o' that, my
lad," said Mr. Tulliver. "I allays meant to be easy about that money,
because o' your aunt. You mustn't mind losing the money, if they can't pay
it,–and it's like enough they can't. The note's in that box, mind! I
allays meant to be good to you, Gritty," said Mr. Tulliver, turning to his
sister; "but you know you aggravated me when you would have Moss."
At this moment Maggie re-entered with her
mother, who came in much agitated by the news that her husband was quite
himself again.
"Well, Bessy," he said, as she
kissed him, "you must forgive me if you're worse off than you ever
expected to be.
But it's the fault o' the law,–it's
none o' mine," he added angrily. "It's the fault o' raskills. Tom,
you mind this: if ever you've got the chance, you make Wakem smart. If you
don't, you're a good-for-nothing son. You might horse-whip him, but he'd set
the law on you,–the law's made to take care o' raskills."
Mr. Tulliver was getting excited, and an
alarming flush was on his face. Mr. Glegg wanted to say something soothing, but
he was prevented by Mr. Tulliver's speaking again to his wife. "They'll
make a shift to pay everything, Bessy," he said, "and yet leave you
your furniture; and your sisters'll do something for you–and Tom'll grow
up–though what he's to be I don't know–I've done what I
could–I've given him a eddication–and there's the little wench,
she'll get married–but it's a poor tale––"
The sanative effect of the strong
vibration was exhausted, and with the last words the poor man fell again, rigid
and insensible. Though this was only a recurrence of what had happened before,
it struck all present as if it had been death, not only from its contrast with
the completeness of the revival, but because his words had all had reference to
the possibility that his death was near. But with poor Tulliver death was not
to be a leap; it was to be a long descent under thickening shadows.
Mr. Turnbull was sent for; but when he heard
what had passed, he said this complete restoration, though only temporary, was
a hopeful sign, proving that there was no permanent lesion to prevent ultimate
recovery.
Among the threads of the past which the
stricken man had gathered up, he had omitted the bill of sale; the flash of
memory had only lit up prominent ideas, and he sank into forgetfulness again
with half his humiliation unlearned.
But Tom was clear upon two
points,–that his uncle Moss's note must be destroyed; and that Luke's
money must be paid, if in no other way, out of his own and Maggie's money now
in the savings bank. There were subjects, you perceive, on which Tom was much
quicker than on the niceties of classical construction, or the relations of a
mathematical demonstration.
Chapter V
Tom Applies His Knife to the Oyster
The next day, at ten o'clock, Tom was on
his way to St. Ogg's, to see his uncle Deane, who was to come home last night,
his aunt had said; and Tom had made up his mind that his uncle Deane was the
right person to ask for advice about getting some employment. He was in a great
way of business; he had not the narrow notions of uncle Glegg; and he had risen
in the world on a scale of advancement which accorded with Tom's ambition.
It was a dark, chill, misty morning, likely
to end in rain,–one of those mornings when even happy people take refuge
in their hopes. And Tom was very unhappy; he felt the humiliation as well as
the prospective hardships of his lot with all the keenness of a proud nature;
and with all his resolute dutifulness toward his father there mingled an
irrepressible indignation against him which gave misfortune the less endurable
aspect of a wrong. Since these were the consequences of going to law, his
father was really blamable, as his aunts and uncles had always said he was; and
it was a significant indication of Tom's character, that though he thought his
aunts ought to do something more for his mother, he felt nothing like Maggie's
violent resentment against them for showing no eager tenderness and generosity.
There were no impulses in Tom that led him to expect what did not present
itself to him as a right to be demanded. Why should people give away their
money plentifully to those who had not taken care of their own money? Tom saw
some justice in severity; and all the more, because he had confidence in
himself that he should never deserve that just severity. It was very hard upon
him that he should be put at this disadvantage in life by his father's want of
prudence; but he was not going to complain and to find fault with people
because they did not make everything easy for him. He would ask no one to help
him, more than to give him work and pay him for it. Poor Tom was not without
his hopes to take refuge in under the chill damp imprisonment of the December
fog, which seemed only like a part of his home troubles. At sixteen, the mind
that has the strongest affinity for fact cannot escape illusion and
self-flattery; and Tom, in sketching his future, had no other guide in
arranging his facts than the suggestions of his own brave self-reliance. Both
Mr. Glegg and Mr. Deane, he knew, had been very poor once; he did not want to
save money slowly and retire on a moderate fortune like his uncle Glegg, but he
would be like his uncle Deane–get a situation in some great house of
business and rise fast. He had scarcely seen anything of his uncle Deane for
the last three years–the two families had been getting wider apart; but
for this very reason Tom was the more hopeful about applying to him. His uncle
Glegg, he felt sure, would never encourage any spirited project, but he had a
vague imposing idea of the resources at his uncle Deane's command. He had heard
his father say, long ago, how Deane had made himself so valuable to Guest &
Co. that they were glad enough to offer him a share in the business; that was
what Tom resolved he would
do. It was intolerable to think of being poor and looked down upon all one's
life. He would provide for his mother and sister, and make every one say that
he was a man of high character. He leaped over the years in this way, and, in
the haste of strong purpose and strong desire, did not see how they would be
made up of slow days, hours, and minutes.
By the time he had crossed the stone
bridge over the Floss and was entering St. Ogg's, he was thinking that he would
buy his father's mill and land again when he was rich enough, and improve the
house and live there; he should prefer it to any smarter, newer place, and he
could keep as many horses and dogs as he liked.
Walking along the street with a firm,
rapid step, at this point in his reverie he was startled by some one who had
crossed without his notice, and who said to him in a rough, familiar voice:
"Why, Master Tom, how's your father
this morning?" It was a publican of St. Ogg's, one of his father's
customers.
Tom disliked being spoken to just then;
but he said civilly, "He's still very ill, thank you."
"Ay, it's been a sore chance for you,
young man, hasn't it,–this lawsuit turning out against him?" said
the publican, with a confused, beery idea of being good-natured.
Tom reddened and passed on; he would have
felt it like the handling of a bruise, even if there had been the most polite
and delicate reference to his position.
"That's Tulliver's son," said
the publican to a grocer standing on the adjacent door-step.
"Ah!" said the grocer, "I
thought I knew his features. He takes after his mother's family; she was a
Dodson. He's a fine, straight youth; what's he been brought up to?"
"Oh! to turn up his nose at his
father's customers, and be a fine gentleman,–not much else, I
think."
Tom, roused from his dream of the future
to a thorough consciousness of the present, made all the greater haste to reach
the warehouse offices of Guest & Co., where he expected to find his uncle
Deane. But this was Mr. Deane's morning at the bank, a clerk told him, and with
some contempt for his ignorance; Mr. Deane was not to be found in River Street
on a Thursday morning.
At the bank Tom was admitted into the
private room where his uncle was, immediately after sending in his name. Mr.
Deane was auditing accounts; but he looked up as Tom entered, and putting out
his hand, said, "Well, Tom, nothing fresh the matter at home, I hope?
How's your father?"
"Much the same, thank you,
uncle," said Tom, feeling nervous. "But I want to speak to you,
please, when you're at liberty."
"Sit down, sit down," said Mr.
Deane, relapsing into his accounts, in which he and the managing-clerk remained
so absorbed for the next half-hour that Tom began to wonder whether he should
have to sit in this way till the bank closed,–there seemed so little
tendency toward a conclusion in the quiet, monotonous procedure of these sleek,
prosperous men of business. Would his uncle give him a place in the bank? It
would be very dull, prosy work, he thought, writing there forever to the loud
ticking of a timepiece. He preferred some other way of getting rich. But at
last there was a change; his uncle took a pen and wrote something with a flourish
at the end.
"You'll just step up to Torry's now,
Mr. Spence, will you?" said Mr. Deane, and the clock suddenly became less
loud and deliberate in Tom's ears.
"Well, Tom," said Mr. Deane,
when they were alone, turning his substantial person a little in his chair, and
taking out his snuff-box; "what's the business, my boy; what's the
business?" Mr. Deane, who had heard from his wife what had passed the day
before, thought Tom was come to appeal to him for some means of averting the
sale.
"I hope you'll excuse me for
troubling you, uncle," said Tom, coloring, but speaking in a tone which,
though, tremulous, had a certain proud independence in it; "but I thought
you were the best person to advise me what to do."
"Ah!" said Mr. Deane, reserving
his pinch of snuff, and looking at Tom with new attention, "let us
hear."
"I want to get a situation, uncle, so
that I may earn some money," said Tom, who never fell into circumlocution.
"A situation?" said Mr. Deane,
and then took his pinch of snuff with elaborate justice to each nostril. Tom
thought snuff-taking a most provoking habit.
"Why, let me see, how old are
you?" said Mr. Deane, as he threw himself backward again.
"Sixteen; I mean, I am going in
seventeen," said Tom, hoping his uncle noticed how much beard he had.
"Let me see; your father had some
notion of making you an engineer, I think?"
"But I don't think I could get any
money at that for a long while, could I?"
"That's true; but people don't get
much money at anything, my boy, when they're only sixteen. You've had a good
deal of schooling, however; I suppose you're pretty well up in accounts, eh?
You understand book keeping?"
"No," said Tom, rather
falteringly. "I was in Practice. But Mr. Stelling says I write a good
hand, uncle. That's my writing," added Tom, laying on the table a copy of
the list he had made yesterday.
"Ah! that's good, that's good. But,
you see, the best hand in the world'll not get you a better place than a
copying-clerk's, if you know nothing of book-keeping,–nothing of
accounts. And a copying-clerk's a cheap article. But what have you been
learning at school, then?"
Mr. Deane had not occupied himself with
methods of education, and had no precise conception of what went forward in
expensive schools.
"We learned Latin," said Tom,
pausing a little between each item, as if he were turning over the books in his
school-desk to assist his memory,–"a good deal of Latin; and the
last year I did Themes, one week in Latin and one in English; and Greek and
Roman history; and Euclid; and I began Algebra, but I left it off again; and we
had one day every week for Arithmetic. Then I used to have drawing-lessons; and
there were several other books we either read or learned out of,–English
Poetry, and Horæ Pauliné and Blair's Rhetoric, the last half."
Mr. Deane tapped his snuff-box again and
screwed up his mouth; he felt in the position of many estimable persons when
they had read the New Tariff, and found how many commodities were imported of
which they knew nothing; like a cautious man of business, he was not going to
speak rashly of a raw material in which he had had no experience. But the
presumption was, that if it had been good for anything, so successful a man as
himself would hardly have been ignorant of it.
About Latin he had an opinion, and thought
that in case of another war, since people would no longer wear hair-powder, it
would be well to put a tax upon Latin, as a luxury much run upon by the higher
classes, and not telling at all on the ship-owning department. But, for what he
knew, the Horé Pauliné might be something less neutral. On the whole, this list
of acquirements gave him a sort of repulsion toward poor Tom.
"Well," he said at last, in
rather a cold, sardonic tone, "you've had three years at these
things,–you must be pretty strong in 'em. Hadn't you better take up some
line where they'll come in handy?"
Tom colored, and burst out, with new
energy:
"I'd rather not have any employment
of that sort, uncle. I don't like Latin and those things. I don't know what I
could do with them unless I went as usher in a school; and I don't know them
well enough for that! besides, I would as soon carry a pair of panniers. I
don't want to be that sort of person. I should like to enter into some business
where I can get on,–a manly business, where I should have to look after
things, and get credit for what I did. And I shall want to keep my mother and
sister."
"Ah, young gentleman," said Mr.
Deane, with that tendency to repress youthful hopes which stout and successful
men of fifty find one of their easiest duties, "that's sooner said than
done,–sooner said than done."
"But didn't you get on in that way, uncle?"
said Tom, a little irritated that Mr. Deane did not enter more rapidly into his
views. "I mean, didn't you rise from one place to another through your
abilities and good conduct?"
"Ay, ay, sir," said Mr. Deane,
spreading himself in his chair a little, and entering with great readiness into
a retrospect of his own career. "But I'll tell you how I got on. It wasn't
by getting astride a stick and thinking it would turn into a horse if I sat on
it long enough. I kept my eyes and ears open, sir, and I wasn't too fond of my
own back, and I made my master's interest my own. Why, with only looking into
what went on in the mill,, I found out how there was a waste of five hundred
a-year that might be hindered. Why, sir, I hadn't more schooling to begin with
than a charity boy; but I saw pretty soon that I couldn't get on far enough
without mastering accounts, and I learned 'em between working hours, after I'd
been unlading. Look here." Mr. Deane opened a book and pointed to the
page. "I write a good hand enough, and I'll match anybody at all sorts of
reckoning by the head; and I got it all by hard work, and paid for it out of my
own earnings,–often out of my own dinner and supper. And I looked into
the nature of all the things we had to do in the business, and picked up
knowledge as I went about my work, and turned it over in my head. Why, I'm no
mechanic,–I never pretended to be–but I've thought of a thing or
two that the mechanics never thought of, and it's made a fine difference in our
returns. And there isn't an article shipped or unshipped at our wharf but I
know the quality of it. If I got places, sir, it was because I made myself fit
for 'em. If you want to slip into a round hole, you must make a ball of
yourself; that's where it is."
Mr. Deane tapped his box again. He had
been led on by pure enthusiasm in his subject, and had really forgotten what
bearing this retrospective survey had on his listener. He had found occasion
for saying the same thing more than once before, and was not distinctly aware
that he had not his port-wine before him.
"Well, uncle," said Tom, with a
slight complaint in his tone, "that's what I should like to do. Can't I get on in the same way?"
"In the same way?" said Mr.
Deane, eyeing Tom with quiet deliberation. "There go two or three
questions to that, Master Tom. That depends on what sort of material you are,
to begin with, and whether you've been put into the right mill. But I'll tell
you what it is. Your poor father went the wrong way to work in giving you an
education. It wasn't my business, and I didn't interfere; but it is as I
thought it would be. You've had a sort of learning that's all very well for a
young fellow like our Mr. Stephen Guest, who'll have nothing to do but sign
checks all his life, and may as well have Latin inside his head as any other
sort of stuffing."
"But, uncle," said Tom,
earnestly, "I don't see why the Latin need hinder me from getting on in
business. I shall soon forget it all; it makes no difference to me. I had to do
my lessons at school, but I always thought they'd never be of any use to me
afterward; I didn't care about them."
"Ay, ay, that's all very well,"
said Mr. Deane; "but it doesn't alter what I was going to say. Your Latin
and rigmarole may soon dry off you, but you'll be but a bare stick after that.
Besides, it's whitened your hands and taken the rough work out of you. And what
do you know? Why, you know nothing about book-keeping, to begin with, and not
so much of reckoning as a common shopman. You'll have to begin at a low round
of the ladder, let me tell you, if you mean to get on in life. It's no use
forgetting the education your father's been paying for, if you don't give
yourself a new un."
Tom bit his lips hard; he felt as if the
tears were rising, and he would rather die than let them.
"You want me to help you to a
situation," Mr. Deane went on; "well, I've no fault to find with
that. I'm willing to do something for you. But you youngsters nowadays think
you're to begin with living well and working easy; you've no notion of running
afoot before you get horseback. Now, you must remember what you
are,–you're a lad of sixteen, trained to nothing particular. There's
heaps of your sort, like so many pebbles, made to fit in nowhere. Well, you
might be apprenticed to some business,–a chemist's and druggist's
perhaps; your Latin might come in a bit there––"
Tom was going to speak, but Mr. Deane put
up his hand and said:
"Stop! hear what I've got to say. You
don't want to be a 'prentice,–I know, I know,–you want to make more
haste, and you don't want to stand behind a counter. But if you're a
copying-clerk, you'll have to stand behind a desk, and stare at your ink and
paper all day; there isn't much out-look there, and you won't be much wiser at
the end of the year than at the beginning. The world isn't made of pen, ink,
and paper, and if you're to get on in the world, young man, you must know what
the world's made of. Now the best chance for you 'ud be to have a place on a
wharf, or in a warehouse, where you'd learn the smell of things, but you
wouldn't like that, I'll be bound; you'd have to stand cold and wet, and be
shouldered about by rough fellows. You're too fine a gentleman for that."
Mr. Deane paused and looked hard at Tom, who
certainly felt some inward struggle before he could reply.
"I would rather do what will be best
for me in the end, sir; I would put up with what was disagreeable."
"That's well, if you can carry it
out. But you must remember it isn't only laying hold of a rope, you must go on
pulling. It's the mistake you lads make that have got nothing either in your
brains or your pocket, to think you've got a better start in the world if you
stick yourselves in a place where you can keep your coats clean, and have the
shopwenches take you for fine gentlemen. That wasn't the way I started, young man; when I was
sixteen, my jacket smelt of tar, and I wasn't afraid of handling cheeses.
That's the reason I can wear good broadcloth now, and have my legs under the
same table with the heads of the best firms in St. Ogg's."
Uncle Deane tapped his box, and seemed to
expand a little under his waistcoat and gold chain, as he squared his shoulders
in the chair.
"Is there any place at liberty that
you know of now, uncle, that I should do for? I should like to set to work at
once," said Tom, with a slight tremor in his voice.
"Stop a bit, stop a bit; we mustn't
be in too great a hurry. You must bear in mind, if I put you in a place you're
a bit young for, because you happen to be my nephew, I shall be responsible for
you. And there's no better reason, you know, than your being my nephew; because
it remains to be seen whether you're good for anything."
"I hope I shall never do you any
discredit, uncle," said Tom, hurt, as all boys are at the statement of the
unpleasant truth that people feel no ground for trusting them. "I care
about my own credit too much for that."
"Well done, Tom, well done! That's
the right spirit, and I never refuse to help anybody if they've a mind to do
themselves justice. There's a young man of two-and-twenty I've got my eye on
now. I shall do what I can for that young man; he's got some pith in him. But
then, you see, he's made good use of his time,–a first-rate
calculator,–can tell you the cubic contents of anything in no time, and
put me up the other day to a new market for Swedish bark; he's uncommonly
knowing in manufactures, that young fellow."
"I'd better set about learning
book-keeping, hadn't I, uncle?" said Tom, anxious to prove his readiness
to exert himself.
"Yes, yes, you can't do amiss there.
But–Ah, Spence, you're back again. Well Tom, there's nothing more to be
said just now, I think, and I must go to business again. Good-by. Remember me
to your mother."
Mr. Deane put out his hand, with an air of
friendly dismissal, and Tom had not courage to ask another question, especially
in the presence of Mr. Spence. So he went out again into the cold damp air. He
had to call at his uncle Glegg's about the money in the Savings Bank, and by
the time he set out again the mist had thickened, and he could not see very far
before him; but going along River Street again, he was startled, when he was
within two yards of the projecting side of a shop-window, by the words
"Dorlcote Mill" in large letters on a hand-bill, placed as if on
purpose to stare at him. It was the catalogue of the sale to take place the
next week; it was a reason for hurrying faster out of the town.
Poor Tom formed no visions of the distant
future as he made his way homeward; he only felt that the present was very
hard. It seemed a wrong toward him that his uncle Deane had no confidence in
him,–did not see at once that he should acquit himself well, which Tom
himself was as certain of as of the daylight. Apparently he, Tom Tulliver, was
likely to be held of small account in the world; and for the first time he felt
a sinking of heart under the sense that he really was very ignorant, and could
do very little. Who was that enviable young man that could tell the cubic
contents of things in no time, and make suggestions about Swedish bark! Tom had
been used to be so entirely satisfied with himself, in spite of his breaking
down in a demonstration, and construing nunc
illas promite vires as "now promise those men"; but now
he suddenly felt at a disadvantage, because he knew less than some one else
knew. There must be a world of things connected with that Swedish bark, which,
if he only knew them, might have helped him to get on. It would have been much
easier to make a figure with a spirited horse and a new saddle.
Two hours ago, as Tom was walking to St.
Ogg's, he saw the distant future before him as he might have seen a tempting
stretch of smooth sandy beach beyond a belt of flinty shingles; he was on the
grassy bank then, and thought the shingles might soon be passed. But now his
feet were on the sharp stones; the belt of shingles had widened, and the
stretch of sand had dwindled into narrowness.
"What did my Uncle Deane say,
Tom?" said Maggie, putting her arm through Tom's as he was warming himself
rather drearily by the kitchen fire. "Did he say he would give you a
situation?"
"No, he didn't say that. He didn't
quite promise me anything; he seemed to think I couldn't have a very good
situation. I'm too young."
"But didn't he speak kindly,
Tom?"
"Kindly? Pooh! what's the use of
talking about that? I wouldn't care about his speaking kindly, if I could get a
situation. But it's such a nuisance and bother; I've been at school all this
while learning Latin and things,–not a bit of good to me,–and now
my uncle says I must set about learning book-keeping and calculation, and those
things. He seems to make out I'm good for nothing."
Tom's mouth twitched with a bitter
expression as he looked at the fire.
"Oh, what a pity we haven't got
Dominie Sampson!" said Maggie, who couldn't help mingling some gayety with
their sadness. "If he had taught me book-keeping by double entry and after
the Italian method, as he did Lucy Bertram, I could teach you, Tom."
"You
teach! Yes, I dare say. That's always the tone you take," said Tom.
"Dear Tom, I was only joking,"
said Maggie, putting her cheek against his coat-sleeve.
"But it's always the same,
Maggie," said Tom, with the little frown he put on when he was about to be
justifiably severe. "You're always setting yourself up above me and every
one else, and I've wanted to tell you about it several times. You ought not to
have spoken as you did to my uncles and aunts; you should leave it to me to
take care of my mother and you, and not put yourself forward. You think you
know better than any one, but you're almost always wrong. I can judge much
better than you can."
Poor Tom! he had just come from being
lectured and made to feel his inferiority; the reaction of his strong, self-asserting
nature must take place somehow; and here was a case in which he could justly
show himself dominant. Maggie's cheek flushed and her lip quivered with
conflicting resentment and affection, and a certain awe as well as admiration
of Tom's firmer and more effective character. She did not answer immediately;
very angry words rose to her lips, but they were driven back again, and she
said at last:
"You often think I'm conceited, Tom,
when I don't mean what I say at all in that way. I don't mean to put myself
above you; I know you behaved better than I did yesterday. But you are always
so harsh to me, Tom."
With the last words the resentment was
rising again.
"No, I'm not harsh," said Tom,
with severe decision. "I'm always kind to you, and so I shall be; I shall
always take care of you. But you must mind what I say."
Their mother came in now, and Maggie
rushed away, that her burst of tears, which she felt must come, might not
happen till she was safe upstairs. They were very bitter tears; everybody in
the world seemed so hard and unkind to Maggie; there was no indulgence, no
fondness, such as she imagined when she fashioned the world afresh in her own
thoughts. In books there were people who were always agreeable or tender, and
delighted to do things that made one happy, and who did not show their kindness
by finding fault. The world outside the books was not a happy one, Maggie felt;
it seemed to be a world where people behaved the best to those they did not
pretend to love, and that did not belong to them. And if life had no love in
it, what else was there for Maggie? Nothing but poverty and the companionship
of her mother's narrow griefs, perhaps of her father's heart-cutting childish
dependence. There is no hopelessness so sad as that of early youth, when the
soul is made up of wants, and has no long memories, no superadded life in the
life of others; though we who looked on think lightly of such premature
despair, as if our vision of the future lightened the blind sufferer's present.
Maggie, in her brown frock, with her eyes
reddened and her heavy hair pushed back, looking from the bed where her father
lay to the dull walls of this sad chamber which was the centre of her world,
was a creature full of eager, passionate longings for all that was beautiful
and glad; thirsty for all knowledge; with an ear straining after dreamy music
that died away and would not come near to her; with a blind, unconscious
yearning for something that would link together the wonderful impressions of
this mysterious life, and give her soul a sense of home in it.
No wonder, when there is this contrast
between the outward and the inward, that painful collisions come of it.
Chapter VI
Tending to Refute the Popular Prejudice against the
Present of a Pocket-Knife
In that dark time of December, the sale of
the household furniture lasted beyond the middle of the second day. Mr.
Tulliver, who had begun, in his intervals of consciousness, to manifest an
irritability which often appeared to have as a direct effect the recurrence of
spasmodic rigidity and insensibility, had lain in this living death throughout
the critical hours when the noise of the sale came nearest to his chamber. Mr.
Turnbull had decided that it would be a less risk to let him remain where he
was than to remove him to Luke's cottage,–a plan which the good Luke had
proposed to Mrs. Tulliver, thinking it would be very bad if the master were
"to waken up" at the noise of the sale; and the wife and children had
sat imprisoned in the silent chamber, watching the large prostrate figure on
the bed, and trembling lest the blank face should suddenly show some response
to the sounds which fell on their own ears with such obstinate, painful
repetition.
But it was over at last, that time of
importunate certainty and eye-straining suspense. The sharp sound of a voice,
almost as metallic as the rap that followed it, had ceased; the tramping of
footsteps on the gravel had died out. Mrs. Tulliver's blond face seemed aged
ten years by the last thirty hours; the poor woman's mind had been busy
divining when her favorite things were being knocked down by the terrible
hammer; her heart had been fluttering at the thought that first one thing and
then another had gone to be identified as hers in the hateful publicity of the
Golden Lion; and all the while she had to sit and make no sign of this inward
agitation. Such things bring lines in well-rounded faces, and broaden the
streaks of white among the hairs that once looked as if they had been dipped in
pure sunshine. Already, at three o'clock, Kezia, the good-hearted, bad-tempered
housemaid, who regarded all people that came to the sale as her personal
enemies, the dirt on whose feet was of a peculiarly vile quality, had begun to
scrub and swill with an energy much assisted by a continual low muttering
against "folks as came to buy up other folk's things," and made light
of "scrazing" the tops of mahogany tables over which better folks
than themselves had had to–suffer a waste of tissue through evaporation.
She was not scrubbing indiscriminately, for there would be further dirt of the
same atrocious kind made by people who had still to fetch away their purchases;
but she was bent on bringing the parlor, where that "pipe-smoking
pig," the bailiff, had sat, to such an appearance of scant comfort as could
be given to it by cleanliness and the few articles of furniture bought in for
the family. Her mistress and the young folks should have their tea in it that
night, Kezia was determined.
It was between five and six o'clock, near
the usual teatime, when she came upstairs and said that Master Tom was wanted.
The person who wanted him was in the kitchen, and in the first moments, by the
imperfect fire and candle light, Tom had not even an indefinite sense of any
acquaintance with the rather broad-set but active figure, perhaps two years
older than himself, that looked at him with a pair of blue eyes set in a disc
of freckles, and pulled some curly red locks with a strong intention of
respect. A low-crowned oilskin-covered hat, and a certain shiny deposit of dirt
on the rest of the costume, as of tablets prepared for writing upon, suggested
a calling that had to do with boats; but this did not help Tom's memory.
"Sarvant, Master Tom," said he
of the red locks, with a smile which seemed to break through a self-imposed air
of melancholy. "You don't know me again, I doubt," he went on, as Tom
continued to look at him inquiringly; "but I'd like to talk to you by
yourself a bit, please."
"There's a fire i' the parlor, Master
Tom," said Kezia, who objected to leaving the kitchen in the crisis of
toasting.
"Come this way, then," said Tom,
wondering if this young fellow belonged to Guest & Co.'s Wharf, for his
imagination ran continually toward that particular spot; and uncle Deane might
any time be sending for him to say that there was a situation at liberty.
The bright fire in the parlor was the only
light that showed the few chairs, the bureau, the carpetless floor, and the one
table–no, not the one
table; there was a second table, in a corner, with a large Bible and a few
other books upon it. It was this new strange bareness that Tom felt first,
before he thought of looking again at the face which was also lit up by the
fire, and which stole a half-shy, questioning glance at him as the entirely
strange voice said:
"Why! you don't remember Bob, then,
as you gen the pocket-knife to, Mr. Tom?"
The rough-handled pocket-knife was taken
out in the same moment, and the largest blade opened by way of irresistible
demonstration.
"What! Bob Jakin?" said Tom, not
with any cordial delight, for he felt a little ashamed of that early intimacy
symbolized by the pocket-knife, and was not at all sure that Bob's motives for
recalling it were entirely admirable.
"Ay, ay, Bob Jakin, if Jakin it must
be, 'cause there's so many Bobs as you went arter the squerrils with, that day
as I plumped right down from the bough, and bruised my shins a good
un–but I got the squerril tight for all that, an' a scratter it was. An'
this littlish blade's broke, you see, but I wouldn't hev a new un put in, 'cause
they might be cheatin' me an' givin' me another knife instid, for there isn't
such a blade i' the country,–it's got used to my hand, like. An' there
was niver nobody else gen me nothin' but what I got by my own sharpness, only
you, Mr. Tom; if it wasn't Bill Fawks as gen me the terrier pup istid o'
drowndin't it, an' I had to jaw him a good un afore he'd give it me."
Bob spoke with a sharp and rather treble
volubility, and got through his long speech with surprising despatch, giving
the blade of his knife an affectionate rub on his sleeve when he had finished.
"Well, Bob," said Tom, with a
slight air of patronage, the foregoing reminscences having disposed him to be
as friendly as was becoming, though there was no part of his acquaintance with
Bob that he remembered better than the cause of their parting quarrel; "is
there anything I can do for you?"
"Why, no, Mr. Tom," answered
Bob, shutting up his knife with a click and returning it to his pocket, where
he seemed to be feeling for something else. "I shouldn't ha' come back
upon you now ye're i' trouble, an' folks say as the master, as I used to
frighten the birds for, an' he flogged me a bit for fun when he catched me
eatin' the turnip, as they say he'll niver lift up his head no more,–I
shouldn't ha' come now to ax you to gi' me another knife 'cause you gen me one
afore. If a chap gives me one black eye, that's enough for me; I sha'n't ax him
for another afore I sarve him out; an' a good turn's worth as much as a bad un,
anyhow. I shall niver grow down'ards again, Mr. Tom, an' you war the little
chap as I liked the best when I
war a little chap, for all you leathered me, and wouldn't look at me again.
There's Dick Brumby, there, I could leather him as much as I'd a mind; but
lors! you get tired o' leatherin' a chap when you can niver make him see what
you want him to shy at. I'n seen chaps as 'ud stand starin' at a bough till
their eyes shot out, afore they'd see as a bird's tail warn't a leaf. It's poor
work goin' wi' such raff. But you war allays a rare un at shying, Mr. Tom, an'
I could trusten to you for droppin' down wi' your stick in the nick o' time at
a runnin' rat, or a stoat, or that, when I war a-beatin' the bushes."
Bob had drawn out a dirty canvas bag, and
would perhaps not have paused just then if Maggie had not entered the room and
darted a look of surprise and curiosity at him, whereupon he pulled his red
locks again with due respect. But the next moment the sense of the altered room
came upon Maggie with a force that overpowered the thought of Bob's presence.
Her eyes had immediately glanced from him to the place where the bookcase had
hung; there was nothing now but the oblong unfaded space on the wall, and below
it the small table with the Bible and the few other books.
"Oh, Tom!" she burst out,
clasping her hands, "where are the books? I thought my uncle Glegg said he
would buy them. Didn't he? Are those all they've left us?"
"I suppose so," said Tom, with a
sort of desperate indifference. "Why should they buy many books when they
bought so little furniture?"
"Oh, but, Tom," said Maggie, her
eyes filling with tears, as she rushed up to the table to see what books had
been rescued. "Our dear old Pilgrim's Progress that you colored with your
little paints; and that picture of Pilgrim with a mantle on, looking just like
a turtle–oh dear!" Maggie went on, half sobbing as she turned over
the few books, "I thought we should never part with that while we lived;
everything is going away from us; the end of our lives will have nothing in it
like the beginning!"
Maggie turned away from the table and
threw herself into a chair, with the big tears ready to roll down her cheeks,
quite blinded to the presence of Bob, who was looking at her with the pursuant
gaze of an intelligent dumb animal, with perceptions more perfect than his
comprehension.
"Well, Bob," said Tom, feeling
that the subject of the books was unseasonable, "I suppose you just came
to see me because we're in trouble? That was very good-natured of you."
"I'll tell you how it is, Master
Tom," said Bob, beginning to untwist his canvas bag. "You see, I'n
been with a barge this two 'ear; that's how I'n been gettin' my
livin',–if it wasn't when I was tentin' the furnace, between whiles, at
Torry's mill. But a fortni't ago I'd a rare bit o' luck,–I allays thought
I was a lucky chap, for I niver set a trap but what I catched something; but
this wasn't trap, it was a fire i' Torry's mill, an' I doused it, else it 'ud
set th' oil alight, an' the genelman gen me ten suvreigns; he gen me 'em
himself last week. An' he said first, I was a sperrited chap,–but I
knowed that afore,–but then he outs wi' the ten suvreigns, an' that war
summat new. Here they are, all but one!" Here Bob emptied the canvas bag
on the table. "An' when I'd got 'em, my head was all of a boil like a
kettle o' broth, thinkin' what sort o' life I should take to, for there war a
many trades I'd thought on; for as for the barge, I'm clean tired out wi't, for
it pulls the days out till they're as long as pigs' chitterlings. An' I thought
first I'd ha' ferrets an' dogs, an' be a rat-catcher; an' then I thought as I
should like a bigger way o' life, as I didn't know so well; for I'n seen to the
bottom o' rat-catching; an' I thought, an' thought, till at last I settled I'd
be a packman,–for they're knowin' fellers, the packmen are,–an' I'd
carry the lightest things I could i' my pack; an' there'd be a use for a
feller's tongue, as is no use neither wi' rats nor barges. An' I should go
about the country far an' wide, an' come round the women wi' my tongue, an' get
my dinner hot at the public,–lors! it 'ud be a lovely life!"
Bob paused, and then said, with defiant
decision, as if resolutely turning his back on that paradisaic picture:
"But I don't mind about it, not a
chip! An' I'n changed one o' the suvreigns to buy my mother a goose for dinner,
an' I'n bought a blue plush wescoat, an' a sealskin cap,–for if I meant
to be a packman, I'd do it respectable. But I don't mind about it, not a chip!
My yead isn't a turnip, an' I shall p'r'aps have a chance o' dousing another
fire afore long. I'm a lucky chap. So I'll thank you to take the nine
suvreigns, Mr. Tom, and set yoursen up with 'em somehow, if it's true as the
master's broke. They mayn't go fur enough, but they'll help."
Tom was touched keenly enough to forget
his pride and suspicion.
"You're a very kind fellow,
Bob," he said, coloring, with that little diffident tremor in his voice
which gave a certain charm even to Tom's pride and severity, "and I
sha'n't forget you again, though I didn't know you this evening. But I can't
take the nine sovereigns; I should be taking your little fortune from you, and
they wouldn't do me much good either."
"Wouldn't they, Mr. Tom?" said
Bob, regretfully. "Now don't say so 'cause you think I want 'em. I aren't
a poor chap. My mother gets a good penn'orth wi' picking feathers an' things;
an' if she eats nothin' but bread-an'-water, it runs to fat. An' I'm such a
lucky chap; an' I doubt you aren't quite so lucky, Mr. Tom,–th' old
master isn't, anyhow,–an' so you might take a slice o' my luck, an' no
harm done. Lors! I found a leg o' pork i' the river one day; it had tumbled out
o' one o' them round-sterned Dutchmen, I'll be bound. Come, think better on it,
Mr. Tom, for old 'quinetance' sake, else I shall think you bear me a grudge."
Bob pushed the sovereigns forward, but
before Tom could speak Maggie, clasping her hands, and looking penitently at
Bob. said:
"Oh, I'm so sorry, Bob; I never
thought you were so good. Why, I think you're the kindest person in the
world!"
Bob had not been aware of the injurious
opinion for which Maggie was performing an inward act of penitence, but he
smiled with pleasure at this handsome eulogy,–especially from a young
lass who, as he informed his mother that evening, had "such uncommon eyes,
they looked somehow as they made him feel nohow."
"No, indeed Bob, I can't take
them," said Tom; "but don't think I feel your kindness less because I
say no. I don't want to take anything from anybody, but to work my own way. And
those sovereigns wouldn't help me much–they wouldn't really–if I
were to take them. Let me shake hands with you instead."
Tom put out his pink palm, and Bob was not
slow to place his hard, grimy hand within it.
"Let me put the sovereigns in the bag
again," said Maggie; "and you'll come and see us when you've bought
your pack, Bob."
"It's like as if I'd come out o' make
believe, o' purpose to show 'em you," said Bob, with an air of discontent,
as Maggie gave him the bag again, "a-taking 'em back i' this way. I am a bit of a Do, you know; but it isn't
that sort o' Do,–it's on'y when a feller's a big rogue, or a big flat, I
like to let him in a bit, that's all."
"Now, don't you be up to any tricks,
Bob," said Tom, "else you'll get transported some day."
"No, no; not me, Mr. Tom," said
Bob, with an air of cheerful confidence. "There's no law again'
flea-bites. If I wasn't to take a fool in now and then, he'd niver get any
wiser. But, lors! hev a suvreign to buy you and Miss summat, on'y for a
token–just to match my pocket-knife."
While Bob was speaking he laid down the
sovereign, and resolutely twisted up his bag again. Tom pushed back the gold,
and said, "No, indeed, Bob; thank you heartily, but I can't take it."
And Maggie, taking it between her fingers, held it up to Bob and said, more persuasively:
"Not now, but perhaps another time.
If ever Tom or my father wants help that you can give, we'll let you know;
won't we, Tom? That's what you would like,–to have us always depend on
you as a friend that we can go to,–isn't it, Bob?"
"Yes, Miss, and thank you," said
Bob, reluctantly taking the money; "that's what I'd like, anything as you
like. An' I wish you good-by, Miss, and good-luck, Mr. Tom, and thank you for
shaking hands wi' me, though
you wouldn't take the money."
Kezia's entrance, with very black looks,
to inquire if she shouldn't bring in the tea now, or whether the toast was to
get hardened to a brick, was a seasonable check on Bob's flux of words, and
hastened his parting bow.
Chapter VII
How a Hen Takes to Stratagem
The days passed, and Mr. Tulliver showed,
at least to the eyes of the medical man, stronger and stronger symptoms of a
gradual return to his normal condition; the paralytic obstruction was, little
by little, losing its tenacity, and the mind was rising from under it with
fitful struggles, like a living creature making its way from under a great
snowdrift, that slides and slides again, and shuts up the newly made opening.
Time would have seemed to creep to the
watchers by the bed, if it had only been measured by the doubtful, distant hope
which kept count of the moments within the chamber; but it was measured for
them by a fast-approaching dread which made the nights come too quickly. While
Mr. Tulliver was slowly becoming himself again, his lot was hastening toward
its moment of most palpable change. The taxing-masters had done their work like
any respectable gunsmith conscientiously preparing the musket, that, duly
pointed by a brave arm, will spoil a life or two. Allocaturs, filing of bills
in Chancery, decrees of sale, are legal chain-shot or bomb-shells that can
never hit a solitary mark, but must fall with widespread shattering. So deeply
inherent is it in this life of ours that men have to suffer for each other's
sins, so inevitably diffusive is human suffering, that even justice makes its
victims, and we can conceive no retribution that does not spread beyond its
mark in pulsations of unmerited pain.
By the beginning of the second week in
January, the bills were out advertising the sale, under a decree of Chancery,
of Mr. Tulliver's farming and other stock, to be followed by a sale of the mill
and land, held in the proper after-dinner hour at the Golden Lion. The miller
himself, unaware of the lapse of time, fancied himself still in that first
stage of his misfortunes when expedients might be thought of; and often in his
conscious hours talked in a feeble, disjointed manner of plans he would carry
out when he "got well." The wife and children were not without hope
of an issue that would at least save Mr. Tulliver from leaving the old spot,
and seeking an entirely strange life. For uncle Deane had been induced to
interest himself in this stage of the business. It would not, he acknowledged,
be a bad speculation for Guest & Co. to buy Dorlcote Mill, and carry on the
business, which was a good one, and might be increased by the addition of steam
power; in which case Tulliver might be retained as manager. Still, Mr. Deane
would say nothing decided about the matter; the fact that Wakem held the
mortgage on the land might put it into his head to bid for the whole estate,
and further, to outbid the cautious firm of Guest & Co., who did not carry
on business on sentimental grounds. Mr. Deane was obliged to tell Mrs. Tulliver
something to that effect, when he rode over to the mill to inspect the books in
company with Mrs. Glegg; for she had observed that "if Guest &Co.
would only think about it, Mr. Tulliver's father and grandfather had been
carrying on Dorlcote Mill long before the oil-mill of that firm had been so
much as thought of."
Mr. Deane, in reply, doubted whether that
was precisely the relation between the two mills which would determine their
value as investments. As for uncle Glegg, the thing lay quite beyond his
imagination; the good-natured man felt sincere pity for the Tulliver family,
but his money was all locked up in excellent mortgages, and he could run no
risk; that would be unfair to his own relatives; but he had made up his mind
that Tulliver should have some new flannel waistcoats which he had himself
renounced in favor of a more elastic commodity, and that he would buy Mrs.
Tulliver a pound of tea now and then; it would be a journey which his
benevolence delighted in beforehand, to carry the tea and see her pleasure on
being assured it was the best black.
Still, it was clear that Mr. Deane was
kindly disposed toward the Tullivers. One day he had brought Lucy, who was come
home for the Christmas holidays, and the little blond angel-head had pressed
itself against Maggie's darker cheek with many kisses and some tears. These fair
slim daughters keep up a tender spot in the heart of many a respectable partner
in a respectable firm, and perhaps Lucy's anxious, pitying questions about her
poor cousins helped to make uncle Deane more prompt in finding Tom a temporary
place in the warehouse, and in putting him in the way of getting evening
lessons in book-keeping and calculation.
That might have cheered the lad and fed
his hopes a little, if there had not come at the same time the much-dreaded
blow of finding that his father must be a bankrupt, after all; at least, the
creditors must be asked to take less than their due, which to Tom's untechnical
mind was the same thing as bankruptcy. His father must not only be said to have
"lost his property," but to have "failed,"–the word
that carried the worst obloquy to Tom's mind. For when the defendant's claim
for costs had been satisfied, there would remain the friendly bill of Mr. Gore,
and the deficiency at the bank, as well as the other debts which would make the
assets shrink into unequivocal disproportion; "not more than ten or twelve
shillings in the pound," predicted Mr. Deane, in a decided tone,
tightening his lips; and the words fell on Tom like a scalding liquied, leaving
a continual smart.
He was sadly in want of something to keep
up his spirits a little in the unpleasant newness of his
position,–suddenly transported from the easy carpeted ennui of study-hours at Mr. Stelling's,
and the busy idleness of castle-building in a "last half" at school,
to the companionship of sacks and hides, and bawling men thundering down heavy
weights at his elbow. The first step toward getting on in the world was a
chill, dusty, noisy affair, and implied going without one's tea in order to
stay in St. Ogg's and have an evening lesson from a one-armed elderly clerk, in
a room smelling strongly of bad tobacco. Tom's young pink-and-white face had
its colors very much deadened by the time he took off his hat at home, and sat
down with keen hunger to his supper. No wonder he was a little cross if his
mother or Maggie spoke to him.
But all this while Mrs. Tulliver was
brooding over a scheme by which she, and no one else, would avert the result
most to be dreaded, and prevent Wakem from entertaining the purpose of bidding
for the mill. Imagine a truly respectable and amiable hen, by some portentous
anomaly, taking to reflection and inventing combinations by which she might
prevail on Hodge not to wring her neck, or send her and her chicks to market;
the result could hardly be other than much cackling and fluttering. Mrs.
Tulliver, seeing that everything had gone wrong, had begun to think she had
been too passive in life; and that, if she had applied her mind to business,
and taken a strong resolution now and then, it would have been all the better
for her and her family. Nobody, it appeared, had thought of going to speak to
Wakem on this business of the mill; and yet, Mrs. Tulliver reflected, it would
have been quite the shortest method of securing the right end. It would have
been of no use, to be sure, for Mr. Tulliver to go,–even if he had been
able and willing,–for he had been "going to law against Wakem"
and abusing him for the last ten years; Wakem was always likely to have a spite
against him. And now that Mrs. Tulliver had come to the conclusion that her
husband was very much in the wrong to bring her into this trouble, she was
inclined to think that his opinion of Wakem was wrong too. To be sure, Wakem
had "put the bailies in the house, and sold them up"; but she
supposed he did that to please the man that lent Mr. Tulliver the money, for a
lawyer had more folks to please than one, and he wasn't likely to put Mr.
Tulliver, who had gone to law with him, above everybody else in the world. The
attorney might be a very reasonable man; why not? He had married a Miss Clint,
and at the time Mrs. Tulliver had heard of that marriage, the summer when she
wore her blue satin spencer, and had not yet any thoughts of Mr. Tulliver, she
knew no harm of Wakem. And certainly toward herself, whom he knew to have been
a Miss Dodson, it was out of all possibility that he could entertain anything
but good-will, when it was once brought home to his observation that she, for
her part, had never wanted to go to law, and indeed was at present disposed to
take Mr. Wakem's view of all subjects rather than her husband's. In fact, if
that attorney saw a respectable matron like herself disposed "to give him
good words," why shouldn't he listen to her representations? For she would
put the matter clearly before him, which had never been done yet. And he would
never go and bid for the mill on purpose to spite her, an innocent woman, who
thought it likely enough that she had danced with him in their youth at Squire
Darleigh's, for at those big dances she had often and often danced with young
men whose names she had forgotten.
Mrs. Tulliver hid these reasonings in her
own bosom; for when she had thrown out a hint to Mr. Deane and Mr. Glegg that
she wouldn't mind going to speak to Wakem herself, they had said, "No, no,
no," and "Pooh, pooh," and "Let Wakem alone," in the
tone of men who were not likely to give a candid attention to a more definite
exposition of her project; still less dared she mention the plan to Tom and
Maggie, for "the children were always so against everything their mother
said"; and Tom, she observed, was almost as much set against Wakem as his
father was. But this unusual concentration of thought naturally gave Mrs.
Tulliver an unusual power of device and determination: and a day or two before
the sale, to be held at the Golden Lion, when there was no longer any time to
be lost, she carried out her plan by a stratagem. There were pickles in
question, a large stock of pickles and ketchup which Mrs. Tulliver possessed,
and which Mr. Hyndmarsh, the grocer, would certainly purchase if she could
transact the business in a personal interview, so she would walk with Tom to
St. Ogg's that morning; and when Tom urged that she might let the pickles be at
present,–he didn't like her to go about just yet,–she appeared so
hurt at this conduct in her son, contradicting her about pickles which she had
made after the family receipts inherited from his own grandmother, who had died
when his mother was a little girl, that he gave way, and they walked together
until she turned toward Danish Street, where Mr. Hyndmarsh retailed his
grocery, not far from the offices of Mr. Wakem.
That gentleman was not yet come to his
office; would Mrs. Tulliver sit down by the fire in his private room and wait
for him? She had not long to wait before the punctual attorney entered,
knitting his brow with an examining glance at the stout blond woman who rose,
curtsying deferentially,–a tallish man, with an aquiline nose and
abundant iron-gray hair. You have never seen Mr. Wakem before, and are possibly
wondering whether he was really as eminent a rascal, and as crafty, bitter an
enemy of honest humanity in general, and of Mr. Tulliver in particular, as he
is represented to be in that eidolon or portrait of him which we have seen to
exist in the miller's mind.
It is clear that the irascible miller was
a man to interpret any chance-shot that grazed him as an attempt on his own
life, and was liable to entanglements in this puzzling world, which, due
consideration had to his own infallibility, required the hypothesis of a very
active diabolical agency to explain them. It is still possible to believe that
the attorney was not more guilty toward him than an ingenious machine, which
performs its work with much regularity, is guilty toward the rash man who,
venturing too near it, is caught up by some fly-wheel or other, and suddenly
converted into unexpected mince-meat.
But it is really impossible to decide this
question by a glance at his person; the lines and lights of the human
countenance are like other symbols,–not always easy to read without a
key. On an a priori view of
Wakem's aquiline nose, which offended Mr. Tulliver, there was not more
rascality than in the shape of his stiff shirt-collar, though this too along
with his nose, might have become fraught with damnatory meaning when once the
rascality was ascertained.
"Mrs. Tulliver, I think?" said
Mr. Wakem.
"Yes, sir; Miss Elizabeth Dodson as
was."
"Pray be seated. You have some
business with me?"
"Well, sir, yes," said Mrs.
Tulliver, beginning to feel alarmed at her own courage, now she was really in
presence of the formidable man, and reflecting that she had not settled with
herself how she should begin. Mr. Wakem felt in his waistcoat pockets, and
looked at her in silence.
"I hope, sir," she began at
last,–"I hope, sir, you're not a-thinking as I bear you any ill-will because o' my
husband's losing his lawsuit, and the bailies being put in, and the linen being
sold,–oh dear!–for I wasn't brought up in that way. I'm sure you
remember my father, sir, for he was close friends with Squire Darleigh, and we
allays went to the dances there, the Miss Dodsons,–nobody could be more
looked on,–and justly, for there was four of us, and you're quite aware
as Mrs. Glegg and Mrs. Deane are my sisters. And as for going to law and losing
money, and having sales before you're dead, I never saw anything o' that before
I was married, nor for a long while after. And I'm not to be answerable for my
bad luck i' marrying out o' my own family into one where the goings-on was
different. And as for being drawn in t' abuse you as other folks abuse you,
sir, that I niver was, and
nobody can say it of me."
Mrs. Tulliver shook her head a little, and
looked at the hem of her pocket-handkerchief.
"I've no doubt of what you say, Mrs.
Tulliver," said Mr. Wakem, with cold politeness. "But you have some
question to ask me?"
"Well, sir, yes. But that's what I've
said to myself,–I've said you'd had some nat'ral feeling; and as for my
husband, as hasn't been himself for this two months, I'm not a-defending him,
in no way, for being so hot about th' erigation,–not but what there's
worse men, for he never wronged nobody of a shilling nor a penny, not
willingly; and as for his fieriness and lawing, what could I do? And him struck
as if it was with death when he got the letter as said you'd the hold upo' the
land. But I can't believe but what you'll behave as a gentleman."
"What does all this mean, Mrs.
Tulliver?" said Mr. Wakem rather sharply. "What do you want to ask
me?"
"Why, sir, if you'll be so
good," said Mrs. Tulliver, starting a little, and speaking more
hurriedly,–"if you'll be so good not to buy the mill an' the
land,–the land wouldn't so much matter, only my husband ull' be like mad
at your having it."
Something like a new thought flashed
across Mr. Wakem's face as he said, "Who told you I meant to buy it?"
"Why, sir, it's none o' my inventing,
and I should never ha' thought of it; for my husband, as ought to know about
the law, he allays used to say as lawyers had never no call to buy
anything,–either lands or houses,–for they allays got 'em into
their hands other ways. An' I should think that 'ud be the way with you, sir;
and I niver said as you'd be the man to do contrairy to that."
"Ah, well, who was it that did say so?" said Wakem, opening
his desk, and moving things about, with the accompaniment of an almost
inaudible whistle.
"Why, sir, it was Mr. Glegg and Mr.
Deane, as have all the management; and Mr. Deane thinks as Guest &Co. 'ud
buy the mill and let Mr. Tulliver work it for 'em, if you didn't bid for it and
raise the price. And it 'ud be such a thing for my husband to stay where he is,
if he could get his living: for it was his father's before him, the mill was,
and his grandfather built it, though I wasn't fond o' the noise of it, when
first I was married, for there was no mills in our family,–not the
Dodson's,–and if I'd known as the mills had so much to do with the law,
it wouldn't have been me as 'ud have been the first Dodson to marry one; but I
went into it blindfold, that I did, erigation and everything."
"What! Guest &Co. would keep the
mill in their own hands, I suppose, and pay your husband wages?"
"Oh dear, sir, it's hard to think
of," said poor Mrs. Tulliver, a little tear making its way, "as my
husband should take wage. But it 'ud look more like what used to be, to stay at
the mill than to go anywhere else; and if you'll only think–if you was to
bid for the mill and buy it, my husband might be struck worse than he was
before, and niver get better again as he's getting now."
"Well, but if I bought the mill, and
allowed your husband to act as my manager in the same way, how then?" said
Mr. Wakem.
"Oh, sir, I doubt he could niver be
got to do it, not if the very mill stood still to beg and pray of him. For your
name's like poison to him, it's so as never was; and he looks upon it as you've
been the ruin of him all along, ever since you set the law on him about the
road through the meadow,–that's eight year ago, and he's been going on
ever since–as I've allays told him he was wrong––"
"He's a pig-headed, foul-mouthed
fool!" burst out Mr. Wakem, forgetting himself.
"Oh dear, sir!" said Mrs.
Tulliver, frightened at a result so different from the one she had fixed her
mind on; "I wouldn't wish to contradict you, but it's like enough he's
changed his mind with this illness,–he's forgot a many things he used to
talk about. And you wouldn't like to have a corpse on your mind, if he was to
die; and they do say as it's
allays unlucky when Dorlcote Mill changes hands, and the water might all run
away, and then–not as
I'm wishing you any ill-luck, sir, for I forgot to tell you as I remember your
wedding as if it was yesterday; Mrs. Wakem was a Miss Clint, I know that; and my boy, as there isn't a
nicer, handsomer, straighter boy nowhere, went to school with your
son––"
Mr. Wakem rose, opened the door, and
called to one of his clerks.
"You must excuse me for interrupting
you, Mrs. Tulliver; I have business that must be attended to; and I think there
is nothing more necessary to be said."
"But if you would bear it in mind, sir," said
Mrs. Tulliver, rising, "and not run against me and my children; and I'm
not denying Mr. Tulliver's been in the wrong, but he's been punished enough,
and there's worse men, for it's been giving to other folks has been his fault.
He's done nobody any harm but himself and his family,–the more's the
pity,–and I go and look at the bare shelves every day, and think where
all my things used to stand."
"Yes, yes, I'll bear it in
mind," said Mr. Wakem, hastily, looking toward the open door.
"And if you'd please not to say as
I've been to speak to you, for my son 'ud be very angry with me for demeaning
myself, I know he would, and I've trouble enough without being scolded by my
children."
Poor Mrs. Tulliver's voice trembled a
little, and she could make no answer to the attorney's "good
morning," but curtsied and walked out in silence.
"Which day is it that Dorlcote Mill
is to be sold? Where's the bill?" said Mr. Wakem to his clerk when they
were alone.
"Next Friday is the day,–Friday
at six o'clock."
"Oh, just run to Winship's the
auctioneer, and see if he's at home. I have some business for him; ask him to
come up."
Although, when Mr. Wakem entered his
office that morning, he had had no intention of purchasing Dorlcote Mill, his
mind was already made up. Mrs. Tulliver had suggested to him several
determining motives, and his mental glance was very rapid; he was one of those
men who can be prompt without being rash, because their motives run in fixed
tracks, and they have no need to reconcile conflicting aims.
To suppose that Wakem had the same sort of
inveterate hatred toward Tulliver that Tulliver had toward him would be like
supposing that a pike and a roach can look at each other from a similar point
of view. The roach necessarily abhors the mode in which the pike gets his
living, and the pike is likely to think nothing further even of the most
indignant roach than that he is excellent good eating; it could only be when
the roach choked him that the pike could entertain a strong personal animosity.
If Mr. Tulliver had ever seriously injured or thwarted the attorney, Wakem
would not have refused him the distinction of being a special object of his
vindictiveness. But when Mr. Tulliver called Wakem a rascal at the market
dinner-table, the attorneys' clients were not a whit inclined to withdraw their
business from him; and if, when Wakem himself happened to be present, some
jocose cattle-feeder, stimulated by opportunity and brandy, made a thrust at
him by alluding to old ladies' wills, he maintained perfect sang froid, and knew quite well that
the majority of substantial men then present were perfectly contented with the
fact that "Wakem was Wakem"; that is to say, a man who always knew
the stepping-stones that would carry him through very muddy bits of practice. A
man who had made a large fortune, had a handsome house among the trees at
Tofton, and decidedly the finest stock of port-wine in the neighborhood of St.
Ogg's, was likely to feel himself on a level with public opinion. And I am not
sure that even honest Mr. Tulliver himself, with his general view of law as a
cockpit, might not, under opposite circumstances, have seen a fine
appropriateness in the truth that "Wakem was Wakem"; since I have
understood from persons versed in history, that mankind is not disposed to look
narrowly into the conduct of great victors when their victory is on the right
side. Tulliver, then, could be no obstruction to Wakem; on the contrary, he was
a poor devil whom the lawyer had defeated several times; a hot-tempered fellow,
who would always give you a handle against him. Wakem's conscience was not
uneasy because he had used a few tricks against the miller; why should he hate
that unsuccessful plaintiff, that pitiable, furious bull entangled in the
meshes of a net?
Still, among the various excesses to which
human nature is subject, moralists have never numbered that of being too fond
of the people who openly revile us. The successful Yellow candidate for the
borough of Old Topping, perhaps, feels no pursuant meditative hatred toward the
Blue editor who consoles his subscribers with vituperative rhetoric against
Yellow men who sell their country, and are the demons of private life; but he
might not be sorry, if law and opportunity favored, to kick that Blue editor to
a deeper shade of his favorite color. Prosperous men take a little vengeance
now and then, as they take a diversion, when it comes easily in their way, and
is no hindrance to business; and such small unimpassioned revenges have an
enormous effect in life, running through all degrees of pleasant infliction,
blocking the fit men out of places, and blackening characters in unpremeditated
talk. Still more, to see people who have been only insignificantly offensive to
us reduced in life and humiliated, without any special effort of ours, is apt
to have a soothing, flattering influence. Providence or some other prince of
this world, it appears, has undertaken the task of retribution for us; and
really, by an agreeable constitution of things, our enemies somehow don't prosper.
Wakem was not without this parenthetic
vindictiveness toward the uncomplimentary miller; and now Mrs. Tulliver had put
the notion into his head, it presented itself to him as a pleasure to do the
very thing that would cause Mr. Tulliver the most deadly
mortification,–and a pleasure of a complex kind, not made up of crude
malice, but mingling with it the relish of self-approbation. To see an enemy
humiliated gives a certain contentment, but this is jejune compared with the
highly blent satisfaction of seeing him humiliated by your benevolent action or
concession on his behalf. That is a sort of revenge which falls into the scale
of virtue, and Wakem was not without an intention of keeping that scale
respectably filled. He had once had the pleasure of putting an old enemy of his
into one of the St. Ogg's alms-houses, to the rebuilding of which he had given
a large subscription; and here was an opportunity of providing for another by
making him his own servant. Such things give a completeness to prosperity, and
contribute elements of agreeable consciousness that are not dreamed of by that
short-sighted, overheated vindictiveness which goes out its way to wreak itself
in direct injury. And Tulliver, with his rough tongue filed by a sense of
obligation, would make a better servant than any chance-fellow who was
cap-in-hand for a situation. Tulliver was known to be a man of proud honesty,
and Wakem was too acute not to believe in the existence of honesty. He was
given too observing individuals, not to judging of them according to maxims,
and no one knew better than he that all men were not like himself. Besides, he
intended to overlook the whole business of land and mill pretty closely; he was
fond of these practical rural matters. But there were good reasons for
purchasing Dorlcote Mill, quite apart from any benevolent vengeance on the
miller. It was really a capital investment; besides, Guest &Co. were going
to bid for it. Mr. Guest and Mr. Wakem were on friendly dining terms, and the
attorney liked to predominate over a ship-owner and mill-owner who was a little
too loud in the town affairs as well as in his table-talk. For Wakem was not a
mere man of business; he was considered a pleasant fellow in the upper circles
of St. Ogg's–chatted amusingly over his port-wine, did a little amateur
farming, and had certainly been an excellent husband and father; at church,
when he went there, he sat under the handsomest of mural monuments erected to
the memory of his wife. Most men would have married again under his circumstances,
but he was said to be more tender to his deformed son than most men were to
their best-shapen offspring. Not that Mr. Wakem had not other sons beside
Philip; but toward them he held only a chiaroscuro parentage, and provided for
them in a grade of life duly beneath his own. In this fact, indeed, there lay
the clenching motive to the purchase of Dorlcote Mill. While Mrs. Tulliver was
talking, it had occurred to the rapid-minded lawyer, among all the other
circumstances of the case, that this purchase would, in a few years to come,
furnish a highly suitable position for a certain favorite lad whom he meant to
bring on in the world.
These were the mental conditions on which
Mrs. Tulliver had undertaken to act persuasively, and had failed; a fact which
may receive some illustration from the remark of a great philosopher, that
fly-fishers fail in preparing their bait so as to make it alluring in the right
quarter, for want of a due acquaintance with the subjectivity of fishes.
Chapter VIII
Daylight on the Wreck
It was a clear frosty January day on which
Mr. Tulliver first came downstairs. The bright sun on the chestnut boughs and
the roofs opposite his window had made him impatiently declare that he would be
caged up no longer; he thought everywhere would be more cheery under this
sunshine than his bedroom; for he knew nothing of the bareness below, which
made the flood of sunshine importunate, as if it had an unfeeling pleasure in
showing the empty places, and the marks where well-known objects once had been.
The impression on his mind that it was but yesterday when he received the
letter from Mr. Gore was so continually implied in his talk, and the attempts
to convey to him the idea that many weeks had passed and much had happened
since then had been so soon swept away by recurrent forgetfulness, that even
Mr. Turnbull had begun to despair of preparing him to meet the facts by
previous knowledge. The full sense of the present could only be imparted
gradually by new experience,–not by mere words, which must remain weaker
than the impressions left by the old
experience. This resolution to come downstairs was heard with trembling by the
wife and children. Mrs. Tulliver said Tom must not go to St. Ogg's at the usual
hour, he must wait and see his father downstairs; and Tom complied, though with
an intense inward shrinking from the painful scene. The hearts of all three had
been more deeply dejected than ever during the last few days. For Guest
&Co. had not bought the mill; both mill and land had been knocked down to
Wakem, who had been over the premises, and had laid before Mr. Deane and Mr.
Glegg, in Mrs. Tulliver's presence, his willingness to employ Mr. Tulliver, in
case of his recovery, as a manager of the business. This proposition had occasioned
much family debating. Uncles and aunts were almost unanimously of opinion that
such an offer ought not to be rejected when there was nothing in the way but a
feeling in Mr. Tulliver's mind, which, as neither aunts nor uncles shared it,
was regarded as entirely unreasonable and childish,–indeed, as a
transferring toward Wakem of that indignation and hatred which Mr. Tulliver
ought properly to have directed against himself for his general
quarrelsomeness, and his special exhibition of it in going to law. Here was an
opportunity for Mr. Tulliver to provide for his wife and daughter without any
assistance from his wife's relations, and without that too evident descent into
pauperism which makes it annoying to respectable people to meet the degraded
member of the family by the wayside. Mr. Tulliver, Mrs. Glegg considered, must
be made to feel, when he came to his right mind, that he could never humble
himself enough; for that had
come which she had always foreseen would come of his insolence in time past
"to them as were the best friends he'd got to look to." Mr Glegg and
Mr. Deane were less stern in their views, but they both of them thought
Tulliver had done enough harm by his hot-tempered crotchets and ought to put
them out of the question when a livelihood was offered him; Wakem showed a
right feeling about the matter,–he
had no grudge against Tulliver.
Tom had protested against entertaining the
proposition. He shouldn't like his father to be under Wakem; he thought it
would look mean-spirited; but his mother's main distress was the utter
impossibility of ever "turning Mr. Tulliver round about Wakem," or
getting him to hear reason; no, they would all have to go and live in a pigsty
on purpose to spite Wakem, who spoke "so as nobody could be fairer."
Indeed, Mrs. Tulliver's mind was reduced to such confusion by living in this
strange medium of unaccountable sorrow, against which she continually appealed
by asking, "Oh dear, what have
I done to deserve worse than other women?" that Maggie began to suspect
her poor mother's wits were quite going.
"Tom," she said, when they were
out of their father's room together, "we must try to make father understand a little of what has
happened before he goes downstairs. But we must get my mother away. She will
say something that will do harm. Ask Kezia to fetch her down, and keep her
engaged with something in the kitchen."
Kezia was equal to the task. Having
declared her intention of staying till the master could get about again,
"wage or no wage," she had found a certain recompense in keeping a
strong hand over her mistress, scolding her for "moithering" herself,
and going about all day without changing her cap, and looking as if she was
"mushed." Altogether, this time of trouble was rather a Saturnalian time
to Kezia; she could scold her betters with unreproved freedom. On this
particular occasion there were drying clothes to be fetched in; she wished to
know if one pair of hands could do everything in-doors and out, and observed
that she should have thought
it would be good for Mrs. Tulliver to put on her bonnet, and get a breath of
fresh air by doing that needful piece of work. Poor Mrs. Tulliver went
submissively downstairs; to be ordered about by a servant was the last remnant
of her household dignities,–she would soon have no servant to scold her.
Mr. Tulliver was resting in his chair a little after the fatigue of dressing,
and Maggie and Tom were seated near him, when Luke entered to ask if he should
help master downstairs.
"Ay, ay, Luke; stop a bit, sit
down," said Mr. Tulliver pointing his stick toward a chair, and looking at
him with that pursuant gaze which convalescent persons often have for those who
have tended them, reminding one of an infant gazing about after its nurse. For
Luke had been a constant night-watcher by his master's bed.
"How's the water now, eh, Luke?"
said Mr. Tulliver. "Dix hasn't been choking you up again, eh?"
"No, sir, it's all right."
"Ay, I thought not; he won't be in a
hurry at that again, now Riley's been to settle him. That was what I said to Riley
yesterday–I said––"
Mr. Tulliver leaned forward, resting his
elbows on the armchair, and looking on the ground as if in search of something,
striving after vanishing images like a man struggling against a doze. Maggie
looked at Tom in mute distress, their father's mind was so far off the present,
which would by-and-by thrust itself on his wandering consciousness! Tom was
almost ready to rush away, with that impatience of painful emotion which makes
one of the differences between youth and maiden, man and woman.
"Father," said Maggie, laying
her hand on his, "don't you remember that Mr. Riley is dead?"
"Dead?" said Mr. Tulliver,
sharply, looking in her face with a strange, examining glance.
"Yes, he died of apoplexy nearly a
year ago. I remember hearing you say you had to pay money for him; and he left
his daughters badly off; one of them is under-teacher at Miss Firniss's, where
I've been to school, you know."
"Ah?" said her father,
doubtfully, still looking in her face. But as soon as Tom began to speak he
turned to look at him with
the same inquiring glances, as if he were rather surprised at the presence of
these two young people. Whenever his mind was wandering in the far past, he
fell into this oblivion of their actual faces; they were not those of the lad
and the little wench who belonged to that past.
"It's a long while since you had the
dispute with Dix, father," said Tom. "I remember your talking about
it three years ago, before I went to school at Mr. Stelling's. I've been at
school there three years; don't you remember?"
Mr. Tulliver threw himself backward again,
losing the childlike outward glance under a rush of new ideas, which diverted
him from external impressions.
"Ay, ay," he said, after a
minute or two, "I've paid a deal o' money–I was determined my son
should have a good eddication; I'd none myself, and I've felt the miss of it.
And he'll want no other fortin, that's what I say–if Wakem was to get the
better of me again––"
The thought of Wakem roused new
vibrations, and after a moment's pause he began to look at the coat he had on,
and to feel in his side-pocket. Then he turned to Tom, and said in his old
sharp way, "Where have they put Gore's letter?"
It was close at hand in a drawer, for he
had often asked for it before.
"You know what there is in the
letter, father?" said Tom, as he gave it to him.
"To be sure I do," said Mr.
Tulliver, rather angrily. "What o' that? If Furley can't take to the
property, somebody else can; there's plenty o' people in the world besides Furley.
But it's hindering–my not being well–go and tell 'em to get the
horse in the gig, Luke; I can get down to St. Ogg's well enough–Gore's
expecting me."
"No, dear father!" Maggie burst
out entreatingly; "it's a very long while since all that; you've been ill
a great many weeks,–more than two months; everything is changed."
Mr. Tulliver looked at them all three
alternately with a startled gaze; the idea that much had happened of which he
knew nothing had often transiently arrested him before, but it came upon him
now with entire novelty.
"Yes, father," said Tom, in
answer to the gaze. "You needn't trouble your mind about business until
you are quite well; everything is settled about that for the
present,–about the mill and the land and the debts."
"What's settled, then?" said his
father, angrily.
"Don't you take on too much bout it,
sir," said Luke. "You'd ha' paid iverybody if you could,–that's
what I said to Master Tom,–I said you'd ha' paid iverybody if you
could."
Good Luke felt, after the manner of contented
hard-working men whose lives have been spent in servitude, that sense of
natural fitness in rank which made his master's downfall a tragedy to him. He
was urged, in his slow way, to say something that would express his share in
the family sorrow; and these words, which he had used over and over again to
Tom when he wanted to decline the full payment of his fifty pounds out of the
children's money, were the most ready to his tongue. They were just the words
to lay the most painful hold on his master's bewildered mind.
"Paid everybody?" he said, with
vehement agitation, his face flushing, and his eye lighting up.
"Why–what–have they made me a bankrupt?"
"Oh, father, dear father!" said
Maggie, who thought that terrible word really represented the fact; "bear
it well, because we love you; your children will always love you. Tom will pay
them all; he says he will, when he's a man."
She felt her father beginning to tremble;
his voice trembled too, as he said, after a few moments:
"Ay, my little wench, but I shall
never live twice o'er."
"But perhaps you will live to see me
pay everybody, father," said Tom, speaking with a great effort.
"Ah, my lad," said Mr. Tulliver,
shaking his head slowly, "but what's broke can never be whole again; it
'ud be your doing, not mine." Then looking up at him, "You're only
sixteen; it's an up-hill fight for you, but you mustn't throw it at your
father; the raskills have been too many for him. I've given you a good
eddication,–that'll start you."
Something in his throat half choked the
last words; the flush, which had alarmed his children because it had so often
preceded a recurrence of paralysis, had subsided, and his face looked pale and
tremulous. Tom said nothing; he was still struggling against his inclination to
rush away. His father remained quiet a minute or two, but his mind did not seem
to be wandering again.
"Have they sold me up, then?" he
said more clamly, as if he were possessed simply by the desire to know what had
happened.
"Everything is sold, father; but we
don't know all about the mill and the land yet," said Tom, anxious to ward
off any question leading to the fact that Wakem was the purchaser.
"You must not be surprised to see the
room look very bare downstairs, father," said Maggie; "but there's
your chair and the bureau; they're
not gone."
"Let us go; help me down,
Luke,–I'll go and see everything," said Mr. Tulliver, leaning on his
stick, and stretching out his other hand toward Luke.
"Ay, sir," said Luke, as he gave
his arm to his master, "you'll make up your mind to't a bit better when
you've seen iverything; you'll get used to't. That's what my mother says about
her shortness o' breath,–she says she's made friends wi't now, though she
fought again' it sore when it just come on."
Maggie ran on before to see that all was
right in the dreary parlor, where the fire, dulled by the frosty sunshine,
seemed part of the general shabbiness. She turned her father's chair, and
pushed aside the table to make an easy way for him, and then stood with a
beating heart to see him enter and look round for the first time. Tom advanced
before him, carrying the leg-rest, and stood beside Maggie on the hearth. Of
those two young hearts Tom's suffered the most unmixed pain, for Maggie, with
all her keen susceptibility, yet felt as if the sorrow made larger room for her
love to flow in, and gave breathing-space to her passionate nature. No true boy
feels that; he would rather go and slay the Nemean lion, or perform any round
of heroic labors, than endure perpetual appeals to his pity, for evils over
which he can make no conquest.
Mr. Tulliver paused just inside the door,
resting on Luke, and looking round him at all the bare places, which for him
were filled with the shadows of departed objects,–the daily companions of
his life. His faculties seemed to be renewing their strength from getting a
footing on this demonstration of the senses.
"Ah!" he said slowly, moving
toward his chair, "they've sold me up–they've sold me up."
Then seating himself, and laying down his
stick, while Luke left the room, he looked round again.
"They've left the big Bible," he
said. "It's got everything in,–when I was born and married; bring it
me, Tom."
The quarto Bible was laid open before him
at the fly-leaf, and while he was reading with slowly travelling eyes Mrs.
Tulliver entered the room, but stood in mute surprise to find her husband down
already, and with the great Bible before him.
"Ah," he said, looking at a spot
where his finger rested, "my mother was Margaret Beaton; she died when she
was forty-seven,–hers wasn't a long-lived family; we're our mother's
children, Gritty and me are,–we shall go to our last bed before
long."
He seemed to be pausing over the record of
his sister's birth and marriage, as if it were suggesting new thoughts to him;
then he suddenly looked up at Tom, and said, in a sharp tone of alarm:
"They haven't come upo' Moss for the
money as I lent him, have they?"
"No, father," said Tom;
"the note was burnt."
Mr. Tulliver turned his eyes on the page
again, and presently said:
"Ah–Elizabeth Dodson–it's
eighteen year since I married her––"
"Come next Ladyday," said Mrs.
Tulliver, going up to his side and looking at the page.
Her husband fixed his eyes earnestly on
her face.
"Poor Bessy," he said, "you
was a pretty lass then,–everybody said so,–and I used to think you
kept your good looks rarely. But you're sorely aged; don't you bear me
ill-will–I meant to do well by you–we promised one another for
better or for worse––"
"But I never thought it 'ud be so for
worse as this," said poor Mrs. Tulliver, with the strange, scared look
that had come over her of late; "and my poor father gave me away–and
to come on so all at once––"
"Oh, mother!" said Maggie,
"don't talk in that way."
"No, I know you won't let your poor
mother speak–that's been the way all my life–your father never
minded what I said–it 'ud have been o' no use for me to beg and
pray–and it 'ud be no use now, not if I was to go down o' my hands and
knees––"
"Don't say so, Bessy," said Mr.
Tulliver, whose pride, in these first moments of humiliation, was in abeyance
to the sense of some justice in his wife's reproach. "It there's anything
left as I could do to make you amends, I wouldn't say you nay."
"Then we might stay here and get a
living, and I might keep among my own sisters,–and me been such a good
wife to you, and never crossed you from week's end to week's end–and they
all say so–they say it 'ud be nothing but right, only you're so turned
against Wakem."
"Mother," said Tom, severely,
"this is not the time to talk about that."
"Let her be," said Mr. Tulliver.
"Say what you mean, Bessy."
"Why, now the mill and the land's all
Wakem's, and he's got everything in his hands, what's the use o' setting your
face against him, when he says you may stay here, and speaks as fair as can be,
and says you may manage the business, and have thirty shillings a-week, and a
horse to ride about to market? And where have we got to put our heads? We must
go into one o' the cottages in the village,–and me and my children
brought down to that,–and all because you must set your mind against
folks till there's no turning you."
Mr. Tulliver had sunk back in his chair
trembling.
"You may do as you like wi' me,
Bessy," he said, in a low voice; "I've been the bringing of you to
poverty–this world's too many for me–I'm nought but a bankrupt;
it's no use standing up for anything now."
"Father," said Tom, "I
don't agree with my mother or my uncles, and I don't think you ought to submit
to be under Wakem. I get a pound a-week now, and you can find something else to
do when you get well."
"Say no more, Tom, say no more; I've
had enough for this day. Give me a kiss, Bessy, and let us bear one another no
ill-will; we shall never be young again–this world's been too many for
me."
Chapter IX
An Item Added to the Family Register
That first moment of renunciation and
submission was followed by days of violent struggle in the miller's mind, as
the gradual access of bodily strength brought with it increasing ability to
embrace in one view all the conflicting conditions under which he found
himself. Feeble limbs easily resign themselves to be tethered, and when we are
subdued by sickness it seems possible to us to fulfil pledges which the old
vigor comes back and breaks. There were times when poor Tulliver thought the
fulfilment of his promise to Bessy was something quite too hard for human
nature; he had promised her without knowing what she was going to
say,–she might as well have asked him to carry a ton weight on his back.
But again, there were many feelings arguing on her side, besides the sense that
life had been made hard to her by having married him. He saw a possibility, by
much pinching, of saving money out of his salary toward paying a second
dividend to his creditors, and it would not be easy elsewhere to get a situation
such as he could fill.
He had led an easy life, ordering much and
working little, and had no aptitude for any new business. He must perhaps take
to day-labor, and his wife must have help from her sisters,–a prospect
doubly bitter to him, now they had let all Bessy's precious things be sold,
probably because they liked to set her against him, by making her feel that he
had brought her to that pass. He listened to their admonitory talk, when they
came to urge on him what he was bound to do for poor Bessy's sake, with averted
eyes, that every now and then flashed on them furtively when their backs were
turned. Nothing but the dread of needing their help could have made it an
easier alternative to take their advice.
But the strongest influence of all was the
love of the old premises where he had run about when he was a boy, just as Tom
had done after him. The Tullivers had lived on this spot for generations, and
he had sat listening on a low stool on winter evenings while his father talked
of the old half-timbered mill that had been there before the last great floods
which damaged it so that his grandfather pulled it down and built the new one.
It was when he got able to walk about and look at all the old objects that he
felt the strain of his clinging affection for the old home as part of his life,
part of himself. He couldn't bear to think of himself living on any other spot
than this, where he knew the sound of every gate door, and felt that the shape
and color of every roof and weather-stain and broken hillock was good, because
his growing senses had been fed on them. Our instructed vagrancy, which was
hardly time to linger by the hedgerows, but runs away early to the tropics, and
is at home with palms and banyans,–which is nourished on books of travel
and stretches the theatre of its imagination to the Zambesi,–can hardly
get a dim notion of what an old-fashioned man like Tulliver felt for this spot,
where all his memories centred, and where life seemed like a familiar
smooth-handled tool that the fingers clutch with loving ease. And just now he
was living in that freshened memory of the far-off time which comes to us in
the passive hours of recovery from sickness.
"Ay, Luke," he said one
afternoon, as he stood looking over the orchard gate, "I remember the day
they planted those apple-trees. My father was a huge man for planting,–it
was like a merry-making to him to get a cart full o' young trees; and I used to
stand i' the cold with him, and follow him about like a dog."
Then he turned round, and leaning against
the gate-post, looked at the opposite buildings.
"The old mill 'ud miss me, I think,
Luke. There's a story as when the mill changes hands, the river's angry; I've
heard my father say it many a time. There's no telling whether there mayn't be
summat in the story, for this
is a puzzling world, and Old Harry's got a finger in it–it's been too
many for me, I know."
"Ay, sir," said Luke, with
soothing sympathy, "what wi' the rust on the wheat, an' the firin' o' the
ricks an' that, as I've seen i' my time,–things often looks comical;
there's the bacon fat wi' our last pig run away like butter,–it leaves
nought but a scratchin'."
"It's just as if it was yesterday,
now," Mr. Tulliver went on, "when my father began the malting. I
remember, the day they finished the malt-house, I thought summat great was to
come of it; for we'd a plum-pudding that day and a bit of a feast, and I said
to my mother,–she was a fine dark-eyed woman, my mother was,–the
little wench 'ull be as like her as two peas." Here Mr. Tulliver put his
stick between his legs, and took out his snuff-box, for the greater enjoyment
of this anecdote, which dropped from him in fragments, as if he every other
moment lost narration in vision. "I was a little chap no higher much than
my mother's knee,–she was sore fond of us children, Gritty and
me,–and so I said to her, 'Mother,' I said, 'shall we have plum-pudding every day because o' the malt-house?
She used to tell me o' that till her dying day. She was but a young woman when
she died, my mother was. But it's forty good year since they finished the
malt-house, and it isn't many days out of 'em all as I haven't looked out into
the yard there, the first thing in the morning,–all weathers, from year's
end to year's end. I should go off my head in a new place. I should be like as
if I'd lost my way. It's all hard, whichever way I look at it,–the
harness 'ull gall me, but it 'ud be summat to draw along the old road, instead
of a new un."
"Ay, sir," said Luke,
"you'd be a deal better here nor in some new place. I can't abide new
places mysen: things is allays awk'ard,–narrow-wheeled waggins, belike,
and the stiles all another sort, an' oat-cake i' some places, tow'rt th' head
o' the Floss, there. It's poor work, changing your country-side."
"But I doubt, Luke, they'll be for
getting rid o' Ben, and making you do with a lad; and I must help a bit wi' the
mill. You'll have a worse place."
"Ne'er mind, sir," said Luke,
"I sha'n't plague mysen. I'n been wi' you twenty year, an' you can't get
twenty year wi' whistlin' for 'em, no more nor you can make the trees grow: you
mun wait till God A'mighty sends 'em. I can't abide new victual nor new faces, I can't,–you niver know but what
they'll gripe you."
The walk was finished in silence after
this, for Luke had disburthened himself of thoughts to an extent that left his
conversational resources quite barren, and Mr. Tulliver had relapsed from his recollections
into a painful meditation on the choice of hardships before him. Maggie noticed
that he was unusually absent that evening at tea; and afterward he sat leaning
forward in his chair, looking at the ground, moving his lips, and shaking his
head from time to time. Then he looked hard at Mrs. Tulliver, who was knitting
opposite him, then at Maggie, who, as she bent over her sewing, was intensely
conscious of some drama going forward in her father's mind. Suddenly he took up
the poker and broke the large coal fiercely.
"Dear heart, Mr. Tulliver, what can
you be thinking of?" said his wife, looking up in alarm; "it's very
wasteful, breaking the coal, and we've got hardly any large coal left, and I
don't know where the rest is to come from."
"I don't think you're quite so well
to-night, are you, father?" said Maggie; "you seem uneasy."
"Why, how is it Tom doesn't
come?" said Mr. Tulliver, impatiently.
"Dear heart! is it time? I must go
and get his supper," said Mrs. Tulliver, laying down her knitting, and
leaving the room.
"It's nigh upon half-past
eight," said Mr. Tulliver. "He'll be here soon. Go, go and get the
big Bible, and open it at the beginning, where everything's set down. And get
the pen and ink."
Maggie obeyed, wondering; but her father
gave no further orders, and only sat listening for Tom's footfall on the
gravel, apparently irritated by the wind, which had risen, and was roaring so
as to drown all other sounds. There was a strange light in his eyes that rather
frightened Maggie; she began
to wish that Tom would come, too.
"There he is, then," said Mr.
Tulliver, in an excited way, when the knock came at last. Maggie went to open
the door, but her mother came out of the kitchen hurriedly, saying, "Stop
a bit, Maggie; I'll open it."
Mrs. Tulliver had begun to be a little
frightened at her boy, but she was jealous of every office others did for him.
"Your supper's ready by the
kitchen-fire, my boy," she said, as he took off his hat and coat.
"You shall have it by yourself, just as you like, and I won't speak to
you."
"I think my father wants Tom,
mother," said Maggie; "he must come into the parlor first."
Tom entered with his usual saddened
evening face, but his eyes fell immediately on the open Bible and the inkstand,
and he glanced with a look of anxious surprise at his father, who was
saying,–
"Come, come, you're late; I want
you."
"Is there anything the matter,
father?" said Tom.
"You sit down, all of you," said
Mr. Tulliver, peremptorily.
"And, Tom, sit down here; I've got
something for you to write i' the Bible."
They all three sat down, looking at him.
He began to speak slowly, looking first at his wife.
"I've made up my mind, Bessy, and
I'll be as good as my word to you. There'll be the same grave made for us to
lie down in, and we mustn't be bearing one another ill-will. I'll stop in the
old place, and I'll serve under Wakem, and I'll serve him like an honest man;
there's no Tulliver but what's honest, mind that, Tom,"–here his
voice rose,–"they'll have it to throw up against me as I paid a dividend,
but it wasn't my fault; it was because there's raskills in the world. They've
been too many for me, and I must give in. I'll put my neck in
harness,–for you've a right to say as I've brought you into trouble,
Bessy,–and I'll serve him as honest as if he was no raskill; I'm an
honest man, though I shall never hold my head up no more. I'm a tree as is
broke–a tree as is broke."
He paused and looked on the ground. Then
suddenly raising his head, he said, in a louder yet deeper tone:
"But I won't forgive him! I know what
they say, he never meant me any harm. That's the way Old Harry props up the
rascals. He's been at the bottom of everything; but he's a fine
gentleman,–I know, I know. I shouldn't ha' gone to law, they say. But who
made it so as there was no arbitratin', and no justice to be got? It signifies
nothing to him, I know that; he's one o' them fine gentlemen as get money by
doing business for poorer folks, and when he's made beggars of 'em he'll give
'em charity. I won't forgive him! I wish he might be punished with shame till
his own son 'ud like to forget him. I wish he may do summat as they'd make him
work at the treadmill! But he won't,–he's too big a raskill to let the
law lay hold on him. And you mind this, Tom,–you never forgive him neither,
if you mean to be my son. There'll maybe come a time when you may make him
feel; it'll never come to me; I'n got my head under the yoke. Now
write–write it i' the Bible."
"Oh, father, what?" said Maggie,
sinking down by his knee, pale and trembling. "It's wicked to curse and
bear malice."
"It isn't wicked, I tell you,"
said her father, fiercely. "It's wicked as the raskills should prosper;
it's the Devil's doing. Do as I tell you, Tom. Write."
"What am I to write?" said Tom,
with gloomy submission.
"Write as your father, Edward
Tulliver, took service under John Wakem, the man as had helped to ruin him,
because I'd promised my wife to make her what amends I could for her trouble,
and because I wanted to die in th' old place where I was born and my father was
born. Put that i' the right words–you know how–and then write, as I
don't forgive Wakem for all that; and for all I'll serve him honest, I wish
evil may befall him. Write that."
There was a dead silence as Tom's pen
moved along the paper; Mrs. Tulliver looked scared, and Maggie trembled like a
leaf.
"Now let me hear what you've
wrote," said Mr. Tulliver, Tom read aloud slowly.
"Now write–write as you'll
remember what Wakem's done to your father, and you'll make him and his feel it,
if ever the day comes. And sign your name Thomas Tulliver."
"Oh no, father, dear father!"
said Maggie, almost choked with fear. "You shouldn't make Tom write
that."
"Be quiet, Maggie!" said Tom.
"I shall write it."
Book IV
The Valley of Humiliation
Chapter I
A Variation of Protestantism Unknown to Bossuet
Journeying down the Rhone on a summer's
day, you have perhaps felt the sunshine made dreary by those ruined villages
which stud the banks in certain parts of its course, telling how the swift
river once rose, like an angry, destroying god, sweeping down the feeble
generations whose breath is in their nostrils, and making their dwellings a
desolation. Strange contrast, you may have thought, between the effect produced
on us by these dismal remnants of commonplace houses, which in their best days
were but the sign of a sordid life, belonging in all its details to our own
vulgar era, and the effect produced by those ruins on the castled Rhine, which
have crumbled and mellowed into such harmony with the green and rocky steeps
that they seem to have a natural fitness, like the mountain-pine; nay, even in
the day when they were built they must have had this fitness, as if they had
been raised by an earth-born race, who had inherited from their mighty parent a
sublime instinct of form. And that was a day of romance; If those robber-barons
were somewhat grim and drunken ogres, they had a certain grandeur of the wild
beast in them,–they were forest boars with tusks, tearing and rending,
not the ordinary domestic grunter; they represented the demon forces forever in
collision with beauty, virtue, and the gentle uses of life; they made a fine
contrast in the picture with the wandering minstrel, the soft-lipped princess,
the pious recluse, and the timid Israelite. That was a time of color, when the
sunlight fell on glancing steel and floating banners; a time of adventure and
fierce struggle,–nay, of living, religious art and religious enthusiasm;
for were not cathedrals built in those days, and did not great emperors leave
their Western palaces to die before the infidel strongholds in the sacred East?
Therefore it is that these Rhine castles thrill me with a sense of poetry; they
belong to the grand historic life of humanity, and raise up for me the vision
of an echo. But these dead-tinted, hollow-eyed, angular skeletons of villages
on the Rhone oppress me with the feeling that human life–very much of
it–is a narrow, ugly, grovelling existence, which even calamity does not
elevate, but rather tends to exhibit in all its bare vulgarity of conception;
and I have a cruel conviction that the lives these ruins are the traces of were
part of a gross sum of obscure vitality, that will be swept into the same
oblivion with the generations of ants and beavers.
Perhaps something akin to this oppressive
feeling may have weighed upon you in watching this old-fashioned family life on
the banks of the Floss, which even sorrow hardly suffices to lift above the
level of the tragi-comic. It is a sordid life, you say, this of the Tullivers
and Dodsons, irradiated by no sublime principles, no romantic visions, no
active, self-renouncing faith; moved by none of those wild, uncontrollable
passions which create the dark shadows of misery and crime; without that
primitive, rough simplicity of wants, that hard, submissive, ill-paid toil,
that childlike spelling-out of what nature has written, which gives its poetry
to peasant life. Here one has conventional worldly notions and habits without
instruction and without polish, surely the most prosaic form of human life;
proud respectability in a gig of unfashionable build; worldliness without
side-dishes. Observing these people narrowly, even when the iron hand of
misfortune has shaken them from their unquestioning hold on the world, one sees
little trace of religion, still less of a distinctively Christian creed. Their
belief in the Unseen, so far as it manifests itself at all, seems to be rather
a pagan kind; their moral notions, though held with strong tenacity, seem to
have no standard beyond hereditary custom. You could not live among such
people; you are stifled for want of an outlet toward something beautiful,
great, or noble; you are irritated with these dull men and women, as a kind of
population out of keeping with the earth on which they live,–with this
rich plain where the great river flows forever onward, and links the small
pulse of the old English town with the beatings of the world's mighty heart. A
vigorous superstition, that lashes its gods or lashes its own back, seems to be
more congruous with the mystery of the human lot, than the mental condition of
these emmet-like Dodsons and Tullivers.
I share with you this sense of oppressive
narrowness; but it is necessary that we should feel it, if we care to
understand how it acted on the lives of Tom and Maggie,–how it has acted
on young natures in many generations, that in the onward tendency of human
things have risen above the mental level of the generation before them, to
which they have been nevertheless tied by the strongest fibres of their hearts.
The suffering, whether of martyr or victim, which belongs to every historical
advance of mankind, is represented in this way in every town, and by hundreds
of obscure hearths; and we need not shrink from this comparison of small things
with great; for does not science tell us that its highest striving is after the
ascertainment of a unity which shall bind the smallest things with the
greatest? In natural science, I have understood, there is nothing petty to the
mind that has a large vision of relations, and to which every single object
suggests a vast sum of conditions. It is surely the same with the observation
of human life.
Certainly the religious and moral ideas of
the Dodsons and Tullivers were of too specific a kind to be arrived at
deductively, from the statement that they were part of the Protestant
population of Great Britain. Their theory of life had its core of soundness, as
all theories must have on which decent and prosperous families have been reared
and have flourished; but it had the very slightest tincture of theology. If, in
the maiden days of the Dodson sisters, their Bibles opened more easily at some
parts than others, it was because of dried tulip-petals, which had been
distributed quite impartially, without preference for the historical,
devotional, or doctrinal. Their religion was of a simple, semi-pagan kind, but
there was no heresy in it,–if heresy properly means choice,–for
they didn't know there was any other religion, except that of chapel-goers,
which appeared to run in families, like asthma. How should they know? The vicar of their pleasant rural parish
was not a controversialist, but a good hand at whist, and one who had a joke
always ready for a blooming female parishioner. The religion of the Dodsons
consisted in revering whatever was customary and respectable; it was necessary
to be baptized, else one could not be buried in the church-yard, and to take
the sacrament before death, as a security against more dimly understood perils;
but it was of equal necessity to have the proper pall-bearers and well-cured
hams at one's funeral, and to leave an unimpeachable will. A Dodson would not
be taxed with the omission of anything that was becoming, or that belonged to
that eternal fitness of things which was plainly indicated in the practice of
the most substantial parishioners, and in the family traditions,–such as
obedience to parents, faithfulness to kindred, industry, rigid honesty, thrift,
the thorough scouring of wooden and copper utensils, the hoarding of coins
likely to disappear from the currency, the production of first-rate commodities
for the market, and the general preference of whatever was home-made. The
Dodsons were a very proud race, and their pride lay in the utter frustration of
all desire to tax them with a breach of traditional duty or propriety. A
wholesome pride in many respects, since it identified honor with perfect
integrity, thoroughness of work, and faithfulness to admitted rules; and
society owes some worthy qualities in many of her members to mothers of the Dodson
class, who made their butter and their fromenty well, and would have felt
disgraced to make it otherwise. To be honest and poor was never a Dodson motto,
still less to seem rich though being poor; rather, the family badge was to be
honest and rich, and not only rich, but richer than was supposed. To live
respected, and have the proper bearers at your funeral, was an achievement of
the ends of existence that would be entirely nullified if, on the reading of
your will, you sank in the opinion of your fellow-men, either by turning out to
be poorer than they expected, or by leaving your money in a capricious manner,
without strict regard to degrees of kin. The right thing must always be done
toward kindred. The right thing was to correct them severely, if they were
other than a credit to the family, but still not to alienate from them the
smallest rightful share in the family shoebuckles and other property. A
conspicuous quality in the Dodson character was its genuineness; its vices and
virtues alike were phases of a proud honest egoism, which had a hearty dislike
to whatever made against its own credit and interest, and would be frankly hard
of speech to inconvenient "kin," but would never forsake or ignore
them,–would not let them want bread, but only require them to eat it with
bitter herbs.
The same sort of traditional belief ran in
the Tulliver veins, but it was carried in richer blood, having elements of
generous imprudence, warm affection, and hot-tempered rashness. Mr. Tulliver's
grandfather had been heard to say that he was descended from one Ralph
Tulliver, a wonderfully clever fellow, who had ruined himself. It is likely
enough that the clever Ralph was a high liver, rode spirited horses, and was
very decidedly of his own opinion. On the other hand, nobody had ever heard of
a Dodson who had ruined himself; it was not the way of that family.
If such were the views of life on which
the Dodsons and Tullivers had been reared in the praiseworthy past of Pitt and
high prices, you will infer from what you already know concerning the state of
society in St. Ogg's, that there had been no highly modifying influence to act
on them in their maturer life. It was still possible, even in that later time
of anti-Catholic preaching, for people to hold many pagan ideas, and believe
themselves good church-people, notwithstanding; so we need hardly feel any
surprise at the fact that Mr. Tulliver, though a regular church-goer, recorded
his vindictiveness on the fly-leaf of his Bible. It was not that any harm could
be said concerning the vicar of that charming rural parish to which Dorlcote
Mill belonged; he was a man of excellent family, an irreproachable bachelor, of
elegant pursuits,–had taken honors, and held a fellowship. Mr. Tulliver
regarded him with dutiful respect, as he did everything else belonging to the
church-service; but he considered that church was one thing and common-sense
another, and he wanted nobody to tell him
what commonsense was. Certain seeds which are required to find a nidus for
themselves under unfavorable circumstances have been supplied by nature with an
apparatus of hooks, so that they will get a hold on very unreceptive surfaces.
The spiritual seed which had been scattered over Mr. Tulliver had apparently
been destitute of any corresponding provision, and had slipped off to the winds
again, from a total absence of hooks.
Chapter II
The Torn Nest Is Pierced by the Thorns
There is something sustaining in the very
agitation that accompanies the first shocks of trouble, just as an acute pain
is often a stimulus, and produces an excitement which is transient strength. It
is in the slow, changed life that follows; in the time when sorrow has become
stale, and has no longer an emotive intensity that counteracts its pain; in the
time when day follows day in dull, unexpectant sameness, and trial is a dreary
routine,–it is then that despair threatens; it is then that the
peremptory hunger of the soul is felt, and eye and ear are strained after some
unlearned secret of our existence, which shall give to endurance the nature of
satisfaction.
This time of utmost need was come to
Maggie, with her short span of thirteen years. To the usual precocity of the
girl, she added that early experience of struggle, of conflict between the
inward impulse and outward fact, which is the lot of every imaginative and
passionate nature; and the years since she hammered the nails into her wooden
Fetish among the worm-eaten shelves of the attic had been filled with so eager
a life in the triple world of Reality, Books, and Waking Dreams, that Maggie
was strangely old for her years in everything except in her entire want of that
prudence and self-command which were the qualities that made Tom manly in the
midst of his intellectual boyishness. And now her lot was beginning to have a still,
sad monotony, which threw her more than ever on her inward self. Her father was
able to attend to business again, his affairs were settled, and he was acting
as Wakem's manager on the old spot. Tom went to and fro every morning and
evening, and became more and more silent in the short intervals at home; what
was there to say? One day was like another; and Tom's interest in life, driven
back and crushed on every other side, was concentrating itself into the one
channel of ambitious resistance to misfortune. The peculiarities of his father
and mother were very irksome to him, now they were laid bare of all the
softening accompaniments of an easy, prosperous home; for Tom had very clear,
prosaic eyes, not apt to be dimmed by mists of feeling or imagination. Poor
Mrs. Tulliver, it seemed, would never recover her old self, her placid
household activity; how could she? The objects among which her mind had moved
complacently were all gone,–all the little hopes and schemes and
speculations, all the pleasant little cares about her treasures which had made
the world quite comprehensible to her for a quarter of a century, since she had
made her first purchase of the sugar-tongs, had been suddenly snatched away
from her, and she remained bewildered in this empty life. Why that should have
happened to her which had not happened to other women remained an insoluble
question by which she expressed her perpetual ruminating comparison of the past
with the present. It was piteous to see the comely woman getting thinner and more
worn under a bodily as well as mental restlessness, which made her often wander
about the empty house after her work was done, until Maggie, becoming alarmed
about her, would seek her, and bring her down by telling her how it vexed Tom
that she was injuring her health by never sitting down and resting herself. Yet
amidst this helpless imbecility there was a touching trait of humble,
self-devoting maternity, which made Maggie feel tenderly toward her poor mother
amidst all the little wearing griefs caused by her mental feebleness. She would
let Maggie do none of the work that was heaviest and most soiling to the hands,
and was quite peevish when Maggie attempted to relieve her from her
grate-brushing and scouring: "Let it alone, my dear; your hands 'ull get
as hard as hard," she would say; "it's your mother's place to do
that. I can't do the sewing–my eyes fail me." And she would still
brush and carefully tend Maggie's hair, which she had become reconciled to, in
spite of its refusal to curl, now it was so long and massy. Maggie was not her
pet child, and, in general, would have been much better if she had been quite
different; yet the womanly heart, so bruised in its small personal desires,
found a future to rest on in the life of this young thing, and the mother
pleased herself with wearing out her own hands to save the hands that had so
much more life in them.
But the constant presence of her mother's
regretful bewilderment was less painful to Maggie than that of her father's
sullen, incommunicative depression. As long as the paralysis was upon him, and
it seemed as if he might always be in a childlike condition of
dependence,–as long as he was still only half awakened to his
trouble,–Maggie had felt the strong tide of pitying love almost as an
inspiration, a new power, that would make the most difficult life easy for his
sake; but now, instead of childlike dependence, there had come a taciturn, hard
concentration of purpose, in strange contrast with his old vehement
communicativeness and high spirit; and this lasted from day to day, and from
week to week, the dull eye never brightening with any eagerness or any joy. It
is something cruelly incomprehensible to youthful natures, this sombre sameness
in middle-aged and elderly people, whose life has resulted in disappointment
and discontent, to whose faces a smile becomes so strange that the sad lines
all about the lips and brow seem to take no notice of it, and it hurries away
again for want of a welcome. "Why will they not kindle up and be glad
sometimes?" thinks young elasticity. "It would be so easy if they
only liked to do it." And these leaden clouds that never part are apt to
create impatience even in the filial affection that streams forth in nothing
but tenderness and pity in the time of more obvious affliction.
Mr. Tulliver lingered nowhere away from
home; he hurried away from market, he refused all invitations to stay and chat,
as in old times, in the houses where he called on business. He could not be
reconciled with his lot. There was no attitude in which his pride did not feel
its bruises; and in all behavior toward him, whether kind or cold, he detected
an allusion to the change in his circumstances. Even the days on which Wakem
came to ride round the land and inquire into the business were not so black to
him as those market-days on which he had met several creditors who had accepted
a composition from him. To save something toward the repayment of those
creditors was the object toward which he was now bending all his thoughts and
efforts; and under the influence of this all-compelling demand of his nature,
the somewhat profuse man, who hated to be stinted or to stint any one else in
his own house, was gradually metamorphosed into the keen-eyed grudger of
morsels. Mrs. Tulliver could not economize enough to satisfy him, in their food
and firing; and he would eat nothing himself but what was of the coarsest
quality. Tom, though depressed and strongly repelled by his father's
sullenness, and the dreariness of home, entered thoroughly into his father's feelings
about paying the creditors; and the poor lad brought his first quarter's money,
with a delicious sense of achievement, and gave it to his father to put into
the tin box which held the savings. The little store of sovereigns in the tin
box seemed to be the only sight that brought a faint beam of pleasure into the
miller's eyes,–faint and transient, for it was soon dispelled by the
thought that the time would be long–perhaps longer than his
life,–before the narrow savings could remove the hateful incubus of debt.
A deficit of more than five hundred pounds, with the accumulating interest,
seemed a deep pit to fill with the savings from thirty shillings a-week, even
when Tom's probable savings were to be added. On this one point there was
entire community of feeling in the four widely differing beings who sat round
the dying fire of sticks, which made a cheap warmth for them on the verge of
bedtime. Mrs. Tulliver carried the proud integrity of the Dodsons in her blood,
and had been brought up to think that to wrong people of their money, which was
another phrase for debt, was a sort of moral pillory; it would have been
wickedness, to her mind, to have run counter to her husband's desire to
"do the right thing," and retrieve his name. She had a confused, dreamy
notion that, if the creditors were all paid, her plate and linen ought to come
back to her; but she had an inbred perception that while people owed money they
were unable to pay, they couldn't rightly call anything their own. She murmured
a little that Mr. Tulliver so peremptorily refused to receive anything in
repayment from Mr. and Mrs. Moss; but to all his requirements of household
economy she was submissive to the point of denying herself the cheapest
indulgences of mere flavor; her only rebellion was to smuggle into the kitchen
something that would make rather a better supper than usual for Tom.
These narrow notions about debt, held by
the old fashioned Tullivers, may perhaps excite a smile on the faces of many
readers in these days of wide commercial views and wide philosophy, according
to which everything rights itself without any trouble of ours. The fact that my
tradesman is out of pocket by me is to be looked at through the serene
certainty that somebody else's tradesman is in pocket by somebody else; and
since there must be bad debts in the world, why, it is mere egoism not to like
that we in particular should make them instead of our fellow-citizens. I am
telling the history of very simple people, who had never had any illuminating
doubts as to personal integrity and honor.
Under all this grim melancholy and
narrowing concentration of desire, Mr. Tulliver retained the feeling toward his
"little wench" which made her presence a need to him, though it would
not suffice to cheer him. She was still the desire of his eyes; but the sweet
spring of fatherly love was now mingled with bitterness, like everything else.
When Maggie laid down her work at night, it was her habit to get a low stool
and sit by her father's knee, leaning her cheek against it. How she wished he
would stroke her head, or give some sign that he was soothed by the sense that
he had a daughter who loved him! But now she got no answer to her little
caresses, either from her father or from Tom,–the two idols of her life.
Tom was weary and abstracted in the short intervals when he was at home, and
her father was bitterly preoccupied with the thought that the girl was growing
up, was shooting up into a woman; and how was she to do well in life? She had a
poor chance for marrying, down in the world as they were. And he hated the
thought of her marrying poorly, as her aunt Gritty had done; that would be a thing to make him turn
in his grave,–the little wench so pulled down by children and toil, as
her aunt Moss was. When uncultured minds, confined to a narrow range of
personal experience, are under the pressure of continued misfortune, their
inward life is apt to become a perpetually repeated round of sad and bitter
thoughts; the same words, the same scenes, are revolved over and over again, the
same mood accompanies them; the end of the year finds them as much what they
were at the beginning as if they were machines set to a recurrent series of
movements.
The sameness of the days was broken by few
visitors. Uncles and aunts paid only short visits now; of course, they could
not stay to meals, and the constraint caused by Mr. Tulliver's savage silence,
which seemed to add to the hollow resonance of the bare, uncarpeted room when
the aunts were talking, heightened the unpleasantness of these family visits on
all sides, and tended to make them rare. As for other acquaintances, there is a
chill air surrounding those who are down in the world, and people are glad to
get away from them, as from a cold room; human beings, mere men and women,
without furniture, without anything to offer you, who have ceased to count as
anybody, present an embarrassing negation of reasons for wishing to see them,
or of subjects on which to converse with them. At that distant day, there was a
dreary isolation in the civilized Christian society of these realms for
families that had dropped below their original level, unless they belonged to a
sectarian church, which gets some warmth of brotherhood by walling in the
sacred fire.
Chapter III
A Voice from the Past
One afternoon, when the chestnuts were
coming into flower, Maggie had brought her chair outside the front door, and
was seated there with a book on her knees. Her dark eyes had wandered from the
book, but they did not seem to be enjoying the sunshine which pierced the screen
of jasmine on the projecting porch at her right, and threw leafy shadows on her
pale round cheek; they seemed rather to be searching for something that was not
disclosed by the sunshine. It had been a more miserable day than usual; her
father, after a visit of Wakem's had had a paroxysm of rage, in which for some
trifling fault he had beaten the boy who served in the mill. Once before, since
his illness, he had had a similar paroxysm, in which he had beaten his horse,
and the scene had left a lasting terror in Maggie's mind. The thought had
risen, that some time or other he might beat her mother if she happened to
speak in her feeble way at the wrong moment. The keenest of all dread with her
was lest her father should add to his present misfortune the wretchedness of
doing something irretrievably disgraceful. The battered school-book of Tom's
which she held on her knees could give her no fortitude under the pressure of
that dread; and again and again her eyes had filled with tears, as they
wandered vaguely, seeing neither the chestnut-trees, nor the distant horizon,
but only future scenes of home-sorrow.
Suddenly she was roused by the sound of
the opening gate and of footsteps on the gravel. It was not Tom who was
entering, but a man in a sealskin cap and a blue plush waistcoat, carrying a
pack on his back, and followed closely by a bullterrier of brindled coat and
defiant aspect.
"Oh, Bob, it's you!" said
Maggie, starting up with a smile of pleased recognition, for there had been no
abundance of kind acts to efface the recollection of Bob's generosity;
"I'm so glad to see you."
"Thank you, Miss," said Bob,
lifting his cap and showing a delighted face, but immediately relieving himself
of some accompanying embarrassment by looking down at his dog, and saying in a
tone of disgust, "Get out wi' you, you thunderin' sawney!"
"My brother is not at home yet,
Bob," said Maggie; "he is always at St. Ogg's in the daytime."
"Well, Miss," said Bob, "I
should be glad to see Mr. Tom, but that isn't just what I'm come for,–look
here!"
Bob was in the act of depositing his pack
on the door-step, and with it a row of small books fastened together with
string.
Apparently, however, they were not the
object to which he wished to call Maggie's attention, but rather something which
he had carried under his arm, wrapped in a red handkerchief.
"See here!" he said again,
laying the red parcel on the others and unfolding it; "you won't think I'm
a-makin' too free, Miss, I hope, but I lighted on these books, and I thought
they might make up to you a bit for them as you've lost; for I heared you speak
o' picturs,–an' as for picturs, look
here!"
The opening of the red handkerchief had
disclosed a superannuated "Keepsake" and six or seven numbers of a
"Portrait Gallery," in royal octavo; and the emphatic request to look
referred to a portrait of George the Fourth in all the majesty of his depressed
cranium and voluminous neckcloth.
"There's all sorts o' genelmen
here," Bob went on, turning over the leaves with some excitement,
"wi' all sorts o' nones,–an' some bald an' some wi'
wigs,–Parlament genelmen, I reckon. An' here," he added, opening the
"Keepsake,"–"here's
ladies for you, some wi' curly hair and some wi' smooth, an' some a-smiling wi'
their heads o' one side, an' some as if they were goin' to cry,–look
here,–a-sittin' on the ground out o' door, dressed like the ladies I'n
seen get out o' the carriages at the balls in th' Old Hall there. My eyes! I
wonder what the chaps wear as go a-courtin' 'em! I sot up till the clock was
gone twelve last night, a-lookin' at 'em,–I did,–till they stared
at me out o' the picturs as if they'd know when I spoke to 'em. But, lors! I
shouldn't know what to say to 'em. They'll be more fittin' company for you,
Miss; and the man at the book-stall, he said they banged iverything for
picturs; he said they was a fust-rate article."
"And you've bought them for me,
Bob?" said Maggie, deeply touched by this simple kindness. "How very,
very good of you! But I'm afraid you gave a great deal of money for them."
"Not me!" said Bob. "I'd
ha' gev three times the money if they'll make up to you a bit for them as was
sold away from you, Miss. For I'n niver forgot how you looked when you fretted
about the books bein' gone; it's stuck by me as if it was a pictur hingin'
before me. An' when I see'd the book open upo' the stall, wi' the lady lookin'
out of it wi' eyes a bit like your'n when you was frettin',–you'll excuse
my takin' the liberty, Miss,–I thought I'd make free to buy it for you,
an' then I bought the books full o' genelmen to match; an'
then"–here Bob took up the small stringed packet of
books–"I thought you might like a bit more print as well as the
picturs, an' I got these for a sayso,–they're cram-full o' print, an' I
thought they'd do no harm comin' along wi' these bettermost books. An' I hope
you won't say me nay, an' tell me as you won't have 'em, like Mr. Tom did wi'
the suvreigns."
"No, indeed, Bob," said Maggie,
"I'm very thankful to you for thinking of me, and being so good to me and
Tom. I don't think any one ever did such a kind thing for me before. I haven't
many friends who care for me."
"Hev a dog, Miss!–they're
better friends nor any Christian," said Bob, laying down his pack again,
which he had taken up with the intention of hurrying away; for he felt
considerable shyness in talking to a young lass like Maggie, though, as he
usually said of himself, "his tongue overrun him" when he began to
speak. "I can't give you Mumps, 'cause he'd break his heart to go away
from me–eh, Mumps, what do you say, you riff-raff?" (Mumps declined
to express himself more diffusely than by a single affirmative movement of his
tail.) "But I'd get you a pup, Miss, an' welcome."
"No, thank you, Bob. We have a yard
dog, and I mayn't keep a dog of my own."
"Eh, that's a pity; else there's a
pup,–if you didn't mind about it not being thoroughbred; its mother acts
in the Punch show,–an uncommon sensible bitch; she means more sense wi'
her bark nor half the chaps can put into their talk from breakfast to sundown. There's
one chap carries pots,–a poor, low trade as any on the road,–he
says, 'Why Toby's nought but a mongrel; there's nought to look at in her.' But
I says to him, 'Why, what are you yoursen but a mongrel? There wasn't much
pickin' o' your feyther an'
mother, to look at you.' Not but I like a bit o' breed myself, but I can't
abide to see one cur grinnin' at another. I wish you good evenin', Miss,"
said Bob, abruptly taking up his pack again, under the consciousness that his
tongue was acting in an undisciplined manner.
"Won't you come in the evening some
time, and see my brother, Bob?" said Maggie.
"Yes, Miss, thank you–another
time. You'll give my duty to him, if you please. Eh, he's a fine growed chap,
Mr. Tom is; he took to growin' i' the legs, an' I didn't."
The pack was down again, now, the hook of
the stick having somehow gone wrong.
"You don't call Mumps a cur, I
suppose?" said Maggie, divining that any interest she showed in Mumps
would be gratifying to his master.
"No, Miss, a fine way off that,"
said Bob, with pitying smile; "Mumps is as fine a cross as you'll see
anywhere along the Floss, an' I'n been up it wi' the barge times enow. Why, the
gentry stops to look at him; but you won't catch Mumps a-looking at the gentry
much,–he minds his own business, he does."
The expression of Mump's face, which
seemed to be tolerating the superfluous existence of objects in general, was
strongly confirmatory of this high praise.
"He looks dreadfully surly,"
said Maggie. "Would he let me pat him?"
"Ay, that would he, and thank you. He
knows his company, Mumps does. He isn't a dog as 'ull be caught wi'
gingerbread; he'd smell a thief a good deal stronger nor the gingerbread, he
would. Lors, I talk to him by th' hour together, when I'm walking i' lone
places, and if I'n done a bit o' mischief, I allays tell him. I'n got no
secrets but what Mumps knows 'em. He knows about my big thumb, he does."
"Your big thumb–what's that,
Bob?" said Maggie.
"That's what it is, Miss," said
Bob, quickly, exhibiting a singularly broad specimen of that difference between
the man and the monkey. "It tells i' measuring out the flannel, you see. I
carry flannel, 'cause it's light for my pack, an' it's dear stuff, you see, so
a big thumb tells. I clap my thumb at the end o' the yard and cut o' the hither
side of it, and the old women aren't up to't."
"But Bob," said Maggie, looking
serious, "that's cheating; I don't like to hear you say that."
"Don't you, Miss?" said Bob
regretfully. "Then I'm sorry I said it. But I'm so used to talking to
Mumps, an' he doesn't mind a bit o' cheating, when it's them skinflint women,
as haggle an' haggle, an' 'ud like to get their flannel for nothing, an' 'ud
niver ask theirselves how I got my dinner out on't. I niver cheat anybody as
doesn't want to cheat me, Miss,–lors, I'm a honest chap, I am; only I
must hev a bit o' sport, an' now I don't go wi' th' ferrets, I'n got no varmint
to come over but them haggling women. I wish you good evening, Miss."
"Good-by, Bob. Thank you very much
for bringing me the books. And come again to see Tom."
"Yes, Miss," said Bob, moving on
a few steps; then turning half round he said, "I'll leave off that trick
wi' my big thumb, if you don't think well on me for it, Miss; but it 'ud be a
pity, it would. I couldn't find another trick so good,–an' what 'ud be
the use o' havin' a big thumb? It might as well ha' been narrow."
Maggie, thus exalted into Bob's exalting
Madonna, laughed in spite of herself; at which her worshipper's blue eyes
twinkled too, and under these favoring auspices he touched his cap and walked
away.
The days of chivalry are not gone,
notwithstanding Burke's grand dirge over them; they live still in that far-off
worship paid by many a youth and man to the woman of whom he never dreams that
he shall touch so much as her little finger or the hem of her robe. Bob, with
the pack on his back, had as respectful an adoration for this dark-eyed maiden
as if he had been a knight in armor calling aloud on her name as he pricked on
to the fight.
That gleam of merriment soon died away
from Maggie's face, and perhaps only made the returning gloom deeper by
contrast. She was too dispirited even to like answering questions about Bob's
present of books, and she carried them away to her bedroom, laying them down
there and seating herself on her one stool, without caring to look at them just
yet. She leaned her cheek against the window-frame, and thought that the
light-hearted Bob had a lot much happier than hers.
Maggie's sense of loneliness, and utter
privation of joy, had deepened with the brightness of advancing spring. All the
favorite outdoor nooks about home, which seemed to have done their part with
her parents in nurturing and cherishing her, were now mixed up with the
home-sadness, and gathered no smile from the sunshine. Every affection, every
delight the poor child had had, was like an aching nerve to her. There was no
music for her any more,–no piano, no harmonized voices, no delicious
stringed instruments, with their passionate cries of imprisoned spirits sending
a strange vibration through her frame. And of all her school-life there was
nothing left her now but her little collection of school-books, which she
turned over with a sickening sense that she knew them all, and they were all
barren of comfort. Even at school she had often wished for books with more in them; everything she learned
there seemed like the ends of long threads that snapped immediately. And
now–without the indirect charm of school-emulation–Télémaque was
mere bran; so were the hard, dry questions on Christian Doctrine; there was no
flavor in them, no strength. Sometimes Maggie thought she could have been
contented with absorbing fancies; if she could have had all Scott's novels and
all Byron's poems!–then, perhaps, she might have found happiness enough
to dull her sensibility to her actual daily life. And yet they were hardly what
she wanted. She could make dream-worlds of her own, but no dream-world would
satisfy her now. She wanted some explanation of this hard, real life,–the
unhappy-looking father, seated at the dull breakfast-table; the childish,
bewildered mother; the little sordid tasks that filled the hours, or the more
oppressive emptiness of weary, joyless leisure; the need of some tender,
demonstrative love; the cruel sense that Tom didn't mind what she thought or
felt, and that they were no longer playfellows together; the privation of all
pleasant things that had come to her
more than to others,–she wanted some key that would enable her to
understand, and in understanding, to endure, the heavy weight that had fallen
on her young heart. If she had been taught "real learning and wisdom, such
as great men knew," she thought she should have held the secrets of life;
if she had only books, that she might learn for herself what wise men knew!
Saints and martyrs had never interested Maggie so much as sages and poets. She
knew little of saints and martyrs, and had gathered, as a general result of her
teaching, that they were a temporary provision against the spread of
Catholicism, and had all died at Smithfield.
In one of these meditations it occurred to
her that she had forgotten Tom's school-books, which had been sent home in his
trunk. But she found the stock unaccountably shrunk down to the few old ones
which had been well thumbed,–the Latin Dictionary and Grammar, a Delectus,
a torn Eutropius, the well-worn Virgil, Aldrich's Logic, and the exasperating
Euclid. Still, Latin, Euclid, and Logic would surely be a considerable step in
masculine wisdom,–in that knowledge which made men contented, and even
glad to live. Not that the yearning for effectual wisdom was quite unmixed; a
certain mirage would now and then rise on the desert of the future, in which
she seemed to see herself honored for her surprising attainments. And so the
poor child, with her soul's hunger and her illusions of self-flattery, began to
nibble at this thick-rinded fruit of the tree of knowledge, filling her vacant
hours with Latin, geometry, and the forms of the syllogism, and feeling a gleam
of triumph now and then that her understanding was quite equal to these
peculiarly masculine studies. For a week or two she went on resolutely enough,
though with an occasional sinking of heart, as if she had set out toward the
Promised Land alone, and found it a thirsty, trackless, uncertain journey. In
the severity of her early resolution, she would take Aldrich out into the
fields, and then look off her book toward the sky, where the lark was
twinkling, or to the reeds and bushes by the river, from which the waterfowl
rustled forth on its anxious, awkward flight,–with a startled sense that
the relation between Aldrich and this living world was extremely remote for
her. The discouragement deepened as the days went on, and the eager heart
gained faster and faster on the patient mind. Somehow, when she sat at the window
with her book, her eyes would
fix themselves blankly on the outdoor sunshine; then they would fill with
tears, and sometimes, if her mother was not in the room, the studies would all
end in sobbing. She rebelled against her lot, she fainted under its loneliness,
and fits even of anger and hatred toward her father and mother, who were so
unlike what she would have them to be; toward Tom, who checked her, and met her
thought or feeling always by some thwarting difference,–would flow out
over her affections and conscience like a lava stream, and frighten her with a
sense that it was not difficult for her to become a demon. Then her brain would
be busy with wild romances of a flight from home in search of something less
sordid and dreary; she would go to some great man–Walter Scott,
perhaps–and tell him how wretched and how clever she was, and he would
surely do something for her. But, in the middle of her vision, her father would
perhaps enter the room for the evening, and, surprised that she sat still without
noticing him, would say complainingly, "Come, am I to fetch my slippers
myself?" The voice pierced through Maggie like a sword; there was another
sadness besides her own, and she had been thinking of turning her back on it
and forsaking it.
This afternoon, the sight of Bob's
cheerful freckled face had given her discontent a new direction. She thought it
was part of the hardship of her life that there was laid upon her the burthen
of larger wants than others seemed to feel,–that she had to endure this
wide, hopeless yearning for that something, whatever it was, that was greatest
and best on this earth. She wished she could have been like Bob, with his
easily satisfied ignorance, or like Tom, who had something to do on which he
could fix his mind with a steady purpose, and disregard everything else. Poor
child! as she leaned her head against the window-frame, with her hands clasped
tighter and tighter, and her foot beating the ground, she was as lonely in her
trouble as if she had been the only gril in the civilized world of that day who
had come out of her school-life with a soul untrained for inevitable struggles,
with no other part of her inherited share in the hard-won treasures of thought
which generations of painful toil have laid up for the race of men, than shreds
and patches of feeble literature and false history, with much futile
information about Saxon and other kings of doubtful example, but unhappily
quite without that knowledge of the irreversible laws within and without her,
which, governing the habits, becomes morality, and developing the feelings of
submission and dependence, becomes religion,–as lonely in her trouble as
if every other girl besides herself had been cherished and watched over by
elder minds, not forgetful of their own early time, when need was keen and
impulse strong.
At last Maggie's eyes glanced down on the
books that lay on the window-shelf, and she half forsook her reverie to turn
over listlessly the leaves of the "Portrait Gallery," but she soon
pushed this aside to examine the little row of books tied together with string.
"Beauties of the Spectator," "Rasselas," "Economy of
Human Life," "Gregory's Letters,"–she knew the sort of
matter that was inside all these; the "Christian Year,"–that
seemed to be a hymnbook, and she laid it down again; but Thomas à Kempis?–the name had
come across her in her reading, and she felt the satisfaction, which every one
knows, of getting some ideas to attach to a name that strays solitary in the
memory. She took up the little, old, clumsy book with some curiosity; it had
the corners turned down in many places, and some hand, now forever quiet, had
made at certain passages strong pen-and-ink marks, long since browned by time.
Maggie turned from leaf to leaf, and read where the quiet hand pointed:
"Know that the love of thyself doth hurt thee more than anything in the
world…. If thou seekest this or that, and wouldst be here or there to
enjoy thy own will and pleasure, thou shalt never be quiet nor free from care;
for in everything somewhat will be wanting, and in every place there will be
some that will cross thee…. Both above and below, which way soever thou
dost turn thee, everywhere thou shalt find the Cross; and everywhere of
necessity thou must have patience, if thou wilt have inward peace, and enjoy an
everlasting crown…. If thou desirest to mount unto this height, thou must
set out courageously, and lay the axe to the root, that thou mayest pluck up
and destroy that hidden inordinate inclination to thyself, and unto all private
and earthly good. On this sin, that a man inordinately loveth himself, almost
all dependeth, whatsoever is thoroughly to be overcome; which evil being once
overcome and subdued, there will presently ensue great peace and
tranquillity…. It is but little thou sufferest in comparison of them that
have suffered so much, were so strongly tempted, so grievously afflicted, so
many ways tried and exercised. Thou oughtest therefore to call to mind the more
heavy sufferings of others, that thou mayest the easier bear thy little adversities.
And if they seem not little unto thee, beware lest thy impatience be the cause
thereof…. Blessed are those ears that receive the whispers of the divine
voice, and listen not to the whisperings of the world. Blessed are those ears
which hearken not unto the voice which soundeth outwardly, but unto the Truth,
which teacheth inwardly."
A strange thrill of awe passed through
Maggie while she read, as if she had been wakened in the night by a strain of
solemn music, telling of beings whose souls had been astir while hers was in
stupor. She went on from one brown mark to another, where the quiet hand seemed
to point, hardly conscious that she was reading, seeming rather to listen while
a low voice said;
"Why dost thou here gaze about, since
this is not the place of thy rest? In heaven ought to be thy dwelling, and all
earthly things are to be looked on as they forward thy journey thither. All
things pass away, and thou together with them. Beware thou cleavest not unto
them, lest thou be entangled and perish…. If a man should give all his
substance, yet it is as nothing. And if he should do great penances, yet are
they but little. And if he should attain to all knowledge, he is yet far off.
And if he should be of great virtue, and very fervent devotion, yet is there
much wanting; to wit, one thing, which is most necessary for him. What is that?
That having left all, he leave himself, and go wholly out of himself, and
retain nothing of self-love…. I have often said unto thee, and now again
I say the same, Forsake thyself, resign thyself, and thou shalt enjoy much
inward peace…. Then shall all vain imaginations, evil perturbations, and
superfluous cares fly away; then shall immoderate fear leave thee, and
inordinate love shall die."
Maggie drew a long breath and pushed her
heavy hair back, as if to see a sudden vision more clearly. Here, then, was a
secret of life that would enable her to renounce all other secrets; here was a
sublime height to be reached without the help of outward things; here was
insight, and strength, and conquest, to be won by means entirely within her own
soul, where a supreme Teacher was waiting to be heard. It flashed through her
like the suddenly apprehended solution of a problem, that all the miseries of
her young life had come from fixing her heart on her own pleasure, as if that
were the central necessity of the universe; and for the first time she saw the
possibility of shifting the position from which she looked at the gratification
of her own desires,–of taking her stand out of herself, and looking at
her own life as an insignificant part of a divinely guided whole. She read on
and on in the old book, devouring eagerly the dialogues with the invisible
Teacher, the pattern of sorrow, the source of all strength; returning to it
after she had been called away, and reading till the sun went down behind the
willows. With all the hurry of an imagination that could never rest in the
present, she sat in the deepening twilight forming plans of self-humiliation
and entire devotedness; and in the ardor of first discovery, renunciation
seemed to her the entrance into that satisfaction which she had so long been
craving in vain. She had not perceived–how could she until she had lived
longer?–the inmost truth of the old monk's out-pourings, that
renunciation remains sorrow, though a sorrow borne willingly. Maggie was still
panting for happiness, and was in ecstasy because she had found the key to it.
She knew nothing of doctrines and systems, of mysticism or quietism; but this
voice out of the far-off middle ages was the direct communication of a human
soul's belief and experience, and came to Maggie as an unquestioned message.
I suppose that is the reason why the small
old-fashioned book, for which you need only pay sixpence at a book-stall, works
miracles to this day, turning bitter waters into sweetness; while expensive
sermons and treatises, newly issued, leave all things as they were before. It
was written down by a hand that waited for the heart's prompting; it is the chronicle
of a solitary, hidden anguish, struggle, trust, and triumph, not written on
velvet cushions to teach endurance to those who are treading with bleeding feet
on the stones. And so it remains to all time a lasting record of human needs
and human consolations; the voice of a brother who, ages ago, felt and suffered
and renounced,–in the cloister, perhaps, with serge gown and tonsured
head, with much chanting and long fasts, and with a fashion of speech different
from ours,–but under the same silent far-off heavens, and with the same
passionate desires, the same strivings, the same failures, the same weariness.
In writing the history of unfashionable
families, one is apt to fall into a tone of emphasis which is very far from
being the tone of good society, where principles and beliefs are not only of an
extremely moderate kind, but are always presupposed, no subjects being eligible
but such as can be touched with a light and graceful irony. But then good
society has its claret and its velvet carpets, its dinner-engagements six weeks
deep, its opera and its faëry ball-rooms; rides off its ennui on thoroughbred horses; lounges
at the club; has to keep clear of crinoline vortices; gets its science done by
Faraday, and its religion by the superior clergy who are to be met in the best
houses,–how should it have time or need for belief and emphasis? But good
society, floated on gossamer wings of light irony, is of very expensive
production; requiring nothing less than a wide and arduous national life condensed
in unfragrant deafening factories, cramping itself in mines, sweating at
furnaces, grinding, hammering, weaving under more or less oppression of
carbonic acid, or else, spread over sheepwalks, and scattered in lonely houses
and huts on the clayey or chalky corn-lands, where the rainy days look dreary.
This wide national life is based entirely on emphasis,–the emphasis of
want, which urges it into all the activities necessary for the maintenance of
good society and light irony; it spends its heavy years often in a chill,
uncarpeted fashion, amidst family discord unsoftened by long corridors. Under
such circumstances, there are many among its myriads of souls who have
absolutely needed an emphatic belief, life in this unpleasurable shape
demanding some solution even to unspeculative minds,–just as you inquire
into the stuffing of your couch when anything galls you there, whereas
eider-down and perfect French springs excite no question. Some have an emphatic
belief in alcohol, and seek their ekstasis
or outside standing-ground in gin; but the rest require something that good
society calls "enthusiasm," something that will present motives in an
entire absence of high prizes; something that will give patience and feed human
love when the limbs ache with weariness, and human looks are hard upon us;
something, clearly, that lies outside personal desires, that includes
resignation for ourselves and active love for what is not ourselves. Now and
then that sort of enthusiasm finds a far-echoing voice that comes from an experience
springing out of the deepest need; and it was by being brought within the long
lingering vibrations of such a voice that Maggie, with her girl's face and
unnoted sorrows, found an effort and a hope that helped her through years of
loneliness, making out a faith for herself without the aid of established
authorities and appointed guides; for they were not at hand, and her need was
pressing. From what you know of her, you will not be surprised that she threw
some exaggeration and wilfulness, some pride and impetuosity, even into her
self-renunciation; her own life was still a drama for her, in which she
demanded of herself that her part should be played with intensity. And so it
came to pass that she often lost the spirit of humility by being excessive in
the outward act; she often strove after too high a flight, and came down with
her poor little half-fledged wings dabbled in the mud. For example, she not
only determined to work at plain sewing, that she might contribute something
toward the fund in the tin box, but she went, in the first instance, in her
zeal of self-mortification, to ask for it at a linen shop in St. Ogg's, instead
of getting it in a more quiet and indirect way; and could see nothing but what
was entirely wrong and unkind, nay, persecuting, in Tom's reproof of her for
this unnecessary act. "I don't like my
sister to do such things," said Tom, "I'll take care that the debts are paid, without your
lowering yourself in that way." Surely there was some tenderness and
bravery mingled with the worldliness and self-assertion of that little speech;
but Maggie held it as dross, overlooking the grains of gold, and took Tom's
rebuke as one of her outward crosses. Tom was very hard to her, she used to
think, in her long night-watchings,–to her who had always loved him so;
and then she strove to be contented with that hardness, and to require nothing.
That is the path we all like when we set out on our abandonment of
egoism,–the path of martyrdom and endurance, where the palm-branches
grow, rather than the steep highway of tolerance, just allowance, and
self-blame, where there are no leafy honors to be gathered and worn.
The old books, Virgil, Euclid, and
Aldrich–that wrinkled fruit of the tree of knowledge–had been all
laid by; for Maggie had turned her back on the vain ambition to share the
thoughts of the wise. In her first ardor she flung away the books with a sort
of triumph that she had risen above the need of them; and if they had been her
own, she would have burned them, believing that she would never repent. She
read so eagerly and constantly in her three books, the Bible, Thomas à Kempis,
and the "Christian Year" (no longer rejected as a
"hymn-book"), that they filled her mind with a continual stream of
rhythmic memories; and she was too ardently learning to see all nature and life
in the light of her new faith, to need any other material for her mind to work
on, as she sat with her well-plied needle, making shirts and other complicated
stitchings, falsely called "plain,"–by no means plain to Maggie,
since wristband and sleeve and the like had a capability of being sewed in
wrong side outward in moments of mental wandering.
Hanging diligently over her sewing, Maggie
was a sight any one might have been pleased to look at. That new inward life of
hers, notwithstanding some volcanic upheavings of imprisoned passions, yet
shone out in her face with a tender soft light that mingled itself as added
loveliness with the gradually enriched color and outline of her blossoming
youth. Her mother felt the change in her with a sort of puzzled wonder that
Maggie should be "growing up so good"; it was amazing that this once
"contrairy" child was become so submissive, so backward to assert her
own will. Maggie used to look up from her work and find her mother's eyes fixed
upon her; they were watching and waiting for the large young glance, as if her
elder frame got some needful warmth from it. The mother was getting fond of her
tall, brown girl,–the only bit of furniture now on which she could bestow
her anxiety and pride; and Maggie, in spite of her own ascetic wish to have no
personal adornment, was obliged to give way to her mother about her hair, and
submit to have the abundant black locks plaited into a coronet on the summit of
her head, after the pitiable fashion of those antiquated times.
"Let your mother have that bit o'
pleasure, my dear," said Mrs. Tulliver; "I'd trouble enough with your
hair once."
So Maggie, glad of anything that would
soothe her mother, and cheer their long day together, consented to the vain
decoration, and showed a queenly head above her old frocks, steadily refusing,
however, to look at herself in the glass. Mrs. Tulliver liked to call the
father's attention to Maggie's hair and other unexpected virtues, but he had a
brusk reply to give.
"I knew well enough what she'd be,
before now,–it's nothing new to me. But it's a pity she isn't made o'
commoner stuff; she'll be thrown away, I doubt,–there'll be nobody to
marry her as is fit for her."
And Maggie's graces of mind and body fed
his gloom. He sat patiently enough while she read him a chapter, or said
something timidly when they were alone together about trouble being turned into
a blessing. He took it all as part of his daughter's goodness, which made his
misfortunes the sadder to him because they damaged her chance in life. In a
mind charged with an eager purpose and an unsatisfied vindictiveness, there is
no room for new feelings; Mr. Tulliver did not want spiritual
consolation–he wanted to shake off the degradation of debt, and to have
his revenge.
The family sitting-room was a long room
with a window at each end; one looking toward the croft and along the Ripple to
the banks of the Floss, the other into the mill-yard. Maggie was sitting with
her work against the latter window when she saw Mr. Wakem entering the yard, as
usual, on his fine black horse; but not alone, as usual. Some one was with
him,–a figure in a cloak, on a handsome pony. Maggie had hardly time to
feel that it was Philip come back, before they were in front of the window, and
he was raising his hat to her; while his father, catching the movement by a
side-glance, looked sharply round at them both.
Maggie hurried away from the window and
carried her work upstairs; for Mr. Wakem sometimes came in and inspected the
books, and Maggie felt that the meeting with Philip would be robbed of all
pleasure in the presence of the two fathers. Some day, perhaps, she could see
him when they could just shake hands, and she could tell him that she
remembered his goodness to Tom, and the things he had said to her in the old
days, though they could never be friends any more. It was not at all agitating
to Maggie to see Philip again; she retained her childish gratitude and pity
toward him, and remembered his cleverness; and in the early weeks of her loneliness
she had continually recalled the image of him among the people who had been
kind to her in life, often wishing she had him for a brother and a teacher, as
they had fancied it might have been, in their talk together. But that sort of
wishing had been banished along with other dreams that savored of seeking her
own will; and she thought, besides, that Philip might be altered by his life
abroad,–he might have become worldly, and really not care about her
saying anything to him now. And yet his face was wonderfully little
altered,–it was only a larger, more manly copy of the pale,
small-featured boy's face, with the gray eyes, and the boyish waving brown
hair; there was the old deformity to awaken the old pity; and after all her
meditations, Maggie felt that she really should
like to say a few words to him. He might still be melancholy, as he always used
to be, and like her to look at him kindly. She wondered if he remembered how he
used to like her eyes; with that thought Maggie glanced toward the square looking-glass
which was condemned to hang with its face toward the wall, and she half started
from her seat to reach it down; but she checked herself and snatched up her
work, trying to repress the rising wishes by forcing her memory to recall
snatches of hymns, until she saw Philip and his father returning along the
road, and she could go down again.
It was far on in June now, and Maggie was
inclined to lengthen the daily walk which was her one indulgence; but this day
and the following she was so busy with work which must be finished that she
never went beyond the gate, and satisfied her need of the open air by sitting
out of doors. One of her frequent walks, when she was not obliged to go to St.
Ogg's, was to a spot that lay beyond what was called the "Hill,"–an
insignificant rise of ground crowned by trees, lying along the side of the road
which ran by the gates of Dorlcote Mill. Insignificant I call it, because in
height it was hardly more than a bank; but there may come moments when Nature
makes a mere bank a means toward a fateful result; and that is why I ask you to
imagine this high bank crowned with trees, making an uneven wall for some
quarter of a mile along the left side of Dorlcote Mill and the pleasant fields
behind it, bounded by the murmuring Ripple. Just where this line of bank sloped
down again to the level, a by-road turned off and led to the other side of the
rise, where it was broken into very capricious hollows and mounds by the
working of an exhausted stone-quarry, so long exhausted that both mounds and
hollows were now clothed with brambles and trees, and here and there by a
stretch of grass which a few sheep kept close-nibbled. In her childish days
Maggie held this place, called the Red Deeps, in very great awe, and needed all
her confidence in Tom's bravery to reconcile her to an excursion
thither,–visions of robbers and fierce animals haunting every hollow. But
now it had the charm for her which any broken ground, any mimic rock and
ravine, have for the eyes that rest habitually on the level; especially in
summer, when she could sit on a grassy hollow under the shadow of a branching
ash, stooping aslant from the steep above her, and listen to the hum of
insects, like tiniest bells on the garment of Silence, or see the sunlight
piercing the distant boughs, as if to chase and drive home the truant heavenly
blue of the wild hyacinths. In this June time, too, the dog-roses were in their
glory, and that was an additional reason why Maggie should direct her walk to
the Red Deeps, rather than to any other spot, on the first day she was free to
wander at her will,–a pleasure she loved so well, that sometimes, in her
ardors of renunciation, she thought she ought to deny herself the frequent
indulgence in it.
You may see her now, as she walks down the
favorite turning and enters the Deeps by a narrow path through a group of
Scotch firs, her tall figure and old lavender gown visible through an
hereditary black silk shawl of some wide-meshed net-like material; and now she
is sure of being unseen she takes off her bonnet and ties it over her arm. One
would certainly suppose her to be farther on in life than her seventeenth
year–perhaps because of the slow resigned sadness of the glance from
which all search and unrest seem to have departed; perhaps because her
broad-chested figure has the mould of early womanhood. Youth and health have
withstood well the involuntary and voluntary hardships of her lot, and the
nights in which she has lain on the hard floor for a penance have left no
obvious trace; the eyes are liquid, the brown cheek is firm and round, the full
lips are red. With her dark coloring and jet crown surmounting her tall figure,
she seems to have a sort of kinship with the grand Scotch firs, at which she is
looking up as if she loved them well. Yet one has a sense of uneasiness in
looking at her,–a sense of opposing elements, of which a fierce collision
is imminent; surely there is a hushed expression, such as one often sees in
older faces under borderless caps, out of keeping with the resistant youth,
which one expects to flash out in a sudden, passionate glance, that will
dissipate all the quietude, like a damp fire leaping out again when all seemed
safe.
But Maggie herself was not uneasy at this
moment. She was clamly enjoying the free air, while she looked up at the old
fir-trees, and thought that those broken ends of branches were the records of
past storms, which had only made the red stems soar higher. But while her eyes
were still turned upward, she became conscious of a moving shadow cast by the
evening sun on the grassy path before her, and looked down with a startled
gesture to see Philip Wakem, who first raised his hat, and then, blushing
deeply, came forward to her and put out his hand. Maggie, too, colored with
surprise, which soon gave way to pleasure. She put out her hand and looked down
at the deformed figure before her with frank eyes, filled for the moment with
nothing but the memory of her child's feelings,–a memory that was always
strong in her. She was the first to speak.
"You startled me," she said,
smiling faintly; "I never meet any one here. How came you to be walking
here? Did you come to meet me?"
It was impossible not to perceive that
Maggie felt herself a child again.
"Yes, I did," said Philip, still
embarrassed; "I wished to see you very much. I watched a long while
yesterday on the bank near your house to see if you would come out, but you
never came. Then I watched again to-day, and when I saw the way you took, I
kept you in sight and came down the bank, behind there. I hope you will not be
displeased with me."
"No," said Maggie, with simple
seriousness, walking on as if she meant Philip to accompany her, "I'm very
glad you came, for I wished very much to have an opportunity of speaking to
you. I've never forgotten how good you were long ago to Tom, and me too; but I
was not sure that you would remember us so well. Tom and I have had a great
deal of trouble since then, and I think that
makes one think more of what happened before the trouble came."
"I can't believe that you have
thought of me so much as I have thought of you," said Philip, timidly.
"Do you know, when I was away, I made a picture of you as you looked that
morning in the study when you said you would not forget me."
Philip drew a large miniature-case from
his pocket, and opened it. Maggie saw her old self leaning on a table, with her
black locks hanging down behind her ears, looking into space, with strange,
dreamy eyes. It was a water-color sketch, of real merit as a portrait.
"Oh dear," said Maggie, smiling,
and flushed with pleasure, "what a queer little girl I was! I remember
myself with my hair in that way, in that pink frock. I really was like a gypsy. I dare say I am
now," she added, after a little pause; "am I like what you expected
me to be?"
The words might have been those of a
coquette, but the full, bright glance Maggie turned on Philip was not that of a
coquette. She really did hope he liked her face as it was now, but it was
simply the rising again of her innate delight in admiration and love. Philip
met her eyes and looked at her in silence for a long moment, before he said
quietly, "No, Maggie."
The light died out a little from Maggie's
face, and there was a slight trembling of the lip. Her eyelids fell lower, but
she did not turn away her head, and Philip continued to look at her. Then he
said slowly:
"You are very much more beautiful
than I thought you would be."
"Am I?" said Maggie, the
pleasure returning in a deeper flush. She turned her face away from him and
took some steps, looking straight before her in silence, as if she were
adjusting her consciousness to this new idea. Girls are so accustomed to think
of dress as the main ground of vanity, that, in abstaining from the
looking-glass, Maggie had thought more of abandoning all care for adornment
than of renouncing the contemplation of her face. Comparing herself with
elegant, wealthy young ladies, it had not occurred to her that she could
produce any effect with her person. Philip seemed to like the silence well. He
walked by her side, watching her face, as if that sight left no room for any
other wish. They had passed from among the fir-trees, and had now come to a
green hollow almost surrounded by an amphitheatre of the pale pink dog-roses.
But as the light about them had brightened, Maggie's face had lost its glow.
She stood still when they were in the
hollows, and looking at Philip again, she said in a serious, sad voice:
"I wish we could have been
friends,–I mean, if it would have been good and right for us. But that is
the trial I have to bear in everything; I may not keep anything I used to love
when I was little. The old books went; and Tom is different, and my father. It
is like death. I must part with everything I cared for when I was a child. And
I must part with you; we must never take any notice of each other again. That
was what I wanted to speak to you for. I wanted to let you know that Tom and I
can't do as we like about such things, and that if I behave as if I had
forgotten all about you, it is not out of envy or pride–or–or any bad
feeling."
Maggie spoke with more and more sorrowful
gentleness as she went on, and her eyes began to fill with tears. The deepening
expression of pain on Philip's face gave him a stronger resemblance to his
boyish self, and made the deformity appeal more strongly to her pity.
"I know; I see all that you
mean," he said, in a voice that had become feebler from discouragement;
"I know what there is to keep us apart on both sides. But it is not right,
Maggie,–don't you be angry with me, I am so used to call you Maggie in my
thoughts,–it is not right to sacrifice everything to other people's
unreasonable feelings. I would give up a great deal for my father; but I would not give up a
friendship or–or an attachment of any sort, in obedience to any wish of
his that I didn't recognize as right."
"I don't know," said Maggie,
musingly. "Often, when I have been angry and discontented, it has seemed
to me that I was not bound to give up anything; and I have gone on thinking
till it has seemed to me that I could think away all my duty. But no good has
ever come of that; it was an evil state of mind. I'm quite sure that whatever I
might do, I should wish in the end that I had gone without anything for myself,
rather than have made my father's life harder to him."
"But would it make his life harder if
we were to see each other sometimes?" said Philip. He was going to say
something else, but checked himself.
"Oh, I'm sure he wouldn't like it.
Don't ask me why, or anything about it," said Maggie, in a distressed
tone. "My father feels so strongly about some things. He is not at all
happy."
"No more am I," said Philip,
impetuously; "I am not happy."
"Why?" said Maggie, gently.
"At least–I ought not to ask–but I'm very, very sorry."
Philip turned to walk on, as if he had not
patience to stand still any longer, and they went out of the hollow, winding
amongst the trees and bushes in silence. After that last word of Philip's,
Maggie could not bear to insist immediately on their parting.
"I've been a great deal
happier," she said at last, timidly, "since I have given up thinking
about what is easy and pleasant, and being discontented because I couldn't have
my own will. Our life is determined for us; and it makes the mind very free
when we give up wishing, and only think of bearing what is laid upon us, and
doing what is given us to do."
"But I can't give up wishing,"
said Philip, impatiently. "It seems to me we can never give up longing and
wishing while we are thoroughly alive. There are certain things we feel to be
beautiful and good, and we must
hunger after them. How can we ever be satisfied without them until our feelings
are deadened? I delight in fine pictures; I long to be able to paint such. I
strive and strive, and can't produce what I want. That is pain to me, and
always will be pain, until my
faculties lose their keenness, like aged eyes. Then there are many other things
I long for,"–here Philip hesitated a little, and then
said,–"things that other men have, and that will always be denied
me. My life will have nothing great or beautiful in it; I would rather not have
lived."
"Oh, Philip," said Maggie,
"I wish you didn't feel so." But her heart began to beat with
something of Philip's discontent.
"Well, then," said he, turning
quickly round and fixing his gray eyes entreatingly on her face, "I should
be contented to live, if you would let me see you sometimes." Then,
checked by a fear which her face suggested, he looked away again and said more
calmly, "I have no friend to whom I can tell everything, no one who cares
enough about me; and if I could only see you now and then, and you would let me
talk to you a little, and show me that you cared for me, and that we may always
be friends in heart, and help each other, then I might come to be glad of
life."
"But how can I see you, Philip?"
said Maggie, falteringly. (Could she really do him good? It would be very hard
to say "good-by" this day, and not speak to him again. Here was a new
interest to vary the days; it was so much easier to renounce the interest
before it came.)
"If you would let me see you here
sometimes,–walk with you here,–I would be contented if it were only
once or twice in a month. That
could injure no one's happiness, and it would sweeten my life. Besides,"
Philip went on, with all the inventive astuteness of love at one-and-twenty,
"if there is any enmity between those who belong to us, we ought all the
more to try and quench it by our friendship; I mean, that by our influence on
both sides we might bring about a healing of the wounds that have been made in
the past, if I could know everything about them. And I don't believe there is
any enmity in my own father's mind; I think he has proved the contrary."
Maggie shook her head slowly, and was
silent, under conflicting thoughts. It seemed to her inclination, that to see
Philip now and then, and keep up the bond of friendship with him, was something
not only innocent, but good; perhaps she might really help him to find
contentment as she had found it. The voice that said this made sweet music to
Maggie; but athwart it there came an urgent, monotonous warning from another
voice which she had been learning to obey,–the warning that such
interviews implied secrecy; implied doing something she would dread to be
discovered in, something that, if discovered, must cause anger and pain; and
that the admission of anything so near doubleness would act as a spiritual
blight. Yet the music would swell out again, like chimes borne onward by a
recurrent breeze, persuading her that the wrong lay all in the faults and
weaknesses of others, and that there was such a thing as futile sacrifice for
one to the injury of another. It was very cruel for Philip that he should be
shrunk from, because of an unjustifiable vindictiveness toward his
father,–poor Philip, whom some people would shrink from only because he
was deformed. The idea that he might become her lover or that her meeting him
could cause disapproval in that light, had not occurred to her; and Philip saw
the absence of this idea clearly enough, saw it with a certain pang, although
it made her consent to his request the less unlikely. There was bitterness to
him in the perception that Maggie was almost as frank and unconstrained toward
him as when she was a child.
"I can't say either yes or no,"
she said at last, turning round and walking toward the way she come; "I
must wait, lest I should decide wrongly. I must seek for guidance."
"May I come again, then, to-morrow,
or the next day, or next week?"
"I think I had better write,"
said Maggie, faltering again. "I have to go to St. Ogg's sometimes, and I
can put the letter in the post."
"Oh no," said Philip eagerly;
"that would not be so well. My father might see the
letter–and–he has not any enmity, I believe, but he views things
differently from me; he thinks a great deal about wealth and position. Pray let
me come here once more. Tell
me when it shall be; or if you can't tell me, I will come as often as I can
till I do see you."
"I think it must be so, then,"
said Maggie, "for I can't be quite certain of coming here any particular
evening."
Maggie felt a great relief in adjourning
the decision. She was free now to enjoy the minutes of companionship; she
almost thought she might linger a little; the next time they met she should
have to pain Philip by telling him her determination.
"I can't help thinking," she
said, looking smilingly at him, after a few moments of silence, "how
strange it is that we should have met and talked to each other, just as if it
had been only yesterday when we parted at Lorton. And yet we must both be very
much altered in those five years,–I think it is five years. How was it
you seemed to have a sort of feeling that I was the same Maggie? I was not
quite so sure that you would be the same; I know you are so clever, and you
must have seen and learnt so much to fill your mind; I was not quite sure you
would care about me now."
"I have never had any doubt that you
would be the same, whenever I migh see you," said Philip,–"I
mean, the same in everything that made me like you better than any one else. I
don't want to explain that; I don't think any of the strongest effects our
natures are susceptible of can ever be explained. We can neither detect the
process by which they are arrived at, nor the mode in which they act on us. The
greatest of painters only once painted a mysteriously divine child; he couldn't
have told how he did it, and we can't tell why we feel it to be divine. I think
there are stores laid up in our human nature that our understandings can make
no complete inventory of. Certain strains of music affect me so strangely; I
can never hear them without their changing my whole attitude of mind for a
time, and if the effect would last, I might be capable of heroisms."
"Ah! I know what you mean about
music; I feel so," said
Maggie, clasping her hands with her old impetuosity. "At least," she
added, in a saddened tone, "I used to feel so when I had any music; I
never have any now except the organ at church."
"And you long for it, Maggie?"
said Philip, looking at her with affectionate pity. "Ah, you can have very
little that is beautiful in your life. Have you many books? You were so fond of
them when you were a little girl."
They were come back to the hollow, round
which the dog-roses grew, and they both paused under the charm of the faëry
evening light, reflected from the pale pink clusters.
"No, I have given up books,"
said Maggie, quietly, "except a very, very few."
Philip had already taken from his pocket a
small volume, and was looking at the back as he said:
"Ah, this is the second volume, I
see, else you might have liked to take it home with you. I put it in my pocket
because I am studying a scene for a picture."
Maggie had looked at the back too, and saw
the title; it revived an old impression with overmastering force.
"'The Pirate,'" she said, taking
the book from Philip's hands. "Oh, I began that once; I read to where
Minna is walking with Cleveland, and I could never get to read the rest. I went
on with it in my own head, and I made several endings; but they were all unhappy.
I could never make a happy ending out of that beginning. Poor Minna! I wonder
what is the real end. For a long while I couldn't get my mind away from the
Shetland Isles,–I used to feel the wind blowing on me from the rough
sea."
Maggie spoke rapidly, with glistening
eyes.
"Take that volume home with you,
Maggie," said Philip, watching her with delight. "I don't want it
now. I shall make a picture of you instead,–you, among the Scotch firs
and the slanting shadows."
Maggie had not heard a word he had said;
she was absorbed in a page at which she had opened. But suddenly she closed the
book, and gave it back to Philip, shaking her head with a backward movement, as
if to say "avaunt" to floating visions.
"Do keep it, Maggie," said
Philip, entreatingly; "it will give you pleasure."
"No, thank you," said Maggie,
putting it aside with her hand and walking on. "It would make me in love
with this world again, as I used to be; it would make me long to see and know
many things; it would make me long for a full life."
"But you will not always be shut up
in your present lot; why should you starve your mind in that way? It is narrow
asceticism; I don't like to see you persisting in it, Maggie. Poetry and art
and knowledge are sacred and pure."
"But not for me, not for me,"
said Maggie, walking more hurriedly; "because I should want too much. I
must wait; this life will not last long."
"Don't hurry away from me without
saying 'good-by,' Maggie," said Philip, as they reached the group of
Scotch firs, and she continued still to walk along without speaking. "I
must not go any farther, I think, must I?"
"Oh no, I forgot; good-by," said
Maggie, pausing, and putting out her hand to him. The action brought her
feeling back in a strong current to Philip; and after they had stood looking at
each other in silence for a few moments, with their hands clasped, she said,
withdrawing her hand:
"I'm very grateful to you for
thinking of me all those years. It is very sweet to have people love us. What a
wonderful, beautiful thing it seems that God should have made your heart so
that you could care about a queer little girl whom you only knew for a few
weeks! I remember saying to you that I thought you cared for me more than Tom
did."
"Ah, Maggie," said Philip,
almost fretfully, "you would never love me so well as you love your
brother."
"Perhaps not," said Maggie,
simply; "but then, you know, the first thing I ever remember in my life is
standing with Tom by the side of the Floss, while he held my hand; everything
before that is dark to me. But I shall never forget you, though we must keep
apart."
"Don't say so, Maggie," said
Philip. "If I kept that little girl in my mind for five years, didn't I
earn some part in her? She ought not to take herself quite away from me."
"Not if I were free," said
Maggie; "but I am not, I must submit." She hesitated a moment, and
then added, "And I wanted to say to you, that you had better not take more
notice of my brother than just bowing to him. He once told me not to speak to
you again, and he doesn't change his mind–Oh dear, the sun is set. I am
too long away. Good-by." She gave him her hand once more.
"I shall come here as often as I can
till I see you again, Maggie. Have some feeling for me as well as for others."
"Yes, yes, I have," said Maggie,
hurrying away, and quickly disappearing behind the last fir-tree; though
Philip's gaze after her remained immovable for minutes as if he saw her still.
Maggie went home, with an inward conflict
already begun; Philip went home to do nothing but remember and hope. You can
hardly help blaming him severely. He was four or five years older than Maggie,
and had a full consciousness of his feeling toward her to aid him in foreseeing
the character his contemplated interviews with her would bear in the opinion of
a third person. But you must not suppose that he was capable of a gross
selfishness, or that he could have been satisfied without persuading himself
that he was seeking to infuse some happiness into Maggie's life,–seeking
this even more than any direct ends for himself. He could give her sympathy; he
could give her help. There was not the slightest promise of love toward him in
her manner; it was nothing more than the sweet girlish tenderness she had shown
him when she was twelve. Perhaps she would never love him; perhaps no woman
ever could love him. Well,
then, he would endure that; he should at least have the happiness of seeing
her, of feeling some nearness to her. And he clutched passionately the
possibility that she might
love him; perhaps the feeling would grow, if she could come to associate him
with that watchful tenderness which her nature would be so keenly alive to. If
any woman could love him, surely Maggie was that woman; there was such wealth
of love in her, and there was no one to claim it all. Then, the pity of it,
that a mind like hers should be withering in its very youth, like a young
forest-tree, for want of the light and space it was formed to flourish in!
Could he not hinder that, by persuading her out of her system of privation? He
would be her guardian angel; he would do anything, bear anything, for her
sake–except not seeing her.
Chapter II
Aunt Glegg Learns the Breadth of Bob's Thumb
While Maggie's life-struggles had lain
almost entirely within her own soul, one shadowy army fighting another, and the
slain shadows forever rising again, Tom was engaged in a dustier, noisier
warfare, grappling with more substantial obstacles, and gaining more definite
conquests. So it has been since the days of Hecuba, and of Hector, Tamer of
horses; inside the gates, the women with streaming hair and uplifted hands
offering prayers, watching the world's combat from afar, filling their long,
empty days with memories and fears; outside, the men, in fierce struggle with
things divine and human, quenching memory in the stronger light of purpose,
losing the sense of dread and even of wounds in the hurrying ardor of action.
From what you have seen of Tom, I think he
is not a youth of whom you would prophesy failure in anything he had thoroughly
wished; the wagers are likely to be on his side, notwithstanding his small
success in the classics. For Tom had never desired success in this field of
enterprise; and for getting a fine flourishing growth of stupidity there is
nothing like pouring out on a mind a good amount of subjects in which it feels
no interest. But now Tom's strong will bound together his integrity, his pride,
his family regrets, and his personal ambition, and made them one force,
concentrating his efforts and surmounting discouragements. His uncle Deane, who
watched him closely, soon began to conceive hopes of him, and to be rather
proud that he had brought into the employment of the firm a nephew who appeared
to be made of such good commercial stuff. The real kindness of placing him in
the warehouse first was soon evident to Tom, in the hints his uncle began to
throw out, that after a time he might perhaps be trusted to travel at certain
seasons, and buy in for the firm various vulgar commodities with which I need
not shock refined ears in this place; and it was doubtless with a view to this
result that Mr. Deane, when he expected to take his wine alone, would tell Tom
to step in and sit with him an hour, and would pass that hour in much lecturing
and catechising concerning articles of export and import, with an occasional
excursus of more indirect utility on the relative advantages to the merchants
of St. Ogg's of having goods brought in their own and in foreign
bottoms,–a subject on which Mr. Deane, as a ship-owner, naturally threw
off a few sparks when he got warmed with talk and wine.
Already, in the second year, Tom's salary
was raised; but all, except the price of his dinner and clothes, went home into
the tin box; and he shunned comradeship, lest it should lead him into expenses
in spite of himself. Not that Tom was moulded on the spoony type of the
Industrious Apprentice; he had a very strong appetite for pleasure,–would
have liked to be a Tamer of horses and to make a distinguished figure in all
neighboring eyes, dispensing treats and benefits to others with well-judged
liberality, and being pronounced one of the finest young fellows of those
parts; nay, he determined to achieve these things sooner or later; but his
practical shrewdness told him that the means to such achievements could only
lie for him in present abstinence and self-denial; there were certain
milestones to be passed, and one of the first was the payment of his father's
debts. Having made up his mind on that point, he strode along without swerving,
contracting some rather saturnine sternness, as a young man is likely to do who
has a premature call upon him for self-reliance. Tom felt intensely that common
cause with his father which springs from family pride, and was bent on being
irreproachable as a son; but his growing experience caused him to pass much
silent criticism on the rashness and imprudence of his father's past conduct;
their dispositions were not in sympathy, and Tom's face showed little radiance
during his few home hours. Maggie had an awe of him, against which she struggled
as something unfair to her consciousness of wider thoughts and deeper motives;
but it was of no use to struggle. A character at unity with itself–that
performs what it intends, subdues every counteracting impulse, and has no
visions beyond the distinctly possible–is strong by its very negations.
You may imagine that Tom's more and more
obvious unlikeness to his father was well fitted to conciliate the maternal
aunts and uncles; and Mr. Deane's favorable reports and predictions to Mr.
Glegg concerning Tom's qualifications for business began to be discussed
amongst them with various acceptance. He was likely, it appeared, to do the
family credit without causing it any expense and trouble. Mrs. Pullet had
always thought it strange if Tom's excellent complexion, so entirely that of
the Dodsons, did not argue a certainty that he would turn out well; his
juvenile errors of running down the peacock, and general disrespect to his
aunts, only indicating a tinge of Tulliver blood which he had doubtless
outgrown. Mr. Glegg, who had contracted a cautious liking for Tom ever since
his spirited and sensible behavior when the execution was in the house, was now
warming into a resolution to further his prospects actively,–some time,
when an opportunity offered of doing so in a prudent manner, without ultimate
loss; but Mrs. Glegg observed that she was not given to speak without book, as
some people were; that those who said least were most likely to find their
words made good; and that when the right moment came, it would be seen who
could do something better than talk. Uncle Pullet, after silent meditation for
a period of several lozenges, came distinctly to the conclusion, that when a
young man was likely to do well, it was better not to meddle with him.
Tom, meanwhile, had shown no disposition
to rely on any one but himself, though, with a natural sensitiveness toward all
indications of favorable opinion, he was glad to see his uncle Glegg look in on
him sometimes in a friendly way during business hours, and glad to be invited
to dine at his house, though he usually preferred declining on the ground that
he was not sure of being punctual. But about a year ago, something had occurred
which induced Tom to test his uncle Glegg's friendly disposition.
Bob Jakin, who rarely returned from one of
his rounds without seeing Tom and Maggie, awaited him on the bridge as he was
coming home from St. Ogg's one evening, that they might have a little private
talk. He took the liberty of asking if Mr. Tom had ever thought of making money
by trading a bit on his own account. Trading, how? Tom wished to know. Why, by
sending out a bit of a cargo to foreign ports; because Bob had a particular
friend who had offered to do a little business for him in that way in Laceham
goods, and would be glad to serve Mr. Tom on the same footing. Tom was
interested at once, and begged for full explanation, wondering he had not
thought of this plan before.
He was so well pleased with the prospect
of a speculation that might change the slow process of addition into multiplication,
that he at once determined to mention the matter to his father, and get his
consent to appropriate some of the savings in the tin box to the purchase of a
small cargo. He would rather not have consulted his father, but he had just
paid his last quarter's money into the tin box, and there was no other
resource. All the savings were there; for Mr. Tulliver would not consent to put
the money out at interest lest he should lose it. Since he had speculated in
the purchase of some corn, and had lost by it, he could not be easy without
keeping the money under his eye.
Tom approached the subject carefully, as
he was seated on the hearth with his father that evening, and Mr. Tulliver
listened, leaning forward in his arm-chair and looking up in Tom's face with a
sceptical glance. His first impulse was to give a positive refusal, but he was
in some awe of Tom's wishes, and since he had the sense of being an
"unlucky" father, he had lost some of his old peremptoriness and
determination to be master. He took the key of the bureau from his pocket, got
out the key of the large chest, and fetched down the tin box,–slowly, as
if he were trying to defer the moment of a painful parting. Then he seated
himself against the table, and opened the box with that little padlock-key
which he fingered in his waistcoat pocket in all vacant moments. There they
were, the dingy bank-notes and the bright sovereigns, and he counted them out
on the table–only a hundred and sixteen pounds in two years, after all
the pinching.
"How much do you want, then?" he
said, speaking as if the words burnt his lips.
"Suppose I begin with the thirty-six
pounds, father?" said Tom.
Mr. Tulliver separated this sum from the
rest, and keeping his hand over it, said:
"It's as much as I can save out o' my
pay in a year."
"Yes, father; it is such slow work,
saving out of the little money we get. And in this way we might double our
savings."
"Ay, my lad," said the father,
keeping his hand on the money, "but you might lose it,–you might
lose a year o' my life,–and I haven't got many."
Tom was silent.
"And you know I wouldn't pay a
dividend with the first hundred, because I wanted to see it all in a
lump,–and when I see it, I'm sure on't. If you trust to luck, it's sure
to be against me. It's Old Harry's got the luck in his hands; and if I lose one
year, I shall never pick it up again; death 'ull o'ertake me."
Mr. Tulliver's voice trembled, and Tom was
silent for a few minutes before he said:
"I'll give it up, father, since you
object to it so strongly."
But, unwilling to abandon the scheme
altogether, he determined to ask his uncle Glegg to venture twenty pounds, on
condition of receiving five per cent. of the profits. That was really a very
small thing to ask. So when Bob called the next day at the wharf to know the
decision, Tom proposed that they should go together to his uncle Glegg's to
open the business; for his diffident pride clung to him, and made him feel that
Bobs' tongue would relieve him from some embarrassment.
Mr. Glegg, at the pleasant hour of four in
the afternoon of a hot August day, was naturally counting his wall-fruit to
assure himself that the sum total had not varied since yesterday. To him
entered Tom, in what appeared to Mr. Glegg very questionable companionship,–that
of a man with a pack on his back,–for Bob was equipped for a new
journey,–and of a huge brindled bull-terrier, who walked with a slow,
swaying movement from side to side, and glanced from under his eye-lids with a
surly indifference which might after all be a cover to the most offensive
designs.
Mr. Glegg's spectacles, which had been
assisting him in counting the fruit, made these suspicious details alarmingly
evident to him.
"Heigh! heigh! keep that dog back,
will you?" he shouted, snatching up a stake and holding it before him as a
shield when the visitors were within three yards of him.
"Get out wi' you, Mumps," said
Bob, with a kick. "He's as quiet as a lamb, sir,"–an
observation which Mumps corroborated by a low growl as he retreated behind his
master's legs.
"Why, what ever does this mean,
Tom?" said Mr. Glegg. "Have you brought information about the
scoundrels as cut my trees?" If Bob came in the character of
"information," Mr. Glegg saw reasons for tolerating some irregularity.
"No, sir," said Tom; "I
came to speak to you about a little matter of business of my own."
"Ay–well; but what has this dog
got to do with it?" said the old gentleman, getting mild again.
"It's my dog, sir," said the
ready Bob. "An' it's me as put Mr. Tom up to the bit o' business; for Mr.
Tom's been a friend o' mine iver since I was a little chap; fust thing iver I
did was frightenin' the birds for th' old master. An' if a bit o' luck turns
up, I'm allays thinkin' if I can let Mr. Tom have a pull at it. An' it's a
downright roarin' shame, as when he's got the chance o' making a bit o' money
wi' sending goods out,–ten or twelve per zent clear, when freight an'
commission's paid,–as he shouldn't lay hold o' the chance for want o'
money. An' when there's the Laceham goods,–lors! they're made o' purpose
for folks as want to send out a little carguy; light, an' take up no
room,–you may pack twenty pound so as you can't see the passill; an'
they're manifacturs as please fools, so I reckon they aren't like to want a
market. An' I'd go to Laceham an' buy in the goods for Mr. Tom along wi' my
own. An' there's the shupercargo o' the bit of a vessel as is goin' to take 'em
out. I know him partic'lar; he's a solid man, an' got a family i' the town
here. Salt, his name is,–an' a briny chap he is too,–an' if you
don't believe me, I can take you to him."
Uncle Glegg stood open-mouthed with
astonishment at this unembarrassed loquacity, with which his understanding
could hardly keep pace. He looked at Bob, first over his spectacles, then
through them, then over them again; while Tom, doubtful of his uncle's
impression, began to wish he had not brought this singular Aaron, or
mouthpiece. Bob's talk appeared less seemly, now some one besides himself was
listening to it.
"You seem to be a knowing
fellow," said Mr. Glegg, at last.
"Ay, sir, you say true,"
returned Bob, nodding his head aside; "I think my head's all alive inside
like an old cheese, for I'm so full o' plans, one knocks another over. If I
hadn't Mumps to talk to, I should get top-heavy an' tumble in a fit. I suppose
it's because I niver went to school much. That's what I jaw my old mother for.
I says, 'You should ha' sent me to school a bit more,' I says, 'an' then I
could ha' read i' the books like fun, an' kep' my head cool an' empty.' Lors,
she's fine an' comfor'ble now, my old mother is; she ates her baked meat an'
taters as often as she likes. For I'm gettin' so full o' money, I must hev a
wife to spend it for me. But it's botherin,' a wife is,–and Mumps
mightn't like her."
Uncle Glegg, who regarded himself as a
jocose man since he had retired from business, was beginning to find Bob
amusing, but he had still a disapproving observation to make, which kept his
face serious.
"Ah," he said, "I should
think you're at a loss for ways o' spending your money, else you wouldn't keep
that big dog, to eat as much as two Christians. It's
shameful–shameful!" But he spoke more in sorrow than in anger, and
quickly added:
"But, come now, let's hear more about
this business, Tom. I suppose you want a little sum to make a venture with. But
where's all your own money? You don't spend it all–eh?"
"No, sir," said Tom, coloring;
"but my father is unwilling to risk it, and I don't like to press him. If
I could get twenty or thirty pounds to begin with, I could pay five per cent
for it, and then I could gradually make a little capital of my own, and do
without a loan."
"Ay–ay," said Mr. Glegg,
in an approving tone; "that's not a bad notion, and I won't say as I
wouldn't be your man. But it 'ull be as well for me to see this Salt, as you
talk on. And then–here's this friend o' yours offers to buy the goods for
you. Perhaps you've got somebody to stand surety for you if the money's put
into your hands?" added the cautious old gentleman, looking over his
spectacles at Bob.
"I don't think that's necessary,
uncle," said Tom. "At least, I mean it would not be necessary for me,
because I know Bob well; but perhaps it would be right for you to have some
security."
"You get your percentage out o' the
purchase, I suppose?" said Mr. Glegg, looking at Bob.
"No, sir," said Bob, rather
indignantly; "I didn't offer to get a apple for Mr. Tom, o' purpose to hev
a bite out of it myself. When I play folks tricks, there'll be more fun in 'em
nor that."
"Well, but it's nothing but right you
should have a small percentage," said Mr. Glegg. "I've no opinion o'
transactions where folks do things for nothing. It allays looks bad."
"Well, then," said Bob, whose
keenness saw at once what was implied, "I'll tell you what I get by't, an'
it's money in my pocket in the end,–I make myself look big, wi' makin' a
bigger purchase. That's what I'm thinking on. Lors! I'm a 'cute chap,–I
am."
"Mr. Glegg, Mr. Glegg!" said a
severe voice from the open parlor window, "pray are you coming in to tea,
or are you going to stand talking with packmen till you get murdered in the
open daylight?"
"Murdered?" said Mr. Glegg;
"what's the woman talking of? Here's your nephey Tom come about a bit o'
business."
"Murdered,–yes,–it isn't
many 'sizes ago since a packman murdered a young woman in a lone place, and
stole her thimble, and threw her body into a ditch."
"Nay, nay," said Mr. Glegg,
soothingly, "you're thinking o' the man wi' no legs, as drove a
dog-cart."
"Well, it's the same thing, Mr.
Glegg, only you're fond o' contradicting what I say; and if my nephey's come
about business, it 'ud be more fitting if you'd bring him into the house, and
let his aunt know about it, instead o' whispering in corners, in that plotting,
underminding way."
"Well, well," said Mr. Glegg,
"we'll come in now."
"You needn't stay here," said
the lady to Bob, in a loud voice, adapted to the moral, not the physical,
distance between them. "We don't want anything. I don't deal wi' packmen.
Mind you shut the gate after you."
"Stop a bit; not so fast," said
Mr. Glegg; "I haven't done with this young man yet. Come in, Tom; come
in," he added, stepping in at the French window.
"Mr. Glegg," said Mrs. G., in a
fatal tone, "if you're going to let that man and his dog in on my carpet,
before my very face, be so good as to let me know. A wife's got a right to ask
that, I hope."
"Don't you be uneasy, mum," said
Bob, touching his cap. He saw at once that Mrs. Glegg was a bit of game worth
running down, and longed to be at the sport; "we'll stay out upo' the
gravel here,–Mumps and me will. Mumps knows his company,–he does. I
might hish at him by th' hour together, before he'd fly at a real gentlewoman
like you. It's wonderful how he knows which is the good-looking ladies; and's
partic'lar fond of 'em when they've good shapes. Lors!" added Bob, laying
down his pack on the gravel, "it's a thousand pities such a lady as you
shouldn't deal with a packman, i' stead o' goin' into these newfangled shops,
where there's half-a-dozen fine gents wi' their chins propped up wi' a stiff
stock, a-looking like bottles wi' ornamental stoppers, an' all got to get their
dinner out of a bit o' calico; it stan's to reason you must pay three times the
price you pay a packman, as is the nat'ral way o' gettin' goods,–an' pays
no rent, an' isn't forced to throttle himself till the lies are squeezed out on
him, whether he will or no. But lors! mum, you know what it is better nor I
do,–you can see through
them shopmen, I'll be bound."
"Yes, I reckon I can, and through the
packmen too," observed Mrs. Glegg, intending to imply that Bob's flattery
had produced no effect on her;
while her husband, standing behind her with his hands in his pockets and legs
apart, winked and smiled with conjugal delight at the probability of his wife's
being circumvented.
"Ay, to be sure, mum," said Bob.
"Why, you must ha' dealt wi' no end o' packmen when you war a young
lass–before the master here had the luck to set eyes on you. I know where
you lived, I do,–seen th' house many a time,–close upon Squire
Darleigh's,–a stone house wi' steps––"
"Ah, that it had," said Mrs.
Glegg, pouring out the tea. "You know something o' my family, then? Are
you akin to that packman with a squint in his eye, as used to bring th' Irish
linen?"
"Look you there now!" said Bob,
evasively. "Didn't I know as you'd remember the best bargains you've made
in your life was made wi' packmen? Why, you see even a squintin' packman's
better nor a shopman as can see straight. Lors! if I'd had the luck to call at
the stone house wi' my pack, as lies here,"–stooping and thumping
the bundle emphatically with his fist,–"an' th' handsome young
lasses all stannin' out on the stone steps, it ud' ha' been summat like openin'
a pack, that would. It's on'y the poor houses now as a packman calls on, if it
isn't for the sake o' the sarvant-maids. They're paltry times, these are. Why,
mum, look at the printed cottons now, an' what they was when you wore
'em,–why, you wouldn't put such a thing on now, I can see. It must be
first-rate quality, the manifactur as you'd buy,–summat as 'ud wear as
well as your own faitures."
"Yes, better quality nor any you're
like to carry; you've got nothing first-rate but brazenness, I'll be
bound," said Mrs. Glegg, with a triumphant sense of her insurmountable
sagacity. "Mr. Glegg, are you going ever to sit down to your tea? Tom,
there's a cup for you."
"You speak true there, mum,"
said Bob. "My pack isn't for ladies like you. The time's gone by for that.
Bargains picked up dirt cheap! A bit o' damage here an' there, as can be cut
out, or else niver seen i' the wearin', but not fit to offer to rich folks as
can pay for the look o' things as nobody sees. I'm not the man as 'ud offer t'
open my pack to you, mum; no,
no; I'm a imperent chap, as you say,–these times makes folks
imperent,–but I'm not up to the mark o' that."
"Why, what goods do you carry in your
pack?" said Mrs. Glegg. "Fine-colored things, I suppose,–shawls
an' that?"
"All sorts, mum, all sorts,"
said Bob,–thumping his bundle; "but let us say no more about that,
if you please. I'm here upo'
Mr. Tom's business, an' I'm not the man to take up the time wi' my own."
"And pray, what is this business as is to be kept from
me?" said Mrs. Glegg, who, solicited by a double curiosity, was obliged to
let the one-half wait.
"A little plan o' nephey Tom's
here," said good-natured Mr. Glegg; "and not altogether a bad 'un, I
think. A little plan for making money; that's the right sort o' plan for young
folks as have got their fortin to make, eh, Jane?"
"But I hope it isn't a plan where he
expects iverything to be done for him by his friends; that's what the young
folks think of mostly nowadays. And pray, what has this packman got to do wi'
what goes on in our family? Can't you speak for yourself, Tom, and let your
aunt know things, as a nephey should?"
"This is Bob Jakin, aunt," said
Tom, bridling the irritation that aunt Glegg's voice always produced.
"I've known him ever since we were little boys. He's a very good fellow,
and always ready to do me a kindness. And he has had some experience in sending
goods out,–a small part of a cargo as a private speculation; and he
thinks if I could begin to do a little in the same way, I might make some
money. A large interest is got in that way."
"Large int'rest?" said aunt
Glegg, with eagerness; "and what do you call large int'rest?"
"Ten or twelve per cent, Bob says,
after expenses are paid."
"Then why wasn't I let to know o'
such things before, Mr. Glegg?" said Mrs. Glegg, turning to her husband,
with a deep grating tone of reproach. "Haven't you allays told me as there
was no getting more nor five per cent?"
"Pooh, pooh, nonsense, my good
woman," said Mr. Glegg. "You couldn't go into trade, could you? You
can't get more than five per cent with security."
"But I can turn a bit o' money for
you, an' welcome, mum," said Bob, "if you'd like to risk
it,–not as there's any risk to speak on. But if you'd a mind to lend a
bit o' money to Mr. Tom, he'd pay you six or seven per zent, an' get a trifle
for himself as well; an' a good-natur'd lady like you 'ud like the feel o' the
money better if your nephey took part on it."
"What do you say, Mrs. G.?" said
Mr. Glegg. "I've a notion, when I've made a bit more inquiry, as I shall
perhaps start Tom here with a bit of a nest-egg,–he'll pay me int'rest,
you know,–an' if you've got some little sums lyin' idle twisted up in a
stockin' toe, or that––"
"Mr. Glegg, it's beyond iverything!
You'll go and give information to the tramps next, as they may come and rob
me."
"Well, well, as I was sayin', if you
like to join me wi' twenty pounds, you can–I'll make it fifty. That'll be
a pretty good nest-egg, eh, Tom?"
"You're not counting on me, Mr.
Glegg, I hope," said his wife. "You could do fine things wi' my
money, I don't doubt."
"Very well," said Mr. Glegg,
rather snappishly, "then we'll do without you. I shall go with you to see
this Salt," he added, turning to Bob.
"And now, I suppose, you'll go all
the other way, Mr. Glegg," said Mrs. G., "and want to shut me out o'
my own nephey's business. I never said I wouldn't put money into it,–I
don't say as it shall be twenty pounds, though you're so ready to say it for
me,–but he'll see some day as his aunt's in the right not to risk the
money she's saved for him till it's proved as it won't be lost."
"Ay, that's a pleasant sort o'risk,
that is," said Mr. Glegg, indiscreetly winking at Tom, who couldn't avoid
smiling. But Bob stemmed the injured lady's outburst.
"Ay, mum," he said admiringly,
"you know what's what–you do. An' it's nothing but fair. You see how the first bit of a job
answers, an' then you'll come down handsome. Lors, it's a fine thing to hev
good kin. I got my bit of a nest-egg, as the master calls it, all by my own
sharpness,–ten suvreigns it was,–wi' dousing the fire at Torry's
mill, an' it's growed an' growed by a bit an' a bit, till I'n got a matter o'
thirty pound to lay out, besides makin' my mother comfor'ble. I should get
more, on'y I'm such a soft wi' the women,–I can't help lettin' 'em hev
such good bargains. There's this bundle, now," thumping it lustily,
"any other chap 'ud make a pretty penny out on it. But me!–lors, I
shall sell 'em for pretty near what I paid for 'em."
"Have you got a bit of good net,
now?" said Mrs. Glegg, in a patronizing tone, moving from the tea-table,
and folding her napkin.
"Eh, mum, not what you'd think it
worth your while to look at. I'd scorn to show it you. It 'ud be an insult to
you."
"But let me see," said Mrs.
Glegg, still patronizing. "If they're damaged goods, they're like enough
to be a bit the better quality."
"No, mum, I know my place," said
Bob, lifting up his pack and shouldering it. "I'm not going t' expose the
lowness o' my trade to a lady like you. Packs is come down i' the world; it 'ud
cut you to th' heart to see the difference. I'm at your sarvice, sir, when
you've a mind to go and see Salt."
"All in good time," said Mr.
Glegg, really unwilling to cut short the dialogue. "Are you wanted at the
wharf, Tom?"
"No, sir; I left Stowe in my
place."
"Come, put down your pack, and let me
see," said Mrs. Glegg, drawing a chair to the window and seating herself
with much dignity.
"Don't you ask it, mum," said
Bob, entreatingly.
"Make no more words," said Mrs.
Glegg, severely, "but do as I tell you."
"Eh mum, I'm loth, that I am,"
said Bob, slowly depositing his pack on the step, and beginning to untie it
with unwilling fingers. "But what you order shall be done" (much
fumbling in pauses between the sentences). "It's not as you'll buy a
single thing on me,–I'd be sorry for you to do it,–for think o'
them poor women up i' the villages there, as niver stir a hundred yards from
home,–it 'ud be a pity for anybody to buy up their bargains. Lors, it's
as good as a junketing to 'em when they see me wi' my pack, an' I shall niver
pick up such bargains for 'em again. Least ways, I've no time now, for I'm off
to Laceham. See here now," Bob went on, becoming rapid again, and holding
up a scarlet woollen Kerchief with an embroidered wreath in the corner;
"here's a thing to make a lass's mouth water, an' on'y two
shillin'–an' why? Why, 'cause there's a bit of a moth-hole 'i this plain
end. Lors, I think the moths an' the mildew was sent by Providence o' purpose
to cheapen the goods a bit for the good-lookin' women as han't got much money.
If it hadn't been for the moths, now, every hankicher on 'em 'ud ha' gone to
the rich, handsome ladies, like you, mum, at five shillin' apiece,–not a
farthin' less; but what does the moth do? Why, it nibbles off three shillin' o'
the price i' no time; an' then a packman like me can carry 't to the poor
lasses as live under the dark thack, to make a bit of a blaze for 'em. Lors,
it's as good as a fire, to look at such a hankicher!"
Bob held it at a distance for admiration,
but Mrs. Glegg said sharply:
"Yes, but nobody wants a fire this
time o' year. Put these colored things by; let me look at your nets, if you've
got 'em."
"Eh, mum, I told you how it 'ud
be," said Bob, flinging aside the colored things with an air of
desperation. "I knowed it ud' turn again' you to look at such paltry
articles as I carry. Here's a piece o' figured muslin now, what's the use o'
you lookin' at it? You might as well look at poor folks's victual, mum; it 'ud
on'y take away your appetite. There's a yard i' the middle on't as the
pattern's all missed,–lors, why, it's a muslin as the Princess Victoree
might ha' wore; but," added Bob, flinging it behind him on to the turf, as
if to save Mrs. Glegg's eyes, "it'll be bought up by the huckster's wife
at Fibb's End,–that's where it'll
go–ten shillin' for the whole lot–ten yards, countin' the damaged
un–five-an'-twenty shillin' 'ud ha' been the price, not a penny less. But
I'll say no more, mum; it's nothing to you, a piece o' muslin like that; you
can afford to pay three times the money for a thing as isn't half so good. It's
nets you talked on; well,
I've got a piece as 'ull serve you to make fun on––"
"Bring me that muslin," said
Mrs. Glegg. "It's a buff; I'm partial to buff."
"Eh, but a damaged thing," said Bob, in a
tone of deprecating disgust. "You'd do nothing with it, mum, you'd give it
to the cook, I know you would, an' it 'ud be a pity,–she'd look too much
like a lady in it; it's unbecoming for servants."
"Fetch it, and let me see you measure
it," said Mrs. Glegg, authoritatively.
Bob obeyed with ostentatious reluctance.
"See what there is over
measure!" he said, holding forth the extra half-yard, while Mrs. Glegg was
busy examining the damaged yard, and throwing her head back to see how far the
fault would be lost on a distant view.
"I'll give you six shilling for
it," she said, throwing it down with the air of a person who mentions an
ultimatum.
"Didn't I tell you now, mum, as it
'ud hurt your feelings to look at my pack? That damaged bit's turned your
stomach now; I see it has," said Bob, wrapping the muslin up with the
utmost quickness, and apparently about to fasten up his pack. "You're used
to seein' a different sort o' article carried by packmen, when you lived at the
stone house. Packs is come down i' the world; I told you that; my goods are for common folks. Mrs.
Pepper 'ull give me ten shillin' for that muslin, an' be sorry as I didn't ask
her more. Such articles answer i' the wearin',–they keep their color till
the threads melt away i' the wash-tub, an' that won't be while I'm a young un."
"Well, seven shilling," said
Mrs. Glegg.
"Put it out o' your mind, mum, now
do," said Bob. "Here's a bit o' net, then, for you to look at before
I tie up my pack, just for you to see what my trade's come to,–spotted
and sprigged, you see, beautiful but yallow,–'s been lyin' by an' got the
wrong color. I could niver ha' bought such net, if it hadn't been yallow. Lors,
it's took me a deal o' study to know the vally o' such articles; when I begun
to carry a pack, I was as ignirant as a pig; net or calico was all the same to
me. I thought them things the most vally as was the thickest. I was took in
dreadful, for I'm a straightforrard chap,–up to no tricks, mum. I can
only say my nose is my own, for if I went beyond, I should lose myself pretty
quick. An' I gev five-an'-eightpence for that piece o' net,–if I was to
tell y' anything else I should be tellin' you fibs,–an'
five-an'-eightpence I shall ask of it, not a penny more, for it's a woman's
article, an' I like to 'commodate the women. Five-an'-eightpence for six yards,–as
cheap as if it was only the dirt on it as was paid for.'"
"I don't mind having three yards of
it,'" said Mrs. Glegg.
"Why, there's but six
altogether," said Bob. "No, mum, it isn't worth your while; you can
go to the shop to-morrow an' get the same pattern ready whitened. It's on'y
three times the money; what's that to a lady like you?" He gave an
emphatic tie to his bundle.
"Come, lay me out that muslin,"
said Mrs. Glegg. "Here's eight shilling for it."
"You will be jokin'," said Bob, looking up with a laughing
face; "I see'd you was a pleasant lady when I fust come to the
winder."
"Well, put it me out," said Mrs.
Glegg, peremptorily.
"But if I let you have it for ten
shillin', mum, you'll be so good as not tell nobody. I should be a
laughin'-stock; the trade 'ud hoot me, if they knowed it. I'm obliged to make
believe as I ask more nor I do for my goods, else they'd find out I was a flat.
I'm glad you don't insist upo' buyin' the net, for then I should ha' lost my
two best bargains for Mrs. Pepper o' Fibb's End, an' she's a rare
customer."
"Let me look at the net again,"
said Mrs. Glegg, yearning after the cheap spots and sprigs, now they were
vanishing.
"Well, I can't deny you, mum," said Bob handing it
out.
"Eh!, see what a pattern now! Real
Laceham goods. Now, this is the sort o' article I'm recommendin' Mr. Tom to
send out. Lors, it's a fine thing for anybody as has got a bit o' money; these
Laceham goods 'ud make it breed like maggits. If I was a lady wi' a bit o'
money!–why, I know one as put thirty pounds into them goods,–a lady
wi' a cork leg, but as sharp,–you wouldn't catch her runnin' her head into a sack; she'd see her way clear out o' anything
afore she'd be in a hurry to start. Well, she let out thirty pound to a young
man in the drapering line, and he laid it out i' Laceham goods, an' a
shupercargo o' my acquinetance (not Salt) took 'em out, an' she got her eight
per zent fust go off; an' now you can't hold her but she must be sendin' out
carguies wi' every ship, till she's gettin' as rich as a Jew. Bucks her name
is, she doesn't live i' this town. Now then, mum, if you'll please to give me
the net––"
"Here's fifteen shilling, then, for
the two," said Mrs. Glegg. "But it's a shameful price."
"Nay, mum, you'll niver say that when
you're upo' your knees i' church i' five years' time. I'm makin' you a present
o' th' articles; I am, indeed. That eightpence shaves off my profits as clean
as a razor. Now then, sir," continued Bob, shouldering his pack, "if
you please, I'll be glad to go and see about makin' Mr. Tom's fortin. Eh, I
wish I'd got another twenty pound to lay out mysen;
I shouldn't stay to say my Catechism afore I knowed what to do wi't."
"Stop a bit, Mr. Glegg," said
the lady, as her husband took his hat, "you never will give me the chance o' speaking.
You'll go away now, and finish everything about this business, and come back
and tell me it's too late for me to speak. As if I wasn't my nephey's own aunt,
and the head o' the family on his mother's side! and laid by guineas, all full
weight, for him, as he'll know who to respect when I'm laid in my coffin."
"Well, Mrs. G., say what you
mean," said Mr. G., hastily.
"Well, then, I desire as nothing may
be done without my knowing. I don't say as I sha'n't venture twenty pounds, if
you make out as everything's right and safe. And if I do, Tom," concluded
Mrs. Glegg, turning impressively to her nephew, "I hope you'll allays bear
it in mind and be grateful for such an aunt. I mean you to pay me interest, you
know; I don't approve o' giving; we niver looked for that in my family."
"Thank you, aunt," said Tom,
rather proudly. "I prefer having the money only lent to me."
"Very well; that's the Dodson
sperrit," said Mrs. Glegg, rising to get her knitting with the sense that
any further remark after this would be bathos.
Salt–that eminently "briny
chap"–having been discovered in a cloud of tobacco-smoke at the
Anchor Tavern, Mr. Glegg commenced inquiries which turned out satisfactorily
enough to warrant the advance of the "nest-egg," to which aunt Glegg
contributed twenty pounds; and in this modest beginning you see the ground of a
fact which might otherwise surprise you; namely, Tom's accumulation of a fund,
unknown to his father, that promised in no very long time to meet the more
tardy process of saving, and quite cover the deficit. When once his attention
had been turned to this source of gain, Tom determined to make the most of it,
and lost on opportunity of obtaining information and extending his small
enterprises. In not telling his father, he was influenced by that strange
mixture of opposite feelings which often gives equal truth to those who blame
an action and those who admire it,–partly, it was that disinclination to
confidence which is seen between near kindred, that family repulsion which spoils
the most sacred relations of our lives; partly, it was the desire to surprise
his father with a great joy. He did not see that it would have been better to
soothe the interval with a new hope, and prevent the delirium of a too sudden
elation.
At the time of Maggie's first meeting with
Philip, Tom had already nearly a hundred and fifty pounds of his own capital;
and while they were walking by the evening light in the Red Deeps, he, by the
same evening light, was riding into Laceham, proud of being on his first
journey on behalf of Guest & Co., and revolving in his mind all the chances
that by the end of another year he should have doubled his gains, lifted off
the obloquy of debt from his father's name, and perhaps–for he should be
twenty-one–have got a new start for himself, on a higher platform of
employment. Did he not desire it? He was quite sure that he did.
Chapter III
The Wavering Balance
I said that Maggie went home that evening
from the Red Deeps with a mental conflict already begun. You have seen clearly
enough, in her interview with Philip, what that conflict was. Here suddenly was
an opening in the rocky wall which shut in the narrow valley of humiliation,
where all her prospect was the remote, unfathomed sky; and some of the
memory-haunting earthly delights were no longer out of her reach. She might
have books, converse, affection; she might hear tidings of the world from which
her mind had not yet lost its sense of exile; and it would be a kindness to
Philip too, who was pitiable,–clearly not happy. And perhaps here was an
opportunity indicated for making her mind more worthy of its highest service;
perhaps the noblest, completest devoutness could hardly exist without some
width of knowledge; must she
always live in this resigned imprisonment? It was so blameless, so good a thing
that there should be friendship between her and Philip; the motives that
forbade it were so unreasonable, so unchristian! But the severe monotonous
warning came again and again,–that she was losing the simplicity and clearness
of her life by admitting a ground of concealment; and that, by forsaking the
simple rule of renunciation, she was throwing herself under the seductive
guidance of illimitable wants. She thought she had won strength to obey the
warning before she allowed herself the next week to turn her steps in the
evening to the Red Deeps. But while she was resolved to say an affectionate
farewell to Philip, how she looked forward to that evening walk in the still,
fleckered shade of the hollows, away from all that was harsh and unlovely; to
the affectionate, admiring looks that would meet her; to the sense of
comradeship that childish memories would give to wiser, older talk; to the
certainty that Philip would care to hear everything she said, which no one else
cared for! It was a half-hour that it would be very hard to turn her back upon,
with the sense that there would be no other like it. Yet she said what she
meant to say; she looked firm as well as sad.
"Philip, I have made up my mind; it
is right that we should give each other up, in everything but memory. I could
not see you without concealment–stay, I know what you are going to
say,–it is other people's wrong feelings that make concealment necessary;
but concealment is bad, however it may be caused. I feel that it would be bad
for me, for us both. And then, if our secret were discovered, there would be
nothing but misery,–dreadful anger; and then we must part after all, and
it would be harder, when we were used to seeing each other."
Philip's face had flushed, and there was a
momentary eagerness of expression, as if he had been about to resist this
decision with all his might.
But he controlled himself, and said, with
assumed calmness: "Well, Maggie, if we must part, let us try and forget it
for one half hour; let us talk together a little while, for the last
time."
He took her hand, and Maggie felt no
reason to withdraw it; his quietness made her all the more sure she had given
him great pain, and she wanted to show him how unwillingly she had given it.
They walked together hand in hand in silence.
"Let us sit down in the hollow,"
said Philip, "where we stood the last time. See how the dog-roses have
strewed the ground, and spread their opal petals over it."
They sat down at the roots of the slanting
ash.
"I've begun my picture of you among
the Scotch firs, Maggie," said Philip, "so you must let me study your
face a little, while you stay,–since I am not to see it again. Please
turn your head this way."
This was said in an entreating voice, and
it would have been very hard of Maggie to refuse. The full, lustrous face, with
the bright black coronet, looked down like that of a divinity well pleased to
be worshipped, on the pale-hued, small-featured face that was turned up to it.
"I shall be sitting for my second
portrait then," she said, smiling. "Will it be larger than the
other?"
"Oh yes, much larger. It is an
oil-painting. You will look like a tall Hamadryad, dark and strong and noble,
just issued from one of the fir-trees, when the stems are casting their
afternoon shadows on the grass."
"You seem to think more of painting
than of anything now, Philip?"
"Perhaps I do," said Philip,
rather sadly; "but I think of too many things,–sow all sorts of
seeds, and get no great harvest from any one of them. I'm cursed with
susceptibility in every direction, and effective faculty in none. I care for
painting and music; I care for classic literature, and mediæval literature, and
modern literature; I flutter all ways, and fly in none."
"But surely that is a happiness to
have so many tastes,–to enjoy so many beautiful things, when they are
within your reach," said Maggie, musingly. "It always seemed to me a
sort of clever stupidity only to have one sort of talent,–almost like a
carrier-pigeon."
"It might be a happiness to have many
tastes if I were like other men," said Philip, bitterly. "I might get
some power and distinction by mere mediocrity, as they do; at least I should
get those middling satisfactions which make men contented to do without great
ones. I might think society at St. Ogg's agreeable then. But nothing could make
life worth the purchase-money of pain to me, but some faculty that would lift
me above the dead level of provincial existence. Yes, there is one
thing,–a passion answers as well as a faculty."
Maggie did not hear the last words; she
was struggling against the consciousness that Philip's words had set her own
discontent vibrating again as it used to do.
"I understand what you mean,"
she said, "though I know so much less than you do. I used to think I could
never bear life if it kept on being the same every day, and I must always be
doing things of no consequence, and never know anything greater. But, dear
Philip, I think we are only like children that some one who is wiser is taking
care of. Is it not right to resign ourselves entirely, whatever may be denied
us? I have found great peace in that for the last two or three years, even joy
in subduing my own will."
"Yes, Maggie," said Philip,
vehemently; "and you are shutting yourself up in a narrow, self-delusive
fanaticism, which is only a way of escaping pain by starving into dulness all
the highest powers of your nature. Joy and peace are not resignation;
resignation is the willing endurance of a pain that is not allayed, that you
don't expect to be allayed. Stupefaction is not resignation; and it is
stupefaction to remain in ignorance,–to shut up all the avenues by which
the life of your fellow-men might become known to you. I am not resigned; I am
not sure that life is long enough to learn that lesson. You are not resigned; you are only
trying to stupefy yourself."
Maggie's lips trembled; she felt there was
some truth in what Philip said, and yet there was a deeper consciousness that,
for any immediate application it had to her conduct, it was no better than
falsity. Her double impression corresponded to the double impulse of the
speaker. Philip seriously believed what he said, but he said it with vehemence
because it made an argument against the resolution that opposed his wishes. But
Maggie's face, made more childlike by the gathering tears, touched him with a
tenderer, less egotistic feeling. He took her hand and said gently:
Don't let us think of such things in this
short half-hour, Maggie. Let us only care about being together. We shall be
friends in spite of separation. We shall always think of each other. I shall be
glad to live as long as you are alive, because I shall think there may always
come a time when I can–when you will let me help you in some way."
"What a dear, good brother you would
have been, Philip," said Maggie, smiling through the haze of tears.
"I think you would have made as much fuss about me, and been as pleased
for me to love you, as would have satisfied even me. You would have loved me well
enough to bear with me, and forgive me everything. That was what I always
longed that Tom should do. I was never satisfied with a little of anything. That is why it is
better for me to do without earthly happiness altogether. I never felt that I
had enough music,–I wanted more instruments playing together; I wanted
voices to be fuller and deeper. Do you ever sing now, Philip?" she added
abruptly, as if she had forgotten what went before.
"Yes," he said, "every day,
almost. But my voice is only middling, like everything else in me."
"Oh, sing me something,–just
one song. I may listen to
that before I go,–something you used to sing at Lorton on a Saturday
afternoon, when we had the drawing-room all to ourselves, and I put my apron
over my head to listen."
"I
know," said Philip; and Maggie buried her face in her hands while he sang sotto voce, "Love in her eyes sits
playing," and then said, "That's it, isn't it?"
"Oh no, I won't stay," said
Maggie, starting up. "It will only haunt me. Let us walk, Philip. I must
go home."
She moved away, so that he was obliged to
rise and follow her.
"Maggie," he said, in a tone of
remonstrance, "don't persist in this wilful, senseless privation. It makes
me wretched to see you benumbing and cramping your nature in this way. You were
so full of life when you were a child; I thought you would be a brilliant
woman,–all wit and bright imagination. And it flashes out in your face
still, until you draw that veil of dull quiescence over it."
"Why do you speak so bitterly to me,
Philip?" said Maggie.
"Because I foresee it will not end
well; you can never carry on this self-torture."
"I shall have strength given
me," said Maggie, tremulously.
"No, you will not, Maggie; no one has
strength given to do what is unnatural. It is mere cowardice to seek safety in
negations. No character becomes strong in that way. You will be thrown into the
world some day, and then every rational satisfaction of your nature that you
deny now will assault you like a savage appetite."
Maggie started and paused, looking at
Philip with alarm in her face.
"Philip, how dare you shake me in
this way? You are a tempter."
"No, I am not; but love gives
insight, Maggie, and insight often gives foreboding. Listen to me,–let me supply you with books; do let me see
you sometimes,–be your brother and teacher, as you said at Lorton. It is
less wrong that you should see me than that you should be committing this long
suicide."
Maggie felt unable to speak. She shook her
head and walked on in silence, till they came to the end of the Scotch firs,
and she put out her hand in sign of parting.
"Do you banish me from this place
forever, then, Maggie? Surely I may come and walk in it sometimes? If I meet
you by chance, there is no concealment in that?"
It is the moment when our resolution seems
about to become irrevocable–when the fatal iron gates are about to close
upon us–that tests our strength. Then, after hours of clear reasoning and
firm conviction, we snatch at any sophistry that will nullify our long
struggles, and bring us the defeat that we love better than victory.
Maggie felt her heart leap at this
subterfuge of Philip's, and there passed over her face that almost
imperceptible shock which accompanies any relief. He saw it, and they parted in
silence.
Philip's sense of the situation was too
complete for him not to be visited with glancing fears lest he had been
intervening too presumptuously in the action of Maggie's conscience, perhaps
for a selfish end. But no!–he persuaded himself his end was not selfish.
He had little hope that Maggie would ever return the strong feeling he had for
her; and it must be better for Maggie's future life, when these petty family
obstacles to her freedom had disappeared, that the present should not be
entirely sacrificed, and that she should have some opportunity of
culture,–some interchange with a mind above the vulgar level of those she
was now condemned to live with. If we only look far enough off for the
consequence of our actions, we can always find some point in the combination of
results by which those actions can be justified; by adopting the point of view
of a Providence who arranges results, or of a philosopher who traces them, we
shall find it possible to obtain perfect complacency in choosing to do what is
most agreeable to us in the present moment. And it was in this way that Philip
justified his subtle efforts to overcome Maggie's true prompting against a
concealment that would introduce doubleness into her own mind, and might cause
new misery to those who had the primary natural claim on her. But there was a
surplus of passion in him that made him half independent of justifying motives.
His longing to see Maggie, and make an element in her life, had in it some of
that savage impulse to snatch an offered joy which springs from a life in which
the mental and bodily constitution have made pain predominate. He had not his
full share in the common good of men; he could not even pass muster with the
insignificant, but must be singled out for pity, and excepted from what was a
matter of course with others. Even to Maggie he was an exception; it was clear
that the thought of his being her lover had never entered her mind.
Do not think too hardly of Philip. Ugly
and deformed people have great need of unusual virtues, because they are likely
to be extremely uncomfortable without them; but the theory that unusual virtues
spring by a direct consequence out of personal disadvantages, as animals get
thicker wool in severe climates, is perhaps a little overstrained. The temptations
of beauty are much dwelt upon, but I fancy they only bear the same relation to
those of ugliness, as the temptation to excess at a feast, where the delights
are varied for eye and ear as well as palate, bears to the temptations that
assail the desperation of hunger. Does not the Hunger Tower stand as the type
of the utmost trial to what is human in us?
Philip had never been soothed by that
mother's love which flows out to us in the greater abundance because our need
is greater, which clings to us the more tenderly because we are the less likely
to be winners in the game of life; and the sense of his father's affection and
indulgence toward him was marred by the keener perception of his father's
faults. Kept aloof from all practical life as Philip had been, and by nature
half feminine in sensitiveness, he had some of the woman's intolerant repulsion
toward worldliness and the deliberate pursuit of sensual enjoyment; and this
one strong natural tie in his life,–his relation as a son,–was like
an aching limb to him. Perhaps there is inevitably something morbid in a human
being who is in any way unfavorably excepted from ordinary conditions, until
the good force has had time to triumph; and it has rarely had time for that at
two-and-twenty. That force was present in Philip in much strength, but the sun
himself looks feeble through the morning mists.
Early in the following April, nearly a
year after that dubious parting you have just witnessed, you may, if you like,
again see Maggie entering the Red Deeps through the group of Scotch firs. But
it is early afternoon and not evening, and the edge of sharpness in the spring
air makes her draw her large shawl close about her and trip along rather
quickly; though she looks round, as usual, that she may take in the sight of
her beloved trees. There is a more eager, inquiring look in her eyes than there
was last June, and a smile is hovering about her lips, as if some playful
speech were awaiting the right hearer. The hearer was not long in appearing.
"Take back your Corinne," said Maggie, drawing a
book from under her shawl. "You were right in telling me she would do me
no good; but you were wrong in thinking I should wish to be like her."
"Wouldn't you really like to be a
tenth Muse, then, Maggie?" said Philip looking up in her face as we look
at a first parting in the clouds that promises us a bright heaven once more.
"Not at all," said Maggie,
laughing. "The Muses were uncomfortable goddesses, I think,–obliged
always to carry rolls and musical instruments about with them. If I carried a
harp in this climate, you know, I must have a green baize cover for it; and I
should be sure to leave it behind me by mistake."
"You agree with me in not liking
Corinne, then?"
"I didn't finish the book," said
Maggie. "As soon as I came to the blond-haired young lady reading in the
park, I shut it up, and determined to read no further. I foresaw that that
light-complexioned girl would win away all the love from Corinne and make her
miserable. I'm determined to read no more books where the blond-haired women
carry away all the happiness. I should begin to have a prejudice against them.
If you could give me some story, now, where the dark woman triumphs, it would
restore the balance. I want to avenge Rebecca and Flora MacIvor and Minna, and
all the rest of the dark unhappy ones. Since you are my tutor, you ought to
preserve my mind from prejudices; you are always arguing against
prejudices."
"Well, perhaps you will avenge the
dark women in your own person, and carry away all the love from your cousin
Lucy. She is sure to have some handsome young man of St. Ogg's at her feet now;
and you have only to shine upon him–your fair little cousin will be quite
quenched in your beams."
"Philip, that is not pretty of you,
to apply my nonsense to anything real," said Maggie, looking hurt.
"As if I, with my old gowns and want of all accomplishments, could be a
rival of dear little Lucy,–who knows and does all sorts of charming
things, and is ten times prettier than I am,–even if I were odious and
base enough to wish to be her rival. Besides, I never go to aunt Deane's when
any one is there; it is only because dear Lucy is good, and loves me, that she
comes to see me, and will have me go to see her sometimes."
"Maggie," said Philip, with
surprise, "it is not like you to take playfulness literally. You must have
been in St. Ogg's this morning, and brought away a slight infection of
dulness."
"Well," said Maggie, smiling,
"if you meant that for a joke, it was a poor one; but I thought it was a
very good reproof. I thought you wanted to remind me that I am vain, and wish
every one to admire me most. But it isn't for that that I'm jealous for the
dark women,–not because I'm dark myself; it's because I always care the
most about the unhappy people. If the blond girl were forsaken, I should like her best. I always take the side of the
rejected lover in the stories."
"Then you would never have the heart
to reject one yourself, should you, Maggie?" said Philip, flushing a
little.
"I don't know," said Maggie,
hesitatingly. Then with a bright smile, "I think perhaps I could if he
were very conceited; and yet, if he got extremely humiliated afterward, I
should relent."
"I've often wondered, Maggie,"
Philip said, with some effort, "whether you wouldn't really be more likely
to love a man that other women were not likely to love."
"That would depend on what they
didn't like him for," said Maggie, laughing. "He might be very
disagreeable. He might look at me through an eye-glass stuck in his eye, making
a hideous face, as young Torry does. I should think other women are not fond of
that; but I never felt any pity for young Torry. I've never any pity for
conceited people, because I think they carry their comfort about with
them."
"But suppose, Maggie,–suppose
it was a man who was not conceited, who felt he had nothing to be conceited
about; who had been marked from childhood for a peculiar kind of suffering, and
to whom you were the day-star of his life; who loved you, worshipped you, so
entirely that he felt it happiness enough for him if you would let him see you
at rare moments––"
Philip paused with a pang of dread lest
his confession should cut short this very happiness,–a pang of the same
dread that had kept his love mute through long months. A rush of
self-consciousness told him that he was besotted to have said all this.
Maggie's manner this morning had been as unconstrained and indifferent as ever.
But she was not looking indifferent now.
Struck with the unusual emotion in Philip's tone, she had turned quickly to
look at him; and as he went on speaking, a great change came over her
face,–a flush and slight spasm of the features, such as we see in people
who hear some news that will require them to readjust their conceptions of the
past. She was quite silent, and walking on toward the trunk of a fallen tree,
she sat down, as if she had no strength to spare for her muscles. She was
trembling.
"Maggie," said Philip, getting
more and more alarmed in every fresh moment of silence, "I was a fool to
say it; forget that I've said it. I shall be contented if things can be as they
were."
The distress with which he spoke urged
Maggie to say something. "I am so surprised, Philip; I had not thought of
it." And the effort to say this brought the tears down too.
"Has it made you hate me,
Maggie?" said Philip, impetuously. "Do you think I'm a presumptuous
fool?"
"Oh, Philip!" said Maggie,
"how can you think I have such feelings? As if I were not grateful for any love. But–but I had never
thought of your being my lover. It seemed so far off–like a
dream–only like one of the stories one imagines–that I should ever
have a lover."
"Then can you bear to think of me as
your lover, Maggie?" said Philip, seating himself by her, and taking her
hand, in the elation of a sudden hope. "Do
you love me?"
Maggie turned rather pale; this direct
question seemed not easy to answer. But her eyes met Philip's, which were in
this moment liquid and beautiful with beseeching love. She spoke with
hesitation, yet with sweet, simple, girlish tenderness.
"I think I could hardly love any one
better; there is nothing but what I love you for." She paused a little
while, and then added: "But it will be better for us not to say any more
about it, won't it, dear Philip? You know we couldn't even be friends, if our
friendship were discovered. I have never felt that I was right in giving way
about seeing you, though it has been so precious to me in some ways; and now
the fear comes upon me strongly again, that it will lead to evil."
"But no evil has come, Maggie; and if
you had been guided by that fear before, you would only have lived through
another dreary, benumbing year, instead of reviving into your real self."
Maggie shook her head. "It has been
very sweet, I know,–all the talking together, and the books, and the
feeling that I had the walk to look forward to, when I could tell you the
thoughts that had come into my head while I was away from you. But it has made
me restless; it has made me think a great deal about the world; and I have
impatient thoughts again,–I get weary of my home; and then it cuts me to
the heart afterward, that I should ever have felt weary of my father and
mother. I think what you call being benumbed was better–better for me–for
then my selfish desires were benumbed."
Philip had risen again, and was walking
backward and forward impatiently.
"No, Maggie, you have wrong ideas of
self-conquest, as I've often told you. What you call
self-conquest–binding and deafening yourself to all but one train of
impressions–is only the culture of monomania in a nature like
yours."
He had spoken with some irritation, but
now he sat down by her again and took her hand.
"Don't think of the past now, Maggie;
think only of our love. If you can really cling to me with all your heart,
every obstacle will be overcome in time; we need only wait. I can live on hope.
Look at me, Maggie; tell me again it is possible for you to love me. Don't look
away from me to that cloven tree; it is a bad omen."
She turned her large dark glance upon him
with a sad smile.
"Come, Maggie, say one kind word, or
else you were better to me at Lorton. You asked me if I should like you to kiss
me,–don't you remember?–and you promised to kiss me when you met me
again. You never kept the promise."
The recollection of that childish time
came as a sweet relief to Maggie. It made the present moment less strange to
her. She kissed him almost as simply and quietly as she had done when she was
twelve years old. Philip's eyes flashed with delight, but his next words were
words of discontent.
"You don't seem happy enough, Maggie;
you are forcing yourself to say you love me, out of pity."
"No, Philip," said Maggie,
shaking her head, in her old childish way; "I'm telling you the truth. It
is all new and strange to me; but I don't think I could love any one better
than I love you. I should like always to live with you–to make you happy.
I have always been happy when I have been with you. There is only one thing I
will not do for your sake; I will never do anything to wound my father. You
must never ask that from me."
"No, Maggie, I will ask nothing; I
will bear everything; I'll wait another year only for a kiss, if you will only
give me the first place in your heart."
"No," said Maggie, smiling,
"I won't make you wait so long as that." But then, looking serious
again, she added, as she rose from her seat,–
"But what would your own father say,
Philip? Oh, it is quite impossible we can ever be more than
friends,–brother and sister in secret, as we have been. Let us give up
thinking of everything else."
"No, Maggie, I can't give you
up,–unless you are deceiving me; unless you really only care for me as if
I were your brother. Tell me the truth."
"Indeed I do, Philip. What happiness
have I ever had so great as being with you,–since I was a little
girl,–the days Tom was good to me? And your mind is a sort of world to
me; you can tell me all I want to know. I think I should never be tired of
being with you."
They were walking hand in hand, looking at
each other; Maggie, indeed, was hurrying along, for she felt it time to be
gone. But the sense that their parting was near made her more anxious lest she
should have unintentionally left some painful impression on Philip's mind. It
was one of those dangerous moments when speech is at once sincere and
deceptive; when feeling, rising high above its average depth, leaves floodmarks
which are never reached again.
They stopped to part among the Scotch
firs.
"Then my life will be filled with
hope, Maggie, and I shall be happier than other men, in spite of all? We do belong to each other–for
always–whether we are apart or together?"
"Yes, Philip; I should like never to
part; I should like to make your life very happy."
"I am waiting for something else. I
wonder whether it will come."
Maggie smiled, with glistening tears, and
then stooped her tall head to kiss the pale face that was full of pleading,
timid love,–like a woman's.
She had a moment of real happiness
then,–a moment of belief that, if there were sacrifice in this love, it
was all the richer and more satisfying.
She turned away and hurried home, feeling
that in the hour since she had trodden this road before, a new era had begun
for her. The tissue of vague dreams must now get narrower and narrower, and all
the threads of thought and emotion be gradually absorbed in the woof of her
actual daily life.
Secrets are rarely betrayed or discovered
according to any programme our fear has sketched out. Fear is almost always
haunted by terrible dramatic scenes, which recur in spite of the best-argued
probabilities against them; and during a year that Maggie had had the burthen
of concealment on her mind, the possibility of discovery had continually
presented itself under the form of a sudden meeting with her father or Tom when
she was walking with Philip in the Red Deeps. She was aware that this was not
one of the most likely events; but it was the scene that most completely
symbolized her inward dread. Those slight indirect suggestions which are
dependent on apparently trivial coincidences and incalculable states of mind,
are the favorite machinery of Fact, but are not the stuff in which Imagination
is apt to work.
Certainly one of the persons about whom
Maggie's fears were furthest from troubling themselves was her aunt Pullet, on
whom, seeing that she did not live in St. Ogg's, and was neither sharp-eyed nor
sharp-tempered, it would surely have been quite whimsical of them to fix rather
than on aunt Glegg. And yet the channel of fatality–the pathway of the lightning–was
no other than aunt Pullet. She did not live at St. Ogg's, but the road from
Garum Firs lay by the Red Deeps, at the end opposite that by which Maggie
entered.
The day after Maggie's last meeting with
Philip, being a Sunday on which Mr. Pullet was bound to appear in funeral
hatband and scarf at St. Ogg's church, Mrs. Pullet made this the occasion of
dining with sister Glegg, and taking tea with poor sister Tulliver. Sunday was
the one day in the week on which Tom was at home in the afternoon; and today
the brighter spirits he had been in of late had flowed over in unusually
cheerful open chat with his father, and in the invitation, "Come, Magsie,
you come too!" when he strolled out with his mother in the garden to see
the advancing cherry-blossoms. He had been better pleased with Maggie since she
had been less odd and ascetic; he was even getting rather proud of her; several
persons had remarked in his hearing that his sister was a very fine girl.
To-day there was a peculiar brightness in her face, due in reality to an
undercurrent of excitement, which had as much doubt and pain as pleasure in it;
but it might pass for a sign of happiness.
"You look very well, my dear,"
said aunt Pullet, shaking her head sadly, as they sat round the tea-table.
"I niver thought your girl 'ud be so good-looking, Bessy. But you must
wear pink, my dear; that blue thing as your aunt Glegg gave you turns you into
a crowflower. Jane never was
tasty. Why don't you wear that gown o' mine?"
"It is so pretty and so smart, aunt.
I think it's too showy for me,–at least for my other clothes, that I must
wear with it.
"To be sure, it 'ud be unbecoming if
it wasn't well known you've got them belonging to you as can afford to give you
such things when they've done with 'em themselves. It stands to reason I must
give my own niece clothes now and then,–such things as I buy every year, and never wear
anything out. And as for Lucy, there's no giving to her, for she's got
everything o' the choicest; sister Deane may well hold her head
up,–though she looks dreadful yallow, poor thing–I doubt this liver
complaint 'ull carry her off. That's what this new vicar, this Dr. Kenn, said
in the funeral sermon to-day."
"Ah, he's a wonderful preacher, by
all account,–isn't he, Sophy?" said Mrs. Tulliver.
"Why, Lucy had got a collar on this
blessed day," continued Mrs. Pullet, with her eyes fixed in a ruminating
manner, "as I don't say I haven't got as good, but I must look out my best
to match it."
"Miss Lucy's called the bell o' St.
Ogg's, they say; that's a cur'ous word," observed Mr. Pullet, on whom the
mysteries of etymology sometimes fell with an oppressive weight.
"Pooh!" said Mr. Tulliver,
jealous for Maggie, "she's a small thing, not much of a figure. But fine
feathers make fine birds. I see nothing to admire so much in those diminutive
women; they look silly by the side o' the men,–out o' proportion. When I
chose my wife, I chose her the right size,–neither too little nor too
big."
The poor wife, with her withered beauty,
smiled complacently.
"But the men aren't all big," said uncle Pullet, not
without some self-reference; "a young fellow may be good-looking and yet
not be a six-foot, like Master Tom here.
"Ah, it's poor talking about
littleness and bigness,–anybody may think it's a mercy they're
straight," said aunt Pullet. "There's that mismade son o' Lawyer
Wakem's, I saw him at church to-day. Dear, dear! to think o' the property he's
like to have; and they say he's very queer and lonely, doesn't like much
company. I shouldn't wonder if he goes out of his mind; for we never come along
the road but he's a-scrambling out o' the trees and brambles at the Red
Deeps."
This wide statement, by which Mrs. Pullet
represented the fact that she had twice seen Philip at the spot indicated,
produced an effect on Maggie which was all the stronger because Tom sate
opposite her, and she was intensely anxious to look indifferent. At Philip's
name she had blushed, and the blush deepened every instant from consciousness,
until the mention of the Red Deeps made her feel as if the whole secret were
betrayed, and she dared not even hold her tea-spoon lest she should show how
she trembled. She sat with her hands clasped under the table, not daring to
look round. Happily, her father was seated on the same side with herself,
beyond her uncle Pullet, and could not see her face without stooping forward.
Her mother's voice brought the first relief, turning the conversation; for Mrs.
Tulliver was always alarmed when the name of Wakem was mentioned in her
husband's presence. Gradually Maggie recovered composure enough to look up; her
eyes met Tom's, but he turned away his head immediately; and she went to bed
that night wondering if he had gathered any suspicion from her confusion.
Perhaps not; perhaps he would think it was only her alarm at her aunt's mention
of Wakem before her father; that was the interpretation her mother had put on
it. To her father, Wakem was like a disfiguring disease, of which he was
obliged to endure the consciousness, but was exasperated to have the existence
recognized by others; and no amount of sensitiveness in her about her father
could be surprising, Maggie thought.
But Tom was too keen-sighted to rest
satisfied with such an interpretation; he had seen clearly enough that there
was something distinct from anxiety about her father in Maggie's excessive
confusion. In trying to recall all the details that could give shape to his
suspicions, he remembered only lately hearing his mother scold Maggie for
walking in the Red Deeps when the ground was wet, and bringing home shoes
clogged with red soil; still Tom, retaining all his old repulsion for Philip's
deformity, shrank from attributing to his sister the probability of feeling
more than a friendly interest in such an unfortunate exception to the common
run of men. Tom's was a nature which had a sort of superstitious repugnance to
everything exceptional. A love for a deformed man would be odious in any woman,
in a sister intolerable. But if she had been carrying on any kind of
intercourse whatever with Philip, a stop must be put to it at once; she was
disobeying her father's strongest feelings and her brother's express commands,
besides compromising herself by secret meetings. He left home the next morning
in that watchful state of mind which turns the most ordinary course of things
into pregnant coincidences.
That afternoon, about half-past three
o'clock, Tom was standing on the wharf, talking with Bob Jakin about the
probability of the good ship Adelaide coming in, in a day or two, with results
highly important to both of them.
"Eh," said Bob, parenthetically,
as he looked over the fields on the other side of the river, "there goes
that crooked young Wakem. I know him or his shadder as far off as I can see
'em; I'm allays lighting on him o' that side the river."
A sudden thought seemed to have darted
through Tom's mind. "I must go, Bob," he said; "I've something
to attend to," hurrying off to the warehouse, where he left notice for
some one to take his place; he was called away home on peremptory business.
The swiftest pace and the shortest road
took him to the gate, and he was pausing to open it deliberately, that he might
walk into the house with an appearance of perfect composure, when Maggie came
out at the front door in bonnet and shawl. His conjecture was fulfilled, and he
waited for her at the gate. She started violently when she saw him.
"Tom, how is it you are come home? Is
there anything the matter?" Maggie spoke in a low, tremulous voice.
"I'm come to walk with you to the Red
Deeps, and meet Philip Wakem," said Tom, the central fold in his brow,
which had become habitual with him, deepening as he spoke.
Maggie stood helpless, pale and cold. By
some means, then, Tom knew everything. At last she said, "I'm, not
going," and turned round.
"Yes, you are; but I want to speak to
you first. Where is my father?"
"Out on horseback."
"And my mother?"
"In the yard, I think, with the
poultry."
"I can go in, then, without her
seeing me?"
They walked in together, and Tom, entering
the parlor, said to Maggie, "Come in here."
She obeyed, and he closed the door behind
her.
"Now, Maggie, tell me this instant everything
that has passed between you and Philip Wakem."
"Does my father know anything?"
said Maggie, still trembling.
"No," said Tom indignantly.
"But he shall know, if
you attempt to use deceit toward me any further."
"I don't wish to use deceit,"
said Maggie, flushing into resentment at hearing this word applied to her
conduct.
"Tell me the whole truth, then."
"Perhaps you know it."
"Never mind whether I know it or not.
Tell me exactly what has happened, or my father shall know everything."
"I tell it for my father's sake,
then."
"Yes, it becomes you to profess
affection for your father, when you have despised his strongest feelings."
"You never do wrong, Tom," said
Maggie, tauntingly.
"Not if I know it," answered
Tom, with proud sincerity.
"But I have nothing to say to you
beyond this: tell me what has passed between you and Philip Wakem. When did you
first meet him in the Red Deeps?"
"A year ago," said Maggie,
quietly. Tom's severity gave her a certain fund of defiance, and kept her sense
of error in abeyance. "You need ask me no more questions. We have been
friendly a year. We have met and walked together often. He has lent me
books."
"Is that all?" said Tom, looking
straight at her with his frown.
Maggie paused a moment; then, determined
to make an end of Tom's right to accuse her of deceit, she said haughtily:
"No, not quite all. On Saturday he
told me that he loved me. I didn't think of it before then; I had only thought
of him as an old friend."
"And you encouraged him?" said Tom, with an expression of
disgust.
"I told him that I loved him
too."
Tom was silent a few moments, looking on
the ground and frowning, with his hands in his pockets. At last he looked up
and said coldly,–
"Now, then, Maggie, there are but two
courses for you to take,–either you vow solemnly to me, with your hand on
my father's Bible, that you will never have another meeting or speak another
word in private with Philip Wakem, or you refuse, and I tell my father
everything; and this month, when by my exertions he might be made happy once
more, you will cause him the blow of knowing that you are a disobedient,
deceitful daughter, who throws away her own respectability by clandestine
meetings with the son of a man that has helped to ruin her father.
Choose!" Tom ended with cold decision, going up to the large Bible,
drawing it forward, and opening it at the fly-leaf, where the writing was.
It was a crushing alternative to Maggie.
"Tom," she said, urged out of
pride into pleading, "don't ask me that. I will promise you to give up all
intercourse with Philip, if you will let me see him once, or even only write to
him and explain everything,–to give it up as long as it would ever cause
any pain to my father. I feel something for Philip too. He is not happy."
"I don't wish to hear anything of
your feelings; I have said exactly what I mean. Choose, and quickly, lest my
mother should come in."
"If I give you my word, that will be
as strong a bond to me as if I laid my hand on the Bible. I don't require that
to bind me."
"Do what I require," said Tom. "I can't trust you,
Maggie. There is no consistency in you. Put your hand on this Bible, and say,
'I renounce all private speech and intercourse with Philip Wakem from this time
forth.' Else you will bring shame on us all, and grief on my father; and what
is the use of my exerting myself and giving up everything else for the sake of
paying my father's debts, if you are to bring madness and vexation on him, just
when he might be easy and hold up his head once more?"
"Oh, Tom, will the debts be paid soon?" said Maggie, clasping
her hands, with a sudden flash of joy across her wretchedness.
"If things turn out as I
expect," said Tom. "But," he added, his voice trembling with
indignation, "while I have been contriving and working that my father may
have some peace of mind before he dies,–working for the respectability of
our family,–you have done all you can to destroy both."
Maggie felt a deep movement of
compunction; for the moment, her mind ceased to contend against what she felt
to be cruel and unreasonable, and in her self-blame she justified her brother.
"Tom," she said in a low voice,
"it was wrong of me; but I was so lonely, and I was sorry for Philip. And
I think enmity and hatred are wicked."
"Nonsense!" said Tom. "Your
duty was clear enough. Say no more; but promise, in the words I told you."
"I must
speak to Philip once more."
"You will go with me now and speak to
him."
"I give you my word not to meet him
or write to him again without your knowledge. That is the only thing I will say.
I will put my hand on the Bible if you like."
"Say it, then."
Maggie laid her hand on the page of
manuscript and repeated the promise. Tom closed the book, and said, "Now
let us go."
Not a word was spoken as they walked
along. Maggie was suffering in anticipation of what Philip was about to suffer,
and dreading the galling words that would fall on him from Tom's lips; but she
felt it was in vain to attempt anything but submission. Tom had his terrible
clutch on her conscience and her deepest dread; she writhed under the
demonstrable truth of the character he had given to her conduct, and yet her
whole soul rebelled against it as unfair from its incompleteness. He,
meanwhile, felt the impetus of his indignation diverted toward Philip. He did
not know how much of an old boyish repulsion and of mere personal pride and
animosity was concerned in the bitter severity of the words by which he meant
to do the duty of a son and a brother. Tom was not given to inquire subtly into
his own motives any more than into other matters of an intangible kind; he was
quite sure that his own motives as well as actions were good, else he would
have had nothing to do with them.
Maggie's only hope was that something
might, for the first time, have prevented Philip from coming. Then there would
be delay,–then she might get Tom's permission to write to him. Her heart
beat with double violence when they got under the Scotch firs. It was the last
moment of suspense, she thought; Philip always met her soon after she got
beyond them. But they passed across the more open green space, and entered the
narrow bushy path by the mound. Another turning, and they came so close upon
him that both Tom and Philip stopped suddenly within a yard of each other.
There was a moment's silence, in which Philip darted a look of inquiry at
Maggie's face. He saw an answer there, in the pale, parted lips, and the
terrified tension of the large eyes. Her imagination, always rushing extravagantly
beyond an immediate impression, saw her tall, strong brother grasping the
feeble Philip bodily, crushing him and trampling on him.
"Do you call this acting the part of
a man and a gentleman, sir?" Tom said, in a voice of harsh scorn, as soon
as Philip's eyes were turned on him again.
"What do you mean?" answered
Philip, haughtily.
"Mean? Stand farther from me, lest I
should lay hands on you, and I'll tell you what I mean. I mean, taking
advantage of a young girl's foolishness and ignorance to get her to have secret
meetings with you. I mean, daring to trifle with the respectability of a family
that has a good and honest name to support."
"I deny that," interrupted
Philip, impetuously. "I could never trifle with anything that affected
your sister's happiness. She is dearer to me than she is to you; I honor her
more than you can ever honor her; I would give up my life to her."
"Don't talk high-flown nonsense to
me, sir! Do you mean to pretend that you didn't know it would be injurious to
her to meet you here week after week? Do you pretend you had any right to make
professions of love to her, even if you had been a fit husband for her, when
neither her father nor your father would ever consent to a marriage between
you? And you,–you to try and worm yourself into the
affections of a handsome girl who is not eighteen, and has been shut out from
the world by her father's misfortunes! That's your crooked notion of honor, is
it? I call it base treachery; I call it taking advantage of circumstances to
win what's too good for you,–what you'd never get by fair means."
"It is manly of you to talk in this
way to me," said Philip,
bitterly, his whole frame shaken by violent emotions. "Giants have an
immemorial right to stupidity and insolent abuse. You are incapable even of
understanding what I feel for your sister. I feel so much for her that I could
even desire to be at friendship with you."
"I should be very sorry to understand
your feelings," said Tom, with scorching contempt. "What I wish is
that you should understand me,–that
I shall take care of my
sister, and that if you dare to make the least attempt to come near her, or to
write to her, or to keep the slightest hold on her mind, your puny, miserable
body, that ought to have put some modesty into your mind, shall not protect
you. I'll thrash you; I'll hold you up to public scorn. Who wouldn't laugh at
the idea of your turning
lover to a fine girl?"
Tom and Maggie walked on in silence for
some yards. He burst out, in a convulsed voice.
"Stay, Maggie!" said Philip, making
a strong effort to speak. Then looking at Tom, "You have dragged your
sister here, I suppose, that she may stand by while you threaten and insult me.
These naturally seemed to you the right means to influence me. But you are
mistaken. Let your sister speak. If she says she is bound to give me up, I
shall abide by her wishes to the slightest word."
"It was for my father's sake,
Philip," said Maggie, imploringly. "Tom threatens to tell my father,
and he couldn't bear it; I have promised, I have vowed solemnly, that we will
not have any intercourse without my brother's knowledge."
"It is enough, Maggie. I shall not change; but I wish you to
hold yourself entirely free. But trust me; remember that I can never seek for
anything but good to what belongs to you."
"Yes," said Tom, exasperated by
this attitude of Philip's, "you can talk of seeking good for her and what
belongs to her now; did you seek her good before?"
"I did,–at some risk, perhaps.
But I wished her to have a friend for life,–who would cherish her, who
would do her more justice than a coarse and narrow-minded brother, that she has
always lavished her affections on."
"Yes, my way of befriending her is
different from yours; and I'll tell you what is my way. I'll save her from
disobeying and disgracing her father; I'll save her from throwing herself away
on you,–from making herself a laughing-stock,–from being flouted by
a man like your father,
because she's not good enough for his son. You know well enough what sort of
justice and cherishing you were preparing for her. I'm not to be imposed upon
by fine words; I can see what actions mean. Come away, Maggie."
He seized Maggie's right wrist as he
spoke, and she put out her left hand. Philip clasped it an instant, with one
eager look, and then hurried away.
Tom and Maggie walked on in silence for
some yards. He was still holding her wrist tightly, as if he were compelling a
culprit from the scene of action. At last Maggie, with a violent snatch, drew
her hand away, and her pent-up, long-gathered irritation burst into utterance.
"Don't suppose that I think you are
right, Tom, or that I bow to your will. I despise the feelings you have shown
in speaking to Philip; I detest your insulting, unmanly allusions to his
deformity. You have been reproaching other people all your life; you have been
always sure you yourself are right. It is because you have not a mind large
enough to see that there is anything better than your own conduct and your own
petty aims."
"Certainly," said Tom, coolly.
"I don't see that your conduct is better, or your aims either. If your
conduct, and Philip Wakem's conduct, has been right, why are you ashamed of its
being known? Answer me that. I know what I have aimed at in my conduct, and
I've succeeded; pray, what good has your conduct brought to you or any one
else?"
"I don't want to defend myself,"
said Maggie, still with vehemence: "I know I've been wrong,–often,
continually. But yet, sometimes when I have done wrong, it has been because I
have feelings that you would be the better for, if you had them. If you were in fault ever, if you had done
anything very wrong, I should be sorry for the pain it brought you; I should
not want punishment to be heaped on you. But you have always enjoyed punishing
me; you have always been hard and cruel to me; even when I was a little girl,
and always loved you better than any one else in the world, you would let me go
crying to bed without forgiving me. You have no pity; you have no sense of your
own imperfection and your own sins. It is a sin to be hard; it is not fitting
for a mortal, for a Christian. You are nothing but a Pharisee. You thank God
for nothing but your own virtues; you think they are great enough to win you
everything else. You have not even a vision of feelings by the side of which
your shining virtues are mere darkness!"
"Well," said Tom, with cold
scorn, "if your feelings are so much better than mine, let me see you show
them in some other way than by conduct that's likely to disgrace us
all,–than by ridiculous flights first into one extreme and then into
another. Pray, how have you shown your love, that you talk of, either to me or
my father? By disobeying and deceiving us. I have a different way of showing my
affection."
"Because you are a man, Tom, and have
power, and can do something in the world."
"Then, if you can do nothing, submit
to those that can."
"So I will submit to what I acknowledge and feel to be right. I
will submit even to what is unreasonable from my father, but I will not submit
to it from you. You boast of your virtues as if they purchased you a right to
be cruel and unmanly, as you've been to-day. Don't suppose I would give up
Philip Wakem in obedience to you. The deformity you insult would make me cling
to him and care for him the more."
"Very well; that is your view of
things." said Tom, more coldly than ever; "you need say no more to
show me what a wide distance there is between us. Let us remember that in
future, and be silent."
Tom went back to St. Ogg's, to fulfill an
appointment with his uncle Deane, and receive directions about a journey on
which he was to set out the next morning.
Maggie went up to her own room to pour out
all that indignant remonstrance, against which Tom's mind was close barred, in
bitter tears. Then, when the first burst of unsatisfied anger was gone by, came
the recollection of that quiet time before the pleasure which had ended in
to-day's misery had perturbed the clearness and simplicity of her life. She
used to think in that time that she had made great conquests, and won a lasting
stand on serene heights above worldly temptations and conflict. And here she
was down again in the thick of a hot strife with her own and others' passions.
Life was not so short, then, and perfect rest was not so near as she had
dreamed when she was two years younger. There was more struggle for her, and
perhaps more falling. If she had felt that she was entirely wrong, and that Tom
had been entirely right, she could sooner have recovered more inward harmony;
but now her penitence and submission were constantly obstructed by resentment
that would present itself to her no otherwise than as a just indignation. Her
heart bled for Philip; she went on recalling the insults that had been flung at
him with so vivid a conception of what he had felt under them, that it was
almost like a sharp bodily pain to her, making her beat the floor with her foot
and tighten her fingers on her palm.
And yet, how was it that she was now and
then conscious of a certain dim background of relief in the forced separation
from Philip? Surely it was only because the sense of a deliverance from
concealment was welcome at any cost.
Chapter VI
The Hard-Won Triumph
Three weeks later, when Dorlcote Mill was
at its prettiest moment in all the year,–the great chestnuts in blossom,
and the grass all deep and daisied,–Tom Tulliver came home to it earlier
than usual in the evening, and as he passed over the bridge, he looked with the
old deep-rooted affection at the respectable red brick house, which always
seemed cheerful and inviting outside, let the rooms be as bare and the hearts
as sad as they might inside. There is a very pleasant light in Tom's blue-gray
eyes as he glances at the house-windows; that fold in his brow never
disappears, but it is not unbecoming; it seems to imply a strength of will that
may possibly be without harshness, when the eyes and mouth have their gentlest
expression. His firm step becomes quicker, and the corners of his mouth rebel
against the compression which is meant to forbid a smile.
The eyes in the parlor were not turned
toward the bridge just then, and the group there was sitting in unexpectant
silence,–Mr. Tulliver in his arm-chair, tired with a long ride, and
ruminating with a worn look, fixed chiefly on Maggie, who was bending over her
sewing while her mother was making the tea.
They all looked up with surprise when they
heard the well-known foot.
"Why, what's up now, Tom?" said
his father. "You're a bit earlier than usual."
"Oh, there was nothing more for me to
do, so I came away. Well, mother!"
Tom went up to his mother and kissed her,
a sign of unusual good-humor with him. Hardly a word or look had passed between
him and Maggie in all the three weeks; but his usual incommunicativeness at
home prevented this from being noticeable to their parents.
"Father," said Tom, when they
had finished tea, "do you know exactly how much money there is in the tin
box?"
"Only a hundred and ninety-three
pound," said Mr. Tulliver. "You've brought less o' late; but young
fellows like to have their own way with their money. Though I didn't do as I
liked before I was of
age." He spoke with rather timid discontent.
"Are you quite sure that's the sum,
father?" said Tom. "I wish you would take the trouble to fetch the
tin box down. I think you have perhaps made a mistake."
"How should I make a mistake?"
said his father, sharply. "I've counted it often enough; but I can fetch
it, if you won't believe me."
It was always an incident Mr. Tulliver
liked, in his gloomy life, to fetch the tin box and count the money.
"Don't go out of the room,
mother," said Tom, as he saw her moving when his father was gone upstairs.
"And isn't Maggie to go?" said
Mrs. Tulliver; "because somebody must take away the things."
"Just as she likes," said Tom
indifferently.
That was a cutting word to Maggie. Her
heart had leaped with the sudden conviction that Tom was going to tell their
father the debts could be paid; and Tom would have let her be absent when that
news was told! But she carried away the tray and came back immediately. The
feeling of injury on her own behalf could not predominate at that moment.
Tom drew to the corner of the table near
his father when the tin box was set down and opened, and the red evening light
falling on them made conspicuous the worn, sour gloom of the dark-eyed father
and the suppressed joy in the face of the fair-complexioned son. The mother and
Maggie sat at the other end of the table, the one in blank patience, the other
in palpitating expectation.
Mr. Tulliver counted out the money,
setting it in order on the table, and then said, glancing sharply at Tom:
"There now! you see I was right
enough."
He paused, looking at the money with
bitter despondency.
"There's more nor three hundred
wanting; it'll be a fine while before I
can save that. Losing that forty-two pound wi' the corn was a sore job. This
world's been too many for me. It's took four year to lay this by; it's much if I'm above ground
for another four year. I must trusten to you to pay 'em," he went on, with
a trembling voice, "if you keep i' the same mind now you're coming o' age.
But you're like enough to bury me first."
He looked up in Tom's face with a
querulous desire for some assurance.
"No, father," said Tom, speaking
with energetic decision, though there was tremor discernible in his voice too,
"you will live to see the debts all paid. You shall pay them with your own
hand."
His tone implied something more than mere
hopefulness or resolution. A slight electric shock seemed to pass through Mr.
Tulliver, and he kept his eyes fixed on Tom with a look of eager inquiry, while
Maggie, unable to restrain herself, rushed to her father's side and knelt down
by him. Tom was silent a little while before he went on.
"A good while ago, my uncle Glegg
lent me a little money to trade with, and that has answered. I have three
hundred and twenty pounds in the bank."
His mother's arms were round his neck as
soon as the last words were uttered, and she said, half crying:
"Oh, my boy, I knew you'd make
iverything right again, when you got a man."
But his father was silent; the flood of
emotion hemmed in all power of speech. Both Tom and Maggie were struck with
fear lest the shock of joy might even be fatal. But the blessed relief of tears
came. The broad chest heaved, the muscles of the face gave way, and the
gray-haired man burst into loud sobs. The fit of weeping gradually subsided,
and he sat quiet, recovering the regularity of his breathing. At last he looked
up at his wife and said, in a gentle tone:
"Bessy, you must come and kiss me
now–the lad has made you amends. You'll see a bit o' comfort again,
belike."
When she had kissed him, and he had held
her hand a minute, his thoughts went back to the money.
"I wish you'd brought me the money to
look at, Tom," he said, fingering the sovereigns on the table; "I
should ha' felt surer."
"You shall see it to-morrow,
father," said Tom. "My uncle Deane has appointed the creditors to
meet to-morrow at the Golden Lion, and he has ordered a dinner for them at two
o'clock. My uncle Glegg and he will both be there. It was advertised in the
'Messenger' on Saturday."
"Then Wakem knows on't!" said
Mr. Tulliver, his eye kindling with triumphant fire. "Ah!" he went
on, with a long-drawn guttural enunciation, taking out his snuff-box, the only
luxury he had left himself, and tapping it with something of his old air of
defiance. "I'll get from under his
thumb now, though I must
leave the old mill. I thought I could ha' held out to die here–but I
can't––we've got a glass o' nothing in the house, have we,
Bessy?"
"Yes," said Mrs. Tulliver,
drawing out her much-reduced bunch of keys, "there's some brandy sister
Deane brought me when I was ill."
"Get it me, then; get it me. I feel a
bit weak."
"Tom, my lad," he said, in a
stronger voice, when he had taken some brandy-and-water, "you shall make a
speech to 'em. I'll tell 'em it's you as got the best part o' the money.
They'll see I'm honest at last, and ha' got an honest son. Ah! Wakem 'ud be
fine and glad to have a son like mine,–a fine straight
fellow,–i'stead o' that poor crooked creatur! You'll prosper i' the
world, my lad; you'll maybe see the day when Wakem and his son 'ull be a round
or two below you. You'll like enough be ta'en into partnership, as your uncle
Deane was before you,–you're in the right way for't; and then there's
nothing to hinder your getting rich. And if ever you're rich enough–mind
this–try and get th' old mill again."
Mr. Tulliver threw himself back in his
chair; his mind, which had so long been the home of nothing but bitter
discontent and foreboding, suddenly filled, by the magic of joy, with visions
of good fortune. But some subtle influence prevented him from foreseeing the
good fortune as happening to himself.
"Shake hands wi' me, my lad," he
said, suddenly putting out his hand. "It's a great thing when a man can be
proud as he's got a good son. I've had that
luck."
Tom never lived to taste another moment so
delicious as that; and Maggie couldn't help forgetting her own grievances. Tom was good; and in the sweet humility
that springs in us all in moments of true admiration and gratitude, she felt
that the faults he had to pardon in her had never been redeemed, as his faults
were. She felt no jealousy this evening that, for the first time, she seemed to
be thrown into the background in her father's mind.
There was much more talk before bedtime.
Mr. Tulliver naturally wanted to hear all the particulars of Tom's trading
adventures, and he listened with growing excitement and delight. He was curious
to know what had been said on every occasion; if possible, what had been
thought; and Bob Jakin's part in the business threw him into peculiar outbursts
of sympathy with the triumphant knowingness of that remarkable packman. Bob's
juvenile history, so far as it had come under Mr. Tulliver's knowledge, was
recalled with that sense of astonishing promise it displayed, which is
observable in all reminiscences of the childhood of great men.
It was well that there was this interest
of narrative to keep under the vague but fierce sense of triumph over Wakem,
which would otherwise have been the channel his joy would have rushed into with
dangerous force. Even as it was, that feeling from time to time gave threats of
its ultimate mastery, in sudden bursts of irrelevant exclamation.
It was long before Mr. Tulliver got to
sleep that night; and the sleep, when it came, was filled with vivid dreams. At
half-past five o'clock in the morning, when Mrs. Tulliver was already rising,
he alarmed her by starting up with a sort of smothered shout, and looking round
in a bewildered way at the walls of the bedroom.
"What's the matter, Mr.
Tulliver?" said his wife. He looked at her, still with a puzzled
expression, and said at last:
"Ah!–I was dreaming–did I
make a noise?–I thought I'd got hold of him."
Chapter VII
A Day of Reckoning
Mr. Tulliver was an essentially sober
man,–able to take his glass and not averse to it, but never exceeding the
bounds of moderation. He had naturally an active Hotspur temperament, which did
not crave liquid fire to set it aglow; his impetuosity was usually equal to an
exciting occasion without any such reinforcements; and his desire for the
brandy-and-water implied that the too sudden joy had fallen with a dangerous shock
on a frame depressed by four years of gloom and unaccustomed hard fare. But
that first doubtful tottering moment passed, he seemed to gather strength with
his gathering excitement; and the next day, when he was seated at table with
his creditors, his eye kindling and his cheek flushed with the consciousness
that he was about to make an honorable figure once more, he looked more like
the proud, confident, warm-hearted, and warm-tempered Tulliver of old times
than might have seemed possible to any one who had met him a week before,
riding along as had been his wont for the last four years since the sense of
failure and debt had been upon him,–with his head hanging down, casting
brief, unwilling looks on those who forced themselves on his notice. He made his
speech, asserting his honest principles with his old confident eagerness,
alluding to the rascals and the luck that had been against him, but that he had
triumphed over, to some extent, by hard efforts and the aid of a good son; and
winding up with the story of how Tom had got the best part of the needful
money. But the streak of irritation and hostile triumph seemed to melt for a
little while into purer fatherly pride and pleasure, when, Tom's health having
been proposed, and uncle Deane having taken occasion to say a few words of
eulogy on his general character and conduct, Tom himself got up and made the
single speech of his life. It could hardly have been briefer. He thanked the
gentlmen for the honor they had done him. He was glad that he had been able to
help his father in proving his integrity and regaining his honest name; and,
for his own part, he hoped he should never undo that work and disgrace that
name. But the applause that followed was so great, and Tom looked so
gentlemanly as well as tall and straight, that Mr. Tulliver remarked, in an
explanatory manner, to his friends on his right and left, that he had spent a
deal of money on his son's education.
The party broke up in very sober fashion
at five o'clock. Tom remained in St. Ogg's to attend to some business, and Mr.
Tulliver mounted his horse to go home, and describe the memorable things that
had been said and done, to "poor Bessy and the little wench." The air
of excitement that hung about him was but faintly due to good cheer or any
stimulus but the potent wine of triumphant joy. He did not choose any back
street to-day, but rode slowly, with uplifted head and free glances, along the
principal street all the way to the bridge.
Why did he not happen to meet Wakem? The
want of that coincidence vexed him, and set his mind at work in an irritating
way. Perhaps Wakem was gone out of town to-day on purpose to avoid seeing or
hearing anything of an honorable action which might well cause him some
unpleasant twinges. If Wakem were to meet him then, Mr. Tulliver would look
straight at him, and the rascal would perhaps be forsaken a little by his cool,
domineering impudence. He would know by and by that an honest man was not going
to serve him any longer, and
lend his honesty to fill a pocket already over-full of dishonest gains. Perhaps
the luck was beginning to turn; perhaps the Devil didn't always hold the best
cards in this world.
Simmering in this way, Mr. Tulliver
approached the yardgates of Dorlcote Mill, near enough to see a well-known
figure coming out of them on a fine black horse. They met about fifty yards
from the gates, between the great chestnuts and elms and the high bank.
"Tulliver," said Wakem,
abruptly, in a haughtier tone than usual, "what a fool's trick you
did,–spreading those hard lumps on that Far Close! I told you how it
would be; but you men never learn to farm with any method."
"Oh!" said Tulliver, suddenly
boiling up; "get somebody else to farm for you, then, as'll ask you to teach him."
"You have been drinking, I
suppose," said Wakem, really believing that this was the meaning of
Tulliver's flushed face and sparkling eyes.
"No, I've not been drinking,"
said Tulliver; "I want no drinking to help me make up my mind as I'll
serve no longer under a scoundrel."
"Very well! you may leave my premises
to-morrow, then; hold your insolent tongue and let me pass." (Tulliver was
backing his horse across the road to hem Wakem in.)
"No, I sha'n't let you pass," said Tulliver, getting fiercer.
"I shall tell you what I think of you first. You're too big a raskill to
get hanged–you're––"
"Let me pass, you ignorant brute, or
I'll ride over you."
Mr. Tulliver, spurring his horse and
raising his whip, made a rush forward; and Wakem's horse, rearing and
staggering backward, threw his rider from the saddle and sent him sideways on
the ground. Wakem had had the presence of mind to loose the bridle at once, and
as the horse only staggered a few paces and then stood still, he might have
risen and remounted without more inconvenience than a bruise and a shake. But
before he could rise, Tulliver was off his horse too. The sight of the
long-hated predominant man down, and in his power, threw him into a frenzy of
triumphant vengeance, which seemed to give him preternatural agility and
strength. He rushed on Wakem, who was in the act of trying to recover his feet,
grasped him by the left arm so as to press Wakem's whole weight on the right
arm, which rested on the ground, and flogged him fiercely across the back with
his riding-whip. Wakem shouted for help, but no help came, until a woman's
scream was heard, and the cry of "Father, father!"
Suddenly, Wakem felt, something had
arrested Mr. Tulliver's arm; for the flogging ceased, and the grasp on his own
arm was relaxed.
"Get away with you–go!"
said Tulliver, angrily. But it was not to Wakem that he spoke. Slowly the
lawyer rose, and, as he turned his head, saw that Tulliver's arms were being
held by a girl, rather by the fear of hurting the girl that clung to him with
all her young might.
"Oh, Luke–mother–come and
help Mr. Wakem!" Maggie cried, as she heard the longed-for footsteps.
"Help me on to that low horse,"
said Wakem to Luke, "then I shall perhaps manage; though–confound
it–I think this arm is sprained."
With some difficulty, Wakem was heaved on
to Tulliver's horse. Then he turned toward the miller and said, with white
rage, "You'll suffer for this, sir. Your daughter is a witness that you've
assaulted me."
"I don't care," said Mr.
Tulliver, in a thick, fierce voice; "go and show your back, and tell 'em I
thrashed you. Tell 'em I've made things a bit more even i' the world."
"Ride my horse home with me,"
said Wakem to Luke. "By the Tofton Ferry, not through the town."
"Father, come in!" said Maggie,
imploringly. Then, seeing that Wakem had ridden off, and that no further
violence was possible, she slackened her hold and burst into hysteric sobs,
while poor Mrs. Tulliver stood by in silence, quivering with fear. But Maggie
became conscious that as she was slackening her hold her father was beginning
to grasp her and lean on her. The surprise checked her sobs.
"I feel ill–faintish," he
said. "Help me in, Bessy–I'm giddy–I've a pain i' the
head."
He walked in slowly, propped by his wife
and daughter and tottered into his arm-chair. The almost purple flush had given
way to paleness, and his hand was cold.
"Hadn't we better send for the
doctor?" said Mrs. Tulliver.
He seemed to be too faint and suffering to
hear her; but presently, when she said to Maggie, "Go and seek for
somebody to fetch the doctor," he looked up at her with full
comprehension, and said, "Doctor? No–no doctor. It's my head, that's
all. Help me to bed."
Sad ending to the day that had risen on
them all like a beginning of better times! But mingled seed must bear a mingled
crop.
In half an hour after his father had lain
down Tom came home. Bob Jakin was with him, come to congratulate "the old
master," not without some excusable pride that he had had his share in
bringing about Mr. Tom's good luck; and Tom had thought his father would like
nothing better, as a finish to the day, than a talk with Bob. But now Tom could
only spend the evening in gloomy expectation of the unpleasant consequences
that must follow on this mad outbreak of his father's long-smothered hate.
After the painful news had been told, he sat in silence; he had not spirit or
inclination to tell his mother and sister anything about the dinner; they
hardly cared to ask it. Apparently the mingled thread in the web of their life
was so curiously twisted together that there could be no joy without a sorrow
coming close upon it. Tom was dejected by the thought that his exemplary effort
must always be baffled by the wrong-doing of others; Maggie was living through,
over and over again, the agony of the moment in which she had rushed to throw
herself on her father's arm, with a vague, shuddering foreboding of wretched
scenes to come. Not one of the three felt any particular alarm about Mr.
Tulliver's health; the symptoms did not recall his former dangerous attack, and
it seemed only a necessary consequence that his violent passion and effort of
strength, after many hours of unusual excitement, should have made him feel
ill. Rest would probably cure him.
Tom, tired out by his active day, fell
asleep soon, and slept soundly; it seemed to him as if he had only just come to
bed, when he waked to see his mother standing by him in the gray light of early
morning.
"My boy, you must get up this minute;
I've sent for the doctor, and your father wants you and Maggie to come to
him."
"Is he worse, mother?"
"He's been very ill all night with
his head, but he doesn't say it's worse; he only said suddenly, 'Bessy, fetch
the boy and girl. Tell 'em to make haste.'"
Maggie and Tom threw on their clothes
hastily in the chill gray light, and reached their father's room almost at the
same moment. He was watching for them with an expression of pain on his brow,
but with sharpened, anxious consciousness in his eyes. Mrs. Tulliver stood at
the foot of the bed, frightened and trembling, looking worn and aged from
disturbed rest. Maggie was at the bedside first, but her father's glance was
toward Tom, who came and stood next to her.
"Tom, my lad, it's come upon me as I
sha'n't get up again. This world's been too many for me, my lad, but you've
done what you could to make things a bit even. Shake hands wi' me again, my
lad, before I go away from you."
The father and son clasped hands and
looked at each other an instant. Then Tom said, trying to speak firmly,–
"Have you any wish, father–that
I can fulfil, when––"
"Ay, my lad–you'll try and get
the old mill back."
"Yes, father."
"And there's your mother–you'll
try and make her amends, all you can, for my bad luck–and there's the
little wench––"
The father turned his eyes on Maggie with
a still more eager look, while she, with a bursting heart, sank on her knees,
to be closer to the dear, time-worn face which had been present with her
through long years, as the sign of her deepest love and hardest trial.
"You must take care of her,
Tom–don't you fret, my wench–there'll come somebody as'll love you
and take your part–and you must be good to her, my lad. I was good to my sister. Kiss me, Maggie.–Come,
Bessy.–You'll manage to pay for a brick grave, Tom, so as your mother and
me can lie together."
He looked away from them all when he had
said this, and lay silent for some minutes, while they stood watching him, not
daring to move. The morning light was growing clearer for them, and they could
see the heaviness gathering in his face, and the dulness in his eyes. But at
last he looked toward Tom and said,–
"I had my turn–I beat him. That
was nothing but fair. I never wanted anything but what was fair."
"But, father, dear father," said
Maggie, an unspeakable anxiety predominating over her grief, "you forgive
him–you forgive every one now?"
He did not move his eyes to look at her,
but he said,–
"No, my wench. I don't forgive him.
What's forgiving to do? I can't love a raskill––"
His voice had become thicker; but he
wanted to say more, and moved his lips again and again, struggling in vain to
speak. At length the words forced their way.
"Does God forgive raskills?–but
if He does, He won't be hard wi' me."
His hands moved uneasily, as if he wanted
them to remove some obstruction that weighed upon him. Two or three times there
fell from him some broken words,–
"This world's–too
many–honest man–puzzling––"
Soon they merged into mere mutterings; the
eyes had ceased to discern; and then came the final silence.
But not of death. For an hour or more the
chest heaved, the loud, hard breathing continued, getting gradually slower, as
the cold dews gathered on the brow.
At last there was total stillness, and
poor Tulliver's dimly lighted soul had forever ceased to be vexed with the
painful riddle of this world.
Help was come now; Luke and his wife were
there, and Mr. Turnbull had arrived, too late for everything but to say,
"This is death."
Tom and Maggie went downstairs together
into the room where their father's place was empty. Their eyes turned to the
same spot, and Maggie spoke,–
"Tom, forgive me–let us always
love each other"; and they clung and wept together.
The well-furnished drawing-room, with the
open grand piano, and the pleasant outlook down a sloping garden to a
boat-house by the side of the Floss, is Mr. Deane's. The neat little lady in
mourning, whose light-brown ringlets are falling over the colored embroidery
with which her fingers are busy, is of course Lucy Deane; and the fine young
man who is leaning down from his chair to snap the scissors in the extremely
abbreviated face of the "King Charles" lying on the young lady's feet
is no other than Mr. Stephen Guest, whose diamond ring, attar of roses, and air
of nonchalant leisure, at
twelve o'clock in the day, are the graceful and odoriferous result of the
largest oil-mill and the most extensive wharf in St. Ogg's. There is an
apparent triviality in the action with the scissors, but your discernment
perceives at once that there is a design in it which makes it eminently worthy
of a large-headed, long-limbed young man; for you see that Lucy wants the
scissors, and is compelled, reluctant as she may be, to shake her ringlets
back, raise her soft hazel eyes, smile playfully down on the face that is so
very nearly on a level with her knee, and holding out her little shell-pink
palm, to say,–
"My scissors, please, if you can
renounce the great pleasure of persecuting my poor Minny."
The foolish scissors have slipped too far
over the knuckles, it seems, and Hercules holds out his entrapped fingers
hopelessly.
"Confound the scissors! The oval lies
the wrong way. Please draw them off for me."
"Draw them off with your other
hand," says Miss Lucy, roguishly.
"Oh, but that's my left hand; I'm not
left-handed."
Lucy laughs, and the scissors are drawn
off with gentle touches from tiny tips, which naturally dispose Mr. Stephen for
a repetition da capo.
Accordingly, he watches for the release of the scissors, that he may get them
into his possession again.
"No, no," said Lucy, sticking
them in her band, "you shall not have my scissors again,–you have
strained them already. Now don't set Minny growling again. Sit up and behave
properly, and then I will tell you some news."
"What is that?" said Stephen,
throwing himself back and hanging his right arm over the corner of his chair.
He might have been sitting for his portrait, which would have represented a
rather striking young man of five-and-twenty, with a square forehead, short
dark-brown hair, standing erect, with a slight wave at the end, like a thick
crop of corn, and a half-ardent, half-sarcastic glance from under his
well-marked horizontal eyebrows. "Is it very important news?"
"Yes, very. Guess."
"You are going to change Minny's
diet, and give him three ratafias soaked in a dessert-spoonful of cream
daily?"
"Quite wrong."
"Well, then, Dr. Kenn has been preaching
against buckram, and you ladies have all been sending him a roundrobin, saying,
'This is a hard doctrine; who can bear it?'"
"For shame!" said Lucy,
adjusting her little mouth gravely. "It is rather dull of you not to guess
my news, because it is about something I mentioned to you not very long
ago."
"But you have mentioned many things
to me not long ago. Does your feminine tyranny require that when you say the
thing you mean is one of several things, I should know it immediately by that
mark?"
"Yes, I know you think I am
silly."
"I think you are perfectly
charming."
"And my silliness is part of my
charm?"
"I didn't say that."
"But I know you like women to be
rather insipid. Philip Wakem betrayed you; he said so one day when you were not
here."
"Oh, I know Phil is fierce on that
point; he makes it quite a personal matter. I think he must be love-sick for
some unknown lady,–some exalted Beatrice whom he met abroad."
"By the by," said Lucy, pausing
in her work, "it has just occurred to me that I never found out whether my
cousin Maggie will object to see Philip, as her brother does. Tom will not
enter a room where Philip is, if he knows it; perhaps Maggie may be the same,
and then we sha'n't be able to sing our glees, shall we?"
"What! is your cousin coming to stay
with you?" said Stephen, with a look of slight annoyance.
"Yes; that was my news, which you
have forgotten. She's going to leave her situation, where she has been nearly
two years, poor thing,–ever since her father's death; and she will stay
with me a month or two,–many months, I hope."
"And am I bound to be pleased at that
news?"
"Oh no, not at all," said Lucy,
with a little air of pique. "I
am pleased, but that, of course, is no reason why you should be pleased. There is no girl in the world I
love so well as my cousin Maggie."
"And you will be inseparable I
suppose, when she comes. There will be no possibility of a tête-à-tête with you any more, unless
you can find an admirer for her, who will pair off with her occasionally. What
is the ground of dislike to Philip? He might have been a resource."
"It is a family quarrel with Philip's
father. There were very painful circumstances, I believe. I never quite
understood them, or knew them all. My uncle Tulliver was unfortunate and lost
all his property, and I think he considered Mr. Wakem was somehow the cause of
it. Mr. Wakem bought Dorlcote Mill, my uncle's old place, where he always
lived. You must remember my uncle Tulliver, don't you?"
"No," said Stephen, with rather
supercilious indifference. "I've always known the name, and I dare say I
knew the man by sight, apart from his name. I know half the names and faces in
the neighborhood in that detached, disjointed way."
"He was a very hot-tempered man. I
remember, when I was a little girl and used to go to see my cousins, he often
frightened me by talking as if he were angry. Papa told me there was a dreadful
quarrel, the very day before my uncle's death, between him and Mr. Wakem, but
it was hushed up. That was when you were in London. Papa says my uncle was
quite mistaken in many ways; his mind had become embittered. But Tom and Maggie
must naturally feel it very painful to be reminded of these things. They have
had so much, so very much trouble. Maggie was at school with me six years ago,
when she was fetched away because of her father's misfortunes, and she has
hardly had any pleasure since, I think. She has been in a dreary situation in a
school since uncle's death, because she is determined to be independent, and
not live with aunt Pullet; and I could hardly wish her to come to me then,
because dear mamma was ill, and everything was so sad. That is why I want her
to come to me now, and have a long, long holiday."
"Very sweet and angelic of you,"
said Stephen, looking at her with an admiring smile; "and all the more so
if she has the conversational qualities of her mother."
"Poor aunty! You are cruel to
ridicule her. She is very valuable to me,
I know. She manages the house beautifully,–much better than any stranger
would,–and she was a great comfort to me in mamma's illness."
"Yes, but in point of companionship
one would prefer that she should be represented by her brandy-cherries and
cream-cakes. I think with a shudder that her daughter will always be present in
person, and have no agreeable proxies of that kind,–a fat, blond girl,
with round blue eyes, who will stare at us silently."
"Oh yes!" exclaimed Lucy, laughing wickedly, and clapping her hands, "that is just my cousin Maggie. You must